#literally nothing happened what thr fuckš„š„
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ok but like why do I keep having panic attacks(or something similar) like every day. what
#literally nothing happened what thr fuckš„š„#vent#scavs silly misc#dark pearls#panic attack#panic attacks#anxiety#idk if i have anxiety i probably do but idk i. literally got diagnosed with it bruh#i always feel something off in my body every time this happens for minutes in advance#its like a build up of nothingness#i dont. know
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fuckin nanowrimo progress (iām strugglinā) (days 1-4)
word count before beginning: 10,995
chapters completed: 3/21
chapters outlined beforehand: 11/21
(will update those top statistics every week probably :))
okay Iāll fuckinnnnnnn do this. days 1 - 4 of nanowrimo, condensed in a singular post because no way am I making one individual post every time. formatting this Update sorta like @/callipraxiaās because itās actually very fun to read and short! cramming soooooo HERE WE GO
day 1:
words written: 1099.
writing sessions had: 1
percentage of manuscript completed: 2%
goal reached?: nope. 568 words behind.
scenes/chapters worked on: 1, and Chapter 4.
interactions written: some quick context of whatās gonna happen in this installment. we meet hastur, see how normal and burning his life in hell is, before getting summoned by beelzebub with a very odd order: go to earth and literally just attack aziraphale unprovoked. they donāt give any reasons for this, donāt even tell hastur to capture him or anything useful, just hurt him. there IS a reason, obviously, and itās actually pretty valid, but we donāt know that yet. and we wonāt until a good bit laterā¦.
curse words/nicknames (in-world and otherwise) used: eight. one derogatory āpetā and two derogatory āangelā from the demons and me quietly cursing hastur to kingdom come very quietly . Iāve been logging them. I wanted a random statistic okay? theyāre fun.
amount of breaks had in between: one bathroom break. I didnāt take that long tho so it doesnāt really factor in much
random thought of the day: how the fuck do I write in hasturās voice. his voice is fucking. weird. schrodingerās voice. is he british is he from wales like what IS THIS FUCKING THING???
day 2:
words written: 1858!!!
writing sessions had: 3. two small ones with a big one in between :)
percentage of manuscript completed: 6%
goal reached?: YES! 191 words over the minimum too!
scenes/chapters worked on: 2, and still Chapter 4.
interactions written: the first one was a brief interlude of domesticy. aziraphale and crowley were just chilling at a cafe watching a few humans struggling with some coins placed and glued to the sidewalk by crowley for a bit of entertainment. crowley, however, is suspicious of aziraphaleās apparently innocent intentions with this date day. he will be right eventually.
and scene two is just the very beginning, because I couldnāt do much more afterwards. crowley and aziraphale are just having a nice walk before the atmosphere changes drastically and crowley gets tackled like an american football player. things only get better from there /sarc
curse words/nicknames (in-world and otherwise) used: four. crowley calls aziraphale angel twice, aziraphale drops a ādearā, and crowley uses āblessedā once. I didnāt curse anyone at all!
amount of breaks had in between: soooooo I kind derailed for like 30 minutes to eat some pancakes. I was hungry and the opportunity came so perfectly I just. things happened! I still got my limit tho so hell yeah
random thought of the day: why are this fuckers so fucking romantic. Stop It š«µ also apparently hasturās signature weapon is a crowbar according to my Two Fics with hastur in it (this and another). He used a crowbar once in the show and I was like yeah. yeah thatās his weapon nowš„
day 3:
nothing. I couldnāt write that day, sadly. tired as hell
day 4:
words written: 568
writing sessions had: 2
percentage of manuscript completed: 7%. i should've been at 13. crying
goal reached?: nnnnopre. 1667 - 568 = 1099. ironic, isnt it? so. ironic. right? yeah. its weird isnt it. inversion. like i missed 2 days instead of one. i am on the brink of extinction
(also i just realized that the daily word count increases by the day. day 1 is 1667 and day 5 is 1788. i am actuallly about to die)
scenes/chapters worked on: 1, and STILL chapter 4. i plan for today (nov 5th) to be thr last chapter 4 day PLEASE ITS 5K WORDS
interactions written: the first is a brief acknowledgement of the demon brave enough to comediacly tackle The Demon Crowley very bravely. the second is aziraphale and hastur, who very kindly wacked him acrosd the head and was very confused when all that did was make him stumble a bit. hit him again, didnt even get him to his knees. he switched to a Fear Tactic after the third.
the third is crowley and hastur, who did their song and dance. it was funny ngl. the final one was aziraphale and crowley, who debated on whether or not to flee to the shop and if demons can follow them inside. concensus: no. probably.
(btw, i measure words by using the FINAL word count afterwards, like whats been added to the day before, so these sound like longass interactons they are. either i had them before already and i added on or Smething Else. idk im tired)
curse words/nicknames (in-world and otherwise) used: none that i can remember. im not gonna go back and check atm
amount of breaks had in between: derailed very intensely eighteen minutes in *i was usingthe stopwatch today* to rearrange like 3 chapters of my outline and introduce a new subtle miscommunication plot point that will probably break at least One person's heart. thats the desired outcome. why cant these guys TALK
random thought of the day: wow i dont know how to write this guy (hastur). hey you think he should use that power where he can eat the inside out of someone's body. yeah lets use that its nightmare fuel āØļø HASTUR LA VISTA!??!??!?!
and day fiveās gonna be itās own post soon. so. yes. gonna answer my asks first tho bc they are very important to me. either way, Iām back on track now and it took me TIME but Iām MAKIN IT!!!!!!!!! I WILL!!! WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE BECAUSE GUESS FUCKING WHATTTTTT I HAVE TO DO ERRANDS TODAY!!! AND WRITE 5K WORDS WHEN I GET BACK!!!! IM SO TOTALLY READY FOR THAT :))) *eye twitch* have a good day, guys. or, if youāre ferret, a good night/early morning . hi stanley šš
#:333#remembering the stars#oddly enough literally almost every single one of my mutuals is living here. and presumably american. hm#I mean idk if any of guys are american or actually something else I would never know. but Iād like to think I would know. probably not tho#WAIT tea isnāt. yes I knew it. KNEW IT !!! hi tea if ur reading this :)))
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