#familial trauma

[kittyoverlord]

Brennan tearing up at this part was so heartwrenching. I don't think I've ever seen him break like this. As someone who's been in the unfair position of having to comfort my parents, this scene cut to my soul.

[ojerasgigantes]

Favourite horror tropes 2/? - Family will break you down

[skepticalpigeon]

I can never take forced-birthers who say "you can still live your life the way you want and make something of yourself AND be a mother" seriously, not because that can't be true but because I've seen how being forced into parenthood devoured my catholic grandmother's life and made her bitter that her kids don't want to be beholden to her anymore. She wasn't in an abusive marriage, I know she loved my grandfather, but I can't help but think about what she might have wanted before she had seven children and didn't have the time or the opportunity.

[sage-writes-n-coins-mogai]

Being objectum and objectkin is a funny combination because I’m just cuddling with red panda plush brother-sister and I’m just laying here thinking, ‘ah yes my fellow object thus why we are brothers because we are both objects’ despite the fact that I’m a human with a body of flesh and bone with normal human joints instead of plastic and elastic string. My objectkin identity is very clearly intertwined with my objectum identity and I think that’s neat :3

[yasantiekspresi]

Damaged Roots

I was brought forth with an open wound,

Embroidered within me;

A past that would never truly heal.

Bequeathed from a generation to another,

On goes a scar with us as a host;

We shall never truly recover.

The Wounded Angel - Hugo Simberg Poem By : yasantiekspresi PAINTINGS ARE NOT MINE

[sunflowerandstrawberryspice]

Morro: The fandoms favorite ghost

Look what I have for y'all! I heard you liked feral ghost men who are glorified rats? Whelp I've got one for you!

[Before we begin remember this is all for the funsies so be nice]

But in all seriousness I do have many opinions about Morro and his impact on the show and ESPECIALLY on Wu as a character and how we view him. Because yes I do have an English teacher essay for everything lol, anyway moving on.

So Morro is such a complicated character because Young!Morro is very tragic: An orphan who was taken in by a son of this worlds version of GOD and told he was special, shows great promise and potential training his entire childhood for a roll he's been told he's made to fit. Finally the day comes that he's meant to assume his destiny and... nothing, everything he'd ever done and worked for had been for nothing. He's told everything he's ever been told and ever done has been for nothing. And so obviously he doesn't accept this fact doing more and more dangerous stuff until eventually it ends up getting him killed. Which is pretty depressing seeing Morro seemingly wasn't that old when he died.

We obviously know all the stuff he did when he was a ghost, he was a fucking asshole AT BEST a monster at worst. I am NOT excusing the shit he did or saying it was good it wasn't it was reprehensible and awful, but I do kind of understand the mentality he had. He see's this random ass kid get EVERYTHING he ever wanted without trying (we know Lloyd didn't get it without hardship but Morro doesn't) so it's not much of a surprise that he hates Lloyd. Morro is also a pretty good foil/parallel to Lloyd, both were abandoned at a young age before being taken in (by the same person mind you), both trained as children and "lost their childhood" in different ways and both were told they were destined to be the green ninja (only for one that you know wasn't true)

And it's really interesting to me that in the end Morro's death (idk what else to call it) was pretty much a suicide. He gave up. "You can only save those who want to be saved." Were his exact words which are pretty depressing, it's his admittance of final defeat. It's a pretty fitting end for his character, one steeped in a mixture of evil and bad circumstance, after all Wu calls Morro his greatest mistake for a reason.

Honestly Morro is a character I have such mixed feelings on, like i hate him but I also feel kinda bad for him. He make Wu a more interesting character cause we get to see the mistakes Wu makes, which in my opinion very much so mirror the FSM's mistakes with raising Wu and Garmadon. Honestly Wu and Morro are kind of an example of a cycle of bad parenting tbh. Wu was raised with high expectations and still never got his fathers approval (see Spinjitzu Brothers) and so when he was trying to raise Morro he set a high expectation (being the green ninja) and just like Wu Morro also tried to reach this goal he would never be able to achieve. I do NOT think Wu did this intentionally, but ingrained patterns and all that stuff.

But what do I know. I just find these characters interesting and decided to throw my 2 cents in. I hope y'all are doing well, I hope yo have a great day/night! PEACE OUT!

[bakugoawayy]

Didn’t know the trauma ran this deep… I never deserved any of this tbh

I didn’t deserve for my consent to be stripped from me at a young age.

I didn’t deserve to be forced into a lifestyle and belief system without an option.

I didn’t deserve to be stripped of my identity.

I didn’t deserve to be taken away from my culture.

I didn’t deserve to have my feelings and urges repressed.

I didn’t deserve to be taken advantage of emotionally and mentally.

I didn’t deserve to live in fear.

I didn’t deserve to live with anxiety.

I didn’t deserve to be ashamed of my body.

I didn’t deserve to be ruined by Christianity.

