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psychicreadsgirl · 1 year
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BTS Park Jimin 2023 - 2024 Reading
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This is what I can pick up from Jimin for his 2023 - 2024 year.
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Jimin's mental health for this period is like a swinging pendulum. Some days he's doing great. Other days he's suffering a lot with depressing/negative thoughts like about his looks/future etc. While he has tried to seek help, I am sensing that he doesn't find the help to be very useful and feels that counselling/therapy is a waste of his time. Perhaps he hasn't met the right therapist/counsellor for him or is scared that they will leak information about him, but it is best that he continue to seek help.
Jimin often feels very insecure about his future and about himself. This unfortunately makes him very anxious at times and also can make him jealous of those around him who seem to have it better/easier than him. He has a habit of comparing himself with others and forgetting about his own achievements. Jimin's constant comparing makes his mental health suffer too as he frequently feels he's not good enough or will never be enough.
Jimin's physical health is improving a bit as he is more focused on exercising and diet. However, his desire to maintain a certain look/weight can be unhealthy when taken to the extreme. He can be prone to overexercising, leading to injuries or a loss of weight that's too much for him. He can also resort to extreme dieting, especially during promotions.
Jimin's heart is on the weak side, so he may be prone to heart problems/blood circulation issues when he is older. Jimin is also prone to osteoporsis so it's important for him to intake calcium etc. Jimin's skin is starting to be more sensitive and his body is also becoming more sensitive to different types of food. He may develop some food allergies or intolerance of some types of food in the near future like potentially lactose products or gluten.
Jimin's digestive system is also weak. He often is constipated and bloated. It's no surprise that he had acute appendictis in the past. If he eats the wrong types of food like ones that are hard to digest for him/triggers his intestines or stomach, he will feel a lot of aching around his abdomen. He may also experience bladder urgency due to triggering food. He should avoid eating medicine without intaking food and definitely should not mix alcohol or take medicine with tea/coffee/alcohol etc. He's more prone to getting stomach/intestine/digestion related problems than the other members.
Family
During this period, there will be some tension between Jimin and his brother. For some reason they will likely have a lot of misunderstandings and miscommunication. There's an aspect of broken telephone at play. Jimin will feel that his parents side with his brother, while his brother will feel that Jimin needs to grow up/mature. The siblings may grow distant during this time.
Jimin may also experience some health problem within the family/some sort of unfortunate event related to a family member. It is possible for him to take some time off to spend time with family.
There may also be a wedding coming up within his extended family, which he's likely to attend.
Other
Jimin will run into some difficulties with his management company/executives/staff. He will feel pulled in many directions from now till 2024. Some things are not by his choice or were not done with his consent. He will often feel that his voice isn't being heard at work and at times he will feel like he is only a puppet of this company. He may feel the urge to break this contract earlier or not renew the contract. However, as of now, he is fearful of the repercussions of breaking the contract earlier and is really worried about not renewing the contract. The last time he renewed he felt very, very pressured by the management company to renew and also by fans and the media. While he appreciates being in BTS, he is not sure whether the concept of a group can be forever. He doesn't want to be forever known as BTS' Jimin. He wants to try to pave his own road and see what his own endeavors will take him.
In a way, Jimin feels rather caged by the name "BTS". He feels he is only defined by BTS, and whatever he does is in the name of BTS, not Park Jimin. It's as if whatever achievement that he has so far is because he's BTS' Jimin, not Park Jimin. Jimin is not as close to the members as before. In fact all of them have sort of gone their own separate paths.
Jimin is worried that what the management company has promised him will not actually happen. While he is happy that he had his solo, he feels that there were many things that could have been done better. He cant' help but compare himself with the other members and compare what the company has provided to the other members versus to him. As of now Jimin doesn't feel like he's getting entirely what he signed up for after the group renewed. He doesn't feel entirely appreciated by the company too and he doesn't have the confidence that he is headed in the right direction for his solo career. He is extremely worried that eventually he will be replaced by younger idols and will also be forgotten when he enters the military.
