#dude there's so many layers

[cloudsentapollo]

MAG 161 and MAG 162 are making me insane

[aesterblaster]

Shidou is the one who teaches Sae that it's okay to have boundaries in relationships and helps him feel safe, if you even care. Sae is used to being hit on, touched by fans and interviewers since he was 11. Sae is used to people wanting him and his body and his fame. He can handle that aspect of Shidou.

What really gets him is when Shidou starts asking questions. There's no expectations and yet he asks if this or that is okay, he calls him just to ask how he's doing. Sae gets this throbbing anxiety in his chest whenever he wants something as simple as a hug. Afterall, he's the badass soccer prodigy. He shouldn't crave affection when he has such a fulfilling career. Or at least that's what he believes until his new boyfriend gently slips his hand into his at a cafe. And suddenly he's remembering all the time he spent denying his sexuality, all the times men and women so much more experienced than him told him to just suck up his pain because this was all the love he was going to get. All the times he felt unsafe expressing the slightest bit of affection for another man in public and intentionally distanced himself.

It's like you don't even like me, his past flings would whine. Why do you flinch away, his exes chided. They simply hadn't seen what he had, hadn't heard the locker room talk about what one of his teammates would do if he found out he was on a team with a queer person. Shidou scares Sae sometimes with his loud makeup and dyed hair. But damn, does he feel like home. His hand is warm too, feeding Sae's skin hunger. That comfort doesn't stop him from slipping out of his grasp and shoving his hand in his pocket though, glancing around to see who saw them.

Shidou just smiles and leans back. Sae doesn't have to apologize or say anything. He doesn't know what Sae's been through yet, but he can feel the anxiety coming off of him in waves. He doesn't know this yet, but he's the first person who's been gentle with Sae. Who understands that jumping hugs and private comments look much different off the field. No, he doesn't take offense when Sae flinches at pda, and that just makes Sae want him more.

[insomnya777]

joel etho single dads au .........

[lover-of-mine]

We don't discuss the way Buck read a book written by a disabled guy who was still successful in a field where you need to be at your best physically at all times when he was in the hospital thinking he might lose his leg nearly enough. Especially with how much everyone talks about Buck's suicidal tendencies.

[sydneys-adamu]

even though it’s the last thing he wants to be doing I think that carmy stokes the fire of the fear of abandonment that sydney has and it really shows itself during the chaos menu spat. one of the things he says there that is a little overlooked is “claire made me realize maybe there are some things I don’t care about anymore” and that line feels so direct, so targeted. throughout this entire endeavor syd’s been anxious about his distance, not just because he’s losing focus but because there are a million and one things carm isn’t telling her. that feeling of being left behind and not needed creeps in because of carmy’s lack of communication.

syd’s mom didn’t abandon her but it’s still an unfinished story that she’ll never get answers to. now with the bear she’s creating her own story with carmy but he’s pulling away, making decisions without her and looking over the menu with some girl who has no stake in this big risk they’re taking *together*. sydney has walls up and she is guarded, and there’s still many things he doesn’t know about her but they’ve been breaking down those walls slowly and making the bear a reality was supposed to be another way to be in each other’s lives for real and make more space for each other’s vulnerability.

her saying “you could do this without me” under the table isn’t out of nowhere!! he’s been making her feel like he doesn’t need her!! even though he doesn’t mean to at all!!

it’s just unbelievable that what’s going through syd’s mind is “don’t give up on this. want me like I want you.”, meanwhile carmen is in the back alley picturing her, his tether to this plane of existence, to calm down from a panic attack.

[gynii]

I got really close to commenting kys on an Instagram reel just now, and I need you all to know how brave I was not doing that

[marchy-emmet]

FOR HIM!! IT'S FOR HIM?!?!?! EMMET MONTH IS FOR HIM?!?!

Oh my gods, I haven't put this much effort into a piece in a while. It was for Emmet's sake.

Bonus transparent version:

[estheticpotaeto]

Oh my god i feel so stupid for just getting this now (and I'm sure everyone else already knew this because that's how all the fics are written) I can't believe it took me this long to figure it out but

Buck never initiates his relationships!

