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I found this interesting channel, it documents wartime broadcasts from these radio stations called Arcade SuperCenters. I didn’t even know they made radio stations that talked about arcade games... It’s pretty neat, go check it out!
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#heres the disclaimer! its not real#the russo american war never happened#the arcade supercenters sadly never existed#and no one got caught in a nuclear bombing#its a analog horror/arg series i’m making!#im calling it analog horror because the transmissions broadcasted before the digital era but its technically a mix of analog and digital#oh yeah its gonna be disturbing too as it goes on#i feel like thats a given but yknow just in case#horror#arg#au#alternate reality game#alternate universe#alternate history#digital horror#analog horror#arcade games#arcade games involved in the series so far are as follows:#pac man#dig dug#mappy#galaga#galaxian#pole position#berzerk arcade game#(i have to specify cuz popular manga/anime berserk exists)#q bert#bubble bobble#sky kid and donkey kong might become relevant to the series too#unreality
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"just be yourself" has always been one of my most hated things to hear from someone. it may sound simple and easy to you, but when you grew up never able formed a single solid personality (because you grew up autistic or for some other reason) and/or have always felt more like 20 different personalities in a trench coat who fight over who is supposed to be in charge, that "simple" advice is so much less simple.....it can even seem impossible.
#autistic#autism things#autism#actually autistic#neurodivergent#adhd#audhd#dissociative disorder#dissociative identity disorder#did#osdd#not sure what all to tag#disclaimer. not formally diagnosed with did/osdd but currently being evaluated for it because therapist says#i have “concerning levels of dissociation” and feels its negatively impacting my life and these little freaks in my head need controlled#well she didnt say that last part but there needs to be some order in here#anyway. WHO AM I. WHO IS LEE. IS LEE A REAL PERSON. WHO IS THIS SELF YOU SPEAK OF AND HOW DO I BE THAT. IDK.#lee rambles#big imposter syndrome when considering a dissociative brain thing. been super exhausting working on it with therapist. is that normal?
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Complaining abt Suicide Squad yet again but the fact that they have Waller exposing the alien community to space racist attacks and talking abt how she got to her position through deceit and being a terrible person and stuff is just. Ahsfiwueh JUST SAY YOU DONT KNOW WALLER.
Anyways literally the 3rd mission of the Squad ever (and the first framed as smth Waller picked and not orders from above) was the Squad discrediting and stopping a rogue vigilante who was only arresting POC and funneling white people into white supremacy groups (of which he was the most prominent member) in SUICIDE SQUAD #4. and it's explicitly framed as this mission being personal for Waller that she's hiding from the government bc its illegal like. Guys. Please why are we having her incite (space bc comics) racist attacks now
Also the whole "Amanda got her position through deceit and being a terrible person" NO. she KEPT her position through being shitty and playing complicated political games!!! She wasn't always that way like there is a difference and it is IMPORTANT ppl PLEASEEEE. In Secret Origins #14 we learn Amanda's backstory and she used to be a normal, caring person! Like even after she entered into working in government and politics she wasn't automatically morally bankrupt like please people. She was originally given control of the Squad by Reagan (*sigh* 80s comics...) to distract and get rid of her because she was so successful at pushing progressive social policy in Congress. Acting like she's this static pillar of evil is such a waste of her character and so fucking uninteresting and disrespectful to her arc it drives me MAD.
Like I am NOT saying Waller is all sunshine and rainbows, she fucking SUCKS (said w love <3) but like there's a human being there. It's a progression, she has a character arc like please, DC, please!!! They've fucked up Waller so bad and made her so opaque and uninteresting she can't even be the protagonist of her own story for fucks sake!
Like I don't know how many times I have to scream it until DC hears me or remembers but WALLER IS THE MAIN CHARACTER OF SUICIDE SQUAD. ITS HER BOOK. yet right now she's a cutout to be used as the villain wherever the writers please. Even in her book we get none of her perspective really displayed, no exploration of her thoughts with any kind of understanding of the role she traditionally has played and was made to play in the story.
