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vamptastic · 1 year ago

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really truly catastrophically depressed in a way i have not been in living memory. nevertheless i keep trucking.

#ahhh its not that bad im not suicidal at least. had worse when it comes to my mental state.#however. the Symptoms.#ouuuugh the amount of classes i have missed. at least i go to community college rn. all is not lost i think.#genuinely been struggling to get out of bed feed myself clean my place shower etc the past few weeks #which like normally depressive episodes would hinder my ability to do.. maybe half of that. or all of it for a few days only #three weeks of nonfunctioning is... not my usual! but i suppose i normally am obligated to go do things and be around people #and living alone now i can just... not.#idk what im even going to tell my professors. the truth i guess. mentally ill and living alone for the first time. cant be the only one.

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redstonedust · 4 months ago

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the undiagnosed experience is picking up any form that has a ''do you have a disability'' section and staring at it for 20 minutes because you genuinely dont know which answer would be considered truthful

#like well. not officially. however theres so many freakin symptoms that i think if i declare myself neurotypical im lying

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ladyzayinwonderland · 2 months ago

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friends, romans, mutuals, what are some ways you find joy in this time of early nightfall?

#I’ve never dealt with seasonal depression before #usually I am all for nightfall coming early and getting all cozy #however pregnancy has really thrown my brain for a loop #by the end of the workday I’m just so tired #and due to pregnancy symptoms I’m having a difficult time #enjoying my usual hobbies like knitting and reading #so if yall have any tips to share I’d welcome them #my life

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 7 months ago

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Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?

put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings

#realtalk therapy doesnt work unless the person getting the therapy puts in the effort to make it work #eridan starts the comic in complete and utter denial that he's in need of help #so there's really nothing i nor any stranger could do about that #HOWEVER he does talk to karkat often about his feelings (and vice versa) and #the reason they didnt hang out during the game seems to be #1) they were on separate teams and didnt realize the teams were the same team until later on #2) by then it was too late and eridan had aggro'd all his angels #3) gamzee was deliberately keeping eridan away from karkat and vice versa (likely bc gamzee had a palecrush on kk)#4) karkat was too busy falling victim to his own insecurities abt being a leader to pay attention to his actual friendships #4a) eg. it shouldve been the time player doing the frog hunt with kanaya & not the blood player #like im not saying moirallegiance with karkat would have fixed all of eridans problems but i am saying #what eridan really needed was a friend who took his problems seriously and could see past his bullshitting #and karkat already WAS that friend - they just never hung out #so by the time the meteor rolls around eridan has spent WEEKS feeling abandoned anxious and alone on his death planet #and karkat has gotten used to not thinking about eridan too much #so karkat - who is basically eridans only actual friend at that point - isnt able to get through to him & eridan snaps #like the thing about sburb/homestuck is that it really stresses the importance of friendship and working together #letting each other help with each others' problems #thats why the smallest viable game is still two people by necessity #so when we see things like gamzee snapping or eridan snapping or vriska snapping #as much as these are the 'fault' of the person snapping they also need to be viewed as comprehensive team failures #the people who should have spent the game together didnt and the people who shouldnt have spent the game together did #vriska was allowed to bully tf outta tavros and nobody intervened #eridan was left all alone and nobody tried to help him #and everybody was mean to gamzee and nobody tried to connect with him #and you know whose job it is to make sure the right people are hanging out together? the blood player #and unfortunately our blood player was so insecure that he was doing jobs that werent his to do #im not saying pale erikar would fix homestuck but i am saying pale erikar is a symptom of things being fixed in homestuck

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iwritenarrativesandstuff · 8 months ago

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Feel like making people miserable today. Anyways, here's Gon experiencing like. Textbook symptoms of trauma in the CAA, in case there was any lingering doubt about this or anything:

Initial denial that the experience happened or was traumatic

[ID: A screenshot from episode 85 of HxH 2011. Gon, eyes bright and with a smile, says "Kite is alive!" End ID.]

Flashbacks

[ID: Two screenshots from episode 95, and a third from episode 110. In the first, Kite's arm is shown in the foreground, bleeding and blurred. In the second, a close of Pitou's wide eyes, looking animalistic. In the last, puppet Kite's mangled and scarred face stares emptily ahead - the scene is greyed out. End ID.]

