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butteredfrogs · 3 months ago

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vent in tags don’t mind me

#i’ve been having a really hard time recently and i feel super like alone and stuff #i feel like i have no one i can talk to #but i also have this feeling of not wanting to burden people with my problems bc i know other people have their own stuff going on #and like i’ve just been feeling super meh for months now #and everytime something starts to look up #it ends up like taking a huge turn and turning out bad and also creating a ton of other problem on top of that #and i’ve tried like channeling my energy into other stuff like crochet or like gaming or whatever #but i still have this just underlying sad feeling all the time because #it just seems like i can’t ever catch a break #idk maybe i’m overreacting but :((#and it just sucks bc i feel like i try to be there for other people but then i feel awkward talking to people about my own struggles #and that’s like not other people’s fault it’s a me thing but idk #anyway #if you read this thank you i just wanted to let my feelings out #butter’s thoughts

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me-beef · 3 months ago

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@strangeravatar made a great point

i was gonna focus on the spike-hotboxing-celestia aspect but i got distracted somewhere along the way and i think i forgot what joke i was trying to make

but dont you think its interesting how many guards of the exact same color/body type she's managed to accrue?? i do

ooohh you want to go look at our stickers so bad

#conclusion: if one of them smokes weed they BOTH get high #but it's a baby's metabolism vs a sun god's so if CELESTIA is zooted spike is DEAD #i also like to imagine rainbow dash becomes quite the philosopher while under the influence #and yes their bong IS zecoras potion bottle from season 4 episode 1/2 thanks for asking #anyways #this is a long ass comic with. minimal payoff. but we're POSTING IT ANYWAY BABES #i couldnt decide if it would be funnier to have zephyr breeze at the end or one of those regular white blue-haired blue-eyed stock guards #i left it as zephyr. the real ones get it #i guess the real ones are everybody who saw season 9 episode 4 #but cmon why ELSE do you think celestia would hire that guy #it's cause she's a freak and im calling her out on my tumblr dot com #mlp #mlp fim #mlp friendship is magic #mlp g4 #mlp fanart #princess celestia #princess luna #rainbow dash #fluttershy #spike the dragon #zephyr breeze #horse comic #me art #also that font is one i made based off my own handwriting!! im so happy about it #though it does look. exactly like comic sans #idk how to feel about that tbh #wow you can just talk to yourself in the tags forever and no one will even know huh

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hinamie · 7 days ago

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make it vicious, take a stab

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jujutsu gojo #jjk gojo #jjk satoru #blood/#jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #just in case idk #i believe in night moves fv supremacy #i feel like i say this every time but im dead deceased on the floor in the ground etc etc #maximum effort fr gojo as usual sighhhhhhhhhhhh #3 days on this mf who let me draw another mirror who didnt talk me down #i got so frustrated after i finished his reflection only to realize i had a whole other half gojo to draw #do not look too closely ik its not perfectly mirrored ik ik ik i wanted to die the whole time pls b kind #especially the hair gjhdfkdgk the last mirrored char i drew was megumi and at least with him his hair is dark #with which i can Conceal my mistakes #none of tht here sighs . this freak and his florescent hair #anyway even tho i died and perished and expired etc i am . SO happy w this u have no idea #blood sweat and tears went into this one #and easter eggs! so many easter eggs #pls take it and enjoy im tired of staring at him and his god awful lipstick job . make yourself decent smh

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paintedcrows · 2 months ago

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Holiday Classics

Been thinking about Ford watching the 70s Animated Lord of the Rings Movies... (companion comic to this post!)