#its like youre unable to root for her in any form. which is annoying bc shes actually awesome actually#also having her say “actually im the good guy fuck you'' w/o any actual deep analysis of her psyche or whatever while doing these things#doesnt count as development or showing shes 3 dimensional. its just having 2 dimensional waller say shes right when everyone is obviously#supposed to believe shes wrong#anyways i want real waller back please i miss herrrrrrrr#anyways hope mr john ridley has read secret origins no 14. i know its from 1987 but please guys please. my only hope#also it was a few months ago but i think they tried to push certain elements of a diff backstory in dream team and sorry but fuck that. and#any mention of another waller background like my eyes are closed sry. im a preboot truther#actually im just ignorant of most squad comics outside the original series. im gonna do a readthrough and become knowledgeable on other#stuff i just need to find time. so if im wrong then sorry if its smth factual and if you disagree with my opinion then uh sorry for ur loss#anyways shoutout to the time i had a nerd night w my one friend and she was asking me abt dc and said my favorite villains and i said waller#and silver swan. and she had a “yuck WHY” to waller and a ???? to silver swan. love shouting out my faves and explaining them to the less#informed. didnt say a number 3 but would probably be parallax ig. idk hes kind of slay. or maybe someone else honestly i like hal but waller#and nessie are blorbo level for me i could think abt them for hours#or maybe it wouldnt be parallax actually idk who my 3 would be. hes definitely up there but way below the other 2. maybe the cheetah#interpretation that i personally have. v different from the popular cheetah interpretation esp rucka vers actually. much closer to the pérez#and esp develops some subtext there surrounding barbara and the exploitation and theft of sacred cultural artifacts and pieces but also#like british colonization a lil bit#but i actually despise the cheetah that lives in my head but think shed be interesting to use narratively and see diana fight#vs the other guys who i find interesting and sympathetic and like for themselves#whereas my fave interpretation of cheetah can rot in hell#i got off topic here#blah#swishy rant#also disclaimer that w the main character ik dreamer is the main character of dream team. im talking more in general and that amanda should#always have a huge role as shes the main character of the squad and yet is treated like its villain and not its protag#sui sq
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Hello! As you guys have seen, I’ve been figuring out the dip pens recently for a project, and I’d love to draw a guy of your choice as practice!
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#bakuspeech#commission info#b4kuch1n#big thank you to rudeboimonster for pointing me towards the ko-fi commission function!! and for helping me test the format!#what I make of this will probably go towards ink and more nibs and necessities while I work on the comic#(it will take a bit! so having a sum to spare while doing it would be nice)#obvious disclaimers here is: I am also doing this to practice the dip pens (which I am not yet super familiar with)#so if you expect like. mike mignola level of ink. youre not getting it lol#best to go off of the examples I posted! thats where Im at rn#and I will be experimenting a bit with anything I draw rn. in my fuck around era!#please keep that in mind as well as the instruction stuff. spend money wisely! thank u for ur support no matter what!#and now. I take a got dang shower#it is SO damp here. I am made of like 70% mushroom at this point. I need to Submerge#have a good nite! take care! deep breath!#edit: I fucking forgot its international day of clown. this is fully serious btw lol#I do not celebrate it I am ambivalent to it. its business as usual here. this is real#GREAT timing baku. good job!
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listen the idea that any man could be blindsided by Taylor writing a song about him/their relationship at this point is objectively hilarious
you dated the face eating leopard my dude! of course she ate your face!
#not tagging for obvious reasons#disclaimer im on her side here#she doesnt even use real names i dont think this could count as libel if you tried but also theyre almost always super generic heartbreak#situations#if her fans werent nuts (<-loving) (<- mostly) no one would figure it out#anyways its VERY funny
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16, 24 & 30 :3
:3 hehe hi!! ive been Heavily Medicating on the pen so im very alsjdldlsjs and ready to be LEE
