#trans ftx

[genderstarbucks]

CTMTN | CTFTN

CTMTN is a term for those who are transitioning from ctm (close to male) to neutral. This term is exclusive to intersex people.

CTFTN is a term for those who are transitioning from ctf (close to female) to neutral. This term is exclusive to intersex people.

CTMTX | CTFTX

CTMTX is a term for those who are transitioning from ctm (close to male) to an unspecified gender. This term is exclusive to intersex people.

CTFTX is a term for those who are transitioning from ctf (close to female) to an unspecified gender. This term is exclusive to intersex people.

Some other versions to ctmtnb and ctftnb

[pickle-the-lad]

As a trans man who now physically cannot bind because of the damage caused by binding. mixing binding with my fibromyalgia and my periodic paralysis, is most likely why it got so bad in only 3 years of binding. But it can get really bad!

But know your bodies limits! If it hurts, stop! If stopping emotionally hurts: talk to a therapist, they can help you find ways to cope.

If you know for fact that you're going to have tops surgery within a year of coming out; 6 to 8 hours, 12 only if that's what school requires of you (put down your foot when it comes to work, cuz manual labor in a binder is dangerous) but try your best to take breaks! Even if those brakes are just putting your hands through the arm holes of your binder, and pushing out! And always remember to schedule break days where you don't bind at all!

I worked 8 hour days, but because of I didn't know how to drive; so I ended up binding for 13 hours at one point seven days a week, while working fast food. And I found myself collapsing multiple times because of this.

I don't think the tinder spots on my ribs will ever go away, and I've had a near constant cough for the past 3 years. And I haven't bind since September 2022...

How I cope without binding:

Pillows: hugging a pillow, laying your chest on top of a pillow, just laying a pillow on top of your chest while you lay on your back. The cuddle sensation is comforting, and it hides your chest from your view.

Layers: awful in summer, but I tend to wear a tank top, a long sleeve shirt with a t-shirt on top of that. // a tank top and a thick sweater. But the more layers you can wear comfortably the better; it hides your chest from you so it doesn't trigger dysphoria as easily, and agab disappears undo enough layers.

Comfort plan: a list of items that make you comfy (teddy bears, candy, that really baggy t-shirt, your favorite blanket, etc), a list TV shows and movies to binge, a collection of emergency snacks. You can even include friends in your comfort plan, even if they're only online; someone to spend time with you can really help some individuals. But if you find that you much rather be alone in these moments, that's fine too; just get to know you comfort needs.

There's no such thing as not uncomfortable enough to be comforted, because you deserve complete comfort. I highly suggest that if you find yourself thinking you're unworthy of others, to bring others around you. You're never in the wrong for needing reinsurance, just let them know that your brain is doing a weird thing. If someone makes you feel like crap, kick them out of your circle. If someone tries to make you feel bad for kicking someone out, give explanation and if necessary; find better friends.

If any of the wonderful trans people out here wants to add something, please do♡

We really have harmed a whole generation of trans and gnc children by failing to communicate how serious a decision binding actually is, how there’s no ACTUALLY safe way to bind, how it permeneantly damages the body, how it can make top surgery more difficult in the future. I don’t think we should be keeping trans kids from binding (we let kids do all sorts of things they’re really not old enough to understand the potential consequences of) but we owe them the ability to make informed decisions at LEAST

[yellowyarn]

Actually, the "F" on my passport is for faggot, not female.

[gor3sigil]

Before starting T, when I socially transitionned, I was surrounded by radical feminists who saw masculinity as gross and inherently evil, something to avoid, something to make fun of, something to destroy. The other transmascs in my friend group, sometimes, told me that they didn’t knew if they really were non-binary or if they just were scared shitless of saying “I am a man”. Because they saw this as a betrayal to their younger self who had been SAd and abused.

I saw many of my masc friends and trans men around me hate themselves, not outing themselves as men because it would imply so so much, it was like opening the Pandora Box. Even when we were just together, talking about our masculinity was always coated with bits like “I know we’re the privileged ones but…”, “I don’t want to sound like I have it bad but…”, “Women obviously have it worse, but last time…” and we were talking about terrible traumas we experienced while taking all the precautions in the world in the case the walls were a crowd of people in disguise waiting to get us if we didn’t downplay the violence we faced, or like crying and being upset and being traumatized and afraid and scared and to say it out loud would make us throw up the needles we were forced to swallow every second of every day living in our skin.

