#i wanna clarify my lack of responses is due to the mess that is my life rn

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Final edit: putting this here so ppl dont get the wrong idea or assume about her from the out of context reblog (we were talking in the comments/replies) just to be careful c:

TUMBLR WON’T LET ME COPY PASTE IN REPLIES SO IMA JUST PUT THIS HERE 😭😭

Ahh, I see. I understand where you’re coming from, thank you for the response. I believe my main dislike in the use of yuri for them is mainly the association with shipping. But I can see the disconnect with your use. I don’t know your opinion on that topic (sorry, boutta spit out my thoughts), but I’m personally against it. I believe shipping inherently glorifies and romanticizes their relationship. Showing just the positive and “wholesome,” built on the want for them to stay together. (I’ve seen people call them couple goals). Like you said, their relationship is messed up and unhealthy. They shouldn’t be seen as goals for real life relationships. ANYWAYS. I hope that made sense. If you want me to clarify on anything, lmk! I don’t plan to use yuri due to my own personal comforts, but I can see why you do.

Also edit: I personally like to show their relationship as a whole and what I believe is accurate. Meaning, showing the wholesome side that is pure, but also showing the side tainted and that becomes unhealthy, co-dependent, and abusive. I personally dislike the lack of understanding to both sides. Ppl just showing the wholesome and portraying the two as something healthy to look for and people that look at satou and everything and say she’s bad so she must be BAD and there’s no ounce of good in here. But I dislike the wholesome side more because I believe its more damaging. Their relationship should not be glorified and seen as some people believe “goals.”

Also ship part is not aimed at u (just wanna make sure u know!). Again, i dont know ur opinion on that. Also feel free to reply/respond ur thoughts. I am acting with the intention of a civil discussion ofc lmao (cuz i know some people can get not very civil with this stuff)

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Overworked and Overwhelmed CH 1

Description: Roman is bottling everything up like he always does, trying to take on the world without taking a break. But what happens if he finally breaks under the pressure? 

Genre: Hurt/Comfort (I promise there’s comfort eventually)

Pairings: Prinxiety, Logicality, platonic LAMP

Warnings: panic attack, self deprecation, food mention, exhaustion, fainting, crying, so much angst (let me know if there’s anything I missed or anything you specifically want tagged)

Chapter 2 , Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Final Chapter

Virgil’s POV

It had been a long day in the mind palace. Thomas had been invited to a party and there was a whole debate about whether we would go or not. Fortunately for me, Thomas had a lot of work to do for the upcoming video so Logan was on my side and Roman refused to join us, saying he had to much to do. Long story short we convinced Patton to stay home fairly quickly and Thomas notified the host of the party that he wouldn’t be there with his apologies so there’s no changing his mind now. As I walked into the kitchen, I grabbed an apple and turned to go to my room when I ran into Roman.

“Sorry, Princey.” I mumbled going to sidestep him. Roman just hummed in response, making me pause. No sarcastic quip or teasing remark? That wasn’t like him. Come to think of it, this was the first time I’d seen him out of his room in a while: and, to be honest, he didn’t look too good.

“Hey, you ok, Ro?” I asked examining his exhausted eyes and dazed look. Roman blinked at my question and mustered up a bright smile that would have been convincing if not for the way he was swaying slightly and the pallor of his skin.

“I’m fine. Why?” he replied nonchalantly.

“Well, I mean, you look a little pale, and I—Whoa! Hey! Ok, I’ve got you.” I interrupted myself as Roman lurched forward, grabbing him as he fell and letting him collapse into me.

“Roman.” I gasped, sinking to the ground with Roman still in my arms. “Roman, Princey. Come on. What’s wrong?”

Roman’s eyes had widened in fear as his breathing picked up slightly.

“Hey, Hey. Just relax, Ro. Just breath, ok?” I coached, trying get him to calm down before he full out panicked.

“I’m s-sorry—I can’t—I-I have to—I just-I just need—just-please—I—” he muttered half-formed thoughts, breathing now picking up steadily throughout his words.

“Roman, Roman. Calm down, you’re ok. I’m here. You have to breathe, ok. Breathe, Ro.” I comforted as he struggled to breathe properly. With a shaky gasp, he curled himself around my arm which he had previously been only clutching and buried his face in my side.

“I-It’s—It’s too much. It’s—I’m—I’m—worthless. Worthle—st-stupid. M-make everything stop. Make it—Make it stop.” He stammered out choking on a sob. I sucked in a breath at his words, but I had to focus on trying to get him to breathe before addressing that.

