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nana-mizu-shiki · 7 months ago

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1. Changed my logo, but I'm keeping my pfp bc I like the color,

2. This isn't fanart, just a sketch based off of a dream I had and I plan to paint

HOLD MY

HAND

PANIC

( Until I Can Breathe

Again.... )

I do realize I spelled Breathe wrong, I fixed that after I took the photo

I'm planning on making the background black so all of the outlines will be white, and the H M H || ( U I C B A....) and hands will be white as well, but the PANIC will be a bright red and the lungs'll be a pastel pink with red shading, the spirally thing that's in the middle of the lungs will probably also have some red highlights.

I tried my best to make the lungs look like, idk, like they're being squeezed and going in and are being sucked into the middle of themselves? I don't know how to describe it but I don't think I did it all that well so if you have any suggestions I'd love some, ty

At the top, it's supposed to be a puff of air, but I think it looks more like a brain and so now I'm debating if I should try to do anything with that, or if I should leave it as a puff of air.

I'm probably going to use acrylic or oil paint for this, watercolor doesn't really fit the vibe I'm going for, but I might do the background (black) in watercolor to give some dimension or something

#[ nana {♡} mizu ]#my art #sketch #artwork #artists on tumblr #art #idk what to tag this as #panic attack #ig #or an #anxiety attack #idk a picture can have a million meanings #just because im the creator doesn't mean i know its every meaning #i mean theres no 'right meaning'#you can interpret this anyway youd like #i mean im just some teenager #i dont know shit

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blizzenn · 21 days ago

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its so stupid how everything gets to me

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iknowicanbutwhy · 9 months ago

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Puyo/Madou, meet ISAT. ISAT, meet Puyo/Madou. I'm sure you have everything in common and this is not at all a completely random crossover of my two current interests

#dont look at Salde for rhe love of my sanity do not even percieve Salde i dint kwno what ifmf doing g #art #fanart #ISAT #puyo puyo #in stars and time #madou monogatari #kitscribbles #sig puyo puyo #schezo wegey #arle nadja #ringo ando #sig really do be sig no last name #prince salde #their ages are different in this one. oldest to youngest - schezo > arle > sig > ringo > salde #you see that stubble on Sig thats baby stubble. thats unfortunate facial hair on a teenager #sometimes it works out for people still in their teens but not sig #Ringo is!! Perhaps a bit too young to travel!! She's basically a foreign exchange student #i have to admit all the roles and dynamics in ISAT are NOT 1:1 in this AU #i have it all mixed up #when i say sig and schezo are besties i mean theyre both awkward with people they just happen to have an understanding. also sig bullies hi #Sig is he/they here!! I dont usually mess with canon genders (hella respect those who do) but honestly i just like it for Sig...#I still need to learn more about Salde but imma just go ahead and say that Salde is kid gender #Was tempted to hide Sig's lil hair thingies under his hat but then was like. Why would i do that #favorite joke in all this is that Schezo tried so hard to Change that he fucked up his own speech patterns and now socializing is. well #sig didnt shave before the loops and now he has to do that every time or suffer the teasing of his friends at some point in the house #thanks guys im going insane over here and youre laughing. going nonverbal now #How does Salde balance a fish on their head? uhhhhh well you see. have you ever balanced a massive bag of frozen peas #Salde doesnt cook but there's money in that fish. Nobody feels comfortable enough to ask a kid for cash but they WILL reward good behavior #in puyos and time

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al-luviec · 4 months ago

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still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)

#alek insanity #not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant #home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day #s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but #its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his #true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish #seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each #other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people #some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here #and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to #say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav #for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has #always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he #doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong #with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only #baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me #the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did #cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the #form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird #(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was #avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol #but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself #for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc #he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow

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mamawasatesttube · 8 months ago

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i have to speak my truth. i think timkon clone baby aus fucking suck