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helathprediction · 8 months
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 Health horoscope
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fala-alfredo-pasta · 4 months
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idk i kinda like Luka
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awesomecooperlove · 9 months
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😳😳😳BRAVE DOCTORS WARNING US DECADES AGO… WAKE UP HUMANITY 😳😳😳
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daportalpractitioner · 3 months
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the 4 moon cycles: purple moon cycle
there are four cycles that a woman can be on — the white, pink, red, or purple moon cycle. each cycle is represented by a different archetype and the type of cycle that you're in indicates what you should be focusing your energy on in that cycle.
the purple moon cycle is for those that bleed with the waning moon and ovulate with the waxing moon. the waning moon happens after the full moon when the moon starts to shed its way into back into the darkness. this is a time associated with autumn as harvest season has occurred and the leaves are slowly dying. the waning moon invites us to slow down, become introspective, and do the necessary shadow work to hold us accountable through the ebbs and flows of life. purple cycle moon sisters have a compromised energy that tells them that they need to take things slower in order to focus on being in our feminine energy of healing, transmuting, and processing. they are also giving the gift of sorcery to alchemize their trauma into power. this is a time to focus on healing and overcoming karmic patterns that you keep choosing to perpetuate.
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during your cycle, you want to make sure that you are surrendering to the endings that want to take place in your life. as your cycle gives you more clarity on what's happening within and outside of you, choose yourself. choose not to be your own worst enemy. be honest with yourself and trust that when a season has come to an end, it only means that more is becoming available to you. give yourself grace as you transmute the negative energy that you have been allowing to have power over you.
this cycle is associated with the wild woman archetype. this kind of woman is connected to her fierce power that strengthens her authority to choose a better reality for herself. she surrenders to the transitions because she knows how to swim and not sink in the currents of change. it's very important to have a good head on your shoulders as you lean into the darkness — perspective is everything so make sure that it serves you. remember that everything that is happening is happening for you, even when it hurts. just like an alchemist, when life gives you lead, you make gold.
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0multifandomweirdo0 · 11 months
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If Callum dies because Rayla has to kill him and doesn't come back to life - I'M LEAVING THE FANDOM AND NEVER COMING BACK, EVER
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It is not like they do not consistently have chocolate week during the hottest times of the summer. The heat has always been an issue during chocolate week. So it’s not like it’s a surprise. You are telling me after over a DECADE, they haven’t modified the tent to make it bearable?!! You have not put in measures for the BAKERS OWN COMFORT?!
It is at this point that it is jeopardizing their health!
Put in fans, put in air conditioning, give the bakers WATER, allow them to REST. Modify the challenges to account for this temperature inside the tent.
PUT THE BAKERS SAFETY FIRST.
I should not be seeing bright red bakers and bakers on the verge of fainting!
Bake Off HAS THE FUNDS!
Take some of the money off of Paul and Prue’s paychecks and MODIFY THE FUCKING TENT.
Because I betchu that in the hottest days of the year, Paul and Prue are not feeling that heat one iota. They are in their trailers or inside a building and cool as a fucking cucumber.
Don’t deprive the bakers of that same accommodation.
To do otherwise after thirteen fucking years is perpetual, intentional negligence.
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junglejim4322 · 7 months
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Will never forget the time I booked a tarot/astrology reading at a metaphysical store for funsies and the reader gave my ex a bizarrely accurate reading down to the amount of peopl she lived with and the specific issues she was dealing with wrt her family back then and then I walked in for my own reading and she proceeded to 1. Look me up and down and accurately guess my astrological sign and 2. tell me I needed to break up with my ex girlfriend and she was stifling my creativity and I was meant to create great things but I never would until i wasn’t with her anymore and I was like O_O
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peacheskoo · 2 months
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So far here I’m giving Bruce the benefit of the doubt.
I’m not gonna condemn him and I think the outburst he had earlier towards Jason might have been what pushed him to find outside help even if he says that “it stays in the family”. Do I honestly think he would have put Jason on a mental institute? I really don’t think so, especially with him keeping their alter ego under wraps when going over what happened to Jason, and as I said, his previous idea of keeping their problems within the family I’m thinking he was bringing in a psychologist to help Jason but from their home.
The narration is in the pov of the lady psychologist and the excerpts tell us that Jason does end up talking to her because of how we have Jason going over how he felt during his fight with scarecrow, but also Bruce talks to her and also ends up telling her about their alter egos.
I think everything Bruce has done so far in this issue is out of love for Jason, it sucks that he didn’t tell Jason about the psychologist, but like it says Jason was pulling back more and more no matter what Bruce and Alfred did and I think Bruce didn’t know what else to do other than actually do the thing he said he didn’t want to do in the hopes of getting Jason help. Was it right? No. Is he trying? Yes because he cares so much but is still going to make mistakes. Jason’s trauma isn’t something that will just go away if they give him space and ignore it, he went through something horrible and the family is scrambling to find their footing again and I’m excited to see what they do moving forwards because seeing Bruce actually love Jason and care is a big yippee to me.
