#i just don’t care if i fail i fail
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yall when i saw this was going to be the worst trash it’s The Worst Trash i a) fully didn’t do the 3d like i just gave up & b) turned in my sections like this
#stream#ALSKALSKALSKALKALJSLAJDLAKDLAKSLA#i can’t stop fucking LAUGHING YALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL#i just#i can’t BREATHE#it’s so fucking FUNNY#can u IMAGIE. what the marker is going to be looking at it like like 😦🫢#this shit was soooooo baddddd LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#i just …… like i still haven’t slept like i slept maybe 2hrs but then ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAJSLAKSLAJ#i’ve just given up#i just don’t care if i fail i fail#at this point it’s just ‘give me pity points yall 😭😭 i turned it in’#& let’s be fuckin REAL that’s the best these mfs taught like if we goin on SKILLS LEAREND#THATS IT#YALL SHOULD DIE
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Creating my own tag game cause I can
Say one thing that is not your main fandom that you could rant about for hours then tag mutuals you wanna get to know <33
I personally could talk about generational differences along with sibling roles and dynamics for ever it fascinates me
Your turn!: @little-doggy-girl-collar @fatallyaddictedtofiction @roseandgold137 @sad-girl-shit11 @starchasing-cryptid @6kate1bishop6 @10dunksfansinatrenchcoat @biterflies @aliteralchicken @transgnckon @annah-kitathryne @masterofthew1cket @rootbeerrex and anyone else who sees this <3
#this could fail spectacularly#but as long as like three of my mutuals respond I don’t care#I just wanna know what y’all love
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU
i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo
(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)
ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3
#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep#no braincell rn#goodbye it is wine time#hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you#just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc#god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW#art2 and craft2#dnp#phanart#dan and phil#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#phinktober#punk edits irl come back to me please#i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin#idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO#actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc#OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME#good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i’m not retyping all of that#now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life
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yapping about Briar. fellow Briar enjoyers assemble.
okay okay i don’t make it too obvious (or maybe i do, i wouldn’t know) but briar is my personal favorite character. i think about where the stories of all the characters would go and what their arcs would be a lot, but hers in particular is really important to me.
so i wanna talk about it.
first of all, she’s narcoleptic coded, right. we all know that. but her mom on the other hand reads to me, like, an alcoholic mother? and her dad is just willfully ignorant. either way, there’s a huge sense of neglect going on in that family. i mean go figure why briar would be the one doing most of the work raising her brothers. and of course she’s a party girl, because who’s gonna stop her? her parents? see yeah exactly.
so i don’t think it’s unreasonable to say she doesn’t have very strong parental figures in her life, at least not at home. but, and now you have to really hear me out about this one, i think baba yaga could take up a parental role in her life.
i know it isn’t much, but the seeds for her having at least a hint of a connection with baba yaga are there.
in the webisode “Stark Raven Mad”, baba yaga scolds briar for rambling about her party, and then as the commotion picks up she’s still exercising authority over briar in particular.
then there’s thronecoming, wherein, when briar is sulking at the dance, upon noticing the picture on the projector, she asks baba yaga for answers, who provides them.
and then skipping all the way to epic winter, after the girls become a little creeped out by her mannerisms and book it, briar is the one who makes sure to peak back in and give a parting remark.
so i think there’s potential there to be explored. her feeling neglected at home and then finding solace in another adult at school would be neat.
but the fact that it’s baba yaga is important, so just put a pin in that and we’ll circle back to it.
now, i think out of the core four, she was (at least at first) the hardest to actually pin-point what the future of her story could look like. with raven, i think it’s pretty clear her journey is just continuing to combat the prejudices of the world as she fights for change, apple is now pretty much on a path to figuring out her own future as ruler of a kingdom and what that’s going to entail, and maddie is the goofball that’s there to have fun and be supportive along the way.
then there’s briar. and, let me be clear, no, in my mind that girl is not sleeping for 100 years with where things are heading; in the main universe of the story, briar will be free of the sleeping beauty destiny.
but it’s like, if she’s not gonna sleep, what more is there to actually do with her? what direction COULD her life go in? because if she’s no longer fated to sleep 100 years of her life away, then she can’t just party like there’s no tomorrow anymore. she’d need to decide what she actually wants to do with her life.
and i think i have an idea.
i mentioned her narcoleptic coding at the start with intent to bring it up again. see, you might notice that a lot of the fairytale aspects of ever after high can be read as allegories for real-world problems. for example, hunter and ashlynn’s relationship is treated in their world the same way society may look at queer couples or biracial couples. or how raven’s mom being trapped in a mirror is their world equivalent to not paying child support.
