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Mantis Blades!
#cyberpunk 2077#mantis blades are my fav but they inspire a spike of fear in me every time since they look like necromorph blades#i have trauma lmao
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I draw this while listening to Ziggy Stardust
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Oh my god American coffee is so fucking bad. Jesus H. Christ someone please learn how to brew over here. This shit tastes like overly sweet dirt water. WHERE'S THE FUCKING COFFEE FLAVOR????
#I rock myself to sleep just chanting ten more days to Poland ten more days to Poland ten more days to-#I usually don't bitch about the coffee here because i live here lol and I drink it everyday but holy shit it's been bad lately#i'm losing it!!!1#coffee#that's just a funny tag actually lmao l#like why would i even tag coffee hahahaha#she's staying#personal#rant
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nothing more nazi vibes than the new age lolita-core "i'm just a girl" catholicism lana del rey listening ED girl thing
that trad wife shit radiates i believe in aryan bloodlines
#there will be academic papers written one day about how this kind of thing normalized fascism in young girls#I mean there already are scholars writing about it but I'm hoping this starts to become more mainstream knowledge#it's like how youtubers like Pewdiepie and twitch streamers have normalized pivoting right for young men#just so disappointing how these people repackaged fascist ideals and gen z and below just eat it right up
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Someone for the love of god make a fishnet and normal tights mod for Male V. My mans loves mini skirts, but he needs his tighttssssss plssssssss
#looks like we can't fully commit to serving cunt today yet again Vincent >_<#you shall have your day in the sun soon king#maybe...#I leave this in God's hands now#and by god I mean Nexus modders#I dumb i don't know how to mod i only draw yaoi help#cyberpunk 2077#male v#v cyberpunk#and look i'd commission it from like pinkydude if i could but i'm flat broke yeah?#all my money goes to coffee tattoos and trips to the Balkans I cannot be the hero in this situation#pinkydude if you see this i love you you're the best thank you for your service
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Being genderqueer is funny because one day you identify with the romantic goth hyper feminine Nosferatu vibes girlies and then the next day you look like a Slovakian dude who train hops for a living.
#any time I go to Bulgaria I just dress like Shiey which is always extremely funny to me#because if there’s anywhere I want to appear fem it would be Bulgaria the most transphobic EU country to ever exist#but god damn it I wanna live my Balkan masc dreams#genderqueer#trans#personal#lgbt pride#lgbtqia
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*leaving Judy’s apartment after saving Evelyn from a deranged snuff operation and getting almost zero answers about how to stop terrorist Keanu Reeves from eating V’s scrambled brain* I gotta pay homage to the greatest Christian rock band of all time, Faith + 1, right now.
#I loveeeeee you Jesus baby#my V would hate South Park and it’s so unfortunate#v cyberpunk 2077#cyberpunk 2077#my V’s name is Vincent (duh) Thuy#and he’s a cutie#south park#johnny silverhand#jackie welles cyberpunk
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Surprise! I revisit this post after like two years. I’m on another replay, and this shit still holds so much water for me. Something I’d like to add is that Jackie is clearly “the rock” in V’s life. I would daresay he’s the more mature one between them. He’s better at rationalizing and adjusting to situations, and has a quick read of V’s mental and emotional state. Their first conversation in the elevator down after the Heist falls apart is very telling to me. Jackie solemnly kind of accepts their situation, all while V is panicking. The way he attempts to calm V just screams kind of routine to me. Like this is something Jackie’s had to do multiple times, just maybe never in such an extreme situation. Like Jackie is bleeding out, but V still needs comforting and reassurance. In comparison, I don’t find that V reciprocates that kind of comfort towards Jackie, at least in the majority of the Heist mission (not for a lack of trying). It again felt like V hung onto Jackie, clinging to his strength and determination to power through. Maybe it’s just me, but the whole mission just had a vibe of Jackie looking out for/after V which just feeds into my previous discussion for them. I don’t know, it makes me even more sad! V just seems so lost without Jackie. So lonely. It made my high ass cry last night lol
The tragedy that is Corpo!V and Jackie's relationship lies in Jackie's consistency for saving V, while V's big onscreen attempt to save Jackie falls short. Jackie rescues V on three distinct occasions: during the mysterious Mexico job, when he offers his home after V's expulsion from Arasaka, and by using his last bit of strength to slot the relic into V's head. From a purely headcanon perspective too, you could speculate that Jackie's influence prevented Arasaka from “corrupting” V, keeping them from turning into just another soulless corpo that we see populate Night City.
Jackie remains a steadfast presence in V's life, reliably coming to their aid whenever needed, even unknowingly (like by slotting in the relic). However, when Jackie desperately needs V's support, V fails. Despite V’s impressive strength and training from Arasaka, the heist claims Jackie’s life. Now burdened with an impending death sentence due to the relic in their head, V is left without that shoulder to lean on. The man who consistently "saved" them is gone, leaving V to grapple with their fate.
