#i hate cptsd

[mentallyunstables-blog]

There are some secrets I just can't stomach sharing here. Maybe I'll find the strength someday before it eats me alive from the inside.

[flomation]

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[jatlokgwo]

once its 3am everything is a different dimention until i fall asleep or someone else wakes up

[mycptsdstory]

I hate having cptsd. I fucking hate it so fucking much

[notesfrompanihida]

im a violent dog and i know exactly why i bite

[sarrowskulz]

I’m a disaster… I’m a fuck up… I’m a disappointment… I’m a disgrace… I’m a poor excuse of a person…

[hatred-rage-and-repression]

Deep down I wanna be worse because I deserve it... I don't wanna be happy, safe, or loved. They are such alienated feelings to me... I deserve to live a life full of misery, because I am evil.

[glitter-stained]

I used to dislike Lazarus Pit Madness headcanons but I've seen people say "he doesn't need magic madness he has normal madness" and "why would you need a magical explanation for his behaviour have you people never heard of cptsd" and while I understand the sentiment (and Jason definitely has cptsd) this is exactly what I'm talking about when I say dc has a dangerous habit of demonizing/villanizing mental illness and it has a real impact on the fandom's perception of mental illness. Winnick isn't the worst when it comes to Jason's writers but the fact that he wrote Jason as both a brilliant hypercompetent villain and a sympathetic character that makes you go "oh hey, he has a point..." should not distract you from the fact that no, decapitation is not a common symptom of cptsd.

[n0-al-3n8y]

i mean.. im not even trying at this point

[sasakisniko]

Veronica Mars could have started with Veronica vowing never to get married and ended with her marrying Logan Echolls. That is, if Rob understood the beauty of the story we were watching and weren't so desperate to force it to become the grimdark story he couldn't tell on the UPN.

[frankiehasfangs]

You are not a bad person for your trauma response. It is not your fault that people hurt you and mistreated you; and that your brain didn’t know how to properly cope with that.

[cravny]

The way i succeed to get out of my paralysis crisis physically but now mentally i seem to slowly getting stuck in a depersonnalisation state

FLASHBACK AND PARALYSIS EPISODE FUCKING SUCKS, IM MAD AND I WANNA CRY AND I HATE EVERYTHING

[odiabonecessario]

You dying wouldn't be enough to satisfy my anger if you didn't feel what you made me go through

[furiousgoldfish]

I just realized that I'm hyper-focused on the moods, behaviours and point of view of any person that exists near me, for as long as they're physically close. For me to be able to focus on myself at all, I have to be alone. Any other presence means my entire world shrinks into figuring out what this person is thinking, feeling and what they might do. And I can't control it, I can't relax if there's anybody else in the room.

[lostmf]

Girlhood is seeing the hatred in your mothers eyes and have no idea what you did to deserve it

Being a woman is impossible

It’s hell

And most of the time it feels like punishment

Because your existence, your body, and your choices belong to every one in your family and to every entitled dick walking around

And when you refuse to follow them

You’re branded

And you have to learn how to see yourself all over again

Cause you have no idea what you are

All you know is what you’ve been taught

And to relearn your worth

Is a battle that doesn’t end

That you didn’t ask for

That is Girlhood

[king-sappho]

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