#however. the Symptoms.

[vamptastic]

really truly catastrophically depressed in a way i have not been in living memory. nevertheless i keep trucking.

[redstonedust]

the undiagnosed experience is picking up any form that has a ''do you have a disability'' section and staring at it for 20 minutes because you genuinely dont know which answer would be considered truthful

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?

put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings

[neurotypical-sonic]

sonic is NOT dumb or stupid or a dingus just because he's impulsive. stop calling him an idiot

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Feel like making people miserable today. Anyways, here's Gon experiencing like. Textbook symptoms of trauma in the CAA, in case there was any lingering doubt about this or anything:

Initial denial that the experience happened or was traumatic

[ID: A screenshot from episode 85 of HxH 2011. Gon, eyes bright and with a smile, says "Kite is alive!" End ID.]

Flashbacks

[ID: Two screenshots from episode 95, and a third from episode 110. In the first, Kite's arm is shown in the foreground, bleeding and blurred. In the second, a close of Pitou's wide eyes, looking animalistic. In the last, puppet Kite's mangled and scarred face stares emptily ahead - the scene is greyed out. End ID.]

Intense distress at real or symbolic reminders of the trauma

[ID: Two screenshots from episode 116. In the first, Gon's fist can be seen in the foreground, with Pitou shielding an unconscious Komugi just barely seen. The narrator says "The girl lying before them brought back". In the second, Komugi has a medical respirator on. The narrator continues "images of a broken Kite to Gon's mind". End ID.]

Physical sensations such as pain, sweating, nausea or trembling

[ID: A screenshot from episode 116. Gon's fists slam into the ground as he says "That isn't fair...". Sweat drips down his arms. End ID.]

Extreme alertness/hypervigilance

[ID: A screenshot from episode 116. Part of Pitou can be seen in the foreground as Gon stares at them intensely, crouched on the ground with his arm resting on his knee, obscuring his lower face. End ID.]

Angry outbursts or other extreme behaviour

[ID: Two screenshots, one from episode 116, and the other from episode 127. In the first, Gon shouts "Is something wrong with you?!" as his face contorts with rage. His aura floats black around him. In the second, Gon, his face shadowed eerily with thin lines, says "The next time you try to delay me, I'll kill her." End ID.]

Feeling like you have to keep busy

[ID: A screenshot from episode 94. A close up of Gon's face from the side as he says "I want to focus on my training." End ID.]

Doing things that are reckless and self-destructive

[ID: Three screenshots, one from episode 95 and the other two from episode 131. The first is stylized as a black outline of Gon's figure over a background like parchment or a projector - he's been hit in the face and sent to the right from the force of the blow. The second is a close up of Gon's face, almost completely shadowed, with intense and vacant eyes - he says "I don't care". The third continues with a close up of his eye filling with darkness - "if this is the end..." End ID.]

Feeling like nobody understands ("since it means nothing to you")

[ID: A screenshot from episode 116. In a whitish-room with a crack on the wall between them, Gon stands ahead of Killua, facing away from him. They are both in shadow. End ID.]

Ignoring offers of help and shutting out loved ones... poor Killua :(

[ID: A screenshot from episode 136. A spotlight on both Killua, in the foreground, and Gon, walking away from him in the background. Killua thinks "I wanted you to ask for my help in defeating Pitou!" End ID.]

Self-loathing, self-punishment, and lack of self regard

[ID: Three screenshots, two from episode 110 and the third from episode 131. The first is a close up of Gon's face over Morel asking "When would you try to hurt yourself?" The second is a continuation. Morel looks down at Gon who is facing away from the camera as Gon replies "When I couldn't forgive myself." In the last, adult Gon, staring ahead, is animated in black and white with the only colour being the blood from the stump of his right arm. His left hand grips his shoulder. End ID.]

Blaming yourself for what happened

[ID: Two screenshots, one from episode 95 and the other from episode 130. In the first, Gon hugs puppet Kite around his waist. In the second, Gon stares blankly ahead with tears streaming down his face as he thinks "I killed Kite." End ID.]

Overwhelming feelings of anger, sadness, guilt, and shame

[only-man-in-the-sky]

"I hope you get to heal enough to experience final fusion someday" sorry but that's like actually not possible. yeah. sorry

[doll-fac3d]

its time for me to ramble abt siffrin (probably also extends to loop?)'s derealization yaaay

if i were a smarter person id write and upload a 40 minute video essay to youtube called "in stars and time and derealization" about how amazing the game is at writing siffrin's slow perception of their family as "actors" and that it perfectly mirrors the exact process of depersonalization-derealization disorder's effect on someone's (mostly my) mind ESPECIALLY considering how siffrin is a theater kid and it's not uncommon (at least for me) for my derealization "scenarios" to manifest from forms of media i enjoy or some kind of scenario that's been presented by a pre-existing work of fiction. i'd talk about how slowly but surely the game makes you feel just as alone as siffrin and makes you adopt all the mannerisms of thinking he has throughout the game. how yeah, both in real life and in game everyone else starts to feel so unimportant because youre alone in feeling that nothing but you exists. nobody else is real so youre so so alone. id talk about how only specific people dont feel NOT real, but not quite real either. how they ground you but not in a way that fixes much. How they ground you in a way that stops you from going entirely insane but its still hopeless. How there's nothing else in the world but you so why does it matter. What sick kick is the universe getting out of putting you here? Studying you from afar like a lab rat. It's not fair. none of it is fair. you're in a horrible purgatorial nightmare and you cant get out you can never get out. and even when you do get out the healing is going to take so long. you dont know if youll ever fully heal. how long will it take? a year? so much of it will never leave you. is that just a notion youve made up? you have to heal at some point, right? or is that just another thing the universe is making you think to mess with you. but also im not smart enough for that so like