“It’s—It’s ok, Roman. I’m here, it’s ok. Just breathe.” I repeated, continuing trying my best to calm him down. I tried everything—rubbing his back, comforting him, trying to guide him through breathing exercises—but nothing was working. Roman’s breathing was becoming more and more labored and his sobs were choking out the little breath he had. Roman tried sucking in one more shaky breath before unexpectedly sagging against me.

“Roman?” I whispered, nudging his shoulder gently. When he didn’t respond, I could feel the panic I had been trying to keep at bay for Roman’s sake start building in my chest.

“Logan! Patton!” I shouted as loud as I could before returning my focus on not panicking myself. After calming down a little, I tried calling for the other two again. Soon, I heard hurried footsteps coming toward me and Logan and Patton rushed into the kitchen.

“Something’s wrong with Roman.” I blurted out before they had a chance to speak.

“What happened, Virgil?” Logan asked, examining Roman with concern.

“He—He wasn’t looking too good. I mean, he looked all pale and exhausted and then suddenly he just collapsed and then started panicking and I couldn’t calm him down. And now he—now he won’t respond.” I explained, barely containing my tears as I thought about the situation.

“Take a deep breath, kiddo. I’m sure everything is going to be fine. Um, right, Lo?” Patton stepped in kneeling down next to me.

Logan knelt as well and put a hand on Roman’s forehead.

“Well, it does not seem as though he has a fever. Judging from the dark circles under his eyes, I’d say that fatigue is most likely what caused him to collapse. Then, he passed out due to the lack of oxygen from the panic attack. I believe that he’s most likely been overworking himself. Roman often does not stop when he should, and his exhaustion finally overtook him.” He explained.

“Roman has been spending a lot of time in his room lately. I should have tried harder to get him to join us for meals.” Patton lamented, gazing down at Roman. My heart ached seeing him sad, but it ached even more knowing that none of us really did try to check on Roman much.

“All of us are to blame, Patton. I believe we all got a little too caught up in our own work. We should have tried harder to have, um, “family time” and to get Roman to join us despite how stubborn he can be when trying to finish a project or how busy we were.” Logan assured Patton, effectively voicing my thoughts.

“So, he—he’s going to be ok, right, Logan?” I chanced asking, biting my lip.

“Yes, he only needs rest and when he wakes up, a nice filling meal should help as well.” Logan replied, taking Roman from me and standing up easily.

“Let’s take him to his room.” He suggested, already walking off with the unconscious Roman in his arms.

“Right.” I mumbled getting up to follow him with Patton close behind. I couldn’t get Roman’s words out of my head. Did—did he really thing that he was worthless?

“When do you think he’ll wake up?” Patton asked, his eyes clouded with worry.

“It’s hard to pinpoint, Patton. We’ll just have to monitor him until he does wake.” Logan answered, tone softening slightly when he turned to glance at Patton. After that, we were all silent as we got Roman to his room and into bed.

“All we can do now is wait.” Logan sighed, adjusting his glasses.

“Right, so I guess we should go ahead and leave him to rest, then, right?” Patton clarified hesitantly.

“Oh, um, of course. That would be the most logical course of action.” Logan, clearing his throat uncomfortably. I glanced between the two and bit my lip It was obvious that none of us actually wanted to leave Roman’s side. Not yet, at least. Plus, I should probably tell them what Roman said earlier.

“Um, I mean, when Roman wakes up, he’d probably need someone there to help him right? Just to make sure he’s ok? Or, you know, at least he’d be happy to see us all here for him…right? I mean, he might need support right now or—something.” I rambled, trying to find the right words. At the questioning looks I received from the other two, I sighed.

“Look, it’s obvious we all wanna stay here. We don’t really have anything to do today anyway so why don’t we just stay. Besides, I um—have something to tell you guys.”

“Sounds good to me.” Patton beamed looking to Logan.

“Well, if you insist we stay here, I’m going to go get my book and perhaps a notebook to work on a schedule for next week.” Logan replied, trying to act indifferent.

“Oh, great idea, Lo? I’ll grab my coloring book!” Patton cheered before dragging Logan out of the room to collect their stuff. I chuckled softly as I heard Logan’s complaints from down the hall and pulled out my earbuds before settling in next to Roman. I’d tell them after they got back. Sighing, I leaned against the headboard and examined our resident prince. Sure, we fought sometimes, but that didn’t mean that I didn’t like him. He was actually a pretty cool guy once you got to know him. I just should have noticed that he was acting strange. It didn’t help that this issue had obviously been building for a while for him to fall apart like that. I mean, obviously I noticed his absence. Who wouldn’t? I just brushed it off like the rest. I should have checked on him. It was my fault that it got this far.