Most of us weren’t on T yet, some of us were catcalled every day and harassed in the streets or in abusive relationships nobody seemed to care to help them get out of because they were “strong enough” to do it by themselves.

I was using the gender swap face app and cried for ours when I saw my father looking back at me through the screen. The idea of transforming, of shedding into a body that would deprive me of love, tenderness, and safety, was absolutely terrifying. I knew I couldn’t stay in this body any longer because it wasn’t mine, but I also knew that if I was going to look like my dad, my brother, my abusers, it would be so much worse.

5 years later and I’m almost 2 years on T, and almost 2 months post top surgery.

I ditched my previous group of friends. I was bullied out of my local trans community. But let me tell you how free I am.

I was scared that T would break my singing voice: it made it sound more alive than ever.

I was scared that T would make me less attractive: it made me find myself hot for the first time in my life.

I was scared that T would make me gain weight: it did. But the weight I put on is not the weight I used to put on by binging and eating my body until I forgot that it even existed. It’s the weight of my body belonging to me, little by little. The wolf hunger for life.

I won’t tell you the same story I see everywhere, the one that goes “I started going to the gym 8 times a week, I put on some muscles, I started a diet and now I look like an action film actor”, in fact if you took pictures of me from 5 years ago vs now I’d just have more acne, I’d have longer hair and still look like I don’t know what to do with myself when I take selfies.

But the sparkle in my eyes, my smile, tell the whole story way better than this long ass stream of words could ever.

I want to say some things that I wish someone told me before starting medically transitionning.

It’s okay to take your time. It’s your body, it’s your journey, if you don’t feel comfortable taking full doses and want to go slow, the only voice you need to listen to is your own. Do what feels right.

If you feel overwhelmed, it’s okay to take a break, it’s okay to ask for support.

Trans people are holy. Everyone is. You didn’t lose your angel wings when you came out because you want to be masculine. You are not excluded from the joy of existence, from being proud of yourself, from being sad, from being scared, from being angry. The emotions and feelings you allowed yourself to feel while processing what you experienced when you grew up as a girl and was seen as a woman are still as valid as before. Nobody can take that from you. If someone tries to, don’t let them.

It’s perfectly normal to grieve some things you were and had before you started to transition, like your high soprano voice or even your chest. Hatching is painful. You can find comfort in things that don’t feel right, so making the decision to change can be incredibly scary and weird and you deserve to be heard and supported through this. Wanting top surgery doesn’t make the surgery less intense, less terrifying, less painful to recover from. When it becomes too much you have the right to take a break and take some deep breaths before going on.

You don’t have to have a radical, 180° change for your transition to be acceptable or valid or worthy of praise. Look at how far you’ve come already. It doesn’t have to show, you’re not made to be a spectacle, you’re human and it is your journey.

Oh, and last thing, you know when some people say “Oh this trans person has to grow out of the cringy phase where you think that you can write essays about being trans or transitionning or just their experience because it’s weird” ? If you ever hear this or see this online, remember all the people whose writing you read and, even if they were not professional writers, helped you more than any theorists did ? If you want to write, do it. It won’t be a waste. It can help people. Or it won’t, and even then, if it helped you, that’s enough.

Love every of my trans siblings, take care of yourselves. You deserve the world.

[genderkoolaid]

the thing that's so annoying about the state of the Trans Discourse here is that anti-transfem transmisogny and anti-transmasculinity both contribute to making trans people unwelcome unless we are deemed close enough to cis women. countless trans men & mascs & FTX people have had the experience of being alienated or directly kicked out of queer spaces for being too male/masc. but people have this absolutist perspective that this must be an experience ONLY had by trans people assigned male & that trans people assigned female are only ever read as feminine and female in the exact same way cis women are. because if we acknowledge that then maybe we'd have to acknowledge how trans (& intersex & GNC) people are demonized in relation to our real or percieved masculinity and maleness

[sprakcomic]

( it's the Re-Animator theme. ) ( tell me your t-shot music 👀 )

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[transmaverique]

like... sorry, im maybe having a hard time phrasing this but, it's like no one sees nontransmasculine ftx enbies as being really trans. ftx enbies are always "nontransitioning", "fem-aligned" and lumped in with cis people, when conversations about queer-on-queer bigotry happen. even other nonbinary people will do this. like... yeah, obv no ones immune to being transphobic. but so so so often transneutral ftx's get scapegoated as the primary issue. even from other people who actively understand that lateral bigotry comes from a different place than transphobia from cis people do. yknow. they get lumped in with cis people. those annoying transtrenders.