[bookshelfdreams]

americans learn what the middle ages are challenge

[tsaricides]

wanted to send this to boyfridged but I saw that you were shadow banned 🫡 but it's always so jarring seeing writers try and turn Jason into a "ladies man" or whatever, he's so clearly not interested and non equipped to be in a relationship and the way they handle it each time is so funny because there's clearly 0 effort put into it and it's a shame because when he first came back part of what made his character interesting was that he was almost a subversion of the gritty 90s antivillain without most of the macho hyper masculine aspects in short to me he's like a Ken doll ❤️

essentially! i think winick def did also allow himself to drift into the macho stereotype a bit, but jason's youth and sensitivity was a much more prominent theme at the time. the tears! the focus on his role as a child to a parent rather than any other kind of bond...

the thing for me is that i'm not even against him getting a romantic storyline in general. though that's in far, far future, because as you said yourself, i don't think this is something he is even interested in at all, and most def not at this point. but i don't think that it should be these fleeting romances? others have already expressed the sentiment, perhaps more precisely, but jason is not someone who takes love lightly. if there's anything he takes lightly at all. there's both the expectation of commitment and his own abandonment issues that would affect any relationship tremendously. but dc doesn't even afford the exploration of it in his friendships. we just get characters dropped at him (like steph and dana even...) with a couple of lines about how they are best friends and with them already knowing pretty much everything there is about jason... but as readers we know that this is the kind of vulnerability that he's been chasing for very long and was always denied. at times, by himself too. is this not something that deserves more than a stray panel dumping that info on us?

and speaking of stray weird panels, not sure if you've read rh: the hill #2 yet but i just wanted to confirm that the make out session panels did not, in fact, contribute anything to it!

[welcometotheravenclawcommonroom]

Things they teach you in middle school science class: the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell!

Things they SHOULD teach you in science class: do NOT mix cleaning chemicals or you will chloroform yourself (or worse)

[randomfoggytiger]

Prompt Request Announcement

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I'm currently under the weather; and, forced into unproductivity, I come to you, my mutuals.

Please, I beg of thee, send me Fictober prompts. >:DDDD

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Also I am so sorry that you currently covid, hope you beat it to death dude!

:-}

thanks! im doing my best!

[polaksli]

Brief history of anti-LGBT legislations in Russia

Throughout 90s and 2000s there were no discriminatory laws in Russia. There were openly queer celebrities (whether they said they were for PR alone or not is a complicated subject. Nevertheless, there were people who gained popularity and presented queer)

In 2013 the first legislation passed. It was an "anti-propaganda" law to "protect children" from becoming gay. The way to work around it was putting +18 on any piece of media or an event that contained even a mention of the subject.

In 2022 anti-propaganda law stopped being for children only. LGBT was mentioned next to pedophilia, both in the same regard. The law was rushed (like many of the oppressive laws since the invasion in Ukraine) and it was not clear what exactly it meant. In practice it mostly affected movies, TV and internet publications.

Earlier this year, in june 2023, ban of transgender transitioning was put in place. Once again, very poorly worded. This one and the previous one had two main functions:

To censor opposition. Most of those, who disagree with the current state of politics in Russia, if not outright support LGBT, at least don't mind. This information can be dug up and used against said people.

To create an enemy. The war was supposed to be won quickly. They promoted their army to be the second greatest in the word, they promised to take Kyiv in 3 days. Nothing of that happened, but life for everyday people got worse. One of the ways to redirect that frustration is fight an enemy that doesn't exist.

The russian government does not care about queer people nor understands us. They preach to their electorate that they nurtured to hate any "other". They make russian believe that our neighbors are nazis, the whole world wants us dead and they take our children by making them gay. I believed this is where they would stop.

There is no "LGBT organisation" in Russia. Before that they tried to find any minute reason or make up a reason to silence the opposition. Now they don't even need the organisation to exist.

Once again, the words are very loose, so they can use the law in any way they see fit - a very popular practice. It is not yet active, the court decision does not specify that exactly. Some sources say it will be 10th of January, 2024.

Any display of "non traditional values" will be equated to terrorism.

[meirimerens]

[wallterthetall]

Greetings everyone, sorry if I worried any of you with my sudden disappearance! I am alright, I simply had to take a stay at the Blox County Hospital.

[ratnurse]

Last night I finally ate a proper meal, today I went to the supermarket and had a coffee... I had to stop to rest in the park on my way home because I'm still pretty weak but I found a four leaf clover which I take as a sign that I'm going to be okay. i still need the odd painkiller for old stanky but I'm not constantly puking my guts up which feels INCREDIBLE. Once again, never ever get a kidney infection