I even kind of view Jackie's final act of saving V with the chip as a symbol that if Jackie dies, V's own destiny is sealed. But that’s a little pessimistic for the games overall narrative (imo). I just think it's interesting how Jackie always offers an out to V, while V fails to do the same. It’s extremely bittersweet and definitely adds to the tragedy of their stories.
#cyberpunk#v cyberpunk 2077#jackie welles cyberpunk#cp2077#cyberpunk 2077#I am rambling and kind of high so please don’t mind me if I’m making no sense lol
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Attraction to Jimmy is carried like 90% by those messy curtain bangs. Whoever (Curly) convinced him to get that haircut loves him because they knew my brother doesn't have much else going on in the way of looks.
#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing#This is my psa that I just love curtain bangs#esp. on weird white men
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i lowkey hate vengeful Anya takes, like the ones that depict her wanting to or killing Jimmy. To me, it just feels like people’s anger for her sake being projected through her character rather than something that’s true to Anya’s character.
It feels weird depicting an SA survivor with capability to murder/hurt or wanting to hurt someone. Can’t we just want peace? It would be refreshing if there was a take on Anya wherein she feels nothing for Jimmy but just the desire to be 10000 miles away from him.
No feelings of anger toward him, no feelings of forgiveness either - just nothing. That’s how I felt w/ my abusers for years, up until now actually. It might be weird from an outsider perspective that a victim could never feel angry for what happened, but it can happen and I’d know.
Maybe years after the incident (assuming it’s in everyone survives or no crash AU), she’s trying to bury the memory. But it bottles up and turns into sudden outbursts of sadness or anger or guilt or shame. Then back to nothing when it’s over.
Because processing trauma is not linear. The broken feeling you get doesn’t end with your abuser dying or getting hurt. One of my abusers died and I don’t feel rejoice or justice or peace. IMO Anya wouldn’t feel any sort of satisfaction either hurting Jimmy. Because not all victims prefer or is capable of achieving peace through violence.
At the same time, I understand that since this is fandom, everyone has the right to project on these fictional characters and there’s no one correct depiction of a character. Just putting my thoughts out here.
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#lowkey how I feel about it and what I mean when I said I hate how most of the fandom interprets rape victims#a lot of the art depicts a very simplified straightforward emotion of anger which is reasonable but it lacks complexity#I shared the same feelings of OP in that I felt nothing for my abuser for a long time after#I didn’t even want to be away from him and when he broke up with me I broke down and begged him to stay for days#I couldn’t imagine life without him#and then when he was truly gone I just felt nothing at all towards him and I was glad we had distance between us#I never wanted to think about what he did to me or what I perceived as letting happen to me#I haven’t thought about it with anger until this year and this was five years ago#instead my trauma came out in other ways like I’m unable to be intimate with someone without feeling hate for my partner#more disturbingly one of my biggest sexual fantasies became getting overpowered and raped again#it’s shameful and it’s retraumatizing and I haven’t worked through any of it yet tbh but yeah#and even today I can look at photos of us and laugh and smile and miss him bc I still do sometimes!#but it’s all wrapped in this ball of numbness and resentment and idk just so complicated#I think it’s hard for people to understand that kind of thing unless they’ve lived it#mouthwashing#rape tw
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Jimmy’s relationship to suicide is a little funny. Like he crashes out (literally) in the beginning and immediately is like AHHHHH!!!!!! -fetal position rocking sobbing- and then he survives and he’s gotta be awkwardly standing there going “oh….ummmmm well that was weird amirite, guys? Geez, who would…who would KILL THEMSELVES like THAT? I mean come on.” And later when he finds out about the Cyropod I just know he was like “um fuckinggggg score let’s gooooo” but when Swansea calls him a coward he immediately pivots to shooting himself as Plan B. Which is….just an amazing leap in logic. An absolute masterclass example of thinking on the fly from Mr. Jimmy Mouthwashing. And again before he activates Plan B he has an AHHHHH!!!!!! -fetal position rocking sobbing- sequence. Like brother….the second crash out is too much. make up your mind lol
#I just know he’s the guy that pulls the oh yeah? well I’m gonna KILL MYSELF card whenever things don’t go his way#also suicide isn’t funny but it is when Jimmy Mouthwashing tries it lol#you know good on him for kind of thinking on the fly we love an impulsive king (we don’t)#also the real suicidal king award goes to Curly#mans was struggling wayyyyyyyyy before the crash he was on the edge of a breakdown 😭 god bless#tw suicide#mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#a little harrowing to put funny and suicide in the same sentence but also kind of hilarious#I am severely sleep deprived and malnourished rn though so I might be making no sense#jimmy I love you pls come hold me lmao
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