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cursed-spirit-manipulation · 2 months ago
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jjk is about a lot of things but most of all with regard to Shoko Satoru and Suguru it's about how if you don't interact with people who aren't in your weird fucked up school with like 10 ppl total on a regular basis you WILL become an incredibly interesting adult in a way that makes people pity you
#JJK#Jujutsu Kaisen#Like obv the post is jokey but genuinely I feel like ppl don't talk about the intense isolation that goes on#Shoko Nanami Suguru and Satoru like regularly interact w 4 ppl (the others + Haibara) and like... Man. When you lose 25% of your social lif#And you can barely. Talk to the other 75% because they're equally but differently affected. Shits going to do some Interesting Things to u#Also it might be part of ''op grew up with very little social interaction not for any one specific reason but in general#Doesn't naturally form friendships/bonds even when surrounded by ppl'' but only having like 1 or two close friends#(and like. Satoru calls Suguru his only friend. He definitely likes Shoko and Nanami but obviously there's a distance there)#Will do some Very Interesting Things To You. Anyway Satoru and Suguru were both pretty heavily implied to be very socially isolated#As children (bc of being ''the strongest''/able to see curses but also autism. They're autistic) and then ended up having a wildly#Codependent relationship that ended up ruining them both bc they didn't know how to start fixing things#Because they were the only ppl they really knew so. I'm going to be honest I think at some points they straight up loathed each other#Suguru bc Satoru ''left him behind'' Satoru bc Suguru ''didnt catch up'' and like. They had fucking no one to talk to#like 1. Shoko and Nanami are Also Kids and Know Both Of Them Well so trying to go to them would be. Wild#2. The adults in their life... There's only so much Yaga can do as one man. And I also think he's Struggling#3. They straight up don't know how to talk to people. They just don't.#Anyways they hated each other because they loved each other and I'm not saying talking to other ppl would've fixed this but#I think it could've changed A Lot y'know. Eh maybe my point would be stronger if Yuuji Megumi n Nobara#Like. Had better fleshed out social lives (showing why they're less fucking. Deranged) bc there's clearly Elements but not really much#Concrete stuff to point to. Yuuji kinda just forgets his old classmates. Sad! Megumi had His Sister and that was........ And Nobara didn't#Get her shit resolved. So. Yaaaay
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skrs-cats · 8 months ago
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thinking about cinderlion kits and how hollytufts reaction to flywhisker and snaptooth leaving to become kittypets was to aggressively call them traitors
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lifesver · 2 months ago
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i just wish to say all lelands friendships are so important to him, but i do especially find his friendships w the girls very sweet. connie teaches him yes you should be yourself and cringe and the right people will like you when you're yourself and the wrong people will see themselves out. and that it is ok to love who you love and it's not weird. and maria teaches him it's good to be soft it's good to have an open heart being kind to others is about believing in the best in them. seeing the best in everything, really, and the beauty in a moment, in a field of flowers, in anything. and julie teaches him boys do cry and it doesn't matter what someone says you can be anything you want and do anything you want. and that you should trust yourself and your feelings and also you don't have to be ashamed of those feelings. the girls in gen bringing him out of his shell in other ways too like yes pretty boy you can wear more than blue and brown if you want to
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cripplemagics · 2 months ago
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i've finished my trauma therapy treatment and it feels so fucking surreal.
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mad-hunts · 5 months ago
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you know, even though barton is pretty consistently active in gotham's underground, there have been two times in particular throughout the years that he just seemed to disappear into thin air for like a month or so. like no one could contact him, and his kids seemed to have nothing to say about the subject + shooed people away if they showed up to his clinic expecting to get medical care when it's actually been closed for an extended period of time. and i still think people have no idea what happened, BUT that's because barton's kids are honestly such real ones sometimes because they kept everything that was happening very private.