Intense distress at real or symbolic reminders of the trauma

[ID: Two screenshots from episode 116. In the first, Gon's fist can be seen in the foreground, with Pitou shielding an unconscious Komugi just barely seen. The narrator says "The girl lying before them brought back". In the second, Komugi has a medical respirator on. The narrator continues "images of a broken Kite to Gon's mind". End ID.]

Physical sensations such as pain, sweating, nausea or trembling

[ID: A screenshot from episode 116. Gon's fists slam into the ground as he says "That isn't fair...". Sweat drips down his arms. End ID.]

Extreme alertness/hypervigilance

[ID: A screenshot from episode 116. Part of Pitou can be seen in the foreground as Gon stares at them intensely, crouched on the ground with his arm resting on his knee, obscuring his lower face. End ID.]

Angry outbursts or other extreme behaviour

[ID: Two screenshots, one from episode 116, and the other from episode 127. In the first, Gon shouts "Is something wrong with you?!" as his face contorts with rage. His aura floats black around him. In the second, Gon, his face shadowed eerily with thin lines, says "The next time you try to delay me, I'll kill her." End ID.]

Feeling like you have to keep busy

[ID: A screenshot from episode 94. A close up of Gon's face from the side as he says "I want to focus on my training." End ID.]

Doing things that are reckless and self-destructive

[ID: Three screenshots, one from episode 95 and the other two from episode 131. The first is stylized as a black outline of Gon's figure over a background like parchment or a projector - he's been hit in the face and sent to the right from the force of the blow. The second is a close up of Gon's face, almost completely shadowed, with intense and vacant eyes - he says "I don't care". The third continues with a close up of his eye filling with darkness - "if this is the end..." End ID.]

Feeling like nobody understands ("since it means nothing to you")

[ID: A screenshot from episode 116. In a whitish-room with a crack on the wall between them, Gon stands ahead of Killua, facing away from him. They are both in shadow. End ID.]

Ignoring offers of help and shutting out loved ones... poor Killua :(

[ID: A screenshot from episode 136. A spotlight on both Killua, in the foreground, and Gon, walking away from him in the background. Killua thinks "I wanted you to ask for my help in defeating Pitou!" End ID.]

Self-loathing, self-punishment, and lack of self regard

[ID: Three screenshots, two from episode 110 and the third from episode 131. The first is a close up of Gon's face over Morel asking "When would you try to hurt yourself?" The second is a continuation. Morel looks down at Gon who is facing away from the camera as Gon replies "When I couldn't forgive myself." In the last, adult Gon, staring ahead, is animated in black and white with the only colour being the blood from the stump of his right arm. His left hand grips his shoulder. End ID.]

Blaming yourself for what happened

[ID: Two screenshots, one from episode 95 and the other from episode 130. In the first, Gon hugs puppet Kite around his waist. In the second, Gon stares blankly ahead with tears streaming down his face as he thinks "I killed Kite." End ID.]

Overwhelming feelings of anger, sadness, guilt, and shame

#all this wasn't going to fit into my gon analysis but i still wanted to cover it #when i say he was genuinely traumatized i. actually seriously mean that.#note that this does NOT mean he had ptsd!!! ptsd should only be diagnosed if symptoms continue for several weeks to a month #after being removed from the traumatic situation #given that the trauma was ongoing this does not count! we could only say he has ptsd if somehow these symptoms persist when #he's back on whale island after the fact. but honestly i doubt they would #however. in caa? yeah 100% he was very traumatized by kite's death #hence all the trauma symptoms i listed above. poor little guy :(#storyrambles #hxh #gon freecss #this post hurt me to make btw. ow. ow.#i also. cruel as it is i genuinely like that gon's trauma fueled breakdown was. not palatable. like he is genuinely really scary there #and it's REALLY hard to watch and listen to #i really get why killua felt so helpless there.#like. your best friend is incredibly fucking volatile and very obviously wants to and is intending to run himself into the ground #because he feels he deserves it #what the hell is the other thirteen year old supposed to do here. :(#random thoughts

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only-man-in-the-sky · 4 months ago