16. A tease that never fails to get to you?
oh lord okay, listen, i am gonna copy your answer but its the RIGHT ONE- lean into calling me a ticklish little puppy and i will get so lee and giggly so fast its so bad aldjslsjsks
calling my feet and hands paws (“paws up!” or “look at how ticklish puppy’s paws are”) or telling me to roll over so you can reposition me or tickle my back or belly rubs that turn tickly or AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BONUS ROUND: if you fucking collaborate with my fiancee about tickling or teasing me or tell me that youre going to tell on me to them if im acting up i will EXPLODE YOU ONE MILLIONS TIMES AND THEN EXPLODE MYSELF i will go insane its always an instant kill because i am unabashedly wrapped around their finger <- obviously this applies to mutuals and friends but Assorted Others please do not harass them just to try to tease me or i will explode you for actual real
24. What would you describe the feeling of being tickled as?
god why is THIS more flustering than asking about the teases why am i BLUSHING
to me, it feels like a tingling that goes all the way into my bones and directly up the spine and to the brain. i also really notice the big dopamine dump that happens while im being tickled!! especially as someone with mental health issues its so nice to feel my brain get flooded with those happy chemicals that it has trouble making on its own 🥺
30. How easily do you get flustered?
WELL I WAS GONNA SAY IT DEPENDS ON A LOT BUT APPARENTLY THAT LAST QUESTION IS PROVING ME WRONG AKDHDKS
#ty for asking!! these are so fun to answer i love it 🥺#sorry for copying your puppy swag its just too real#ALSO I KINDA FEEL BAD ABOUT CALLING ANYONE IM NOT MUTALS WITH ‘ASSORTED OTHERS’#I PROMISE I DONT AUTOMATICALLY HATE YOU IF WE ARENT ALREADY MUTUALS 😭#just dont be weird and kink-first in someones dms without consent and/or a preestablished relationship#you know like a normal person!#DISCLAIMER ASIDE#please im already regretting 16 BAD#THAT DOES NOT NEED TO BE PUBLIC INFORMATION I WOULD BE SAFER IF I HAD POSTED MY SOCIAL SECURITY NUMBER#whats that post thats like ‘haha here are the nuclear codes for my brain dont do anything weird with them :)’#seeking answers
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and i know i kissed you before, but, i didn't do it right.
#art#marble#pokemon desolation#HUGE DISCLAIMER THIS IS OC X CANON.#for once i felt in a romantic mood. i was listening to pink in the night. so its a sad romantic mood.#these guys never worked it out. imagine liking someone but they were a ghost and didn't exactly know it. that they were part of an illusion#and in the end they just had this one moment i think.#i think marble likes tristan. genuine like here not some passing attraction. so it kind of wretches them when tristan explains everything.#they still think tristan is entirely real. well he is. but their moments together from the beginning were.#also. color is Hard. my god i wanted this to be some sort of red hue but. its not working out like my head.#its ok. consider this practice ill get it right someday#oc bracket
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dont get mad at me this is a subjective opinion but like. like i enjoy stardew a lot and this is by no means a criticism, more of like. just a Wish.
I want a game very similar to stardew valley in terms of play and "difficulty" but animated/artstyle like, botw.
#toy txt post#if anyone gets on my ass about this i will turn reblogs off so fast im just wishing and this isnt even hating on the artstyle of stardew#more. wishing i could further customize the house and grow crops in botw or totk#you can do more house customization in totk but its still not enough also my house in totk is like. maxmimum number of buildings#which i cant remember? but its that many of just fish ponds stacked on top of each other in a spiral and then every blood moon i get that#many free easy sanke carp#anyway the point is i really loke both games and i dont hate the artstyle of stardew. but its not like my favorite?#also sorry for making this post more disclaimers than opinion at this point i just really want to get it across that i Like Stardew Valley#and i likw the artstyle and this is not like a call to action on the dev or a demand or anything it is me daydreaming about a game that#doesnt exist. also if i had the controls i have in botw maybe i wouldnt be getting mugged in the mines so much#also im a fake gamer so i dont know all the right terms but i know there are like Other Games that have like the exploration vibe and#probably the ability to customize a house and give gifts to ppl and shit however all the ones im thinking of.........#to be clear here when i say art like botw i dont just mean like oh expensive 3d rendering and all that shit. like a little but like#CRUCIALLY. NOT AIMING FOR REALISM. it (DAYDREAM GAME MADE UP) needs to be stylized bc#listen i was being nice w the sv i dont hate the stardew valley style. im not going to be nice here: i fucking despise games trying to look#like real life and real life ppl every single one ive ever seen is uncanny valley to me EVEN DESPITE the many advancements they have made.#i recognize theyve made a lot of advancements. and i recognize this is also a subjective opinion i hold. but i just think all the ones ive#ever seen are so fucking ugly stop trying to capture the realism just lean into some stylization please im begging youuu#the worst part is there are games whos premise i would probably find interesting? but theyre so fucking ugly im not spending over $40 on#that shit ESPECIALLY if it has the audacity to be first person pov#i can maybe be tricked into it in this regard if its heavily ocean centric. i can be bribed with ocean
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Mmm I definitely have Thoughts on site lore and Ancient lore. And I mean, for the most part I (as well as many people) use site lore more as Inspiration/Building Blocks for further lore building.