the reality of the situation is that he was suffering so deeply from depression that he was not eating or drinking anything and didn't speak / say anything to anyone for a time... so, to say that his depression was really bad would definitely not be an exaggeration. but yeahhh, i was just saying this because i know i made a post about how barton's depression can make it so that he physically can not get out of bed in arkham, but it's also something that plagues him outside of it as well + he has had major depressive episodes where he experienced mutism as i was talking about before and thus, i feel like not only does barton try to check in on his kids (whenever he's not being an arsehole that is jsjsj) but they also check up on him to make sure thing's are okay with him mentally
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kuromi-hoemie · 1 year ago
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not me and my manager trauma bonding over mommy issues 💀💕 i love her aksksk oof i had to go smoke and Think after this one
i love when our one on ones are basically like lol i don't have much 2 talk about this wk and we get like 40m to hang n talk after getting work stuff out the way. she is such a sweetie and so fun (❁´◡`❁)
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handfulofmuses · 25 days ago
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J vc: new planet, fresh start. I get a new job and work myself to exhaustion so that I don’t have to think about all the terrible things in my life, I will forget about Tessa and the gala incident and that monster that kept me around as a plaything pet and only the new work environment matters, i know it will only be short lived but anywhere is better than here.
N: hi.
J: THROWS A WHOLE BUILDING.
#;playing://bestmonologueever.mp3 (j)#sorry girl but you can’t keep working and run from your past#you need to talk about this eventually#but yeah I have to agree it’s a nice crossover#J was Never really my most active muse even though I really wanted to use her#and then the finale really spoiled my mood#like I never felt that much disappointment regarding a show before#but it annoyed me so hard that I was like fine#because again - there is no way they gave the virus a better ending than J#that was the most frustrating thing about it#and then you have Doll who just slaughtered her classmates so she can get to V#but J kept getting the shorter end of the stick when she genuinely did not had a choice in the matter#and her death was turned into a stale annoying running gag#so like yeah this au kinda made her active which i think is funny#they butchered this character so hard that I don’t even care writing for Doll and Khan anymore#doll is staying but she won’t be super active#…I still think it’s funny how I expected the possum or platypus but Lofty came with Tangle#mainly every issue J reads where Clutch is in she is like: I like and respect a good business man 👍#she really likes clutch but nah you don’t#you like clutch because he feels familiar and is sort of everything you grew up with#you know what to expect#with the DC you will be depressed like Mimic because you don’t know how to deal with any of that#and it’s unfamiliar and scary#but also kind of what you need
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lith-myathar · 2 months ago
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local-magpie · 10 months ago
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i feel like im losing my mind every time i see someone say they dont want to vote for biden for president because of israel. what the fuck do you think will happen if he loses? do you think a republican president is suddenly going to support israel less?? the GOP? the party famous for invading multiple countries for oil in the last 25 years? you think they're going to just... not throw fuel on the fire over there?? do you seriously think the increased amount of damage both domestically and abroad the republican party's agenda will do is worth this kind of feel-good useless posturing?
i get why people are responding to this saying "well, go vote for other electoral races at least," but it drives me mad. yes please go vote for other electoral races but also please be fucking serious with me are you really going to risk another trump presidency and do fuckall for anyone in this situation just so you can brag about it later on your socials
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termagax · 3 months ago
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that puts there beihg more wiggle room because the crisis was like 30 years ago right. and well the thing abt that is that it doesnt mesh exactly with the fishhook timeline in my mind vecause i thibk canonically it puts hog as being ~18-20 when the crisis happens? which is too young for fishhook stuff but i do think would be REALLY interesting for canon hog. and makes it so jr wasnt born until after the explosion which i believe is the more interesting option because it puts all the junkers at different points when it happened and thus different relationships to it. to jr its an abstract thing that happened before he was born. to dez it was the defining moment of her childhood and something she remembers in bad dreams (id make her just a bit older than she is in canon. maybe she was like between 5-10 when it happened. i have a lot of headcanons abt her childhood but i digress). and hog wouldve been the only one to experience it as an adult which i think gives him more of that guilt and weight than the other two. he kind of bears up under that feeling and sees his life in the wasteland as a sort of eternal reminder of the kind of person he is (a bad anf fucked up one) and the kinds of decisions he makes (bad and fucked up ones) and the life he deserves from that (a bad and fucked up one). dez rolls wtih the punches and lets it be something that gives her that "punch the whole world in the teeth" fire and a sort-of righteous anger at everyone and gives her that weird sense of justice that makes her very good at her job. fuck the world for every bad thing that happens. but also im gonna fix it and im not gonna let the things that happened to me happen to any other little girl ever again. but also fuck the world and fuck everybody else. and rat really doesnt think of it as a good or bad thing its just sort of the way things are for him. yeah his life has been kind of rough but he likes his life! he likes his city, he loves his job, he's just here to have fun and blow things up. like he genuinenly has such an upbeat outlook on things hes very much a guy you cant keep down even though he LITERALLY NEVER WINS its a nice contrast to the other two and i think it works rlly well if he's younger than the bomb.