Abby called him first! Ally called him first! Taylor /kissed/ him first! And he just stayed single for a very long time between the last two (which btw only changed when Eddie's relationship status changed but that's point's been made before) I can't remember about Natalia but I'm pretty sure she gave him her number?

But yes!!! Buck is never the one to reach out and start the relationship! Probably because of his deep seated issues!!! (I can't point out which ones but y'all know)

[moonbeamnights]

OUAT AU that I need in my life: Milah the selkie. Because this woman has the most selkie whose human husband stole her seal coat and now she's trapped vibes that you can possibly have without actually being a selkie. And Rumple totally just... Would Do That.

Also the Millian in this AU! Killian going with her to look for the seal skin or finding it himself and giving it back, just helping her find it either way 🥺 The romance!

[charlataninred]

Genuinely terrified by the way constant surveillance has been normalized. We were talking about the Patriot Act in English and one of my classmates said “well you trust advertisement companies with your private information, why wouldn’t you trust the government?”

[conceptofjoy]

i havent reread jake's dialogue past the beta kids meeting up with them so idk if there was anything important to his character expanded upon (considering what they did 2 jane and jade i doubt it..) and i get that the dude is like an onion, full of layers and nuance that u can rlly only tell if the light refracts off his surface just right and spells it out to u on the wall but i am a little confused by some of these depictions ,8)

[icelogged]

i love being on the people who carnally desire girls that will kill them website

[whomturgled]

seeing as december's a day away and that means ~holiday season~- i have a bunch of old binders of various makes & sizes (some idk origin, a few gc2b, anywhere from XS to L?, diff colours/types) that i wld love to give to ppl who need them. i can update this l8r with more details but ig i was wondering if anyone wld be interested or knows anyone in need? id be willing to ship within canada, maybe to the USA for small enough pckg. otherwise i'll just donate to a local binder exchange but i figured this way if anyone is in particular need it's nice to know im directly helping ig!

i also have some rolls of biege kinesiology tape if that's of interest either in itself or in addition.

peace n love on planet earth

[torahtot]

what people think chanukah is: jewish christmas funtime with presents and food

what people think chanukah actually is: a fight against assimilation! crush the greeks! cleanse ourselves of hellenization and return to our own ways!

what chanukah actually is: sike there is no actual meaning!! there is no true or pure origin that can be uncovered or 'reclaimed' for this holiday or any other!! that's not how judaism works that's not how culture works! whatever it means to you is what it really means! the hasmoneans themselves were intensely hellenized and the very idea of instituting a festival to commemorate a victory was a Greek one! but that's fine because judaism has always incorporated the practices of the cultures it existed within or adjacent to and that is a key part of why we're still here. and the fact that we resisted and retained our difference is ALSO why we're still here! [insert substituting one black and white view of history for another dot tumblr post]

me personally i see both the historical chanukah story and its subsequent presentations over time from maccabees to the talmud to the present day as a representation of this balance between integrating and isolating and the debates about it which has been one of the big questions of jewish communities for a very long time and especially today :))

[crossbackpoke-check]

what are ur thoughts on the winners room trope?

ooooo okay surface level analysis: i like winner’s room fics :)

etwas tieferes: i think it’s cool that it’s (afaik) unique to hockey fandom and i enjoy the way it integrates a lot of unspoken rules in hockey with desire/makes them a physical/tangible reality… also the narrative potentials/world-building it opens up can be fun because there’s not really a set of rules for the “winner’s room” trope. are there in-universe rules? who gets chosen? who’s exempt? who gets to pick? where’s it going down? is it the entire room or one guy? what if your (ex)boyfriend is on another team? does somebody need to be taught a lesson or do you need to remind someone who got traded you still love them? also, most important, winner’s room gives you the chance to put two random-ass guys you saw interact for 0.002 seconds and went “hmmm. interesting” about into a Situation and i love that

[aroacedavestrider]

uugghhhghhh god its that point of the year where every fifth post i see is about how fall is imminent no matter how many tags i block