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"I hope you get to heal enough to experience final fusion someday" sorry but that's like actually not possible. yeah. sorry

#🦅.txt #final fusion is a pipe dream and quite honestly it's probably rooted in ableism #even if you *do* manage to get your headcount back to one #you're still gonna have all the other symptoms like dissociation and flashbacks and so on #and you'll still be able to split #so even if you *do* get back to just one alter #you won't stay that way for long #and the idea that traumatized people #(especially people who are traumatized to the extent of having fucking alters)#the idea that we need to make ourselves smaller and more “manageable” and “simple” is unfair #systems should heal however they feel they need to #making yourself more convenient isn't healing #I think people just can't seem to understand that some people are never normal again #hence the ableism #but yeah no fuck you we're not doing final fusion

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bookshelfdreams · 1 year ago

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americans learn what the middle ages are challenge

#15th century? that's the very very tail end (depending on what landmark you chose for an end)#16th century? ABSOLUTELY THE FUCK NOT #and also the witch hunts weren't really a medieval thing they mostly took place in the early modern era #and largely weren't perpetuated by 'the church'#and the inquisition spanish or otherwise had nothing to do with them #because church doctrine actually was that belief in witchcraft is superstition; only god is all-powerful #yes heinrich kramer called himself institoris. that doesnt mean anything it's just a fancy title he gave himself.#and hey guess what! protestant regions were way worse about killing witches than catholic ones. 'the church'? that's catholicism babe #do you see the flaw in your argument #anyway of course theres not an exact endpoint to the middle ages however #it's a period of a relatively stable socioeconomic system that collapses for various reasons #& things like the witch panic are a symptom of that collapse #so to talk about that in the same breath as *actual* medieval folklore & blame them on 'the church'#(when the catholic church losing power and influence was ALSO part of that collapse!)#is careless and silly #esp when you call yourself a historian #rant over

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welcometotheravenclawcommonroom · 1 year ago

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Things they teach you in middle school science class: the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell!

Things they SHOULD teach you in science class: do NOT mix cleaning chemicals or you will chloroform yourself (or worse)

#mod des #PSA #luckily I did not learn this from experience #I DID however learn this from a FUCKING FANFICTION in my early twenties #I also learned how to recognize symptoms of kindney stones through fanfic #how has fanfic taught me more science than school tho fr #anyway DO NOT mix chemicals unless you’ve googled first to make sure they don’t react badly with each other #the amount of people who do not know this is terrifying #pure dumb luck that I and many others didn’t accidentally poison ourselves while cleaning house

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randomfoggytiger · 4 months ago

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Prompt Request Announcement

(Credit to: ??)

I'm currently under the weather; and, forced into unproductivity, I come to you, my mutuals.

Please, I beg of thee, send me Fictober prompts. >:DDDD

#Announcement #mine #randomfoggytiger #updates #Fictober's next month #...oh boy #we'll see what I can do this year #currently swamped at the moment with so much catch up #aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh welllllllllllll #this post is silliness and curiosity and an earache combined #no worries btw-- I'll be fine one the symptoms run their course #but it sets my plans back AGAIN #however... I'm strangely... at peace with being unproductive #that's a first in a very long time #prompts

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polaksli · 1 year ago

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Brief history of anti-LGBT legislations in Russia

Throughout 90s and 2000s there were no discriminatory laws in Russia. There were openly queer celebrities (whether they said they were for PR alone or not is a complicated subject. Nevertheless, there were people who gained popularity and presented queer)

In 2013 the first legislation passed. It was an "anti-propaganda" law to "protect children" from becoming gay. The way to work around it was putting +18 on any piece of media or an event that contained even a mention of the subject.

In 2022 anti-propaganda law stopped being for children only. LGBT was mentioned next to pedophilia, both in the same regard. The law was rushed (like many of the oppressive laws since the invasion in Ukraine) and it was not clear what exactly it meant. In practice it mostly affected movies, TV and internet publications.

Earlier this year, in june 2023, ban of transgender transitioning was put in place. Once again, very poorly worded. This one and the previous one had two main functions:

To censor opposition. Most of those, who disagree with the current state of politics in Russia, if not outright support LGBT, at least don't mind. This information can be dug up and used against said people.

