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The phrase "I can't understand how anyone would want this/DID" has been completely and utterly abused on this site to the point where when I see someone use it I immediately end up skeptical and whenever I get any urge to talk on the struggles of dissociative disorders myself I just feel my stomach churning
#i have seen this followed up by some of the most batshit and disconnected from reality dialogue multiple times#to the point where i legitimately cannot tell how to recognize the line between someone using a legit coping skill correctly#and someone either malingering or egrandizing their actual symptoms for more clicks#and i just. it feels very heavy and very bad today#actually did#dissociative identity disorder#did#dissociative#vent#anti endo#or just roleplaying#i cant tell that either#theres so many fucking posts that make me feel like everyone else is in some elaborate roleplay that i was the last to figure out#and it just brings me back to the fucking worst time
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the scene people keep screaming about from chapter 5 of theseus' guide
#gravity falls#gf theseus' guide#billford#stanford pines#bill cipher#stanley pines#mabel pines#dipper pines#m.png#THIS WASNT SUPPOSED TO TAKE ALL WEEK AAGH#cool thing i did where i took these characters who i cant draw from any angle but the front and then have them turning around CONSTANTLY#not just views from different angles either! active turning! im a genius!#i feel like you can tell which shots were drawn on different days sadkfhlgljaskg this killed me. i was gonna clean up the bgs but fuck that#theyre functional on a basic level and that is all we need#anyways can you believe the notorious line is only in the fic because an eagle eyed editor (not myself) caught it just before it was delete#and started screaming until it got put back#also the way stump came over while i was making this and was like 'oh right. i ship them' at the way i made bill flirt lmao#it hits different in the visual!#alright now i gotta fucking haul ass on the chapter 8 one
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listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded mfer happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.
#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know#im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie#or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them#snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow!#but then shes gone…. for a while……#and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book#that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss#the hunger games#coriolanus snow#tbosas#lucy gray baird#not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration#but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause#like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not.#snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time#he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets#and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets#he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved#but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall#he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires
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Bitches will be like “my ship just got confirmed” and then show you a single low-res frame of ambiguous origin where the characters walk out of a room together. It’s me. I am bitches.
#tagging ships I know#timkon#Superbat#boostle#spideypool#birdflash#jayroy#stephcass#wrightworth#bruharvey#ghostbat#supercorp#can you Tell i consume a lot of comics#byler#steddie#cant name a straight ship cuz all of those are either insane confirmed or both#unfortunately I also have to tag#klance#they were the first#clex#dickroy#dickwally#ships#shipping#1k#2k#3k#4k#5k#6k
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AU martin i've been cooking on the tma rp twitter....
#art cabinet#martin blackwood#the magnus archives#tma#he's pushing 50 here lol. he's 49 !#touched by both the lonely and the vast#so he's kind of like shared properly hopping between sailing on fairchild boats and lukas boats#hes mostly w/ the lukases though heheeh#but he hasnt been fully claimed as an avatar of either yet because of. heh. well. i cant say that here because my friend follows this blog#GATEKEEPING LORE IS MY PASSION#he has a special notebook that he always seems to lose but it always finds its way back to him#its like an extension of him#both a diary and a journal yk#also hes rlly hot did i say that hes super hot like hes steaming hot hes smoking hes so so h#also if youre wondering. haha. ha. yes i'm making a matching tim for himJKHAHALSKA BUT DONT TELL ANYONE!