We were all busy. Patton and Logan didn’t check on him either. A voice tried to reason in the back of my head.

“But I still should have checked on him myself.” I muttered aloud, countering the voice. I mean how long does it really take to drop by a person’s room and ask if they’re ok? Besides that, I already knew he was insecure about his work and being good enough. Sometimes he practically radiates anxiety when presenting his ideas to us. I just hadn’t realized that he felt like this. Had he always felt like this? Was that the cause of that anxiety? Gosh, I felt so stupid. How could he not realize how great he is? How could we not make sure he knew how great he is? I continued to let my thoughts swirl, cursing myself for not doing more, thinking of how I messed up. It—this was all my fault. It had to be. I could have helped him, then we wouldn’t be here in this situation. If I had just—

“Virgil?” a voice broke through the thoughts, causing my head to whip up. “You ok, kiddo?” Taking a deep breath, I tried to clear my head before offering a minuscule smile.

“Um, yeah. I’m good, Pat.” I lied, cursing how unsure my voice sounded.

“You sure?” he pressed, setting his coloring book and crayons on the end of the bed. I nodded, not trusting myself t speak. Patton didn’t look convinced but dropped it when Logan walked in.

           It was a good thing that Roman had a king-sized bed because none of us seemed to want to sit anywhere else. Patton and Logan situated themselves near the end of the bed, each getting out the items they brought to work on. Right, I still had to tell them. Biting my lip, I sat up a little and cleared my throat.

“Um, guys, I need to talk to you about something.” I started. Immediately, they both put down their stuff and gave me their attention.

“What’s up, kiddo?” Patton asked, gently.

“U-Um, it’s about Roman. He—well, during his attack, he said—he called himself worthless and stupid. Either himself or his work. Maybe both? I mean, I don’t know if that’s what caused it, but it’s a good chance it contributed. And—And I’m pretty sure he’s felt this way for a while. I just thought you should know. S-So we can help him.”

It was silent for a minute after my words, all of us just soaking in what I had just said.

“Oh no.” Patton whispered horrified. “Roman, my poor baby.” Logan just sat silently, though concern and worry had taken over his normally carefully veiled expression.

“We—We can help him through this…right?” I confirmed shakily.

“Of course, we can, Virge. We’ll make him see how special he is. R-Right, Lo?” Patton assured, looking to Logan for support.

“Most certainly.” he agreed firmly.

I nodded and leaned back against headboard. Logan’s surety was nice to have, especially in a situation like this. We—We could fix this. We had to fix this. As Patton and Logan somberly picked up what they had been doing before, I made myself more comfortable, slipping down the headboard until I was laying down. I put in my earbuds to block out the world and closed my eyes, sighing. I mean, might as well use this time to catch up on sleep. The only thing I’d be doing if I were awake would be worrying anyway. With one more heavy sigh, I let myself drift off into darkness, unknowingly gripping the hand of the Prince next to me.

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Warning: Rant

So... I was thinking about Fairy Tail, as I am wont to do, and something occurred to me. Before I get started, I would just like to clarify a few things. I love Fairy Tail (even if there’s a lot I don’t like). I love Jellal. I love Ultear. I love the Tartaros arc.

I am going to complain about all of those things. This will not be short. This will not lack profanity. Read at your own risk.

So one of the most controversial characters in Fairy Tail - aside from all the other ones - is Jellal Fernandes. Some people love him, some people hate him, some people are indifferent, etc. Sadly, most of the people who love him have a tendency to defend him blindly (yours truly included). So let’s talk about some problems people have with him.

The biggest is his recruitment of the Oración Seis - five individuals who were at one point enslaved to him, whom he beats the shit out of and recruits. A lot of people feel that he didn’t give them a choice. For a while, I scoffed at that, remembering that Jellal flat-out told them that he wasn’t taking them back to jail, and I never saw any implications that he was going to kill them should they refuse. But then I looked at things through their eyes, and realized that they probably didn’t feel the same way. They saw a guy who was powerful enough to have destroyed them by himself and who admitted to being sent by the person most likely to want them locked up again. In their eyes, they probably didn’t have as many options. The anime expanded the scene further, showing their decision to follow him and officially become “good”, but it didn’t happen in the manga, so it’s really up to the viewer whether to count it as canon (to the best of my knowledge, it isn’t official, but I don’t know what Mashima-sensei thinks about it).