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psychicreadsgirl · 1 year
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Ask Game: One Last Question
It has been a while since my last ask game, so I thought I'd do one!
Rules
You can only ask 1 question.
The question can be about anything. The more context you give me, the faster/easier it is for me to answer.
I may not respond to all questions because it takes energy to do them and some questions may be better left unanswered. If I don't answer your question, don't take it to heart!
If your question is disguised as more than 1 question, then I will not answer it.
For non anons, reblog or like this post.
For anons, please include your initials and at least 2 different emojis as part of your ask.
I'll close my asks on October 5, 2023 at 7:00 am KST and the ask game will be over then.
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jay-whyy · 11 days
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When the day comes that I become a jaded adult, all I have to say is... "I told you so."
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I was just thinking what a cool job this might be.. what if you were just the person who makes little still images of cute animal figurines doing various activities to post on social media...? like.. show up to work and just spend the whole day like "hmm... this table should be placed to the left a little.. let me set this miniature bagel down in this way... this tiny rabbit should be wearing a scarf", setting the backgrounds, the lighting, etc. ... dream job perhaps lol...
#I'm sure it probably doesnt pay much lol#but.. maybe in some ideal world..#with my health and mental conditions and level of functioning there are VERY few Jobs I could actually EVER manage aside from#just being self employed and being able to set my own hours somehow etc... But every once in a while I come across something like this#and it's like... hrmm.... Yes... perhaps if I could align myself in this hyper specific scenario under hyper specific conditions in a#precise and predictable way and everything worked out perfectly and I had all the accomodations I might need.. maybe I could#do THAT thing then .. lol#Not just generally a 'social media manager' or something. I think that would drive me into the throes of madness#but SPECIFICALLY 'person who makes the images for the calico critters social media' and also#the place i have to go to do that is either my home or within walking distance of my home and also i rarely have to interact#with others aside from the posts probably going through some approval process and initial ideas where they tell me what#type of scene to make and also i somehow make $90.000 a year doing this for only 4 days a week with frequent sick breaks#dreamy sigh and so on and so forth and such and so on#ANYWAY........#the idea of meticulously placing little pastries and miniature crayons and stuff around all day until the scene is perfectly crafted.. SO#SO so appealing to me... like designing environments in the sims except it's real and tangible.. And also imagine having access#to the FULL library of miniature items. to me that would be just as good as owning them#Like.. I get to use them and make little scenes with them and hold them and stare at them and everything except also#they're all kept at work so I don't have boxes of clutter filling home.#unlimited access to every little miniature food ever crafted yet none of the downsides (purchase cost and storage)#etc. etc. ANYWAY ...#Chuckling confidently as I add this onto the 'List Of ''Real'' Jobs I Could Do' which is just a notebook sheet of paper with only like 5#other similarly unlikely hyperspecific scenarios scribbled down
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daportalpractitioner · 3 months
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cycle syncing guide: full moon in capricorn
the first full moon in capricorn this year will be on june 21, 2024 at 8:08 PM CST. because the moon will be at 1° capricorn, some themes we can see are: setting intentions for success, practical action, our attitude towards masculine energy, self-induced limitations, business ventures, taking life more seriously, and entering our boss babe era without compromising your femininity
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bleed phase: red moon cycle sisters are reclaiming their power by removing and no longer applying outdated beliefs rooted in patriarchy to the life that they want. you are recognizing your magick and finally stepping into true godishood. removing this blockage will only give you more clarity and insight on your earthly mission(s). this is an opportunity to step into a cycle of preparation for being your lineage's next matriarch. honor your womb this full moon and pay homage to your matriline for they are empowering you with this liberating perspective on life. it is not slaving away, being drained, and working against your cycle that will make you successful — it's being in tune with your inner rhythm, honoring where your energy levels are at, giving yourself grace + not making life all about work that will.
follicular phase: this is a productive time in your cycle where you are being fueled with the potent energy of the full moon to pump the gas on whatever you are striving towards. if you have been struggling with motivation and discipline, now is the time to regain clarity on why you're invested in this endeavor in the first place. even as goddesses, its important that we know how to utilize our masculine energy to get what we want out of life. remove yourself from the energy of laziness + stop acting like you don't got a purpose here. i'd focus on solar plexus healing during the full moon so that you can be invigorated with the energy to get to the bag + live in your successful reality.