#rimi talks #here's the thing. you take a traumatized teenager and give them a baby. you're going to further traumatize the teen AND the baby #you take a traumatized teenager and say ''hey your bff nonconsensually cloned you while you were dead and now there's a child''........#LIKE THATS NOT GREAT. THATS NOT GREAT!#and like. if it's in-character tim is horribly depressed and grieving. kon has just successfully committed suicide via heroics and come BAC #NEITHER of them is going to be a good parent because of how they are STILL TEENAGERS THEMSELVES #and im just so fundamentally NOT interested in seeing my favs be shitty parents who unintentionally traumatize a child #.....hey wait. is that the appeal? to batman fans i mean. since. yknow. that's what batman does--#anyways ive never seen a single one of these posts that suggests the op has even heard of kon's clone rights feelings #clone baby guardian arc in sb94 you will always be fucking famous #but hey i mean why bother being in-character or anything when you can do fluff thats ooc to the point of unrecognizability i guess #this is tangentially also how i feel about people who say steph couldve kept the baby + raised it with tim. bro they were 15 #but its soo much more egregious with kon because he has NO ability to consent to this. he is dead.#he forgives tim afterwards because tim already knows it was fucked up to do and he was wrong #THATS SIGNIFICANT. BECAUSE THERE *IS* SOMETHING FOR KON TO FORGIVE #frankly if kon returned from the dead and tim was like hey i cloned you and made a child. it'd destroy their relationship #he'd be sympathetic and he would be kind to the child but his ability to trust tim would be shattered by that #and again im just NOT interested in that story!!!!#and neither is anyone else who does this trope i think because no one doing this trope actually gives a shit about kon's character afaict :#OH WELL. whatever . i block and i move on and also i bitch about it in the tags on a personal post. you know how it is #now im gonna go play some more hades. ive gotta beat extreme measures 4 with every weapon

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moeblob · 8 months ago

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I'm on an OC kick and also super indecisive so I spun a wheel (thank you for choosing for me, RNG).

Ricardo is a body guard and is bffs with Marlo. Ricardo's current job is watching after a celebrity's daughter who the public doesn't know even exists. She's just a teenage girl vibing with her mom and getting texts and calls from her dad (who loves her a whole lot and keeps her out of the spotlight very purposefully) and has this bodyguard and his weird friend. Marlo is just vibing with his best friend.

(Also Marlo would absolutely laugh if he heard Ricardo say "someone called me eye candy and it wasn't you and now I think you should call me that")

#my characters #i have an ask in my inbox that has me obsessively thinking about drawing fanart #but i just dont have the energy for what i want to draw for it #its been a rough day guys im dying (allergies and lacking sleep)#(why are allergies so bad today i ask after shoving my face into a cat while knowing im allergic to cats)#there are some prices i will always suffer and pay in life and the cat allergy is one of them you cant keep me away from a cat #im shoving my face in their fur and you CANT STOP ME FROM IT and also they kept bothering me #anyway i got to bed at like 6am after a lot of zoomies and restless legs and then #woke up with both cats in the guest bed with me and man i will not know peace for a few days #worth it tho bc i love them and i will take suffering if it means cattention #i dont really have much to say about the ocs tbh theyre just buddies being guys and then theres a teenage girl sometimes #and people suspect ricardo is her dad and she cant really say no my dads (celebrity) since thats the entire point of rico #so she makes sure its not troublesome for him to have people assume things like that and hes just #idc im in love with my best friend and hes not giving me any kids so not like anyone will start drama if im not with your mom #but he is also ! friends with the celebrity and his wife so he does just go on Family Outings with the wife and daughter #and sometimes marlo because the wife knows of him and invites him sometimes but she treats #rico and marlo like sons instead which is a bit weird to the daughter but she likes her weird fake brothers slash dad and question mark #marlo dyes his hair pink if that matters and has been doing so for a v long time

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b4kuch1n · 2 years ago

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fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!!#its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying)#well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