I've been meaning to get around to writing lore for my Clan and in general, so. I guess I'll just make some notes on the current Ancient Lore and what I think and where I'd go.
Deciding to put this under a read more since it's a lot more than I meant to write lmao
Gaolers - Part of this being because they were the first, and therefore had the most hype around their introduction, but so far lorewise Gaolers still have probably the most impactful story. Them being forgotten by modern society makes sense; withdrawn, a small population of creatures that never evolved into their softer modern counterparts. Which is another thing that makes Gaolers stand out; they're the only Ancient with an explicit connection as being ancestors of one of the Modern breeds. The whole This Thing Is You But Older, More Primal And Dangerous is just. Soooo good. Gaolers as a design have grown on me recently, so it definitely generates some ideas.
Banescales - BANESCALE LORE. BANESCALE LORE. My favorite of the bunch, but this is partially that I am someone who loooves music. The idea of Banescales having been a musical society, and now all that remains is the song that was left to their children as they protected their eggs... god it's just so beautiful to me. Plus the parallel to how Coatls ended up having a notably musical language... The idea of the Flamecaller mourning her first children and passing on their gift. The Coatls and Banes bonding over this similarity. I love them, I need more Banes.
Veilspuns - I'll be honest. I don't remember anything about the Veilspun lore. Legitimately. I love Veil's designs but their lore just Did Not Stick. I'll have to go reread it and probably rebuild it somehow lmaooo
Aberrations - Okay, I also kinda forgot this one, but they literally crawled out of the Wyrmwound, right?? Like, sort of had a "cast away by their god" type of thing? Failed experiment energy? Idk if that was actually what happened, but it's the take I'm going with.
Undertides - They felt betrayed by their god so turned their back on him, and then reintroduced themselves to modern society upon the Surge in the Elements. Cool! Interesting! I think this could be very cool to explore, especially with the modern members of Water Flight who have effectively been abandoned by Tidelord (as far as we know. Dad come back.) Also, strong ties with a specific sect of Maren! Neat! Not as potent of lore to me, maybe, but it's interesting and has potential. Execution was ehhg but I can work with the concepts.
Aethers - I love their lore yes its stupid yes its goofy and I adore them for it. If I go through with my lore crafting I'll keep all this because the other Ancients having cool and fucked up lore next to these dumbass sparkly floofs is hilarious to me.
Sandsurges - Okay I DID. Think the "pay" bit in the story was funny. But I do think a "cooler" take could have been done, with Sandsurges having a better reason to have been unknown to modern dragons aside from "They were underground all along" whsgsgs. I think you can combine the best of both world by saying they return upon seeing the exploitation of modern Lightning society, and the building of something Big and Dangerous, with allusions to this having been done in the past and having had consequences to Ancient Sandsurge society... AKA, they're here to teach the young'uns about unions.
Auraboas - Okay, so. The issues have been brought up several times, and most of us are aware at this point. I can see the angle they were going for, for a sci-fi-esque hivemind tyoe of situation. I also don't necessarily disagree with the decision to make it Nature. While Arcane might make more sense for sci-fi themeing, I think choosing a different Flight makes it a little less on the nose. In any case, I think the concepts are there, but were executed very poorly and with a decent dose of "ignorance and tone-deafness." I think the story specifically should have treated the elder Auraboas with more compassion for their fears for their children and difficulty in communicating with modern dragons. Way less infantilization, and more "person struggling with a language they barely know, reaching out to someone they never would have otherwise out of desperation." (By this I mean I think they could have written the difficulty in communicating far better than they did). The Loop is interesting as well, though very hard to grasp as a concept. This is partially on purpose, and partially because I kind if think staff purposefully left some things vague because they didn't actually want to try and figure out how the concept would work, lol (which I can't entirely blame them for, especially since with Site Lore sometimes less is more, allowing for multiple interpretations by users).