ovulatory phase: ovulating sisters are in sync with the full moon and can use this full moon energy to powerfully manifest nu beginnings in business ventures, becoming financially stable and independent, and just attract successes in anything they've been working hard for (emphasis on working hard for). if you're ready to be in your abundant reality where money is no longer a fear of a blockage to you living your best life, then this full moon is inviting you to timeline jump. this is a great full moon for a road opener ritual or steady income spell. use this full moon to take that first practical step towards manifesting a nu reality. if you're able, share your gifts/business, apply for that job, + stop operating in self-sabotage.
luteal phase: luteal sisters are slowing down and becoming more introspective, making this a full moon of revelations to promote shadow work. dark feminine energy has been a huge theme in recent years because of the shift thats taking place, moving us back into a feminine society. it's time to address the fears associated with dark feminine energy so that you can accept it into your being and free yourself from the psychological enslavement of patriarchal ideologies and lifestyles. it's time to be unapologetically selfish so that you can show up for you + what you love authentically and passionately. this full moon is calling you back into your innate power so that you can sustain yourself thru the revolution taking place today. no need to fear when change is already here.
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theomnicode · 9 days
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Third eye? Naah no way...or maybe...?
My unposted tumblr drafts have become...suddenly quite interesting because I never posted them since the theories and hypothesis on them seemed just too wild so I was had enough inhibition to refrain from posting them.
Buuut...I think I'm gonna tell a story now too.
I'm going to pretend I'm the next great Shibabawa except I'm not gonna choke on my cough drop lmao. Nor want to.
Warning: Long rambling.
TW: PTSD, depictions of violence, supernatural, trauma dump, mental disorders
(I'm flagging this mature audience cuz it might sound disturbing)
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I'm giving y'all a chance to pick my brain but let's just keep it on objective basis shall we?
About how an INFJ personality type that I identify as (MBTI personality test and self-study), can make and I quote...
"kuvautunut luovan assosiaatioita epäadekvaatisti sellaisien asioiden välille, joissa ei minkäänlaista yhteyttä ole".
Rough translation: Epäadekvaatisti Creative associations with things that do not have any connections.
By simply identifying with Saitama a bit too hard, because he's quite a lot like me, so many similarly infernal traumas about human relationships, I've apparently noticed because I'm just dummy sensitive. It is said that INFJ can almost predict the future with their sixth sense.
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I'm creatively inclined, it's within my very nature. So I'm very visually inclined and Murata-senseis art is very appealing due to it's meticulous attention to detail and lineart to evoke emotions, something I've personally practiced a lot in the past. I've drawn, I listen to ambient and symbolic music like wow and ff14 music, I sing and I've self-practiced doing graphic design from early age.
I'm currently 37 years old, born in May, zodiac sign Taurus, 96kg and 156cm, wear glasses as I'm nearsighted and depressed, welp. But I scored either 126 or 137 IQ on a internet IQ test when I was in...secondary school/high school so and I think I've scored high on logical portions on another more official test so that's a bit validating lol. I'm totally trash at mathematics however.
AAnd I have an impostor complex more than likely because I feel guilty about not being as good as I want to be and stopping drawing completely. ._. So now I just channel my mind through writing. I've gotten a lot better at parsing information via writing and thinking up scenarios in my mind as I've made metas so there is a lot of progress.
"the subjective experience of perceived self-doubt in one's abilities and accomplishments compared with others, despite evidence to suggest the contrary"
I'm pretty sure I have legitimate ptsd from watching psychological horror when I was 17-18. Ju-on, the Grudge japanese version. I could not sleep well for a month, I felt paranoid and unsafe by thinking about physical sensations such as something touching my feet when I went to bed and my hair during the shower.
The cinema was too loud and I was alone watching it. I don't typically like to watch horror because I hate jumpscares, but they're overall not scary. The anticipation...that makes it scary.
Kayako's sound is...terrifying. Like it reverberates primal danger through your soul or something. Toshio is just plain uncanny valley.
I was SO not mentally prepared for this movie and I only wanted to go and watch a new horror flick, god fucking damnit.
Next I watched some more japanese horror like The Ring with my childhood friend to try and desentize I believe, I think One missed call is another movie I watched too.
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I shrink away from violence. My childhood's friends mom was probably schizophrenic. She had hit her head when me and my buddy were away, sat unmoving in front of the tv screen and there was a pool of blood around her while I was shooed away as my childhood friend began to clean the mess.
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So what's the key here to make such, atypical, logical conclusions and connections between things that should not have a connection in the first place?
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That's a secret. :p Spoiler alert.