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perilegs · 1 month ago

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oh no ive started looking at takumi's outfit. if i were to cosplay him that'd be like a several year commitment thing with my speed and how well i'd want to get it done, he wears expensive materials. i'd have to do so much research into how his armor is constructed bc i dont get the point of the white thing that's his collar and stuff. it's kind of like an apron in the front but in the back it's a triangle. also that piece would need very rigid structure for it to not only stay up but not slide. im not really a pattern maker and i wouldnt even know what kind of a pattern to look for as a base id modify for it. his shoulder pieces also make my brain hurt. and i think the costume would be very hot to wear and i'd risk a heat stroke any time other than in the middle of winter. im starting to think im only thinking about cosplaying him bc he might be my fave so far and he has a bow

#i did archery for like 2 years when i was a teenager and that became too big of a part of my personality #there was this. idk what to call it. like an archery club organization thing? anyways they let ppl under 18 attend their classes free #including borrowing the organizations equipment and stuff #it was rlly fun!#and i kind of miss it bc it feels sooo good to pull a bow and hit a target #but im afraid of getting back into it bc what if its not chill casual #what if i need to be good at it #also i did archery around the same time i did riding (at a small local place with horses. it's ridicilous how expensive riding is in big #cities. id have to drive half an hour minimum to even find a stable and then the prices are just. unblievable. in my hometown it used to be #affordable for like. uuhh.. middle class? people. both my parents had jobs and we lived in a house so thats probably it. anyways.#in a big city idk if i could afford riding even after i get my last courses done and start getting an engineers paycheck....)#this is. way past the point #also actually about the parents job thing. when i was growing up they both were factory workers like most ppl where i grew up #and my mom decided to study to become an accountant (it's a high school level study program so a vocation school) when i was in high school #nd last i heard of her she was the head of finances in some company which is so wild to me #i means she is built for the corporate world but it's such a big difference in a very short time #anyways the cosplay. i dont think i will do it. but if i start looking at fabrics a bit too closely please stop me #leevi talks

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lemongogo · 1 month ago

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need 2 find myself again in 2025 . tbhwu

#depression has hollowed me out in2 a shell of my former self #and i thmk i need 2 grit my teeth and just get over It whatever It is #recognizing its no easy task but also knowing i cant keep on like this #and allowing myself to spiral into misery thereby preventing any possible change or growth #sigh …. sogh .. i want 2 be a person again . picture friends circa 2008 outlining me in chalk. i want 2 know theres something there #how u ask (me asking myself)#idk but one way or anotjer . and not in that new yrs resolution fallacy way #anyways . anyways z . crazy how a week off from work will leave u feeling real again #i gotta get out of there . step 1😭🙏🙏#its especially hard when everyone arnd you is objectively doing better. partners finances purpose . >staring in2 the camera 1000 yd stare #u get thru the beast of being a teenager like thank god thats over and then b4 you even catch ur breath #your mid 20s are casting a shadow over u like some menacing thing and u have to gulp and say hes right behind me isnt he #i think people often like to give the advice that youll figure it out but it leaves me feeling so disquieted #bc its like sure im sure i will ive made it this far i can do what i need to get by when the moment matters #but it does nothing to assauge the immediate anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and lack of direction yk #goddmanit assuage i spelled it wrong everyone point and laugh #bc its like what if i dont and i mean that in a very like . existential & not material way . idk what im saying but i think thats the advice #i hate most . not sure if u have felt or do feel the same . -__- like yes oersonal experience sure whatever happens will happen and you will #simply adjust but will i ever feel like its something i want to experience/endure .#whatever anyways x2. im journalling i think that helps me the best rn . and its the one thing thats allowed me hope and i think #having that time to examine and mull over and deconstruct is rly helpful tbh. and i would like to think #over the long term i can repair my creativity and cultivate a new outlet that doesnt leave me feeling empty if i cant draw as i used to #yaar #i feel like i dont write for very long tho thats the one thing that kinda blows #two pages maybe and ive only addressed two maybe three points if im being generous lol i get so bored with the actual motion #when my mind moves 10x as fast . and idc for audio logs either ykwim.#ohh tumblr how i love u . tag system like no other

