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bixels · 1 day ago

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I may or may not now have a dogsona.

#personal #delete later #not exactly a fursona because it’s not how I’m identifying or presenting myself now #i just have a dog mode now #maybe Tulli will post they designed him #not exactly a furry either cuz it’s a dog head on a human body #so like a minotaur

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xskyll · 1 year ago

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Todoroki: Baggage? This is a topic I can talk about. My friends always stop me when I try to discuss baggage…but they aren’t here. So��

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hxhhasmysoul · 9 months ago

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wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter..#i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

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moe-broey · 2 months ago

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Doctor appointment went to go get my shots and.

A. Visual. So you know what I mean by *broadly gesturing to all of me*

^ Immune to disparaging remarks. On account of The Autism.

#sorry this is just funny to me. like oops my bad i was staring!#then i get hit w MY VERY FIRST. ACTUALLY. VERY FIRST. transphobic remark from a stranger at me #and my autistic ass just didn't even process it. already gone.#if i was ever bullied in school i simply did not notice it. this seems to remain true even now.#wait i'm remembering there was another time a woman yelled out her car window @ me but #again. i was in walking to my destination mode. also had my noise cancellers. it SEEMED rude #but i didn't even make out what she was saying. guy who is just walking to his destination.#also realizing the doodle is like. it's a self portrait just for funsies. but literally lowkey #reads like a bad faith alt right meme where it's presenting a caricature of a queer person.#you see what i lack in irl reaction time i make up for by having WAY too much awareness in a deeply online way.#i'm able to see fucked up online shithole shrimp colors and very specific christianity i was raised w shrimp colors.#that's it.#like you could def file the transphobia under either category but i'm talking like reaction time here LMFAOO #put me in a church (please don't.) and i can sniff out the double speak like a cadaver dog.#this does have the natural consequence of never being able to believe that anyone could ever actually like me as i am for who i am though.#sad!#my art

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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months ago

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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on

https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share

(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.

(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceived™️)

anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more 😂

- @bondedpairs

ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you don’t want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! we’ll all love you for it!!!

#like. i don’t know how to explain how narratively aware will smith is to me. he knows he’s being put into the codependent rookies arc.#he’s aware that zeev buium transforms into a dog. he knows that he and mack aren’t getting together because mack’s gotta work it out first.#& in a less unhinged way i simply mean that will smith has an air of both self-conscious thought & projection i think is maybe fascinating.#but not in a way in which i actually know this or think that he thinks about himself and how he comes across. he just Is Something ????#the best way i can explain is one of my alltime favorite fics i use it like a shorthand citation bc i love it so much but catchascatchcan’s #many worlds universe but specifically the second tk/pat story second person you the ouroboros spits out its tale nolan walks off screen.#like that is the kind of narrative awareness i am trying to explain that no matter where i put him will smith knows he’s inside a story but #not in a way where he’s trying to do anything to it. he’s just present there. this makes no sense to me either please understand #liv in the replies #bondedpairs #happy to have brought you something in your times of woe!!! also hope things get a little less stressful for you!! <3 #we’re 2gether p much 24/7” no go on i say in my nature documentary voice. watching them like bugs under a rock rn observing from a distance #this DID get me to actually watch the video. agreed with puckpocketed saying rich text and ur tags like. YES the daddy issues popped out.#just wants to make sure he’s having fun!! checking up!! mack the prime irritance in will’s life!! foisted off on one another w/ no choice #it’s like when your parents are friends so then you have to be friends with their kids in a way and then also like. you’re the only kids #close in age to each other but they’re NOT but it is definitely not like. i would choose you for any lifetime it is very will smith hockey #(once again) very aware he has to wait for mack to settle down. like now that i’m saying this i DO want clairvoyant will smith which is not #where it goes in the first half but just in the sense of like. those silly posts that are like ‘invested early in stock!’ & it’s a picture #of braden holtby & his beautiful bisexual wife brandi back when holts was a hipster who wore skinny scarves & now everyone thinks he’s sooo #like that but it’s will smith saying my god you are insufferable but you’ll be fantastic in five years. get in the fucking car.#(yes i am drawing extensively from the one picture where will has COMPLETELY tuned him out (there is a football reasoning reference here?#with the patriots? neonfretra drew this also but it was a tweet about the teams. there’s layers to this here ANYWAY) we’re building a life #i realize after the fact i addressed neither the dilf (gilf?) fucking here nor the content of the actual video & polycules to which i say:#brain scrampled egg. the burnsie/joe/patty/(pavs???) polycule just exists to me and the kids intersect the venn diagram but in a much #smaller portion than they intersect each other in both ways (will/mack joe/the guys)#also as for the content of the video. you’re gonna have to give me at LEAST (how long did it take me until i actually started posting tzjd?#i hate that this is my metric but it really was like. i see everyone yelling about them & i’m like ok. [please ignore the irrational hatred #i have for tz at the time it has to do with moritz seider and also whenever i see him on the ice something awakens in kill mode] and i DO #blame tzjd for my 800 drafts and it took me like. a good while before i finally went OH kay. i see it. okay i can get invested. horizon at #a 45 degree angle moon in the late waxing gibbous winds scented of orange & blowing S by SW from the vortex cycle etc etc ass conditions)