It would not do if this key to Saitama's backdoor fell into the wrong hands now would it?
Is this message cryptic? Fuck yea it is. I'm also very sleep deprived atm thank you very much, so don't judge too hard about how weird or even disturbed they might sound at a glance, I've had a rough life I guess. >_> I'm trying to get more sleep but I have bunch of anxiety, however I'm managing even when my throat is clogging up constantly now.
Here is a prediction about chapter I've posted on discord. WC spoiler alert.
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Empty void and Blast duke it out, but Blast gets caught in a genjutsu. He looks around and sees his son Blue and knowing its just another genjutsu, he does little to react. His son asks where has he been, his mom is gravely ill and he hasn't visited even once. He's been home alone for a long time, where has his dad been romping around?
Blue keeps escalating and hurling accusations and abuse at Blast about how he's a horrible dad and finally yells at him that he doesn't love his dad anymore, while Blast just takes it with an impassive face and mutters "this is just genjutsu…" but on the inside, he's seething at himself and feeling guilty because Blue is right, he's horrible dad but he just wanted to protect Blue from the horrible truth of God's existence and protect his only son from him too. The more distance they have, the less he can be taken emotionally advantage of and the chances of success would become higher… or so he tells himself.
Finally Blast yells "Enough!" and surprisingly punches Blue with gravity knuckle and ends the genjutsu and Void is immediately right next to him and taunts him.
"Oh you would punch your own son? You really are an asshole Blast."
Blast glances at Void tiredly. "Don't play games with me, Void."
Empty Void just grins savagely. "Then how about we stop playing around and make this a little bit real eh? You know your son is having a meeting right about now, how about we pay him a little visit?" Void suddenly vaults into the air. Blast can barely exclaim in a horrified tone before Void disappears. He instantly makes a portal and follows Void.
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I also just have the funny feeling that some people wanna pick my brain. If they've been following the metas I post.
That burning sensation on Saitama's forehead is a bit too much on the nose though, innit? :p
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And thus is the Ring reference made and context clue gained.
Fun fact, I had a thought one morning because I ruminate when I apparently cant sleep and roleplayed a scenario in my mind. What if I just played Ju-on backwards, if that would help me get desentized if I cannot predict what is happening. But then a thought struck me that it might feel far too unreal and the sounds might get a disturbing quality like Cosmic fear, Cthulhu concept.
Because I don't remember the actual plot at all.
I can easily picture scenarios with visual clarity in my mind because I have good imagination. I could not remember the very beginning of season 2 and I completely forgot King first confronts a lecher and gets anxiety attack.
I could only vaguely remember that Season 2 began roughly with Saitama and Genos returning from grocery shopping.
I could not recall how the first episode ended and I had to look up for synopsis.
Garou appears into the scene during post credits and makes a feral face. He's threathening with violence and he's gonna enjoy it.
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Funny, there's that one dude in Mob psycho that I watched in more recent years who looks like young Garou to me and kidnapped Mob's family.
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If I try to squint like Saitama did when he had to do a double check on Garou...and look askance...
Saitama looks more gaunt and there is a shape in his eyes that could...vaguely resemble a humanoid figure's torso.
Garou looks like there are either multiples of him or he's overlapping with an extra eye the center and the jagged edge looks like a grinning mouth.
I do remember making the same observations the first time I tried to squint back when this chap was released.
I barely need to squint now and the image is more clear. Saitama looks more or less the same but Garou looks like he has completely white eyes or glowing pupilles.
My throat is constricting right now as I type this and my hands feel a bit clammy and my head slightly warmer than it should be. I've had inexplicable coughing fit for a week when I was younger and didn't know why, they thought I had astma. I also have anxiety about taking meds, oral medicine or small pills I can bite down on or melt in my mouth are easy to swallow. I also get very stressed out if I'm panicking like one time I forgot some important notes when traveling to France on metro and I had to backtrack multiple times through a gate and I got a headache from blood pressure.
I also just got new glasses with lenses that are more tailor made because I have high differential between the amount of nearsightedness on my eyes which i've been thinking might be astigmatism but idk. But the new lenses are more accurate and less ghosting on the sides normally and I took very little time to get used to them. Taking off my glasses seems to have just slightly lessened stress levels. Tired eyes have hard time to properly focus.
Honestly sounds like I have a crapload of psychosomatic symptoms rn. It's like my eyes with such high differential are giving me a skewed perception about Garou.
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Someone confirm how many episodes OPM season 3 is gonna be again? I wanna know if there's even a slight chance that...