I deserve love. I deserve peace. I deserve healing. I deserve to finally be free. I deserve the ability to love life as life loves me back.

[darkfictionjude]

Jude: trying to make Mafia and Hollywood IFs MC family better than Crowns

Difficulty: impossible

Ummmm funny thing about that….. what do you mean by better? Turns out familial trauma is a theme I really like in my works so if by better you mean they are as toxic? Then yeah it’s a bit hard but as the first words of Anna Karenina say: “All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.”

[irishgirl325]

[poetryorchard]

Calling all eldest daughters & anyone else wildly disrespected within their family dynamic:

Join Dina Klarisse & Nashira de la Rosa in a workshop on familial politics! Discussions will explore:

weaponized incompetence

(mis-)gendered expectations & responsibilities of the daughter

relational politics of birth order

sibling relationships

parental relationships

this will be a HEAVY workshop - similar to our animal crossing/pandemic one, we will be touching on some very tender points & discussing trauma.

this workshop is open to everyone - not just eldest children or daughters! we hope to cultivate a safe, healing, and validating space for anyone navigating familial trauma💙

sign up here!

[yesyesokayalright]

[n0b0dyukn0w]

the way trauma affects me is crazy because everything is fine but then I mess up or someone raises their voice slightly and I am ✨fucked✨

[ursa-major-eunice]

Certain people make me feel like a shelter dog. Scared, trembling, praying to any god that will listen that I’ll be good enough for them. That I won’t mess up, that they won’t send me back. The question I ask is, why are my parents, the people supposed to be my “forever home”, the people who I beg not to send me back? I beg even though I know it’s for nothing, I beg though I know, it’s never worked before.

[felixxthefrog]

i wish i could escape her.

i wish i could escape her, but i know i can't. i've never been able to.

i see her face every time i look in the mirror.

i see her in the way my eyes glow in the sun, and the softness of the curls that hug my face.

her cheeks mimic mine, and the frown lines between our brows are shadows, photocopies of each other.

i glance at my chin and the squish that lies beneath it - for a moment a see a flash of her nails clawing at her own throat, and her frustrated groans are once again ring sharp in my ears.

"god it's horrendous," it echoes, "i need to lose weight."

it's her hand that guides mine to my stomach to prod at the fat that has accumulated since i got married;

her fingers that snatch the sweets out of pantry to chuck them in the bin;

her hunger pangs that keep me gazing longingly at the fresh buttered tortillas i crave and deny.

it's her grip that straightens my shoulders when i slump forward in exhaustion;

her ever-scrutinizing gaze that makes me reach for the dainty nude heels over the bulky, chunky, spiked, black leather boots that i want to wear so desperately;

her unnerving stare that makes me put back the short shorts and reach for the tea-length dress.

her quiet words still cut deep,

"do you seriously have stretch marks?" and i know she really means 'you were supposed to be better than me.'

her disdainful stare stabs through my chest when i attend dinner with fire truck red hair and a slit in my brow

her opinions ricochet off the walls of my brain "stretched lobes are so ugly, i just think they're horrible." as i gaze longingly at the ornate gold gauges that i reluctantly scroll past.

as much as i abhor every moment she influences who i am, i cannot escape her.

when i passingly mention transness, i feel it in my soul. i feel everything she does, everything she says, everything she has ever said and will ever say.

her hands stretch down my throat and tear my vocal chords from their place when my aunt mentions politics, and they tear my ribs out of place to shred my lungs when she asks me why i haven't gone to church recently. she unthreads my veins from under my skin when she points at the spot that appeared on my cheek this morning and digs her nails into my heart when she tells me she wishes i wouldn't dress like that.

my mind screams and cries begging for her approval, and i know, i know i will never receive it, i know she will never care enough, i know i will never be enough

i know that her god will always and forever fill the place in her heart where i am supposed to be, and i know that her fear and insecurity and compulsion to stick with the status quo will overshadow any beauty that resides within her, and as such within me, but

it

still

hurts

like

hell

and i cannot escape her.

i wish i could escape her.

[fearsmagazine]

WILD EYED AND WICKED - Review

DISTRIBUTOR: Gravitas Ventures

SYNOPSIS:  In a family haunted by a menacing medieval creature for generations, Lily Pierce grapples with the childhood loss of her mother, Silvia. Her therapist and girlfriend offer support as she navigates the pain of the anniversary of her mother's death. Encouraged to confront her past, Lily accepts an invitation from her estranged father, a disgraced history professor, to visit the farm where she grew up. To overcome the haunting presence, Lily must discover the strength and courage of a bygone era, a time when armored knights bravely faced and vanquished monsters.

REVIEW: Filmmaker Gordon S Foxwood sets out to tell a story that attempts to deconstruct a contemporary tale of knights and demons as a heroine grables with her mother’s demons, aided by her father and friend.