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anaalnathrakhs · 9 months ago

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love this part of my life where the things that are difficult but challenging and good for me are things i can stop and skip and halfass, but the things that are difficult and painful and pointless are the things i have to live with no matter what

#school and home life are too much to handle so i skip school #because i cant kick my parents out #and appartments cost money #and i dont have a car to sleep in #i could maybe try to dig up my old childhood tent but that brings a whole host of logistic questions + im scared and it's difficult #anyway. it's fine. it's cool. i just have to hold on until i graduate high shcool and then ?????#find a way to live without my parents money OR scholarships #all for some nebulous end goal of having a job (the only field i'm interested in and good at offers two options:#to become an academic #or to become a freelancer #i do not have the fortitude to be an academic and being a freelancer is convoluted and pays like shit)#i might've spent 24h without my parents occasionally if i spent the night at a friend's place once or twice recently #but besides that the last time i've gone 48h without my parents was when the mental health center organised a week camp uhhhh...#two summers ago #incredibly good for my mental health as you can see #god i remember like... years ago. around 13yo maybe or 14. a guy. i dont know if he was a mental health professional or like social cases #but anyway he told me ''you're too afraid to be away from mommy and daddy'' and it made me want to rip his eyes out #several other people have implied or suggested that too over the years and it's just #am i too dependant on my parents? yes. will it be difficult to take my independance? yes.#does it means i don't both rationally recognize and feel that this is really fucking unhealthy and hindering for me #on top of being unpleasant?#FUCK NO #i want out my guy. there's just not many opportunities for an already mentally ill teenager #now that i'm eighteen i have to grapple with the logistical problems of the money needed and how to continue my education #and im sure a billion more if i start searching a little more seriously #perhaps i should kill myself that way i don't cost anyone any more money #broadcasting my misery #vent

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br1ghtestlight · 4 months ago

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i would still pitch an episodic cartoon that follows a kid in the foster care system and each episode/every few episodes follows their life in a different house with a different wacky foster family like a super hippie family or a strict military family etc you know the stereotypes as well as meeting other foster kids. with the goal of finding like the Perfect family. it would be really fun to write and also i think normalizing kids in foster care for a short time or a long time is a good thing for everyone

#by pitching of course i mean that it will never see the light of day bcuz im not making a cartoon show #and networks cancel every show after one season if they even get picked up to begin with #but yknow i think it could be fun!!!!#another concept i had was where a group of like five or so ghosts that are like different stereotypes and died in different decades #like a super girly girl 2000s teenager or a businessman from the 50s #all find a dead body to possess so they can interact with the living world again #but theres only ONE dead body and like eight of them #plus the dead body is just some random middle aged guy so it seems slightly insane for him to be acting like that #less ideas for that one but would also be fun i love weird crazy ghost cartoons #txt

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guinevereslancelot · 4 months ago

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unnerving to see people younger than me living their lives and doing adult stuff successfully. stop that you're supposed to eat ice cream for dinner and be unemployed

#stop making me look bad by having a husband and a baby rn you're 22 fr 😭#tho i do have two friends who got married at 18 and 21 and actually i look good compared to them bc everyone they know was like stoppppp #they dated for ike 4 months before getting engaged lmao #but some people who got married young are actually doing okay and normal and that makes me look bad lol #not necessarily always abt marriage tho #people younger than me with an actual career or grown up job make me feel this way also #anyway #every day im living a life indistinguishable from when i was a teenager and many people my age are already parents with mortgages and such #😐😐😐#anyway i spent my grown up job money on some flowers and now i have no job bc i let my mean supervisor bully me into quitting #i also spent grown up job money on an oven (successfully) and a car (unsuccessfully)#i am rlly just out here.... telletubby with a credit card fr #job just give you money and you can spend it on whatever you want (but watch out)#anyway car was a piece of garbage that couldn't pass inspection 😔#was so proud of myself paying cash for my first car but there's a reason it was that cheap lmao