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Another blog noticed that Megumis scars are on the same position as Heian!Sukuna. And it's true! By that logic he should have scars under his armpits and on his belly (second arms and second mouth). You drawing it would be interesting
shoutout 2 megumi for making up fr all of yuuji's scars i no longer get to draw
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#i love it thank u i feel better abt yuuji's newly bare face#i mean . th nature of my art means tht these will b hidden th majority of the time sighs so its not Quite the same#but the knowledge that i Can draw them if i so choose is a balm on my soul#i want itfs to have matching chest scars SO bad . canon 2 me idc smile :)#anyway i thought abt rendering but i decided i stayed up all night and i don't feel like painting abs on all of 0 hours of sleep#normally i wld Jump on the opportunity to render shirtless torsos but i dont have it in me gomen hope u like grey :'>#been having fun with lines lately anyway ! found a new brush that layers over itself#either multiplies or burns on itself i cant tell either way i Love It#these scars r prime angst material also . looks at my writer mutuals w big yuuji style puppy eyes#:3
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saiteru is so misunderstood and its so sad because its genuinely one of the best implied ships ive ever seen
girl who thinks she can only be loved for her appearance and when she sacrifices her own happiness and privacy for the sake of others............ guy who doesnt care about her appearance and grows to care about her despite knowing all her secrets, and insists that she doesnt need to sacrifice anything but still admires her for it......... u guys only hate them cuz u hate to see a girlboss winning
#bonus points theyre bi4bi and ace4ace#in my opinion#+both tsunderes who pretend they dont care abt each other but youd have to be totally media illiterate to think either is telling the truth#mwahahaha#this is also why i cant stand people who insist that he only likes her in the end because she always inevitably gets what she wants#i dont necessarily totally disagree because she did literally get what she was after (the offu)#but the way he cares for her is so different than the way other guys do#its not inevitable... its something they both worked toward#he does also find her attractive but its not what he likes about her#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#teruhashi kokomi#saiteru#terusai#meows post
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im still applying for jobs, ive applied for state assistance as well but theyre taking their time with approving it. i have bills coming up soon, at the very least i need enough to pay my electric bill bc theyre threatening to shut it off 😬 if anyone has anything they can spare itd be greatly appreciated. im transmasc and i have no family to rely on for this kind of thing. i also have commissions available, dm me for info
vnm: tobias_leviathan
pp: paypal.me/bewearr
thank you 🙏💕
#idk what the secret to applying to jobs is but something is fucked up lately and i cant even get a stupid fast food job#ive applied to so many and got rejected by all of them or just straight up ignored#and thats WITH calling every few days to check up on it#i get either ignored or sent to a bot that just tells me to apply online or the manager has no clue whats going on#ive applied to at least 50 jobs this month and last month not a SINGLE one has given me the time of day#ive been to 4 interviews and got a few callbacks but theyre all dead ends#i dont know what to do anymore. ive been focusing hardcore on art so thats something but ive been working on my backlog and not making money#im just so frustrated and hopeless idk what to even do anymore. ive signed up for temp agencies even and they never have any jobs#its stupid that i HAVE a job but they refuse to give me hours. this is genuinely worse than being unemployed
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STOP WITH THIS GROSS TRANS BULLSHIT
okay!!! whatever you want my lovely anon full of whimsy and joy 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵
#yelo rambles#asks#LMFAOOOOO THIS MADE ME CACKLE WHEN I SAW IT IN MY INBOX#i cant tell if you meant gross or if that was a typo of cross#EITHER WAY ITS FUNNY AS FUCK LMAOAO#get trans beamed 💞💞#utmv#undertale#underverse#cross sans#trans rights#transgender
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birth of the shittens
secret designs for the babies!! baal is named after baal because hes alive. super alive. yes yep yep
#cult of the lamb#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#cotl#my art#narilamb#shitpost#cotl au#cotl toww#narilamb shitten#i literally cant (and i refuse to) imagine either of them being pregnant#magic babies sent from hell#how else would they exist#cw sex joke#doodle#if anyone asks the lamb will tell them narinder was pregnant
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my sister told me that if you put something in the internet, that thing no longer belongs to you, it belongs to the internet
#i was so shocked ngl#i was drawing Hunter just now and asking myself if anyone's ever thought of him THAT WAY#HE WOULD NEVER#THE THOUGJT OF IT MAKES ME CFINGE#my boy gets all flustered and happy in front of his robot wife he is the real 'my wife is sosoft and i like her'#for B2. sometimes i wonder if ppl might either perceive her as naive#and if they saw her during the prologue they'd just say she's mean and uncaring#then i tell myself 'CANT A BOT BE MEAN AROUND HERE LEAVE HER ALONE !!!!!'X#starbstalks
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Alright. So this episode was great, but in terms of themes & setting the stage for the rest of the story, this line really stands out:
"You feel something. You look, the Night Yorb twinkling. You've spent your whole summer chasing this. You know all the things you've missed. Your whole summer vacation, all of your friends. Some of you had birthdays on the road this adventure, and yeah, there's lots of adventure, but all of you feel a tiredness in your bones knowing that the reward for saving the world yet again will be going back to school and having another year of working just this hard forever."