Another note: in both the recent Lightning and Nature ancient stories, they're both stated and/or heavily implied to have already been known about by certain dragons In The Know, so to speak. I have some mixed thoughts on either, and might incorporate them differently. Sandsurges as sort of secret workers was a little funny and backed up the Weird Shady Company Execs thing, but it could be interesting to make it a sort of, deliberately covered up because We Can't Have Them Teaching The New Hires How To Unionize!
As for Auraboas... Not really sure. I can see them being a culture that has been largely self-reliant for their existance, hence the lack of contact with modern dragons. But, given their connection to the Behemoth (and maybe a connection that could be elaborated on), maybe they've appeared or collaborated with moderns in the past over threats to the Behemoth. So, mutual knowledge, but no sustained contact since it was A) difficult and B) outside of curiosity, most on both sides saw little reason to establish further contact. A sort of living alongside one another but never really talking, like neighbors you see sometimes but don't talk to. It's only the disruption of the Loop in the younger generation that both kickstarts a greater Need to connect, but also a bridge for easier communication.
#flight rising#ink writes lore#lore notes#also yea disclaimer i am Very White and while i try to be educated i am aware i will likely Fuck Up#this is personal brainstorming. so if you think there's something i said here abt auraboas that i should rethink feel free to tell me#it's a difficult line to walk when engaging with Interesting concepts that potentially reflect real life situations#i do believe staff was entirely accidental. like this is a game abt dragons and therefore the parallels to IRL aren't intuitive#like its a bit of a different beast to navigate than a fictional world based around humans#bc with humans you can say 'oh this fictional society is modeled after irl society' and can research from there#and therefore judge things based on how well researched the creators have been#whereas with magical animals worlds. it's not intuitive if you're not doing it on purpose! and you're a lot more likely#to unconsciously draw on inspiration sources both good and bad without really Thinking About The Source On Purpose. if that makes sense#so yea we can say staff Probably Should Have thought it through#and i think a firm criticism is that they should at least hire sensitivity readers if not outright hiring More Diverse Writers#but i don't think we should demonize them for it. constructive criticism and all that
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i finished pokemon violet! And i have some thoughts to share on it!
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#i have lots of thoughts#obv a lot of cons#but the story…the personality and life given to these characters……..wonderful#disclaimer: i was given this game#otherwise i would not have played this at all lmao i had no intent of spending money on this game#but it was surprisingly enjoyable#i wouldnt recommend anyone buy the game but if u can *insert pirate yell* it#then u should take the time to play it; its a massive improvement from swsh#gameplay wise#graphically; not so much#the characters are fun and interesting#new lore for the series overall#(we EAT pokemon here; if u kill it well fry it )#(gym leaders are just people who work per diem for challengers but they have their own real jobs somewhere else)#the friends u make are so good bc the pacing for their stories are good#arven…sweetie….#also ENDGAME SPOILERS#the ending was so bittersweet it got me thinking of fix it scenarios#this game put a bit more emphasis on lost dreams and goals#and i think its just lovely#pokemon is all about finding ur dream or ur treasure so to speak#and to have so many people in this game say ‘i couldnt make it; it didnt work out for me’ just felt really refreshing#grusha injuring himself gravely and being unable to ski professionally#ms tyme retiring from being a leader bc she wanted to focus more on teaching#the professor chasing paradise for so long and with such drive#to abandon their son for this dream#and die before it could be realized bc of their own greed#like waow….#do u think the professor realized their dream was unreachable as they bled out alone in the station#to sacrifice so much just to have nothing to show for it anymore