To create an enemy. The war was supposed to be won quickly. They promoted their army to be the second greatest in the word, they promised to take Kyiv in 3 days. Nothing of that happened, but life for everyday people got worse. One of the ways to redirect that frustration is fight an enemy that doesn't exist.

The russian government does not care about queer people nor understands us. They preach to their electorate that they nurtured to hate any "other". They make russian believe that our neighbors are nazis, the whole world wants us dead and they take our children by making them gay. I believed this is where they would stop.

There is no "LGBT organisation" in Russia. Before that they tried to find any minute reason or make up a reason to silence the opposition. Now they don't even need the organisation to exist.

Once again, the words are very loose, so they can use the law in any way they see fit - a very popular practice. It is not yet active, the court decision does not specify that exactly. Some sources say it will be 10th of January, 2024.

Any display of "non traditional values" will be equated to terrorism.

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meirimerens · 1 year ago

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#purely as a disclaimer i wish no physical harm upon her person this is but a joke made in the format of a “meme” and she is only one coach #being a symptom of a bigger societal ill that is the exploitation of female athletes; especially girls; directly stemming from #the exploitation of women and girls in all facets of life under patriarchy. however;#female figure skating #(?)

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wallterthetall · 7 months ago

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Greetings everyone, sorry if I worried any of you with my sudden disappearance! I am alright, I simply had to take a stay at the Blox County Hospital.

#Shortly after I posted my inquiry about grey stuff dealers #I became severely ill.#Fortunately I have recovered. However #I am currently suffering the symptoms of grey stuff withdrawal.#I will be responding shortly to any inquiries related to new grey stuff dealers!#((IN-CHARACTER TAGS END HERE))#mod [name pending]#wallter hrt arc

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ratnurse · 3 months ago

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Last night I finally ate a proper meal, today I went to the supermarket and had a coffee... I had to stop to rest in the park on my way home because I'm still pretty weak but I found a four leaf clover which I take as a sign that I'm going to be okay. i still need the odd painkiller for old stanky but I'm not constantly puking my guts up which feels INCREDIBLE. Once again, never ever get a kidney infection

#dont ignore uti symptoms however mild they are because it will travel to your kidneys and fuck you up im telling you!!!

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cluster-b-culture-is · 3 months ago

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Suspected Cluster B culture is believing you had one situation but. well a lot of people are suggesting a different PD entirely when you talk about your symptoms honestly and you’re beginning to wonder if you were wrong and it was that other one

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#cluster b culture is #questioning cluster b culture is #cluster b #npd #aspd #bpd #hpd #Mod Reef #anonymous #take a good look at the personality disorders people are suggesting #it could be that you were wrong and have a different PD; it could be that you have both PDs and they overlap in symptoms; it could be that-#--they were misinterpreting what you were saying and that you're right about the PD you have #however things end up going just remember that it's not a crime to be wrong #(especially when it comes to PDs which have a shit ton of overlap)

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hero-dualies-3 · 6 months ago

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shoutout to the time i wrote a full ass presentation on why i couldn’t have autism because a few close friends were making jokes and i thought they were misunderstanding what autism is and how it presents. well. uh. so it turns out

#i do not have a diagnosis i am neurotypical i am neurotypical i swear.#however the symptoms are . multiplying quickly and kind of coming for my kneecaps #i swear to god these days every three seconds i realize another funny quirk of mine is also a symptom of being Not Neurotypical #i am starting to think maybe i should like. see someone about this #shoutout to jaidenanimations and saiki k for kickstarting this #flopposting #<- please please please

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temporalreverie · 1 year ago

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Princess Fiocchi Di Bucaneve, the snow-ridden pegasus

#aka princess snowdrop flakes aka princess flakes aka princess~. ill give her a full bio later but here's a brief one #she has an autoimmune disease tied to snow magic. some symptoms are chipped hooves; shedding; and wings unfit for flying #any detritus transforms into snow after separating from her body. this makes her good at making snow but is strange to her & others #it is unclear to most if she is a real princess. however her behavior would garner the nickname princess regardless #princess flakes #mlp oc #mlp #my art #art #my ocs #(reposted to fix something i forgot)

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