mikayla never thought she'd be pathetic enough to spend seemingly every waking second thinking about a girl, but that's how she got through all her years in confinement, thinking about tai. just like out in the wilderness, it was her only coping mechanism, the only way to make it through the day, because without it, she was hopeless. there was a part of her that expected tai to be waiting for her the day she got out, but instead, to her annoyance, it had been misty, for whatever fucking reason. she accepted it, because it's not like she had any other ride, telling herself she'd look for tai after — until misty started rattling off how everyone else was doing, most of which mikayla drowned out, but of course, she listened when she got to taissa. (which she did last, probably because she knew mikayla wouldn't give a fuck about anything else after that.) and hearing about everything she'd already gotten accomplished, she changed her mind, because she didn't want to ruin it, didn't want to be some obstacle. and so she didn't look for her.
she'd convinced herself that if tai wanted to talk to her, she'd reach out, and so she waited, but days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months, and somewhere in between, she realized that she wasn't coming, that their love was just as dead as their friends. and it fucking hurt, knowing that the memories she clung so desperately to for years were just that — memories, nothing else. as time went on, she convinced herself it was fine, that the massive hole in her chest was just something she'd learn to live with, another shitty thing on top of everything else. she was fine, mostly, as long as the women she distracted herself with looked and acted absolutely nothing like tai, as long as she didn't let herself think about anything for too long, as long as she reminded herself that she spent the first part of her life completely alone, so she should be used to this.
and then fucking misty called, over a year later, and in her desperation to keep mikayla on the phone, told her that tai was engaged. she was fine until she wasn't, until something inside her fucking snapped. her reaction could only be described as a tantrum, smashing her phone and throwing things until all of her dishes were just as broken as her heart, and in the silence that came after, in the middle of the wreckage, she decided to see her. when misty shared her address, mikayla hadn't written it down, hadn't planned on needing it, but it was ingrained in her brain anyway, and then mikayla found herself here, on tai's doorstep for the first time in seven years, overcome with rage and longing and desperation.
when @ladyintree opens the door, suddenly mikayla's eighteen years old again, her mouth dry, hands shaking, butterflies erupting in her stomach. briefly, she forgets why she came in the first place, forgets the years they spent without each other. instinctually, she wants to reach for her, her fingers twitching with the need, but then she sees the ring, and it's a punch to the gut, all her nerves replaced by anger. it's unfair, maybe, because she couldn't have expected tai to wait all those years, but a part of her felt like there had to be a reason they survived, that the wilderness kept them together because they were supposed to be. but apparently, she was the only one.
she doesn't know how to begin, if she's supposed to say hi, but she decides to cut straight to the point. “ is she the reason you didn't give a shit when i got out? ”
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Well ok you asked for explaining so I'm so sorry about the rant that's bound to happen I have beef with this woman like many many MANY homeschool co-op mothers I would like to meet her IN THE PIT
uh I guess trigger warning possibly would be like food diets and possibly eating disorders I'm not sure but I would rather be safe then accidentally harm you friend?
my mother was a crunchy homeschool nutter and her entire social group was crazy homeschool mom cultists.They were all obsessed with clean godly eating and losing weight they constantly kept repeating that they needed to treat their bodies like temples and it really wasn't healthy or good for so many reasons.
well one of the women in that group for as long as i can remember (I've know this lady since I was a lil kid) she believes it's impossible for European women to get fat because of *spins the wheel*
She just has some fucked up made up facts about Europe in general like WARNING SHE'S ACTUALLY ON PURPOSE STUPID
like she has for as long as I can remember believed with E V E R Y FIBER in her body (i have argued so much with her she will not budge in her world this is fact) no one once they hit preteens in france eats bread.
France home of the croissant, baguette and many other carbs bready bakery wonders...
Yeah no one there eats bread that is why French women are so thin and healthy they don't eat bread or any kind of sweets! (She and my mom then tried to make me do that for a bit they were always "suggesting" diets on me it sucked in expecting the thm diet and the melted butter+coffee+ apple cider vinegar diet to have fucked up my body somehow)
Apartly in her world no one in Ireland uses any kind of fat when I asked her to explain wtf that meant she said no one in Ireland uses oil or butter which like..
No that makes no sense where did she even come up with that?!I
Once I took a picture of like some fancy imported butter from Ireland at the store to show her and she and the other moms all straight up walked away and would not look at it. They would not talk to me kept actually doin the "talk to the hand" thing and covering their ears and telling me I'm wrong and stupid and to shut up they will not look at the evidence.
This woman is in her late forties to early fifties she has convinced half the homeschool mother cult that no one in France eats bread with no evidence other then she said so!!!!!
They honest to God believe it also!!!!
Recently she was trying to tell me that no one in the UK eats chicken that it's "looked down on as a disgusting poor man's food" she just went on n on on this long crazy rant that made no sense at all but she acted like she was very intelligent and cultured for knowing this.
My best friend and wife is from the UK and frankly i quickly asked them and they were able to point out this lady is just batshit insane.
Like my wife mentioned there's Nandos everywhere in the UK and that serves chicken mainly I have no clue where she's getting her info or ideas.
She got super angry amd defensive and has gone off saying she has two sources "two very reliable very real and very British people who totally aren't made up there her real Facebook friends that told her yup no one in the uk eats chicken only the USA makes fried chicken poor England is missing out on chicken because they're a bunch of snobs who think it's poor people food" so that's what she believes despite a lot of common sense and evidence to prove otherwise but "how dare I question an elder?!'
I really can't explain it like there's no logic or facts in it I myself don't understand it? I have gotten into many fights with this women.
So many fight
so so so many fights
Stupid amounts of fights
not just over this but like over everything under the sun I swear this woman is living a different reality then everyone else.
she just makes stuff up on a fly and then somehow convinces herself and like a dozen other women in they're 40s-50s that everyone in Europe is significantly skinner because they just happen to not eat the food that one lady dislikes...
like I can't really explain more then that this woman has no evidence, refuses to listen to evidence and has the firmest faith in stupidity I've ever seen it's truly kinda terrifying i wish i had her self confidence but also just wow....
I don't think that she's normal I think a lot of American children do actually learn about other countries? I learned about other countries when I was really young my mom would focus on one a month and then I'd have to do a lil presentation at the end of the month in front of my grandad and we'd cook a meal with some traditional foods from there if possible I had a lot of fun learning recipes from all over the world and we'd get a monthly cd with music from all over the world it was so cool! one of my favorite games when I was little with my grandad was he'd spin the globe point at random n then i had to say thw county, the capital, a famous food item from there and one history fact is famous person if I knew one and it was SO MUCH FUN!!!
maybe it's a new homeschool thing or a church thing or maybe this lady is just straight up purposely stupid I'm not sure? I have no fuckin clue this woman is insane I avoid her every chance I can.
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