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i actually don’t think y’all understand how disillusioned i am with tv these days... the industry is dead to me. not for the reasons most fandom people say that like oh my fave died my fave couple broke up etc etc no. i think tv is dead because it literally is DEAD. its become so oversaturated that there is literally no way to rake through the muck to find the gems of good story. media has always been profit driven but the evolution to let’s create as much content as possible to beat out our competitors but only give them 1.5 seasons if that and make sure they have record-breaking streaming numbers -- a meaningless, MEANINGLESS metric when it comes to the quality of the storytelling -- within two days or they get the axe guaranteed and every single thing being a cheap and soulless IP adaptation that fans are happy to gobble down just to say they have it rather than actually see it as a faithful interpretation bc money money money and i swear if i see one more gd star marvel wars piece of property i will lose it. in this essay i will,
#im never here so i mainly stay quiet on this but y'all. oh y'all. its bad out there#im not saying people cant have fun im glad people are having fun but god where is the meaningful content. where is the stuff to make me feel#and real feeling. feeling where i think. not manufactured tropetastic quota type feelings#if i said most of the opinions i have on media these days.... i tell ya#its not even that i dont think we can have silly or less than stellar programming bc we can! we should! not all tv has to be brilliant!#(and half the time 'brilliant' is so arbitrary anyway)#but i cant handle the whole mediascape being so oversaturated with it all... i just cant anymore y'all#also yes i blame tiktok for a third of this#maggie.txt#film ind crit#negativity warning#also disclaimer im not saying NO good tv exists right now#yes i watch abbott elementary yes i watched derry girls#etc etc im not saying there ARENT gems. im saying#that the ratio of gems to meaningless fluff garbage is so out of whack its dreary
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do you think baby kylian ever tried to flirt or make a move on oli? im kinda conflicted because he's always been very bold in general but he did seem a bit shy and flustered around him. im sure oli would've been oblivious anyway but kylian is such an interesting character i can never fully understand him
aaaa i love thinking about this sort of stuff!! thanks for asking 🫶
my personal viewpoint is that he would definitely be very affectionate towards giroud and have sort of a puppy love towards him if that makes sense. but also since he's still young at the time i think he would really look up to/respect giroud as one of the elder members of the team, which might cause him to be more bashful at times. in general i feel like early-kylian is very typical of a teenage crush, where you want to be around someone all the time and show your love for them but at the same time are "scared" (for lack of a better word) to confess or say too much in case the other person doesn't feel the same and it ends up ruining the relationship or the team dynamic.
it's kinda why i feel like kylian would only ever "make a move" like you said if he thought that giroud also felt some type of way for him. it's also kinda amusing to think about how early on it was more mbappe->giroud with mbappe being all clingy but nowadays its more giroud->mbappe with giroud unable to shut up about him ever. but of course they both have always cared about each other lol. anyway thats just my two cents on baby kylian!! ✌️
#alsk#my demons#gigikyky#i feel like i have to put another disclaimer here that everything i say is just for fun#cuz halfway through writing this i stopped and was like... wtf am i doing#LMFAOOOO#its not real anyway and life is short so i can do whatever i want.#peace nd love
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TELL ME ABOUT YOUR COD OC MERCY!!!!!!!
MERCY MY TRAGIC BELOBED BOY <33
Name: Emrys Leigh (meaning immortal meadow/clearing)
Call sign: Mercy (obtained through the fact he is RUTHLESS in the field and excelles in ✨information extraction✨)
Age: approx 28 but who's counting (not me)
Picrew by lunevani
He normally wears a dark fabric face mask bc the scar pulls on his lips and exposes his teeth a little bit (I am normal I promise I am sooooo normal) and it drys out his mouth and also it makes him look more intimidating which he likes (it's also just one scar running from temple down through both his lips). He has THEE winter soldier stare of all time which terrifies new recruits but also anyone with a healthy sense of self preservation
He joined the British army at 19 (it was 100% an act of self destruction but now he cant leave bc it's all he knows) he specialized as a sniper and joined the SAS at 22, (was captured and tortured (but did not break) at 23 and took a year to rehabilitate before rejoining), and was hand picked by Price to join TF 141 at ~27 (again my math might be wrong but idc).
At some point during this he leveled up to a Sargent which is his current rank.