#the other two VHS tapes Fidd's is holding are Rankin-Bass' The Hobbit (1977) and Return of the King (1980)! The 70s animated pseudo-trilogy!#A lot of people pointed out on my other lotr 'crossover' post that Ford would have seen the 70s movies!#And i wont lie i entirely forgot they existed. But now i remember i have so many feelings on it okay. Ford my silly LOTR nerd #I dont think he would have seen Bashkis in theaters. far as I can tell it was a VERY limited (likely mostly CA) run in the middle of winter #but Rankin-Bass'? Aired on NBC & ABC. He absolutely woulda watched them or rented a VHS later. Which is why he's most excited by Bashki's #He's just such a nerd. I need him to nerd out. But also lowkey angst on how his single focus on bill/the portal lead #him to neglecting even the small things in life. Like knowing a VHS release of an adaptation of his favourite book series had come out #GF fanart #Gravity Falls #gravity falls comic #Fan art #fanart #fiddleford mcgucket #fiddleford hadron mcgucket #young fiddleford mcgucket #*holds two random VHS tapes in one hand to check Fidd's pose in the 2nd panel makes sense* Well thats mathamatically feasible!#young stanford pines #stanford pines #ford pines #Book of Bill #comic #artists on tumblr #my art #Grunkle ford #fiddauthor #cause Fidds is not talking about the movie there. Well okay he's talking about the portal but He COULD BE TALKING ABOUT- *I am dragged off*

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artkaninchenbau · 5 months ago

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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

#My art #One Piece #Long post #Sir Crocodile #Nico Robin #Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare #Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child #But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead #IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about #And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away #In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out #(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet #She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it #IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook #Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook #But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY #Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic

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thebaldursmouthgazette · 5 months ago

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I’m sure Dumat being defeated the same year andraste was born means nothing

I’m sure this has nothing to do with the fact that andrastes mother was part of a tribe who helped the grey wardens fight and defeat dumat the same year she was born, meaning that she could have been a fetus affected by the taint in the proximity of a dying arch demon

And the fact that nobody knows which grey warden killed dumat, as seven wardens died from injuries from his death throes, and therefore we cannot actually identify a warden who absorbed his soul, means nothing

And I’m sure it is a complete coincidence that andraste had dreams and visions of the being later referred to as the maker her whole life, and behaved strangely, talking about hearing lost voices and seeing strange auras. That absolutely doesn’t sound like anyone else we know

#dragon age #hi I don’t know if these are hot takes anymore or if I’m actually going insane #this could still work with the maker being mythal #(as in the thing that spoke to andraste. claims unverified)#there’s a theory of an 8th old god struck from record #so there’s still enough old gods to account for mythal being dumat #(the 8th old god is associated with sea monsters so that would be Ghilan’nain if that were the case. which is probably one of the ones we #see escaping)#what doesn’t add up is only two escape but there would be three left if this were the case #unless corypheus’ dragon WAS an arch demon and was razikale or Lusacan (which I believe are most likely dirthamen and elgar’nan)#which seem to be the two candidates for the other escaped evanuris #so things could add up #in terms of mythal learning about the tainted fetus stuff she could have done that observing #but it would make sense for her to learn from practice #I’ve been feeling like there’s a huge piece missing in the deal with her and the evanuris because she talks about being denied justice #and like. solas locked up the evanuris for a good few thousand years. it might not be her idea of perfect justice but surely it would be an #attempt #but what if that’s not the betrayal she’s talking about #what if the betrayal is that solas accidentally locked her in there too #dragon age theory #tagging these so I can find them

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giantkillerjack · 2 years ago

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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

[plain-text version of this post can be found under the cut]

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

Plain-text version:

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need.#the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist.#the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28!#a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents.#they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong.#and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives.#you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead?#or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of.#no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow.#i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong.#just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

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nova-rpv · 3 months ago

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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright #here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really #im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting #the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one #like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans #and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall #it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf #i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear #also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb #sth #sonic fanart #sonic #amy rose #nov.aart #nov.junk

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forgettable-au · 1 month ago

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FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 61-64)

* I-I don't think we were talking about the same thing...

[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]

#FINALLY FINISHED THIS WOHOO #Okay so #I have been keeping this small part of info secret for SOOOO long and it was so funny that JUST this week I got a ton of asks about #Wingdings' voice and I was SO tempted to talk about this little detail #BTW I DIDN'T FULLY MAKE THIS UP #i mean #Yeah I did #BUT IT IS BASED ON SOMETHING I NOTICED!!!!!!#When redacted talks in Wingdings the sound is clean #but when we listen to entry 17 (which is most likely a recording)#There's a VERY loud overlay of garbage noise #And so I was like #I could use this.........#like yeah a sound based on symbols?? we can't understand it! but our brains might do the work for us and maybe try to understand it?#but recording it goes very bad.....#I thought it was fun so I made it a hc for Gaster #and then I applied it here :D #lol #I think the pacing of this one is also a bit too fast but ehh #I hope it's clear #I am so proud of how I drew Alphys in these pages I feel like I am finally understanding her shape and how I want to stylize her #Sans is very good at reading people #He can tell when people are lying #that's why Wingdings didn't lie! he just conveniently forgot to tell him some details about what they found #okay yeah that's enough #TIME FOR THE TAGS #undertale #forgettable-au #forgettable-au-comic #sans