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hobisexually · 7 months ago
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long winded rant in the tags coming that’s partly about weight but in a very unfiltered sad way so if that triggers you do Not read on
#on holiday I was like oHHHHH this is what living in the moment is! What listening to your body is! what not worrying about how you look is#but doing what makes you happy#and then …… I came home and got sent the pictures#+ my friend being. unintentionally fatphobic as fuck#while hurtful as fuck too#and it’s all just been piling up too since I got home because I’ve been having a lot of conversations and seeing a lot of people that#confront me with who I used to be and who I am now and how I’m really not happy with that#and it feels like it’s not gonna get better#like I’m destined to be in a job I like but isn’t what I want because I’m not capable enough and I’ll never know what romantic requited love#feels like. I’ll never cure my vaginismus I’ll never be able to let someone in or they won’t want me this is just it for me#and SOMEHOW the way I look has become the ultimate culmination of all those things?#my face is suddenly a woman in her thirties face#I keep gaining weight despite not even eating all that much because FUCKING PCOS makes it impossible#my hair in my face grew back. my stomach is hairy and that plus the added beer belly just makes it look like I’m a 50 year old man#I am soooooooo tired of the dysphoria#and the way pcos ruins fucking everything because I can restrict calories all I want and move all I want but will it help ? No !#and of the fact that it impacts the way I feel about myself so much because I’m convinced now I’ll never find anyone#should have tried harder when I was 21 because that was the only time in my life I reasonably fit society’s standards like That was my shot#I’ve been taking supplements everyone says will help but I’m not sure I noticed anything in the past six months and I can’t take berberine#because it fucks with my heart medication. which. That too. I have that too#and I’m in pain! All the time now! ALL THE TIME so I can’t even work out to keep the weight stable because guess what ?#just after a normal day at the office I come home and have to lie down because everhthing hurts so much !#today I got an impromptu massage in an attempt to feel better but it didn’t fix shit and I had to buy clothes for kings day after#and I didn’t try them on just quickly grabbed some orange shit to try on at home and at what I saw in the mirror I genuinely got nauseous#I just don’t know who that is in the mirror but it’s not me and I can’t accept it. I’ve been trying so hard but I can’t#it genuinely makes me so sad and I keep telling myself that a reduction will help in feeling more like myself and it will help with the pain#but what if it doesn’t? what if my pain doesn’t go away after af all and my stomach just juts out and I feel like a gremlin all the time#what then. what the fuck do we do then. also I’m so fucking scared of that surgery anyway that I don’t fucking want to do it anymore#I want so many things and all of them feel out of reach and I know my own brain is my worst enemy and it’s not rooted in anything real but.#Isn’t it? really — isn’t it???????