Looking at the scary brooding man who speaks very little who WILL snarl at you if you piss him off enough you would not guess it but he is a BIG card game fan HOWEVER do not play w him bc he will CHEAT bc hes also very good at slight of hand (and card tricks!!)
Hes literally just a silly little guy with a tragic background and enough trauma for a fucking large city but he tells silly jokes when he warms up to you (but takes a while) and once you have his trust you will have it for life !! You would kill for you without question !! Hes a coffee snob but in the way he'll turn his nose up at anything that isnt literally the shittiest instant coffee you've ever tasted !!
He also has an idle animation of systematically tensing + relaxing muscle groups which earns him some side eyes but no one has the balls to ask abt it <3
Anyways soap was the first person to gain his trust bc that man is relentless it's not his first rodeo (befriended ghost asap), then price (had worked w him prior a few times so he did have a head start), then gaz, then eventually ghost (if you put two private quiet people in a room together they WILL just sit in silence)
#mercy is literally me my son and also my boyfriend and worst enemy whats not clicking 🥰🥰#yes i skipped over his pre army trauma bc its fucked up#but also he has a real fucked up relationship w sex/intamcy bc he IS a people pleaser at heart#and if youre looking at him like hm . that man is not stable enough to be in the army 🤨🤨 then you are very correctbut i make the rules so#also obligatory disclaimer before the fun police some for me: he is a fictional character i do not condone his fucked up actions#i dont support the militry#also he and soap have fucked at least once they told me themselves (aint nothing wrong with bros being dudes helping eachother out okay)#anyways sorry emily if you read all that ik have of it probably doesn't make sense but ily <33#oc: mercy#am thinking of making a blog for him#actually i already have one but idk if im gonna use it yet#lincoln.txt#call of duty#call of duty oc#cod#hes so babygirl and he does in fact spend time covered in blood both his own and others <3#anyways here is my most self indulgent oc of all time hdjxjfj#asks#li
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heres my take of the day i dont think ccs should read fanfiction on stream or for videos.
usually what happens is young inexperienced writers get put on blast and end up harassed by other fans of the creator for writing fanfic, and lord knows fans often take things extremely far. yeah ok maybe the fanfic was ‘cringe’ or ‘weird’ but that doesnt mean its ok to put them on blast to hundreds or thousands of other people to laugh at yknow? its really fucked up honestly, and its usually never funny, its just really shitty and embarrassing.
i understand that its weird to ccs to hand fanfic written about them (and real person fiction is just. im not supportive. those are real people) but if its a character (even if the character shares your name) you shouldnt yknow. place a creative work made by a fan in front of your other fans who will absolutely start harassing them regardless of your personal opinion on the work or if you told them not to. if you absolutely cannot stop yourself from reading fanfic from your fans, do it privately with your friends where no one can get harassed. idk i just think its really fucked up
#pandora speaks#this said heres a reminder that fanfic about dsmp or mianite characters are about CHARACTERS and is not real person fiction#there is a difference and imo rpf is crossing boundaries we shouldnt cross#it still doesnt mean i would like sparklez to check out the mianite stuff on ao3 on stream yknow#AND there is a difference if the fanfic author tells the streamer they can read it (either directly in dms or w a disclaimer on the work)#but most authors either dont do that or explicitly dont want the ccs they like to read their stuff#cause they know its kinda awkward for the ccs yknow?#fanfic is for fans#sorry this came outta nowhere#also this is a difference when like#a cc is reading it for themself and just like comments on the fic or maybe shares it if the fandom is real small and chill#but again for like dsmp or smth fanfic streams are just never a good idea#yeah this is cause i remember big q read fanfic for a stream once i thought it was a bad idea then too
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Me knowing full well that the value of the yen in the csm universe is probably meant to be exactly the same as in real life it’s just that denji is chronically in hustle mode and will do the strangest things for an absolutely pitiful amount of money like being a human chair for the grand total of about one (1) American cent but liking to think otherwise bc if what the latest chapter implies that devil contracts are based not on actuality but on perception there’s no way I can imagine asa genuinely believing she can buy an aquarium for about seven thousand (7000) American dollars unless she has no concept of money which I doubt bc she’s not exactly rich herself unless you don’t have to genuinely believe something in order to affect the contract you can just pretend but that doesn’t really make sense to me bc then like. What Is A Devil Contract Anyway