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goldengodcannibal · 4 months ago

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lol i wish i had so much weed rn

#one of our dogs just had a seizure maybe possibly? he seems fine but my mom was in catastrophic meltdown mode #and my dad turns into asshole mode because tbh he isn't the most compassionate person in times of emotional crisis #anyway i wanna get so fucking stoned i forget my name but all i have left is a joint #and im too broke for anything else right now #i despise the way drinking makes me feel after so i can't even turn to alcohol #im extremely miserable today sorry #personal

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thelastspeecher · 7 months ago

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I finally forced myself to make a very late lunch (anxiety and stress kill my appetite and I've got those in spades rn) and in the seconds I'm distracted, the young dog with no health issues sneaks off to eat the food of the elderly dog that needs a special diet and has a special supplement on said special food, all of those components expensive and specific to her needs

yeah dogs you're not really helping me out with the whole reducing stress and anxiety thing I'm trying to do today

#took a mental health day bc I've been in fight or flight mode off and on for over a day now #just. on edge. almost constantly.#that post about anxiety is being chased by tigers? yeah. yeah my brain thinks I'm being chased by tigers and I can't fucking reason with it #I desperately needed to just have a veg day where I focus on myself #...and tbh it probably wouldn't be safe for me to be driving feeling like I'm about to be attacked.#(and I would have to drive roughly an hour to a site and then an hour back today for work)#so. mental health day so the tigers stop chasing me.#this morning was great the puppers and I just chilled in the living room for hours while I finished off the Underland Chronicles #but I took them outside and decided I should force myself to eat something and then it all went to shit.#anyways the naughty one has been kenneled for her crime #and the vet has been called and this single instance should be fine but multiple times wouldn't be good #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fucking dogs delayed my lunch and now it's 2 o'clock great #whine whine whine

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rigginsstreet · 1 year ago

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my dog is just like me fr; spiteful, aggressive, demands attention, prone to car sickness

#the way she will take a piss or shit in a difficult place if you tell her she cant have/do something....#and just like stare at you while shes doing it lmfao #thats my girl #and she gets so mad if you ignore her #she will bite the shit out of you when playing like #shes got her softer playful bite which is still enough to scratch but theres been a couple times we've gotten her at the wrong moment #and she breaks skin #and you know what thats her right. our bad for fucking with her playing time #though admittedly sometimes she goes into attack mode for no reason like girl calm down #i sound like a terrible dog owner i promise shes only like this to us lmao #around strangers shes curious and will jump on them but like shes not biting #i also dont let her get too close to strangers just in case lmao #but as of now on walks she's been fine. the most she does is bark at people #and like... girl me too

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tjerra14 · 2 months ago

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Sunday afternoon breakdown let's go