This monologue from Brennan is the most thematically/foreshadowy thing we get in the episode, and it does set quite the stage. This is a story about exhaustion and the price of adventure. It's a story about what the hells these six people are going to do with the rest of their lives.
Fig releases something at the end of the episode. Some piece of magic that will certainly mean something later. This is how it's described:
"You've been holding onto a piece of magic for a long time... If you take me, you know what you would save. And you smell something sour and curdled."
"There is a flash of light, a kind of lemony yellow creamy light that flashes out over the hangvan."
Pay attention to that word choice. The magic is "sour" and "curdled" and "lemony yellow creamy." Is it reminiscent of anything?
Gilear's connection with yogurt is established pretty early on in Fantasy High, and yogurt in general serves as a symbol for everything that Gilear is. A sad, pathetic adult and A Normal Guy. Brennan is very insistent when reading out Gilear's stats for the first time that he's just a guy! Some people have to be normal!
But our Bad Kids aren't normal. That's the whole point of them. They've saved the world. Falling to Gilear's level is terrifying. It's literally Fabian's nightmare.
From that part of Pirate Brawl:
"You hear a voice behind you" [Gilear!Fabian] "say: 'It's all going to be all right... I know it seems very far off, but there is a way for you to be happy.'"
And of course, the yogurt, the symbol of mediocrity, is here too. "The yogurt curdles in your stomach." Curdles. The same word used to describe the magic coming out of Fig. The yogurt that Fig gives to Fabian while he's having his breakdown in Leviathan is lemon flavored too.
Of course the primary conflict seen in the trailer is about difficulty graduating. That's a normal problem. That's a normal concern for normal people.
The fear of mediocrity can be strong. Especially for people as exceptional as the Bad Kids. But the fear that you'd be happier taking the easier path, that the road less traveled isn't inherently better, that your hardship is for nothing... that's even worse.
The reasonable thing for Fig to be releasing would be the red growth seen on the minis in the trailer. But no. She releases something lemony and creamy and sour and curdled.
#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#d20#dimension 20#figueroth faeth#no i cant tell if im joking here either#meta#speculation
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me: *hands print i made to frank welker*
frank: ohh are you autistic— i mean artistic?
me: yes. both. autistic yes
frank: yeah me too <3
#and then i got to tell him we have the same birthday <3#and he asked me if i liked to swim#i said yes but i actually CANT swim#and he went ahh that was a test. i cant either.#HELP ME? 😭😭😭😭#anyway i should not be surprised the man who made a career out of making animal noises is autistic
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yet another JAYVIK post about the Butterfly Effect :3
also spoilers lol
So Hextech isn't invented in Ekko's alternate timeline, and I feel like since life seemed so much better without Hextech there can be a couple things to infer about alternate Jayce and, by association, our Jayce (and Viktor!) here:
this is a long one and my long posts never get notes but i promise its actually super interesting to think about so u should totally read through it 🧎🏻♀️➡️🔥
1. (and also my favorite one bc its Very JayVik lmao) alternate Jayce never pursued Hextech after the explosion: maybe too guilty over killing someone (because we see alternate Vi died from that explosion during the kids' robbery), he does what Heimerdinger advises him to: fully admitting his crimes and not mentioning the arcane. And we can assume the academy burned all his studies too becauseeeeee…
Viktor never endorsed it. Assuming the admission of guilt theory is correct- Viktor never would’ve even known about the arcane in the first place, because Jayce would never mention it in the council room trial. Viktor would never know that the arcane can be used to help cure people, which we see is what piques his interest in the first place. And like, obviously Viktor wants to cure his leg and illness lol
Which means Viktor never interrupted Jayce's suicide attempt after the trial and Jayce probably goes through with killing himself, Viktor never went to check on him. It seems the compelling force behind Viktor’s interrupting in season 1 was initially from Jayce’s journal, which he picks up while browsing all the Hextech equipment they were planning to destroy. Viktor only really looks at the notes because he was interested in the arcane in the first place, which again, can't happen if Jayce never mentions it in the council room.