it's just that so many people will talk about how we cant judge transmascs as an entire group of people for a handful of terf transmascs, and then in the next breath do just that to ftx enbies. it's that so many people will have full and nuanced understanding of transmasculine oppression, and in the next breath claim that ftx enbies are privileged. transmedicalism has seeped into and rotted much of the foundations of our understanding of gender politics; nonbinary and cisgender are spoken of hand-in-hand. i dont know if other people realize how thoroughly they disrespect transneutrality, how often they treat "non transitioning" enbies like their claims to their own transness are nonexistent.

[themaveriqueagenda]

some signs you might be maverique*

1. you feel like terms like "man" and "woman" don't apply to you at all. this is pretty self-explanatory.

2. you have a distinct sense of gender. your gender feels as specific and as clearly defined as manhood and womanhood. you are not genderless.

3. you relate to having a neutral gender, but not entirely. because gender neutrality is a well-known concept, it's not uncommon for maveriques to first explore and relate to that when they first realise they are nonbinary, however neutrality still tends to feel "off" or "not quite right".

4. your gender feels unusual, even to yourself. because maveriquehood exists independently from the gender binary and gender neutrality, it can be hard to put it into words, find history or people you relate to. being maverique can come with great feelings of alienation even from other nonbinary people due to binary expectations. maveriques may feel "weird among the weirdos".

5. your gender is neither in between male or female nor a mix of them. this one is self-explanatory. maveriques tend to feel far away from both binary genders.

6. you don't relate to femininity, masculinity or androgyny. some maveriques don't use any terms that are derived from binary genders, even terms for gender expression or transition goals.

7. you feel like your gender is "just you". some maveriques feel like their gender is truly unique to themselves, cannot be separated from their being and is best defined as "just them".

8. you simply like the term or flag. if you've already narrowed down a few terms for your gender that are similar and could all apply, it's totally valid to choose your label on the word and/or flag you find most aesthetically pleasing.

don't know what maverique means? check the pinned post on this blog.

*of course a lot of these "signs" also apply to other genders, and not all of them will apply to every maverique. this is in no way meant as a checklist you must fulfill to be maverique, merely a guide that may help people figure themselves out. especially multigender maveriques may have different experiences from the above.

[goth-brushbug]

Let's make this into a long-haired enbies thread! I hardly ever see any long-haired nonbinary ppl.

Also, yes, I wanted to show off my new vampire shirt

If this gets no attention, I'll probably delete *inserts sad ant meme*

[p-idgey]

No one is going to see this but because it fucking changed my life i find it is my civic duty to spread the word:

TRANSTAPE WORKS FOR BIG TIDDY BITCHES I REPEAT TRANSTAPE WORKS FOR BIG TIDDY BITCHES

And if you feel pretty sure it doesn't [like I did] that might be because of user error [it was for me]

Listen I tried a couple times without a tutorial to transtape my tits down, thinking "what the fuck would I need instructions for it seems like common fucking sense". It did not work, so as a 32G (last time I measured years ago) I said "welp my tits are probably just too powerful for containment"

Today on a whim I google "transtape large chest video tutorial" met a lovely friend on YouTube who took the sacrifice of going tits out on YouTube dot com to in depth explain how they apply their transtape and holy fuck you guys I tried it and it worked. So here I am spreading the gospel

[aeons-cowboy]

Imagine transgender dog and cat... yeah

[my-brain-is-hatching]

[rainbowcafelgbtqcenter]

HAPPY NONBINARY PARENTS DAY

[gor3sigil]

If you're all about body positivity but make fun of men with hairline receiding or bald, fat, with a beer belly etc, no you're not.

Pretty sick and tired of seeing people laugh and trash men who are not tall skinny queer looking white dudes and be like "everyone is beautiful" in the same breath.

[dyke-husband]

The healthy part of my brain: “wow it’s so cool my top surgery date is getting so close. I will rest and set up support for my recovery”

My rabid transsexual archivist/zine maker brain worm: “we must document everything. Write about everything, preserve all relevant artifacts”

[sapphicslut777]

and so it begins… my last day on this earth with boobies….