#suppose i did everything right this weekend #if my brain decided it was okay to leave emergency numb mode and progress to the processing stage #suspected that this was what was going on #since i've mostly just feeling incredibly tired but not much else since the dog died #and i guess it was necessary to get through the week?#but now it all comes out #oh well. i do have enough tissues so there's that #personal

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fingertipsmp3 · 3 months ago

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I really need a therapist that’s okay with the fact that I’m basically not a good person

#i feel like every counsellor i’ve had has been focused on trying to make me better #which… okay now that i’ve said it of course that makes sense. i was there to get better #but i mean it’s like… they don’t JUST want me less insane. they also want me to be a better person #which i GET and i’ll do certain parts of it but i mean. there’s a certain point where i’m just not living my truth anymore #like i’d foster a hundred dogs and start wearing grass shoes to help save the planet #but if you ask me to stay positive and channel my anger into something creative and to hold my peace when something pisses me off #telling me to have nice thoughts? telling me not talk shit? impossible #if i see bullshit happening before me; i will think ‘that’s fucked up’ and i will ask if anyone else saw it!#i really need someone to rant to who isn’t going to try to make it into a productive reflective time #let me essentially sit in your room and scream and swear and be irrational and DON’T point out how wrong i am #or how i need to get out of certain patterns of thinking. i already know and i DON’T need to hear it again #we’ll do that another time. for now you just need to let me go banshee mode until i’ve got it all out #i really need banshee mode sessions and personal development sessions to be spread the fuck out #personal

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puppyspiss · 3 months ago

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I wish love like you hear about in songs exsisted.

#pj barks #sorry y'all i'm depressed as fuck and i'm so scared all the time and i've been so terrified all the time for over a year now and I just #am so fucking alone I don't have anyone #i don't have one single person #bc everyone in my life is in crisis or survival mode and I can't #I can not lean on any of them I have tried and I can't #there's nothing there #and they all have other people #but I don't #I don't have anyone else #just these people who can't help or support me in any way not even emotionally #so I just #am not okay #anyways I deleted my last kink blog bc I wanted to kill myself but promised my partner I wouldn't #it flet good for a little #can't promise I won't delete this one later #right now it's nothing #anyways i'm not even a real person #i'm a dog maybe #there's something wrong with me that keeps me from being real #from being wrothy of love and care and support #I know this bc it's been like this my whole life

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chaos-coming · 7 months ago

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I have completely fallen off my routine for the last five days including the gym and my body is Protesting

But i genuinely do not have the capacity to get on the train and go to the gym rn and if i work out here the dog will jump on me

Three more days of this then i can get my routine back

#i love dogs but this one is a little Much #and i was low on spoons at the start so now im just in Stuck in the House mode #i dont wanna say i regret agreeing to dogsit but this is genuinely A Lot #and having my friend stay with me was nice but back to back kind of wrecked my routine #and im starting to realize how much my nd ass needs my routines #im having more coffee to cope (probably a bad idea but idc)

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eigengrauone · 8 months ago

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not only did I just have a really weird and depressing dream, I only slept for an hour and a half. wadda hell :(

#it was a dream that I was sleeping in the basement of my house (I already sleep in there actually but it was an older version)#and there was a bear in there for some reason? and initially it wouldn’t let us (me and my sister I think? and maybe my dad.)#(even tho this is my moms house. Ok)#I think maybe this was actually a forest outside. the bear doesn’t let us leave. and then we go back in time to when #the bear doesn’t attack us and it’s just my sister and I in the basement. where the bear also is #Yknow dream logic #well anyways the sad part is that I start going through this older version of the basement and start crying because of all the old stuff #which good thing the stuff was made up for the dream and was dream logiced into being familiar otherwise it’d be worse #and then the dogs we do have and a dog we don’t have anymore showed up (he’s not dead we just don’t have him anymore)#which was sad but he also peed on the floor immediately which. yea #then I woke up #obviously it was more depressing in the dream and the more awake I become I’ll forget and become relieved it was actually ridiculous #but now I’m not gonna sleep for the next six hours and still fuck up my sleep schedule. damn it #anyways. hope these tags stay in the preview mode for everyone sorry this is so damn long for no reason

