#i dont know if it was an anxiety attack or a panic attack but its been building up for a while and its just a lot

[pansyfemme]

i am going to pass out

[falldogbombsthemoon]

Yall haha, my dad made it so I have wifi access for one hour a day. which I can use from like 14 to 21 german time. So once my mobile data is dead, I will not be active that much ig. So please dont think I'm abandoning yall.

[nana-mizu-shiki]

1. Changed my logo, but I'm keeping my pfp bc I like the color,

2. This isn't fanart, just a sketch based off of a dream I had and I plan to paint

HOLD MY

HAND

PANIC

( Until I Can Breathe

Again.... )

I do realize I spelled Breathe wrong, I fixed that after I took the photo

I'm planning on making the background black so all of the outlines will be white, and the H M H || ( U I C B A....) and hands will be white as well, but the PANIC will be a bright red and the lungs'll be a pastel pink with red shading, the spirally thing that's in the middle of the lungs will probably also have some red highlights.

I tried my best to make the lungs look like, idk, like they're being squeezed and going in and are being sucked into the middle of themselves? I don't know how to describe it but I don't think I did it all that well so if you have any suggestions I'd love some, ty

At the top, it's supposed to be a puff of air, but I think it looks more like a brain and so now I'm debating if I should try to do anything with that, or if I should leave it as a puff of air.

I'm probably going to use acrylic or oil paint for this, watercolor doesn't really fit the vibe I'm going for, but I might do the background (black) in watercolor to give some dimension or something

[newfeeling77]

i wish i had gotten properly medicated n therapized earlier 1. bc it hasnt even started yet i had one therapy appointment and i wont be feeling the effects of medication for another month and a half and 2. im already feeling regretful of the time i wasted these past few months being depressed. not unhappy just apathetic and frustrated. bc objectively im having a good time n learning new things and making friends like its a really good semester but i havent been able to enjoy it bc im currently incapable of enjoying anything. i can appreciate things, i can acknowledge the positive aspects of my life but they dont give me any positive feelings. instead im just angry or overwhelmed all the time

[wingdingle]

ok i figured it out finally. the secret to becoming friends with somebody is to keep doing smalltalk and asking how peoples days are and listen to them and share your own experiences and be genuinely curious about theirs, until you find people who also want to be friends with you enough to talk to you outside of the setting you regularly meet in, and then just initiate communication on a regular basis (at least 5 times a week or some shit idk.) also assess their comfort zone before talking about like social taboos . like ask them if they are ok hearing smth youre unsure about before you say it. also you dont necessarily succeed every time but dont get discouraged theres always more ppl and more room to grow =]

sidenote: try to make sure that when you make conversation it isnt exclusively about things you feel negatively about and keep an open mind about peoples interests, even if you dont necessarily agree with them - some people dont know some tjings are offensive bc theyre just too busy living their lives to stay on top of everything, but you can always explain that thought about it being offensive, just dont shut them down right away... imagine how youd feel if someone shut you down when you were talking about something you liked

[stupidscav]

ok but like why do I keep having panic attacks(or something similar) like every day. what

[boomalope-pope]

It sucks how much of the human experience is tied up in our collective consciousness and the interactions we have with one another and yet knowing that, how I still end up having a panic attack outside the bar if I try heading to a local meetup for something I'm interested in.

[nururu]

I'm at the advanced stage of burn out where it's just full on trauma and I truly don't think many ppl can understand what it's like. and what it does to your brain and your ability to live normally. it's unexplainable.

[transprince]

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[1ovestay]

i think its kind of comedic how bad my mental health is atm cuz theres literally no reason for it like girl can u grow up

[mejomonster]

Ridiculously depressed but I am running ragged (which is surely worsening the depression ToT) so like the idea of weekly therapy to further exhaust me and trigger the anxiety more doesn't sound super compatible

[piplupod]

thinking too hard about my situation and ending up with heart pounding and inability to breathe yayyyy

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

[caffeinatedopossum]

When I had that panic attack the other day, my girlfriend really put some things into perspective... I don't know, I think I feel bad because this is the best my life has ever been and I'm still depressed and anxious. It feels like I can't do anything for myself and the things I can do, I don't.

But she said that she would feel the same in my position. That actually, when she was the most depressed, she *was* in my position. She said she'd go crazy from not being able to do anything all the time and for some reason that helped a lot. Like, just to hear that its not wrong to feel like this and that I really am doing everything I can.

It feels so greedy and selfish to look at my life being the best it's ever been and to still ask for more but I guess it's normal.

[wheresmulder]

This is way too personal for tumblr but I think I wanna leave my fiancé lmfao

[sugaroto]

Hey question,

What is this feeling called

(Tw: maybe suicidical thoughts?)

If you're in class and you've been forced to sit in one of the front desks for the rest of the year(not the first one, like the 3rd one) and you have at least 4-6 people behind you and while you're in class you suddenly stop thinking and you're just focusing hard on the nothing in front of you and you ignore the teacher and whatever is happening around you and thinking "I'd rather jump of the balcony right now rather than sitting here for more that another second" because you're not used to be sitting so front and having people behind you and you feel like they watch your every move so sometimes you stop moving at all and anytime you turn back for a question or some shit you feel like you're bothering them and any time you hear a whisper or something you feel like they're judging you even though they're not. And you like, try to not exist much so you don't bother the kids behind but because you're thinking too much about it you can't focus in class and the balcony is beautiful to go and fall from. ps: I forgot to mention it but also like drowning

Like what is that called??

Seriously if anyone has the words to describe it,(if it's even called something)