with that kind of correlation in mind, i think treating briar’s curse as a condition could open up an interesting opportunity. i think, in their world, curses as a whole could be viewed as a separate branch of medical specialization, with briar spearheading this notion of thought.
we know briar is well-versed in chemythstry already. in the webisode “Briar’s Study Party” she makes note of the fact that she’s been studying forever-after, and she demonstrates enough knowledge in the subject to enthusiastically teach it to her friends, who all end up acing their tests on it as a result.
i think this is something she could potentially make a career out of. i think she could come to the conclusion that she wants to be able to help break curses for people everywhere, and could pursue learning to develop potions and elixirs to do so.
which could happen under baba yaga’s tutelage.
picture this: briar declares her newfound goal, to which baba yaga offers to teach briar all she knows in order to achieve what she’s set her sights on. briar—with an ounce of hesitance—accepts, and baba yaga officially takes her under her wing with the intent of mastering sorcery.
obviously, she wouldn’t lose who she is in this. she’s still gonna be an impulsive, adrenaline junkie who desperately needs a screentime limit on her mirrorphone. but in this process, she’d be rounded out by baba yaga and would in turn mature a bit from the experience. she’d get serious about life, but she wouldn’t let go of who she is at heart.
this could lead to her becoming the resourceful one in the main group. like on adventures, she’d be able to pull out a potion or whip something up (because i’m not going to let raven’s magic make her too o.p. she’s gotta have limitations) as a solution to problems. she could really have a role that proves useful and important to the story.
that’s my ideal pitch for where to take briar’s character.
#i’ll die on this hill#baba yaga being a parental figure to briar is so important to me#like yes i made that all up in my head#but you have to admit it’s such a good delusion to have#and i’m just very passionate about briar taking up this field of study for her goals in life#mattel you may have failed briar beauty but i won’t.#eah#ever after high#briar beauty#baba yaga eah#madam yaga#raven queen#apple white#maddie hatter#eah core four#that’s not even a tag#like no one even uses that#but i don’t care#ever after high thronecoming#thronecoming#ever after high epic winter#epic winter#eah thronecoming#eah epic winter#ramble#duncontent
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Hmmm thinking about writing and how hard it is
I feel like for how long it takes me to write one chapter I can use that same energy to make like 10 art pieces
I’m wondering if it’s even worth it
Like I enjoy writing but it just takes so much of my time
Should I just stop and only do art?
#it’s a rhetorical question btw#just thinking to myself rn#thoughts#I guess that’s why I like comics it’s a good mix of the two#but yeah idk I’ve been trying to get this chapter done for a long while now#and I know only a few people care about it and most people would prefer I just focus on art#idk its just been killing my motivation#I guess it’s better to think that most people don’t like it cause it’s a niche idea with weird ships and an oc#rather than the truth which is that it’s not that good#I make art to convince people of an idea or concept#and idk I just feel like sometimes I just fail with writing
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I guess I find the shipping discourse a little funny because fandoms are gonna create ships regardless of the subject matter. I think really heavy, depressing media creates a need for people to see human connection. It’s like a way to cope, you know? More importantly and specific to this game (Mouthwashing), I also find it a little funny just because the devs themselves seem to be leaning towards ~one~ “ship” by retweeting artwork that depicts them as pretty close and protective. They even did an edit of them on that Florence Pugh and that one white guy romance movie with a “what could have been” caption. Sooo tldr the ship drama is kind of dumb. Please block and move on cause the discourse is taking up space on my feed when I’m trying to look for more art of Daisuke lmao
#also disclaimer I don’t ship anything in this game because it makes me too depressed hahaha#I guesssssss you could say I leave towards Anya and Curly but that’s just because they’re my favs#plus I got a gen vibe that they liked each other so I kind of just assumed but whatever#I like that they find comfort in each other more than anything (at least in my head post crash)#if that makes sense? so don’t come for me lol cause some of yall are mean#I know he failed her so so so so badly but that’s kind of what makes their comfort and care for one another interesting you know?#idk how to explain it#it’s like the one sweet thing that continues throughout the narrative all the way to Anya’s suicide#where she locks them in together to keep them both safe from Jimmy#I’m high so pls excuse me as I make no sense actually#this is about#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#people who ship Jimmy x curly are another breed though lmaoooo yall are on something stronger than anyone else😭😭😭
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hey btw y’all, just wanna let y’all know that the most heart melting, almost made me cry, in-the-running-for-favorite moment of the season has 100% been the immediate “i give her the help action” to lydia barkrock with absolutely zero hesitation from kristen
#she cares about everyone so much all the time!!!!#and she simply doesn’t show it in conventional ways!!#BECAUSE SHES NEURODIVERGENT!!!#so she tries to help people and tries to do what she has to do and also things she WANTS to do and fails SO OFTEN#but she is at a disadvantage and doesn’t even realize ittttt!!!!!#and she doesn’t have the tools to help her succeed!!!!#:((((#like give that girl some fantasy adderall PLSSS#IM BEGGING YOU BLEEM AND ALLY#DONT LET HER DO TO HERSELF WHAT I DID TO MYSELF IN HS#cause i see me in her and i so much so don’t know how to be normal abt it#she just like me fr#dimension 20#dimension 20 fantasy high#dimension twenty fantasy high#d20 fantasy high#dimension 20 fantasy high junior year#d20 fhjy#dimension 20 fhjy#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#kristen applebees#lydia barkrock#adhd#adhd posting#ally beardsley#bleem#brennan lee mulligan#queue are... my fire. the one... desire.