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wish-i-were-heather · 4 months ago

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can i just say im absolutely fucking terrified for the election its not even funny

#at first it was like haha we're fucked #but now its like #holy shit we're fucked #actually concerned for some people's mental stability #i still need to watch the vp debate but oml #i just dont understand #how some people can be so absolutely stupid and selfish and racist assholes #yet SOMEHOW have people supporting them #yall know who im talking about #i fucking cant #and im under 18 so i cant even vote #we're fucked we're so absolutely completely fucked and i cant do anything about it #but seriously its worrying #how do you have less common sense than a teenage girl who barely knows anything about politics #like dudes please grow the fuck up #you should have to take a test to be able to run for president #or vp omfg dont get me fucking started on jd vance #whatever its fine #i mean its not but what am i gonna do about it #ugh sorry i was looking at politics stuff idk why i did that #ruins my day actually #ugh

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quietwingsinthesky · 22 days ago

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the apartmentverse urge to make the assassins weird immortals due to interacting with the apple who all survive to the modern day and have to Deal with mundane things like public transport…

#they should have a support group about it #ezio would start it. im not sure how high attendance is. probably not very high or consistent.#but like they do have it. technically. they can find the few others who understand what the price of interacting with the pieces of eden was #they’re probably much more The Old Guard than apartmentverse technically but i do need to make altaïr and ezio just hang out. maybe go #through a mcdonalds drive through together. get some mcnuggets.#still covered in blood but it’s dark out so the employees don’t see as they hand their food off. and they climb on top of a warehouse to eat #together. i don’t think they’re… friends? in the way you’d think of friends normally but its more like. when you go to primary school with #someone and they become your friend because you have such a limited pool of options but they’re your friend for life because of that shared #experience. ezio & altaïr are that but for being forced into immortality when they both wish they could have left this fight a long long #time ago and now everyone else they’ve known and loved are gone and they’ve even lost track of their descendants because well. after a while #there’s just… so many.#the other assassins should go through this too. i genuineky dont remember if bayek found any eden artifacts but i like him so he should be #around. and maybe his wife. evie & jacob of course. and the ac3 protag i havent met yet.#also that pirate guy. i played ac4 for five minutes ten years ago but im claiming him he should be around #the point is. when you’ve been around this long. all the other disagreements pale in comparison to that shared weight.#and the point of THAT is. if the templars ever found out about this and kidnapped one of their group. suddenly like a dozen assassins with #hundreds of years of experience each descend on them to free their friend.#they may not be able to dismantle the templars completely even working together. but they can sure as hell protect what’s theirs.#the other point of this is desmond getting accepted into this weird little group.#they’re not *not* also a cult to be fair but-#ohhhhhh thinks about 16 year old fresh runaway desmond on ezio’s couch (he likes having his own place. so sue him. altaïr’s the one opposed #to settling down. like it’ll come back to bite him to choose a home. (and ezio’s in denial that having a home will always one day mean #leaving it.)) and *anyway* teenage desmond fresh off the farm and months without a home. probably *not* agreeing to be brought home with #ezio per say. and altaïr is there because ezio kidnapping children is *weird* and maybe altaïr is not technically the oldest assassin but #he sure does seem to take responsibility for all their actions like he is. anyway. he questions ezio. and all ezio has to say in his defense #is. is. ‘look at him.’#and for now. before they know *who* desmond is. for now he has a spot on ezio’s couch because he looks so much like a younger altaïr.#the end of the world and all the prophecy can come later and desmond *probably* gave ezio a fake name so he can also freak out when they #learn that little detail as well. BUT. but. you get it #ive rambled on too much here