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egophiliac · 9 months ago

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(almost) four years in, and I finally had time to draw something for the anniversary! woo! 🎉🎉🎉

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #because i need to talk for a minute about how the plot of the anniversary story so far is literally just #crowley jumpscares us in our living room to demand we make him lunch and yuu is just like 'i need to start locking the door'#oh twst you always know just how to get me #the qol updates though! CONVERTING SINGLE KEYS INTO 10-SETS YES THANK YOU OH MY GOD #SKIP LESSON TICKETS!!!!#3X BATTLE SPEED!!!!!!!!!!!!#SAVE TEAM BUILDS AND SUPPORT CARDS FINALLY AHHHHH #oh and some other stuff too but look i NEEDED these things #also master chef grim! he's so precious!#though he's not going to get a little sporty uniform after all?#grim canonically flies in the nude i guess #no it's okay chef grim is ADORABLE #if you zoom in on his card you can see little smoodges from his inexpert cake decoration 😭#which on the one hand is cute but on the other hand i'd been convinced he'd just slapped some frosting and candles on an actual can of tuna #anyway happy (a few days until the) fourth anniversary everybody!#i've been here since the beginning (preregistered during the dorm reveals babyyyy) and it REALLY doesn't feel like it's been four years #you know what they say: time flies when you're watching anime characters have emotional problems

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stil-lindigo · 9 months ago

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HELP PALESTINIAN ARCHITECT EVACUATE HER FAMILY FROM GAZA

This is a verified fundraiser for a family of four to evacuate to Cairo. The fund's creator, Amal Abu Shammala, reached out to me personally to share this since she's failed to get her fund on Operation Olive Branch and Let's Talk Palestine's fundraising linktree.

As of right now, she has raised €2,397/ €42,000. You can see the breakdown of what the money will be used for in the fund description.

Please give generously!

#ive talked to amal myself and can vouch for her #she was so understanding about me having to verify her story first #its so bullshit how people have used the tragedy of a genocide to masquerade as palestinians in need #perhaps its selfish for me to personally advocate for only a few families in need when so many people require help #but i feel like the way i stay sane is to just. focus on one family at a time #im gonna try to do another fundraising event (?) soon idk how successful it'll be #i just dont have enough money man #palestine #free palestine #free gaza #donations #gaza #rafah #khan younis

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wolfythewitch · 2 months ago

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#i need it for science #and so i can focus my research #i feel like the last one is the elective #most people take it for the easy grade until he walks in and spooks like 80% of the class into transferring out #part of me wanted to add thesis professor for the silly #maybe the story development of it #idk the proper name though my course code literally was just anstory #(animation story)#id look it up but i cant access the website rn #we have class about marriage its so funny #it would be so funny if i put him in comsci #actually my brother's religion class rn is talking about the intersection of religion and occult which is fun

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littlefankingdom · 2 months ago

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Seeing all those posts and fanfics where the batkids, especially Dick, calls Clark "uncle Clark", made me think.

If Dick calls Clark "uncle Clark", he probably started doing it BEFORE he ever referred to Bruce as his father. After all, another uncle doesn't erase any existing one, but accepting Bruce as his father was erasing John Grayson in Dick's mind, for multiple years. It makes sense for Dick's confused feelings about his situation to call Clark "uncle" before calling Bruce "dad".

So, I present you: Bruce being envious of Clark because Dick refers to him with a family's title but Bruce is just "B".

And in the same continuity: Dick being envious of Jason calling Bruce "dad" so easily.

For Dick, it feels as if the word is stuck in his throat. He can say it to joke around with others ("let's steal dad's car" he tells Jason), but to Bruce's face? He's afraid the world would end.