Another problem people have with Jellal is everything being blamed on Ultear, which... honestly? Yeah, that bothers me too. Because it’s not about Jellal or Ultear - it’s about taking the blame from Zeref so that he can be a tragic villain (something that is very hard for me to accept at this point). First, we’re told that Jellal is being possessed by Zeref, who is - as far as we knew then - this mysterious evil wizard who was responsible for a lot of shit but was thankfully now dead. Okay, that works. But then it’s revealed to have been Ultear all along (in the manga, this is revealed almost immediately, complete with a bubble bath scene, but it takes longer in the anime). The problem here is that that makes no goddamn sense. It feels like an asspull, even in the manga, as if Mashima-sensei had finally developed Zeref enough to genuinely get attached to him as a character (which writers do), only to decide that Zeref should be sympathetic.

First off, since when can Ultear brainwash people? Her magics are Arc of Time and Ice-Make. She uses the brainwashing thing once, and never again after that, despite the fact that it would’ve been really fucking useful.

Second, if Jellal wasn’t being possessed, where the hell did he get all that magical power? It’s not implied that he’s always just had a bunch of magic - he doesn’t use it until after going off the deep end. If he was possessed by a super powerful evil wizard, then yeah, it makes sense that he’d have a lot of power, but Ultear wasn’t supplying him. So, where’d it come from? And regardless of who was controlling him, why the hell did they allow him to let Erza get away?

Third, how the hell is he still alive? In the manga, it was stated that he was atomized by the destruction of the Tower. Atomized. As in, reduced to atoms. But come Oración Seis arc, and he’s... totally fine. Well, he does have memory loss, leading to:

Four, what’s up with his brain? He can’t remember anything except Erza’s first name and, somehow, the location of Nirvana. Oh, and he remembers how to use his magic. Somehow. Putting aside that that’s not how memory loss works, that’s still a lot of disbelief we’ve gotta suspend. For that matter, how the hell did Brain find him? What, he was just in the right place at the right time? Really?

Five, wasn’t Brain the one who taught him magic? And wasn’t Brain also the one responsible for Ultear’s life being a dumpster fire? In that case, why the fuck would she work with him? For the sake of the Alliance, which was apparently a non-aggression pact (that is also bullshit, but it’s irrelevant for the moment)? Doubtful.

Lastly, why was Ultear even in the Tower at all? Did Hades send her? Why? Did he genuinely believe that a little girl would skip through a Tower of terrified slaves and people being tortured (you know, like she was), and not think to herself “gee, this is kinda messed up. Maybe I shouldn’t be working for this guy.”? Did he actually think that? And even if he did, wasn’t Hades supposed to be extremely smart? He shouldn’t have even taken the risk.

So yeah, there are a lot of plot holes. It’s a shounen, so that’s to be expected, but here’s what really gets me: All of this, everything you’ve read so far, could easily have been avoided. How, you ask? Well, this is where the Tartaros arc comes into the equation.

Jellal is insanely strong, can apparently survive getting atomized, doesn’t seem to fully understand other people’s point of view on things, and has a strange obsession with Zeref (who, by the way, has done nothing to any of the members of Crime Sorcìere. Nothing). Sound familiar?

Yeah, the Etherious demons. Literally all of the above problems can be solved by making Jellal a demon. You still feel like someone should’ve been controlling his actions during his streak of villainy? FINE. Seilah exists. Problem solved. If she can use Macro on herself, she can use it on other demons. Mirajane’s immunity can be explained due to the variety of her abilities. Easy.

So, how does this work? Let’s say that Jellal is the result of an attempt to create a humanoid demon that can act as a spy or something. Only he doesn’t understand why he should be looking down on humans. So Mard Geer decides to “help” him think that all humans are shit by sending him to the Tower and sealing his powers, hoping that he’ll develop some sort of deep-seated loathing of humanity. Only instead he makes friends and decides to try and liberate them. Obviously, since the Tower is under Grimoire Heart’s control, this isn’t good for the Alliance, so Seilah heads over to make sure Jellal is unsuccessful. She decides to allow Erza to get away in order to use her as a scapegoat and keep everyone in line.