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hanzajesthanza · 2 years ago

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me whenever the short story "something ends, something begins" is mentioned, or not even mentioned, but i have an opportunity to mention it myself

#it is my FAVORITE... if i may bestow such a title... but it's like the witcher fandom's best kept worst-forgotten secret #i love jokes i love in-jokes and i love non-canon presents and silly imaginings that will never be real #im sorry the bouquet looks a little cheap at least it is of white roses which is what yennefer had #i was too busy focusing photoshopping a folk vest on elmo's little body #because i wish to eat a third donut #witcher memes #the witcher #story: something ends something begins #the witcher books #i mean sesb just has some of my favorite favorite moments of all time #''course i know. that's why i don't get married' top 10 dandelion-est dandelion moments #nenneke being their officiant... AUGH #ciri having teenage angst (intense revenge fantasies) so much she almost couldn't enjoy her parents' wedding #GERALT CALLING CIRI HIS DAUGHTERRRR #(which doesnt even happen in the saga if you can believe it!)#yennefer healing ciri and dirtying her dress...#ciri #yennefer #geralt of rivia #dandelion #geralt and yen finally getting hitched and dandelion giving a toast (or roast ?)#wishing the couple a great wedding night for which yennefer kicked him in the shin... so in character i love it

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dankovskaya · 23 days ago

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Of course they r different genres of story centered around very different characters and relationships and situations etc but i think also that just makes it funnier

#also i think what makes tws more effective (aside from there just being like. more intentional effort put into setting it up. like from #the first issue of cap vol. 5 its very clear that the point of it is to build up the circumstances necessary to reintroduce this character #into the narrative and then eventually push him center stage.)#is that its wayyyyyyyy less of a leap in logic for Bucky's character than it was for Jason. bc i mean. ofc there was the propaganda after #the fact trying to retcon jason into the angry and reckless robin. but even taking that into account #almost everything abt the red hood is an inversion of what jason was. and that is intentional and part of the drama of the story. but it #also takesmore effort to reconcile which is why we still have to make 3000000 posts analyzing and theorizing his character #Meanwhile for Bucky its like #he wasdoing winter soldier shit as a teenager during the war #died #continued obviously doing winter soldier shit as the winter soldier #got his memories back + shit #and then ran off to continue doingwinter soldier shit of his own volition against the appropriate targets #Like the conflict comes from thefact that he had no free will and thus was forced to kill indiscriminately according to his mission.#he doesnt seem to actually have much of a problem with anything he was made to do in a vacuum. which is why he keeps doing it #(im sure there was some uniquely vile shit at some pt i just havent read anything where he talks abt it yet LMAO)#and then he becomes captain america with a gun #and now as far as im aware. continues to be winter soldier. hes been doing this shit since hewas like 16 like 90 fucking years ago what els #is he supposed to do. And during all of this his personality remains roughly the same.#whereas Jason still being red hood in the very stagnant way that he has been for most of his career with no writer able to settleon what #his individual issues and problems (and fucking motivations) should be. is just goofy at this point. there was a sharp character split #established by his comeback followed by prolonged and insane deterioration of concept #also steve is not his fucking dad. steve is barely part of the equation. i mean its still gradually revealed to torment him like jason #tormented bruce but bucky had nothing to do with that nor does he have any qualms abt anything steve did #before or after he died Lmfao #ALSO just the in universe explanation for why the character is alive and were the fuck they have been is like 100% more grounded #and intelligible for bucky than jason opdif8ysg8ehspogp it actually makes me cry #UHHHHH superboy primePUNCHED THE TIMELINE so jason woke up and then clawed himself out of his coffin and then walkd around until he got hit #by a car ad ten eh wasin a coma and then the al ghulskjsfksd mjfisoeio9u0se09430[5-43[64] ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#judd winnick fighting for his life to explain that shit for no reason

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