#bruce wayne #dick grayson #robin #batman #nightwing #clark kent #jason todd #superman #dc comics #my ramblings #Clark can feel the batglare Bruce is sending him from accross the room as a lil Dick calls him uncle and asks to be picked up #only child syndrome learns to share your kid Bruce Smallville isn’t going to steal him from you #also you can take from my cold dead hands the hc that Jason used to call B “dad” all the time #when he is de-aged in RHaTO he says he likes to call him dad #but also am I the only one to have remarked how Dick only calls B “dad” when he is talking to others and often in a joking way?

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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playing around w slightly different hair renders

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk art #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fushiita #yuuji #megumi #cries megumi fought tooth n nail..... i refused 2 flip the canvas tho >:(#i vastly prefer drawing him facing right bc fr some reason it makes his hair look better silhouette-wise #so having him face left is alr a Challenge #but also having him slightly look down (difficult angle + changes the silhouette) had me bashing my head in2 th TABLE #same thing happened earlier this month w gardening megu middle pose . i did not learn my lesson #but even worse w this one yuuji's head is blocking th main pointy part tht basically carries the entirety of the shape language #u can imagine my distress i am sure #anyway th render made me a lot happier with it thank god. colours hard carry bless <3333 #i didn't plan on making it a full sheet but i needed 2 remind myself that im good at drawing megumi #so i threw in solos of each of them n tried slightly different render flavours #idk how Different all of them look visually but th process fr each ws Very different so i am satisfied #fight aside this ws useful i think! got 2 break out some Clunkier chalks n dust off a few of my smoother blended brushes #think i picked up some things i can keep also !! which ws. u kno. the Goal #tbh every time i do art studies i feel like i am kirby #one time i got called an art ditto by one of my fav artist mutuals when i did a style challenge #SUCH high praise from her it lives in my mind i take it out on days when i feel like trash #it doesnt Sound good when u say u r good at copying but real talk it is such a good skill i am very happy 2 have it in my arsenal

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months ago

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Flower Empowered.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #lan wunian #The absolute chaos that ensued when Lan Wangji showed up...those girls went wild.#We have to give kudos to narration that takes the form of a bunch of suitor seeking ladies.#They were so loud about being here for the hotties and whispering gossip. You go girls.#Wei Wuxian most likely just picked up a already tossed flower to throw. Second hand flowers...are still flowers I suppose.#Can you imagine if LWJ had allergies? Poor lad.#Okay it's time for the real gritty discussion point. The one everyone is waiting for me to talk about:#So...from where we are in the timeline...what the hell is WWX supposed to be wearing?#I'm serious. Put all the fanart out of your brain for a moment.#We are post burial grounds and sunshot campaign so he's had his little goth moment reveal.#*BUT* he is still with the Jiang sect. And by proxy of this flashback talking about his disrespect - they never bring up his attire.#meaning he is likely in some kind of Jiang Purple.#Continuity wise it really feels like this scene should have been *before* the burial mounds.#I understand why it's post - we need to build up on the mystery of how he became the YLLZ.#But also his personality feels way more 'pre-burial mounds WWX'. I think this was probably a 'I don't want to kill my darling' scene.#(The Phoenix mountain flashback is a lot of people's 'darling'. I am knowingly putting myself in the line of fire here).#I'm willingly putting him in Wen Qing's borrowed cloak and assuming people take him wearing it as like...a war trophy.#Historians will revise this moment later on but for now he *is* a hero of that war.

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lazylittledragon · 4 months ago

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i'm in one of those phases where i really wish i believed in manifesting and spellcasting and things like that bc you know when you want something so bad you're literally praying for the universe to let it happen

#ramble #this is not me judging by the way i think it's cool as fuck i just don't do it personally #context: a lot of my 'dream jobs' are now just 'ways to make money that i might not absolutely hate'#but i have one (1) legit dream job and it's literally FINGERTIPS away from me right now #i feel like most people who know me can guess what it is and know how badly i want it #i'm not even letting myself daydream about it or talk about it too much because i'm so afraid of not getting it and being disappointed #and also i don't want to like. jinx it #i've tried so many times before but this is the closest i've ever been and i feel SICK i want to bite something

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