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feeling an increasing urge to write a Raph’zel fic
#like I don’t even know what it is but I need it#they don’t even have to fuck. I just want to see them interact#Raphael playing 4D chess like usual it just not working at all because Lae’zel is too Lae’zel to even get it nor care for it#Lae’zel would just not fall for his bs and she’d insult him to his face without blinking#I need to see her point out that he’ll be useless in a battle and Raph telling her about his days in the blood war#him getting so defensive about it that he just straight up poofs into existence with a sword and armor to prove her wrong-#-after one insult too many#gith and devils are also both lawful evil races#I need it#hellish bard tries to seduce and impress alien frog woman and fails miserably every step of the way
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if I had a nickel for every time I was in a fandom and a child character had a breakdown and did something that accidentally hurt another character, and then the fandom all turned on the character and vilified them because they [the fandom] can’t understand that sometimes 14 year olds make mistakes when they’re going through something traumatic, I would have 2 nickels
not a lot but it really is weird it happened twice
#This is targeted at anyone who vilifies Gon from hxh or Homura from pmmm#”Gon was manipulative towards Killua and took advantage of him” shut up shut the fuck up#”Homura never actually cared about any of the other girls she only cared about Madoka” never touch the internet ever again you absolute idi#I’m sorry that some of you incells can’t understand moral complexity or that characters can’t always be 100% good all the time#they were kids#they were only 14#At the same time saying stuff like this is actively undermining both Gon and Homuras characters but also Killua and Madokas as well#Killua and Gons friendship was kinda toxic from the beginning. They were each others first ever friends#and they didn’t really know how to have any#Gon was literally having a mental breakdown confronting the person who killed the closest thing he had ever had to a father#can you really blame him for lashing out???#And Homura#don’t get me started on the amount of idiots in the pmmm fandom who think she’s evil because he did what she thought was best for Madoka#she heard Madoka say she was unhappy being a god and how lonely she was and she took action#if she didn’t care about the other girls then WHY DID THE CLARA DOLLA DRAG THEM INTO HER LABYRINTH???#WHY DID SHE MAKE SURE THEY WERE ALL HAPPY WHEN SHE REWROTE THE UNIVERSE??#she tried for years to save Madoka just to fail when she made her final wish to become a god#imagine how she felt when she realized she wasn’t happy with that outcome either#when she realized she was all alone#she just wanted for her to be happy.#i swear to god#if you think either Gon or Homura are evil you might as well just block me now#because I fully believe you should not be allowed internet access#rant#rant post#pmmm#madoka magica#homura akemi#puella magi madoka magica#madoka kamane
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Hey guys
(Please reblog, reblogs actually help posts circulate and reach more people)
((And I also worked really hard on this and would like to get more than ten likes and one reblog 😭😭))
#loser’s liddol rambles#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#cookie run: kingdom#crk#cr kingdom#burning spice cookie#burning spice crk#loser’s edits#my edit#capcut#please for the love of god reblog this#I don’t care if my banner edits or memes fail but THIS?#I learned how to use CAPCUT for this. I spent like an hour doing my best on this.#please . just give me more than 10 likes
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Hello Mr Rat 🐀
Tell me (if you'd like to) about a story idea you haven't acted on yet? :3
I’d really like to write a chreon fic, like a raccoon city if it didn’t go to shit au™️ where Leon is a trans man, and moved there to get away from his small town and doesn’t plan on telling anyone he’s trans/he lives stealth etc. And then he and Chris meet and kinda hit it off, and Chris kinda makes his feelings known, but Leon doesn’t act on it bc Chris doesn’t know he’s trans. So Chris presumes he fucked up a bit and that Leon isn’t interested, but in reality Leon is just scared to come out to him and is very interested
Though I’d want it to be multichapter and slow burn? Because most trans Leon fics are one shots of him getting railed, and that’s fine I like smutty one shots as much as the next guy, but I think it would be nice to have something that’s longer? Though obviously it will contain smut bc it’s me writing it lol, but it would be nice to have it be multichapter and have plot, yknow?