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blondiest · 1 year ago
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going to make my own version of those "that girl" videos that used to go around on tiktok (which were basically aesthetically-styled disordered eating so far as i could tell tbh) but mine will be me eating stuff like hard-boiled eggs slathered with mustard & enjoying it with a degree of enthusiasm that viewers find off-putting. my "that girl" trait will not be yoga or drinking five gallons of water a day or even having nice hair or clear skin, it will simply be my joie de vivre or however it's spelled
#i used to eat hard boiled eggs w mustard on them all the time in college bc they had them in the vending machines#and they also had packets of mustard#and i forgot my lunch like every day lol#so that became my lunch#it's a humbling experience to eat a wholeass hard boiled egg in public with like. no knife to cut it in half btw. like you just have to#take bites and it's fine but you feel silly and inelegant#it does not help if you are very gender nonconforming at the time but like. aren't trying to be. jfhfhfjgh#<- was really bad at fitting in during college bc i had super short hair and wore men's jeans and sweaters from goodwill#all of which are actually swag things to do btw but like it doesn't feel swag at all if you like. are actually trying to fit in#and are just very bad at it#and genuinely cannot connect the dots on Why Girls Don't Want To Be Your Friend (it CAN'T just be that you're getting read as queer. right?)#(because that would be so messed up if it was because of that.)#[narrator voice: it was because of that]#anyways this is off the rails bc it was supposed to be about eggs and my love of them but#a lot of people say that college is better than high school. and for me it WAS by a lot but it still was really hard in a lot of ways#i felt deeply isolated. i went to an ag school in the middle of a midwest state and studied STEM#in high school i associated with basically only queer art kids (not a huge high school and a lot of us weren't out yet but. y'know.)#and then in college i felt very out of place#and towards the end of college i decided to try and take a stab at looking more traditionally feminine. grew out my hair#got rid of my bangs#it was fine#i definitely noticed that people treated me much nicer once i had long hair and women's clothes that actually fit me#and i was like okay yeah so i guess i just should try to pass as straight then. that seems like it'll be easier#during the pandemic i gave myself bangs again. just a lil bi girl swag yk. and then last august i got my hair cut into a real short bob#and i immediately felt so much more like myself. idk how to explain it. but i was just like not meant to be feminine in that exact way#i'm honestly still pretty feminine presenting overall but#i love the fact that if i wear my hair messy now it looks kinda boyish. and if i style it nicely it looks girly.#i feel like i have options yk. and i still don't think i get read as queer now tbh? though i'm bad at knowing these things#but i don't feel like i'm HIDING anymore#WOW THAT WAS LONG SORRY LMAO
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this-should-do · 10 months ago
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ykno i think that only ever being told im physically appealing by drs saying i could be prettier if i did this or that or lost weight or by my mom trying to emphasize how im a pretty GIRL to invalidate my desire to be more masculine most of my life probably affected my ability to feel good about my body
#like genuinely i have not been complimented on my looks for a majority of my life by peers#like ive had friends recently like say im slaying or looking good but like in the face kf yhings it doesnt like do anything i guess like#its what friends do#i had a person j used to be friends comlliment me once about me looking hot and sexy and i started feeling nauseus so i dont know what thats#all about so its like would i even want people tk ckmpliment on looking good? do j need that? how does it work why would i need it#when i dont really desire the types of relationships where being attractive matters#if im in my ideal state of mind i dont even register my body its seperate from me and im just my thoughts so i dktn have to think about#my ohysicality but when i have to register myself i just feel ugly but even more it all just feels wrong to have a body at all and thats#prob where the transness comes in tbh#like i dunno is it better for me to have avoided being told over and over that im worthy becuz im attractice as a woman or is that a symptom#kf me just being ugly that nobody ever commented on my body aside from adults daying how cute and ptetty i am and then my mom telling them#that im actually really smart to help me value my mind over my body becuz she grew up being ugly while also thinking shes stupid#like#like all of this to result in me being ugly no matter what way i cut it and i cant even bring myself to care much about it most of them time#even tho it feels mishapen in my mind as a feeling#its like bad and i look at myself in the mirror and i feel bad i look bad my face is wrong and its like the strongest feeling i feel some#days for those brief seconds i see myself and then j look away and it goes away and im back to having normal bland brain waves#its kinda fucked
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danthropologie · 2 years ago
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I have something else to add in the Daniel vs Max debate, not only would Daniel be going in with the knowledge that Max is the indisputable number 1 driver, but we have evidence that Daniel has cooled down these days, all you have to do is look at how he acted with McLaren, he took team orders on the chin and stayed behind Norris when told. Why would he be any different with Red Bull?