#this is probably incoherent but it’s 3 am and it makes sense TO ME. if you don’t understand what I’m talking about that’s a you problem#.txt#csm#also it said the purchasing power of the yen is ~ the same in 1997 as 2022 so like that includes inflation as well#… I think#like the US dollar lost about 50ish % of its value since 1997#but the yen only lost about 5% in the same amount of time#so inflation is not really a big variable in this#like 7000 vs 14000 ur still not buying an aquarium beloved#sorry 400ish. or whatever. idfk I’m tired#*4000 UGH#sorry its late and also I’m doing this very surface level research on my phone and I can never keep track of research on phones I have to d#*do it on the computer if I’m gonna like look into it for real I always get mixed up if I look too many things up on my phone#I’m just going with VERY general numbers here#disclaimer 10¥ isn’t actually 1 cent it’s more like 7-8 cents I was just writing whatever but now im like what if ppl think im stupid#Dw I also think im stupid#🤡
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whining hours . sry
#like idk i try to like. imagine a future where i have like. friends. you know. Bare mimimum i have People i talk to. who arent lamp. and i#just cant imagine it happening again#like. i genuinely feel like i cant connect to ppl anymore and idk how id like. i dont see a way for me to do that ever again since i cant g#to school and like. sny job im able to get wouldnt be the kind where i like. meet people or make friends. and last year when i eent out wit#the express purpose of Making friends i literally couldnt. speak to anyone. like i just sat alone with my headphones on until it was time t#go home ... i dont know how to like. initiate casual conversation#+ like. i worry i get way too invested in any potential friendships bc i want so badly to be Normal and have friends and then i freak out#rly badly over something trivial. and thats entirely my fault like I need to work on not letting my freakouts effect the person im freaking#out abt. yk. like its my stupid brain that just gets rly rly overly defensive and weird abt everything its not like. I need to work on that#and thats another reason i dont knowif ill ever be able to make friends again is bc i genuinely dont trust myself not to get overly attache#way too quickly and then explode or something. idk#i also think maybe im just not meant to have actual lasting relationships with anybody ever. yk. like maybe im not meant to ever have roots#and maybe i just wont ever get to have stability and my life will always be entirely transient. Perhaps thats for the best so that i dont#have t like. lose ppl. and ppl dont have to deal with me#+ if i make bad decisions there r less ppl to care abt it. you know. which is a plus. idk#theres like. some parts of me r like desperate for friends and for love and to just . feel like i exist and Talk to people and like. have#stability. and then the rest r like No this is good bc we cant hurt as many ppl like this and also we dont deserve any of that so this is#for the best. and i just have to sit here like ok ! bc if i seek out friendships that part shuts it all down and if i dont the other part#makes me feel miserable and lonely. like damn i am destined for misery. but whatever. it doesnt rly matter DHRNFJFN im just being whiny#it just feels like i need like. ok this is my abdicating responsibility and is the reason i dont have friends disclaimer. i know that. very#aware. but i like. i need somebody to be the one to reach out to Me bc i like. i cant reach out to ppl like. i cant Try to initiate#conversations . but i think if there was a person who like. initiated conversations w me and started a friendship with me i like. i think#itd help me get used to Having a friend again and then id like. id be better at maintaining it and eventually id be able to pick up th#weight. but Obviously nobody wants to like. put in all that effort for somebody whos incapable of returning the favor possibly ever. yk#i need to just bite the bullet and humiliate myself and reach out even if its embarassing and even if it makes me have to throw up#<- happened one time when i tried to talk to someone new. which is so. oh my god. there r ppl who have avtual fucking issues and then im#just like boohoo i tried to think abt a conversation starter and got so anxious i fucking threw up. GOD. i hateit i hate it i hate it. but#wtvr. ik i cant actually expect that from anybody basically like. ik its a stupid wish. idk. i just wish i had somebody who could help me#like. remember how to mask and how to socialize Like a real person. and wouldnt mind that im like. weird right now. and would be willing to#talk to me until i got normal and stuff. wtvr. idk ... 10000 lashings
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