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Cosmic Fear Garou is coming to cinema soon(ish).
And that it would hopefully be fucking epic because I could use some more positive association with this one. Plz make it happen, I wanna watch it. The animations made about Saitama vs Garou battle are so good. :D
My spidey senses are just tingling hard.
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This one is especially good...the only problem to me is the colourful, fast animation strobolights on this animation feel bad to watch around 5.40minute mark.
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This one feels better to watch during flashing lights because the effects are slowed down sufficiently majority of the time.
Would be kind of cool if I knew if I had to wear some shades if I wanted to watch season 3 cuz I don't wanna get epilepsy from the fast paced action lol or if I should not watch it when mentally tired so I don't get porygoned like the little kids watching that one banned pokemon episode.
Eh I think I'm done rambling my thoughts and observations.
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angeart · 2 months
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the new art for hhau is so good! they look so happy in that moment and the way grians wings fit so nicely under scars and the fact that hes comfortable with that? with hugging scar with his wings? aaaaaaaa
the fact he has a little plush chicken? scar won him something? is so cute? i love it
(hope nothing too bad happens with the "no matter how they want to spin it" that doesnt sound like a very supportive community it sounds like grians gonna have even more selfworth issues and scars gonna be even more overprotective bUT THEY CAN HAVE SOFT THINGS YES? JUST A LITTLE BIT?)
and on another note
the ari au hurts so bad omg
the fact that all of this is just spiralling and spiralling
grians loss of control due to her own actions but also the actions of others but also his mental health and scar just trying to be there but its hard and how do you help a person who desperately wants to just have control over their own life but that control could lead to the loss of their life and the issues that come with a lack of agency especially after a suicide attempt with significant mental health issues and just. how do you help. especially in grians situation where it is so hard to escape the public eye with how big she blew up and how much blowing up the news is doing and how its ruining things he loved and she really just needs to have space and time to heal but how can she heal when the things he loves are being taken away from her along with her privacy and agency from the public first but now also from people he trusts because they cant trust him not to commit suicide and
anyway
it hurts so bad and i will definitely be reading the next part while tearing my heart out of my chest (positive)
-burny anon
YAYY so happy you like the recent hhau art!! <3 the way grian's wings slot under scar's and around him is so precious 🥺 especially since it's a rare and hard-fought gesture!
you know... you say you hope nothing bad happens to them. i was gonna give more teases/spoilers, but maybe not here. you know what i'll give here? consider this:
maybe the community is good for them.
maybe it still damages them irreparably.
:))))
nOW THE ARI AU! ARI AU ARI AU ARI AU
it's so weird to say that it's a much darker au than hhau, when hhau is already made of concentrated angst, but... yeah. it is. and i wasn't sure if people will like it / read it, but yay!
there's so much spiralling there. grian's not doing well at all. (and neither is scar, in different ways.)
and as you say, it's so tricky! grian's desperate to have some control, but it's constantly being taken away. there's no privacy, a crumbling sense of self, everything he loved doing and dreamed of slinking sharply out of reach, turning into something frightening. and on top of that, all of the mental health struggles that lead only to less control... because how can she be trusted with a sliver of control, if this is what she does with it? self-destructive, cornered, and desperate. but what else is he meant to do...?
scar wants to help. he wants to so, so much. but how? what can he do, at this point but be there? and it's so stressful. it feels like grian's life now literally relies on him! he can't make any mistakes here. not anymore. please, please, please.
they're both terrified in different ways, absolutely despondent... but at least they have each other. at least there's that.
(grian thinks scar'd be better off without him.)
(scar is terrified that grian will disappear any moment and he won't be able to do a damn thing to stop it.)
they can't even try to heal quietly. privately. all eyes are hungrily on grian/ari, watching every step, ready to pounce and misinterpret and tear apart. there are hands reaching out with nothing but insatiable greed.
she's not a person. she's an item, a commodity, an object, and... how can she reclaim herself? when everything hurts, and everything is so scary, and there's not a single step to take without pointed fingers and judgement, camera flashes and mobs, ridicule and scorn?
but they can't just stay cooped up inside, curtains drawn, not really living either. so what else is there? (grian certainly only sees one way out, most days.)
... mm. ari au the beloved.
as for the next part, look forward! i stole it from ben so i will be the one writing this one :3c expect some feelings mhm mhm!
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einsatzzz · 2 months
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finally being able to happily check notifs and trying to think up replies/comments then suddenly my rib muscle pain start hurting extra again, damn :\
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