At its core, the WILD EYED AND WICKED exhibits influences from screenwriter Richard LaGravenese's "The Fisher King" and similar stories of the genre. Lily grapples with relationship issues and family trauma, but her psyche remains relatively stable compared to Parry in "The Fisher King." She embodies some aspects of both Parry and Jack Lucas. After encountering her mother's armor, letters, and pages from an old book about a demon, Lily ventures into the forest to confront the demon. The final act shifts the focus towards her relationships with her father and girlfriend. Ultimately, a collective effort is needed for Lily to break through and confront the demon. Director Foxwood does a commendable job of balancing these elements, but the film lacks fresh or compelling aspects to keep viewers engaged. Additionally, some of the dialogue feels insincere or unnecessary, and the story's lack of surprises diminishes its impact.

While the film features an attractive location and decent costumes, it falls short in several other areas. The cinematography is often very dark. The props lack authenticity due to insufficient aging. The editing pace is slow, featuring Lily’s excessive phone and laptop screen time. Lengthy dialogue scenes between Lily and her father utilize basic framing and methodical cutting, further contributing to the sluggish pacing. Numerous flashbacks to young Lily and her mother aim to provide background, but they ultimately slow down the narrative. The jump scares feel ineffective due to mistimed setups and poor execution. The obligatory montage sequence before the battle lacks energy and enthusiasm. The fight sequence is underwhelming, partly attributed to the simplistic demon design devoid of menace, the lackluster choreography and the sluggish editing.

Despite not being terrible, the performances failed to captivate this viewer. While the tale's depressing themes are appreciated, the characters lacked the spark needed to provide viewers with a sense of hope to sustain their interest. Unfortunately, there was no character or performance that offered any emotional contrast. All the emotional levels felt suppressed, and there were moments when the characters should have been more emotionally engaged but didn't come across as fully invested or enraged.

WILD EYED AND WICKED has a made-for-tv movie or Hallmark channel production feel to it. Many of its plot devices lack originality, resembling other stories and films with similar themes. The film lacks atmosphere, even during the protagonist's ride into the forest, and fails to build tension, suspense, a sense of wonder or  the loss of innocence. Although it is an independent film and may have had budget constraints, other filmmakers have achieved more with less. The overly ambitious film falls short. While it is clearly a labor of love for Gordon Shoemaker Foxwood, it is also a laborious watch for the viewer.

CAST: Molly Kunz, Michael X. Sommers, Stefanie Estes, and Colleen Camp. CREW: Director/Screenplay/Producer - Gordon Shoemaker Foxwood; Producers - Powell Robinson & Patrick Robert Young; Cinematographers - Matheus Bastos & Eyal Bau Cohen; Score - Kyle Hnedak; Editor - William Ford-Conway ; Production Designer - Hanna Hamilton; Costume Designer - Nadine Sondej-Robinson; Visual Effects Artists - Chris Riley & Justin Sarceno; Prosthetic Designer - Isabelle Isel; Practical Effects - Independent Studio Services & J&M Effects. OFFICIAL: www.wildeyedandwicked.com FACEBOOK: N.A. TWITTER: N.A. TRAILER: https://youtu.be/FQc3rDYwpaw RELEASE DATE: TVOD/Digital and cable On Demand June 11th, 2024

**Until we can all head back into the theaters our “COVID Reel Value” will be similar to how you rate a film on digital platforms - 👍 (Like), 👌 (It’s just okay), or 👎 (Dislike)

Reviewed by Joseph B Mauceri

[desultory-suggestions]

this is, definitely not a very good place to vent

buuut, school is going to send me a home visit just 'cause i vented with the school therapist the other day (just a small thing, i told them that my mom screams at me from time to time)

i know my mom is gonna get so mad and she probably gonna shout at me, believe me, many people alredy tried to work with her before but it's impossible

i'm very anxious and nervous about everything ...

Hello, love. I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this. It can be hard to navigate situations where you need to be able to be honest with someone and confide in them, but they are concerned with the responsibility of protecting you and accidentally make it harder for you.

Screaming matches and yelling are unfortunately normalized in many relationships. I myself used to have huge arguments with my mom that really weren’t healthy or respectful, and until I grew up I didn’t fully understand how bad it was.

You don’t deserve to be yelled and screamed at, even if someone is very upset they must take responsibility for their actions. I’m sorry to hear that your mom has refused to progress when offered help, because I’m sure if she worked on her communication you could have a much better understanding.

I recommend being honest with your school counselor about what you told me. Even with good intentions, they did end up making things more complicated. There may be an understanding you can reach, and it may help them in the future to help you.

If you no longer feel comfortable speaking to your school counselor, perhaps you can consult your mom about seeing a therapist who can offer you more trust and support. Therapists also have to report certain things, but generally they do not panic as easily as an overburdened school counselor and will dig into the situation to help decide what to do. She may refuse this, I do not know her feelings in the topic. If she does, know that there are still options for people you can confide in, and don’t be afraid to ask counselors about what information they report and how so you are informed.

I hope things turned out okay, and that you get the support you need. Take tender care,

Evan