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I go on Jumblr. I see a post from a Zionist Jew talking about 'hamasniks' (undefined) and claiming that the mass slaughter of thousands of civilians is self-defense. They claim that antisemitism is the only axis of oppression that matters. They only want to be affiliated with "good Jews" (Zionist Jews) and claim that antizionist Jews deserve antisemitism. I block and move on. I scroll down and see a post from an antizionist Jew talking about Zionist Jews (undefined) being genocidal babykillers and claiming that antisemitism doesn't matter. They claim that antisemitism is the only axis of oppression that doesn't matter. They only want to be affiliated with "good Jews" (antizionist Jews) and claim that Zionist Jews deserve antisemitism. I block and move on. I scroll down and see a post from a leftist antisemite talking about how Jews pretend everything is antisemitism and how lying Zios are manipulating the government to fake their connection to eretz yisrael. They believe that "bad Jews" deserve antisemitism and that antisemitism is not just right but righteous. I block and move on. I scroll down and see a post from a conservative antisemite talking about how Jews pretend everything is antisemitism and how lying Zios are manipulating the government to fake their connection to diaspora. They believe that "bad Jews" deserve antisemitism and that antisemitism is not just right but righteous. I block and move on. I scroll down and see an AI picture of a cat lighting a menorah. The menorah is not kosher and the caption reads "Merry Meownukkah! Eight Crazy Nights." I turn off Tumblr.

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went to yearly physical today and apparently my resting heart rate is Not Good! it's totally asymptomatic so i'm not like, at imminent risk of death i don't think, but my resting heartrate is 140bpm when completely and utterly chilling. i was kinda surprised by how nervous the doctor seemed about it but i looked it up and 140 is apparently what it's meant to be at with moderate exercise, it absolutely shouldn't be that high at rest.

anyway i'm fine, i'm monitoring at home for a week to double check that it wasn't a fluke and then i'm getting a new cardiology evaluation. this is more of a long-term preventative medicine issue than an imminent emergency, i think. i already did an evaluation a few years ago when it was resting at 120bpm, and they didn't find any physical problems with my heart/neurological tachycardia signs and told me that if i feel fine that it may simply be within normal human variation. but 140 bpm is definitely Not within variation, that will absolutely weaken my heart muscles over time, so... back to the holter monitor mines i go.

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get yourself a main character whos two primary emotions are "little cunt" and "catatonic with grief"

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and does long live the black parade have an intimacy coordinator

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i just rediscovered the pelican spider. give me 1-2 business days to stop laughing at how they're shaped and ill be normal again

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Ceaseless watcher turn your gaze upon this fuckin thing

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like wow you don't like rap because it's all about sex drugs and violence? that's sooo crazy i bet you hate horror movies too on account of all the sex and violence there. perhaps you also think opera and classical music are boring and stuffy? as we all know, the worst examples of a genre and its fans define it entirely, and you can't express a lack of interest in a genre unless it is in some way morally reprehensible.

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depresses me so much when fearmongering articles about the Transgender Craze and whatnot use photos of real trans teenagers just hanging out in a group. like that could just be a picture of my friends from high school. you're taking a picture of a bunch of kids that are likely bullied and ostracized by all their peers having a moment of peace and freedom from judgement and using it to argue that they need to be more like everybody else right now immediately. evil.

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an interaction im very tired of in online autism spaces. aka when you don’t have a special interest / when your special interest isn’t [character] or [fandom]

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every time i find an old picture of myself i look at it and go ah yes, i was convinced i was the ugliest person ever when i took this, but i was actually objectively hot and also not nearly as fat as i thought i was. now one would think i might extend this mindset to current photos of myself. they would be wrong.

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i hate stem sometimes dude there have never been more than 3 girls in any of my math classes. plus me. absolute sausage fest situation. i am the shortest person in the room at all times. get me outta here.

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i need to get over myself and just make a NSFW sideblog already. like enough of trying to be tasteful and humorous about it. this is tumblr.com i'm not the only virgin loser on here. i need to set myself free. i need to be cringe.