Which is SO important to the plot and me that everything happened the exact way that it did for everything to succeed (which is quite literally the butterfly effect btw lmao). Because it shows how extremely important Jayce and Viktor’s partnership was to not only their own lives, but the entire future of Piltover, good or bad ie no hextech=no shimmer and peace between the cities, hextech= tons of shimmer, the corruption of the arcane, and the destruction of piltover.
Jayce needed someone there to believe in him, and that was Viktor: After the council disagrees with him, and he’s kicked out of the academy and banned from studying the arcane, he tries to find comfort with his mother. She’s the one who was saved using the arcane in the first place after all, so surely she’ll understand. But she tells him to give up on this dream, a dream he’s had almost his entire life. His own mother doesn’t believe in him.
He then goes to the Kiramman’s because “I'll find someone to believe in me,” most likely assuming if they sponsored his studies in the first place, they would still support him after the trial. But they kick him out from the Kiramman household too, as well as forbid his and Caitlyn’s friendship. And with no one left, the very next scene we see of him is as he’s deciding to jump.
The only thing that stops him is Viktor showing up. With an interest in the Hextech theory after he reads Jayce’s notes, Viktor wants to help Jayce make the Hextech a reality. Viktor believes in him, and he supports him. That interaction is what leads to their partnership forming, them sneaking back into the lab, grabbing the Hextech equipment and showing Mel and Heimerdinger that it was possible to create magic, and Mel's influence leading to the council’s support and the okay on continuing to develop Hextech together, projecting Piltover into success (and of course accelerating it into ruin, seen in s2. but I won’t get into that snowballing effect here because we’ll be here for hours)
Also, Viktor would be against Hextech if his first and only introduction to seeing it was as a tool to invoke harm (on a Zaunite especially). Which is what would drive Viktor away from investigating it, and before their theory ever even has the chance to get off the ground or evolve, it's already dead in the water for good because:
Something both of them, but especially Viktor, have been extremely against during the entire show was that their plans for Hextech WILL NOT be used as weapons to kill or harm, only to make lives better (especially in the undercity). Think about it: Viktor only adamantly opposed using the Hexcore AFTER it killed Skye.
The guilty conscience of accidentally killing another person with his own technology would not have helped Jayce’s mental state either lol. Like, think about the DIRECT PARALLEL in our timeline: where Viktor almost jumps and kills himself, after Skye's death, as a result of his tampering with the Hexcore, before Jayce interrupts him (ohhh their mirroring, it hurts me)
2. If not from jumping, then alternate Jayce was arrested or exiled… I mean like, he inadvertently killed a young Zaunite girl. That's a lot more consequential to his conscience, reputation, house name AND criminal record than just the building blowing up in our timeline. It’s pretty vague if anyone died in our timeline from it, I think the most that’s mentioned is some people were injured (“Was anyone hurt?” “A building was blown to bits, what do you think?”) so it would weigh heavier on Jayce’s shoulders if someone actually died in this timeline.
Also remember: he felt so guilty about accidentally killing a child with his hammer in s1, that he gave up entirely on trying to wipe out the production of Shimmer. Once he sees how his Hextech can be used against someone, he drops all his plans because "thats not what we created Hextech for"
From that theory, I'm assuming more-so that he was exiled though? Because Heimerdinger said he was in the alternate timeline for like 3 years and couldn't find Jayce, so I don't know... plus I feel like he would have found Jayce in jail if he was there lol.
And beforeeeee anyone yaps, ik Heimerdinger actually said he thinks Jayce ended up somewhere else, and never specifically stated that he "couldn't find Jayce". BUT from the end, since we see two Ekko's before he goes back to the main timeline, we can assume that the original person's mind inhabits the other's body so that there aren't like paradoxical two people in one place at the same time.