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iesuroo · 8 months ago

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I feel like I over did it today. Like chores are caught up and I took care of myself and created art. But then I got a text message from my bio dad's friend saying I should call him once a month (he recently got hospitalized due to a seizure but he recovered and is doing better) and I'd love to call him but my brain feels like mush and it just feels like one more thing I have to do among the piles of things I already have to do. My sister yesterday also messaged me asking if I was mad at her cause I hasnt message her recently and I had to tell her no I'm not mad just can't socialize right now. I feel like I can't do the same amount as I used to and thinking is hard. I feel like as I get older my autism gets worse too. Like people keep asking me things and I cannot answer because I cannot think. I don't even daydream a lot anymore my brain just feels static and then sometimes thoughts happen like right now.

I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I eat healthy, drink water and get electrolytes, take all my supplements, sleep good. Why does it feel like nothing is working and my brain is melting. I don't feel depressed anymore today I just feel exhausted and brain dead.

#personal #autism #am i in survival mode?#ive been in a safe environment for 2 years with my husband #am i so safe my body and brain are trying to feel like i have my whole life but worse?#im doing all the things im supposed to but i still feel like im drowing #also i pulled off my bedding this morning with the plans to wash them now its bed time and i have to wait till i wash everything #also also my dog peed all down the hallway as i was actively walking to go take him outside which i do as soon as he tells me he has to go #had to get my husband to to help me so i didnt lose my shit #sorry for venting so much im just really isolated and alone and dont really wanna burden the people around me with things that they #cant help me with

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waywardsalt · 9 months ago

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mmmmm

#thinking abt… post ph… linebeck having rough days and the others helping…#like the others have rough days too (except bellum he feels little to no guilt or regret) its just like. linebecks tends to directly impact #his ability to function; one of them coaxes him out of bed and helps him get breakfast he helps whoever is mopping the deck for the morning #with damien its just. jokey talk n liiight flirting. he mostly just vents at bellum and they discuss his issues. he n link talk abt anythin #bellum and damien help him with food and link is the best at doing little things like puzzles and card games with him #its. not depression. know that whenever i write him i never intend to give him depressions. this is more him adjusting to like #no longer being perpetually in survival mode. and also adjusting to having his trauma processed. big life shift #in a weird way post-ph is a linebeck coming of age atory. works out hes p young in post-ph n all that #link is the best for getting his mind off of things- to a degree link gets him and despite damien knowing him the longest #and bellum knowing him more intimately link is the one who got close to him as he is now so they do have that bond. also link saved his lif #on those days he can generally operate as captain just with some trouble stringing thoughts together + fatigue and overall anxiety #sex is a no go bc on bad days hes more easily triggered so thats avoided no back hugs no dogs but maybe a lil exposure to the latter two #when his and links bad days overlap they just decide to anchor at the nearest island and check it out. get out there go do stuff #link writes letters to familyn friends and keeps busy and linebeck gets more talkative to air out his issues n identify why he feels bad #bellum helps him with his eating issues bc he kinda just knows to chill next to him n talk with him abt it. he doesnt get as openly worried #linebeck gets bad days usually after nightmares or after having several brushes with stuff that reminds him of his trauma #he has midday periods of Bad Feeling but its usually just an anxiety attack or smth #cats are always good on these days. if they find cats for him to chill with he usually cries. he cries more on bad days and its a good thin

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eithernich · 9 months ago

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#i have been sick as a dog since i woke up and am just now somewhat morphing back into a person. i think #i was in robert california hangover mode for a while there #waking up and seeing ***** ******* ** ******** had a particular curative effect though . . . . . . .#by the way this is inarguably the sexiest chet baker's voice ever sounded #i have probably said this about 15 other songs of his #Spotify

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