Flash-forward to Jellal getting blown up in the Tower. He’s destroyed, and reforms in the Cube. Like Tempester, he doesn’t have his memories. Part of the Balam Alliance involves the three major guilds to try to do at least one Nice Bad Guy Thing™ per year, so Tartaros gets Crawford Seam to implant some knowledge about Nirvana into Jellal’s head and they hand him over to Brain (he can still be in a coma if you wanna see him in chains so badly). Jellal wakes up, has no idea what the hap is fuckening, and does what he does in canon (only without remembering Erza - he just figures that the people not trying to take over the world are probably the good guys). Anyway, he helps Natsu fight Zero, gets arrested, and leaves to be probably executed.

Only his memories start returning, and he realizes “oh shit, Tartaros is full of demons, I’m one of them, the humans are fucked”. So he basically decides to try and help the humans by providing them with what little he remembers. Ultear and Merudy break him out, and Crime Sorcìere becomes a kinda task force (as in, the Council is pretending to be actively hunting them, but isn’t because 1. they’re really good at taking out Dark Guilds, and 2. Jellal keeps sending them extremely helpful info).

Hell, this even fixes the beach scene. Jellal has the majority of his memories back, knows he’s a demon, and feels like he needs to tell Erza, because he’s not sure if he’s capable of loving her (literally). But he panics, says the “I have a fiancée” line, and doesn’t end up telling her. The scene where Ultear and Merudy tease him about his shitty lying is replaced with them scolding him and saying that of course he can love and Erza doesn’t care what he is.

Anyway, Jellal’s struggle changes from him trying to forgive himself for crimes the series is intent on reminding us “weren’t his fault” (yet also fails to explain exactly why they weren’t his fault) to him trying to come to terms with his identity as a demon.

This also gives him a reason to go after Zeref. The Etherious, with the exception of Mard Geer, are hardwired to believe that they need to reunite with Zeref. Jellal wants to prove - to himself and everyone else - that he’s more than his origins and decides to kill Zeref (ironically becoming one of the only demons doing what he was supposed to be doing in the process), despite knowing that he will die if Zeref does.

Now, let’s get back to the Jellal vs. the Oración Seis fight. Jellal is a character who wants to be a good person, but shouldn’t he understand that the Seis might not see things the way he does? Well, no, actually. Most demons don’t seem to have any empathy at all - even Natsu has difficulty seeing things from other people’s point of view.

Speaking of Natsu, Jellal’s whole “kill Zeref” plan becomes a bit of a problem once he realizes that Natsu is also a demon, and will thus also die if Zeref does. Jellal has, over the course of the series, demonstrated little to no regard for his own well being, but it’s doubtful that he’d be okay with Natsu dying.

One other complaint people have is that Jellal is often thrown into the plot when there’s no reason for him to be there. But if he’s a demon, his presence can become foreshadowing for Natsu’s identity. Instead of having his character randomly show up to have a moment with Erza, the series could instead show what he was doing compared to what Natsu was doing, highlighting their similarities. And then, once Natsu learns the truth, Jellal can be the one who says “yeah, well, welcome to the club”, giving him an actual reason for showing up so much.

And that’s still not everything. This also provides a solution to the rest of the cast learning about the demons in the first place. In canon, Doranbolt finds out from Cobra - who, when you think about it, really shouldn’t have known about that. It’s highly unlikely that the Dark Guilds had meetings (again, the whole “it was a non-aggression pact” thing), and Brain was good enough at shielding his thoughts that Cobra didn’t know his “father’s” true opinion of him until Brain literally back-stabbed him.

Is that it? Nope. Jellal’s relationship with Merudy and Ultear becomes a lot more meaningful too. Instead of being “oh yeah, they’re friends now, yay”, it becomes Jellal accepting them in spite of the crimes they (willingly) committed, and them accepting him in spite of him being a demon. Hence why he knows that Fairy Tail won’t abandon Natsu - because true friends will be there for you, even if you are literally a monster.

On top of all that, there’s Jellal’s strength. Several people have said that he shouldn’t have been able to defeat the Seis, given that Midnight beat him so badly the first time they fought (to be fair, he’d just woken up from a coma and spent a lot of magic on a suicide attempt). But the Etherious are powered by negative emotions like anger and hate (hence why Natsu can solve most of his problems by getting pissed off at them), so Jellal could’ve just been powering up off how much he hates himself and/or Zeref.

To sum it all up, some of the biggest problems with Fairy Tail could’ve been resolved by making Jellal into a demon. And that says a lot about this series, to be perfectly fucking honest.