SO theoretically, Heimerdinger actually does go looking for Jayce, and if he found the alternate timeline's Jayce, he probably would've mentioned it to Ekko when asked if Jayce was there too… right? I’m assuming he was hanging around Ekko for most of the 3 years that he was there, waiting for our Ekko to be projected into the alternate Ekko, because it's not like Heimerdinger just happened to show up right when our Ekko gets there, he might’ve assumed it would happen eventually. And when the alternate Ekko starts freaking out about being in the wrong universe, it's pretty clear that this is his Ekko now lol
But then why stick around Ekko and not Jayce? I guess he was currently closer to Ekko, calling him his current pupil, and given that he was the one who showed him the Firelights community and gave him hope. Plus I mean, Jayce literally voted him off the council from a disagreement over the Hexcore so there's some salt in the wound there lmao. Or maybe because Ekko is a lot younger and would not react as calmly or rationally as Jayce would (I'm assuming... idrk HAHA). You could argue that Heimerdinger was just visiting both of them back and forth, but again if he couldn't find any Jayce, then I think it would explain why he doesn’t mention any Jayce at all, and that's where this make the most sense, at least to me.
3. alternate Jayce also died in the explosion with Vi- When we see it in our timeline, he and Vi were the closest to the blast. If it killed Vi, it would’ve presumably killed Jayce too. And if he did die, then obviously Hextech would never be invented, reasons being: everything I just mentioned in the previous theories.. but like, even more simplified bc he wasn't there to begin with lol
I only say it's a weaker theory because Heimerdinger definitely would've seen a memorial for him (or at the very least a gravestone), given Jayce was in the Talis house and under the study of the Kiramman family, it was a pretty high status name compared to the average Piltovian citizen, and probably wouldn’t be silenced or brushed away…
Although to counter that, I guess since everything in the over city is super status-y, maybe the Kiramman’s wouldn't want their name being tied with the death of two people, which is a similar but obviously more significant reason to why they kicked him out of their house in our timeline after the trial, his “name is no good now.” Plus we hear in the council trial from Ximena that the Talis family is a lower house too, and their voice doesn’t hold as much weight, so maybe it wouldn’t actually have that much mention? He hasn’t become the “Man of Progress” yet either since he’d never get to finish his studies…hmmmmm idk
also edit but some ppl just pointed this out to me that viktor likely died from his sickness bc he didnt have the hexcore to heal him and that makes me SAD !!!!
anyway thats all i have. if you made it this far i greatly appreciate you :3 🫶🏻 i love analyzing this show because OUGH the jayvik butterfly effect goes CRAZY HARD bc its both figurative with the theory and literal with the butterflies being in SO MUCH of their imagery UGHHHHH what the FUCKKKK
also some shameless self promos symbolism of viktor’s humanity and jayce's hallucinations analysis posts if u liked this one :3c
#BTW ! whether u ship them or not (this wasnt really supposed to be a shippost) u cant rlly ignore the importance of their whole relationshi#nd yeah i used the jayvik word but its really (to ME and for ME) to describe them together (partners or /Partners/ bc it works either way)#the way this literally took like 4 whole hours to write omfg how do youtube analysts do this holy fuck#i just checked an this is 1600 words LMFAO ??? someone tell me to stfu#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#arcane season two#arcane league of legends#league of legends#heimerdinger#heimerdinger arcane#ekko#ekko arcane#jayce talis#jayvik#viktor#viktor arcane#viktor and jayce#jayce and viktor#jayce arcane#arcane season 2 act 3#the butterfly effect#kats movie rants#hextech#arcane meta#karcane
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iv only just now realized. that tumblr butchered the quality on my monster!jon post so badly that you couldnt even see the fun lil easter egg i put in one of the statements 😔😔😔
#tma#u cant even tell all the patches on spiral gerrys fit are doors either 🥲#why must i work on such a large canvas grrr#tw Hello Jon Apologies for the-
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not a single person has read "hamlet" correctly on this morn
the idea of reading hamlet "correctly" is laughable to me ngl because it's such a personal piece of media to me that i can't imagine being able to interpret it without interpreting yourself through it in some way. that being said there are definitely some readings of it that make he would not fucking say that.jpg flash across my eyes.
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