Not only has he been humbled over the last few years but he has proven himself to be nothing but professional in his dealings with a team that didn’t do him the courtesy of doing the same. We have solid evidence that he has matured as a person and we know that he would be going in with certain expectations.
yeah i mean, you're right, absolutely. he's shown a huge amount of growth and professionalism throughout the hellscape that was the mclaren stint, but i DO think it's a bit of a different thing to be told to hold position in fucking p11 vs being told to hold position in p2 when you've gotten a taste of what it feels like to win again. not to say that he still couldn't or wouldn't, but i think it would definitely be a much bigger test of his growth and maturity to be sat next to max in red bull vs lando in mclaren
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hellshire-harlot · 10 months ago
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Never go to Louisiana. Worst mistake of my life
#So yeah#I just beat#Resident Evil 7#It’s so fucking surreal getting that hopeful shot of Mia and Ethan while knowing how 8 ends :(#No clue how many endings there are but I’m honestly not looking forward to saving Zoe#Like yeah she’s cool and I really do like her but I came here for my WIFE. MIA.#If anything I’m kinda wondering if Zoe is better off in the Strata with her family now that they’re not crazy#Except Lucas. Fuck Lucas#HE WAS GENUINELY SO CREEPY LIKE I GOT SO UNCOMFY#’do whatever you want with his girl’ I am going to shoot you#Ngl tho man knows how to make an escape room#Also the wrecked ship was an INCREDIBLE setpiece#And getting to see Mia fight tooth and nail to get Ethan just like he did for her was awesome#I feel conflicted about Eveline. I relate a lot to her but it doesn’t excuse the things she’s done#It explains them. It doesn’t excuse them.#She literally knew nothing but violence her entire life. She was created to be a weapon. She grew up as a specimen.#All she wanted was a family and she gave herself one in the only way she knew how.#The only way she’d ever been SHOWN.#and that’s so fucking tragic.#Especially knowing Miranda initially wanted Eveline to be a vessel for Eva and then REJECTED HER.#The reason for your being deciding you aren’t good enough and casting you aside like nothing#SO. FUCKING. HEARTBREAKING#A perfect mix of insanity humor horror and tragedy#I like to think that somewhere in the Strata of the mold the Bakers can live in peace. Lucas can heal from whatever is wrong with him#Zoe can rest. Marguerit and Jack can be together.#And Eveline can’t hurt them anymore.#Honestly the Strata as afterlife is a very fun concept. Maybe Alcina and the girls are there too in a Strata-castle#Maybe Donna and Angie peacefully knit and make dolls together in the Strata#Maybe Moreau is finally free from his pain and can live somewhere peaceful. Unbothered.#Maybe Karl can find some peace knowing that at least Miranda too is dead. Maybe he can find Ethan.
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bl00dh0rs3 · 1 year ago
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You should become a muslim.
I don't ever plan on joining any kind of organized religion, because i already know that the stuff i believe won't mesh with any specific one. Um. So thanks but no thanks !
#horse.txt#i believe everything has a soul#reincarnation is real#theres no afterlife (good or bad)#so existence isn't about earning your way into a vip club in the sky#it's about collecting as many experiences as possible#good and bad big and small#kindness is natural and so is cruelty--all creatures will be inclined towards one or the other and theres no way to change that fact#so its best to just focus on whatever you can manage. no one is required to try to change the world for the better#that is an opt in activity. the natural way to live is to seek your own happiness--so if thats all you can manage#then just do that#organized religion has never worked for me; i grew up going to christian churches and i hate it#and even doing group pagan events feels off and disingenuous to me--and its strictly a Me thing its not to do with the religions themselves#though i do genuinely hate christianity with a fiery burning passion that grows with every passing day#i do not care that not all Christians are 'bad' because its becoming increasingly obvious to me that even still#being Christian Keeps those people from being as good as they COULD have been#'hate the sin love the sinner' or you could just learn to have compassion for your fellow man and quit being a debby downer#sins don't fucking exist theyre just activities that you don't like. just say thats what it is. applying morality to everything under#the sun is just semantics. you are wasting our time when we could LITERALLY be outside eating fruit and watching the clouds#grow up#sorry didnt mean to get aggressive my train of thought just does whatever sometimes
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