That’s what has been on my mind on and off since the start of the year anyway lol
Thank you for asking :D
#I don’t want it to sound like I’m shitting on smutty one shots of trans leon btw#on a personal note a lot of them have made me feel better about myself#I just remember the anxiety of people being interested in me when they thought I was a cis man#and worrying about how to tell them#(most people did not care btw)#but idk would be fun to convert that into a fic hxhdhdh#rat stop using personal life experience in fics challenge: failed#ANYWAY thank you for the ask!!!#my asks
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i do still think datv feels very … disconnected from the previous trilogy, and that parts of it don’t really Feel like dragon age to me. that being said, i’m still having a fun time
#txt#sophie plays datv#datv spoilers#i kind of went into the game expecting this though after reading reviews#i still think BioWare really failed with not having a world state import#datv definitely suffers from not having those little callbacks from previous games that made the others feel connected#i also agree with what a few people have said about the accents being all over the place for each region#i think all the new factions and regions and things aren’t helping either#because they’re new and don’t feel the same as previous games - and there’s no little threads of familiarity to help with that#and a lot of these places have been so hyped for 10+ years that they inevitably probably don’t feel as good as i expected them to#all that being said I am still having fun though#despite the hand-holdy storytelling and disconnectedness#I can just tell that datv won’t be my fave instalment in the series tho rip#oh another gripe i have is that rook really has no personal investment in the main storyline#like??? why should they care???#every previous protag has been intrinsically connected to what’s going on#rook just feels like a random picked off the street to save the world#it all feels a little impersonal to me but whatever
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Franziska’s insistence on perfection is an attempt to live up to her father’s legacy despite that legacy being built on lies and ruining countless lives including that of the person Franziska loves most. Accepting that she is not and cannot be perfect is a major step in her development into not only a better person but a happier one. And despite all of this, every time she declares her own perfection my immediate impulse is to agree with her
#ace attorney#yes she kind of sucks especially at first. that’s the point#I wish the investigations games ever went into half the things they do to her#but then completely failing to engage with her emotions makes it an accurate miles edgeworth simulator#I get that you’re not in a great place yourself post jfa but come on#‘my father just got convicted of murder and probably executed and I don’t know how to be anything but what he made me#I will never be good enough for anyone else and I’m terrified the last person I care about will leave me behind too’#‘you should be scared and I will absolutely do that if you don’t redouble your efforts at this impossible goal. seeya’#I love Edgeworth and I get what he was trying to do but. come on#and then he does it in investigations 2! he told her that they would stay together as long as they were both prosecutors and then he stopped#and it wasn’t about her but maybe that’s worse#she uprooted her entire life and went to another country to try to send a message that she loved him#he couldn’t even keep doing the thing he had been doing for years#(yes this is a wildly selfish way of framing it. she’s literally 19)#all of this is to say: man.#franziska von karma#she’s so pretty but at what cost
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cause like there’s something screwy with my brain or whatever that makes dying in a game scary, to the point that i can’t even proceed far enough in botw to figure out how to handle my first guardian, and i have a long list of games that i own and haven’t played more than an hour of because i just really don’t like dying! and i just want to know how get over that hurdle.
#please reblog and/or leave advise on how to not care about getting killed in video games#if i could get past my fear of fictionally dying i could accomplish so many things#i think it’s like#people who are ice skating who have to learn how to fall#but the act of falling on purpose is still extremely fraught#let’s be real it’s also a very real fear of Failure#TERRIFIED of failing.#i’m insecure and so i hate taking risks and so i fail inherently because i can’t rise to the challenge#this isn’t just about video games#it’s about art and jobs and taking control of my life#i’m scared of being unable to meet the conditions necessary and so i don’t even try#but what if i could begin to try starting with just one little thing?
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crying breakdown at 1 am. what else is new
#i’m just so stressed by everything in life rn i feel like i’m gonna crumple#what the fuckkk i hate this#i have rehearsals until 5 and i don’t get home until 6#but if i fail a class i can’t be apart of hadestown any more#but i barely have any fucking time to do any work or homework or missing work#and no one fucking cares#i just feel like i’m collapsing and everything is falling apart and i’m so stressed about college i don’t know what to do
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