#i mean im just some teenager

[nana-mizu-shiki]

1. Changed my logo, but I'm keeping my pfp bc I like the color,

2. This isn't fanart, just a sketch based off of a dream I had and I plan to paint

HOLD MY

HAND

PANIC

( Until I Can Breathe

Again.... )

I do realize I spelled Breathe wrong, I fixed that after I took the photo

I'm planning on making the background black so all of the outlines will be white, and the H M H || ( U I C B A....) and hands will be white as well, but the PANIC will be a bright red and the lungs'll be a pastel pink with red shading, the spirally thing that's in the middle of the lungs will probably also have some red highlights.

I tried my best to make the lungs look like, idk, like they're being squeezed and going in and are being sucked into the middle of themselves? I don't know how to describe it but I don't think I did it all that well so if you have any suggestions I'd love some, ty

At the top, it's supposed to be a puff of air, but I think it looks more like a brain and so now I'm debating if I should try to do anything with that, or if I should leave it as a puff of air.

I'm probably going to use acrylic or oil paint for this, watercolor doesn't really fit the vibe I'm going for, but I might do the background (black) in watercolor to give some dimension or something

[blizzenn]

its so stupid how everything gets to me

[moeblob]

I'm on an OC kick and also super indecisive so I spun a wheel (thank you for choosing for me, RNG).

Ricardo is a body guard and is bffs with Marlo. Ricardo's current job is watching after a celebrity's daughter who the public doesn't know even exists. She's just a teenage girl vibing with her mom and getting texts and calls from her dad (who loves her a whole lot and keeps her out of the spotlight very purposefully) and has this bodyguard and his weird friend. Marlo is just vibing with his best friend.

(Also Marlo would absolutely laugh if he heard Ricardo say "someone called me eye candy and it wasn't you and now I think you should call me that")

[perilegs]

oh no ive started looking at takumi's outfit. if i were to cosplay him that'd be like a several year commitment thing with my speed and how well i'd want to get it done, he wears expensive materials. i'd have to do so much research into how his armor is constructed bc i dont get the point of the white thing that's his collar and stuff. it's kind of like an apron in the front but in the back it's a triangle. also that piece would need very rigid structure for it to not only stay up but not slide. im not really a pattern maker and i wouldnt even know what kind of a pattern to look for as a base id modify for it. his shoulder pieces also make my brain hurt. and i think the costume would be very hot to wear and i'd risk a heat stroke any time other than in the middle of winter. im starting to think im only thinking about cosplaying him bc he might be my fave so far and he has a bow

[br1ghtestlight]

i would still pitch an episodic cartoon that follows a kid in the foster care system and each episode/every few episodes follows their life in a different house with a different wacky foster family like a super hippie family or a strict military family etc you know the stereotypes as well as meeting other foster kids. with the goal of finding like the Perfect family. it would be really fun to write and also i think normalizing kids in foster care for a short time or a long time is a good thing for everyone

[guinevereslancelot]

unnerving to see people younger than me living their lives and doing adult stuff successfully. stop that you're supposed to eat ice cream for dinner and be unemployed

[floorpancakes]

big fan of headcanoning that kid doumeki killed the class chicken because nobody else wanted to and he was already being picked on for being Inexplicably Weird and Smelling Like Death so his classmates probably thought it would work as a bullying tactic. he handled it like a champ and it makes sense that he would but it's still kind of sad

[famewolf]

yesterday's birthday LotR watch party was AMAZING!!! we had pot roast and potatoes and a huge spread of cheeses and fruits and meat and at the end we ate a loaf of pumpkin bread that had chocolate chips. we just grazed all day on the most scrumptious foods and with the best company

I also received one of the most heartfelt cards I've ever been given, by one of my best friends. and it made me legitimately choke up.

said as much to them, but I'll express it here too because it's nice to reflect on: it was the first time that I've not had to deal with rough feelings on/around my birthday. and a huge portion of that is thanks to how loved and cared for they all made me feel. and I feel that always with them! but I've never had friends that went out of their way to take time off without me even knowing or asking, just to spend the day with me! or who planned the gathering so that all I had to do was hang out and enjoy myself.

it's just .... very special and means more than I could put into words. I think as someone who is almost always in charge, and heavily relied on, and is always striving to show up for others ... it's a gift all on its own to not have to be in control. and I didn't really know that that's what I wanted until my besties asked me what I wanted to do for my birthday. I didn't have any idea and they immediately went 'what if we planned something for you' and I realized that that was exactly what I needed!

so anyways, long and the short of it, I had an incredible birthday weekend with people who I cherish with all my heart and I feel full of love!

and now today we're going over to their house to play D&D :3

[emperorcartagia]

twin peaks 2x07 "lonely souls" // babylon 5 2x09 "the coming of shadows"

IT IS HAPPENING AGAIN.

[hanzajesthanza]

me whenever the short story "something ends, something begins" is mentioned, or not even mentioned, but i have an opportunity to mention it myself

[dankovskaya]

Of course they r different genres of story centered around very different characters and relationships and situations etc but i think also that just makes it funnier

[cutiepatootiekatie]

i got bored so i accepted a friend request from some random guy on snap and the first thing he said was “wyll” so i blocked him 😭

[thetriggeredhappy]

i dont wanna exaggerate and use terms like "personal responsibility" and "doing the right thing", implying that there's any amount of like, homework that you need to do, any kind of requirement in your day to day life - but i do think that sometimes you gotta do a nice thing for a kid, y'know? don't you remember how nice it was, being a kid, when someone older than you or cooler than you or more talented or capable than you said something or did something that showed that you, like, existed as a non-negative and non-detrimental entity? it's so hard, being a kid. tell them they're doing a good job. encourage them to go be human beings. do nice things for kids. c'mon. it's always worth it

[dashiellqvverty]

god nothing infuriates me like ao3 writers and nsfw fanartists acting like they are sex workers. like they will look at an explicitly anti sex work bill and be like "this is bad bc think of how it will affect our precious queer ao3!!!! they'll take the whole site down probably!!!!!!!!" im going to kill you with hammers

[phagodyke]

aouuugh my uterus......

[marsixm]

im trying to wrap my head around why i dont get enthusiastic about reddit style fiction (not a dig but a descriptor) like scp and shit like that, bc its not that i can’t enjoy them but i think its like… when stuff is framed as if it were real, but its fiction, its like, well KNOWING its fiction eliminates a huge element of the intrigue, but also, crucially, i like character-driven stories, or at least stories WITH characters. but i also like it when things are interesting for said characters to experience, like, i want the ghosts and monsters and conspiracies but i want the characters to be character-ing, yknow? not that i dont enjoy slice of life and… what would u call the first thing, non-character specific horror? idk? but i prefer when its both. its like i love kirk and spock but also i do enjoy watching them Experience Situations when i watch star trek. i enjoy the idea of spooky national forest monsters that arent real but experiencing it alongside a character would be better, and i want more trans and gay characters whose lives are clearly trans and gay but i want a plotline to unfold too