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Tiktok is censorship Hell, so here you go

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In my personal opinion, this is the moment Phukan couldn't handle the situation anymore. He's been struggling with falling in love with Cirrus for a while, not allowing himself to do so, while also praying for 'just a little longer' with Cir, but when Cir says this... It's too much.

I think right here is where Phu realizes that this isn't right. It's like I suddenly have Jin's powers, because I can practically hear Phu thinking 'P'Cir is thinking of the other Phu'. And if Cir's thinking of the other Phu, it isn't real. They aren't real. Cir doesn't love him, he loves the other Phu.

Right here is where Phu realizes it's been long enough and he can't be selfish any longer. Cir has to go back, no matter how much it'll hurt to lose him.

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It occurs to me that had Fadel & Bison's parents not been murdered and both of them not trained as hitmen, they both would have grown up incredibly privileged and likely would have been spoiled rich kids. Bison's parents owned a freaking island, and from the flashback scene Fadel’s parents seemed equally well-off.

Which would make for a very different dynamic with Style and Kant.

Style, a blue-collar working-class tradesman, raised by a single parent, who lives behind a garage. Kant, a self-employed tattoo artist who works out of his own home, an orphan, sole guardian of a child for most of his life, and an ex-con who only committed crimes to survive and support his family.

Oh, they would all fucking hate each other. It would be the enemies-to-lovers, cross-class romance of the century!

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It didn't start at the museum....for Hagiwara.

At least I personally don't think it did.

Sei is the one that says it started at the museum.

For Sei, that is true.

They had both been developing an emotional connection through e-mail. In e-mail, they were vulnerable with each other. Hagiwara is the one that turned the conversation sexual, but they both engage.

However, the emotional connection didn't mirror what was happening in their physical connection with each other. In real life, they saw each other very differently before the museum.

Before the museum, Sei thought of Hagiwara fondly. Sei gives a small smile when thinking of him. However, he used the same child analogy that Kaori did. He's amused. He didn't see him sexually at this point.

Sei sees Hagiwara as a coworker. Sei notices Hagiwara, but it always comes back to work. He offers to help, but there is nothing in his words to convey anything more than Sei being amused by a coworker who has a tough job. Sei does recognize Hagiwara's effort. It's why he offers to help.

However, Hagiwara definitely saw Sei in a sexual fashion prior to the museum encounter.

That smitten look he had when he first saw Kaori?

He may not realize it, but he gives that look to Sei pretty frequently. He follows Sei with his eyes. He tracks his movements. He's intrigued. Sei's eyes do not follow him.

He leaves a group of coworkers when the conversation was ABOUT him to follow Sei to the bar. He initiates conversation with Sei.

He's the host (and supposedly a very good one), but he follows Sei around ignoring everyone else for a good while. He tells everyone else to get home safe. He pursues Sei in the rain. He tries to share the umbrella. Sei pops up his own. He's offering. Sei isn't taking.

He offers to send Sei a rain app (symbolism I see you). But even if you are not obsessed with symbols, Hagiwara asks Sei to go with him to another bar. None of the other coworkers. ONLY SEI.

Hagiwara has sexual thoughts about Sei. ONLY SEI (besides Kaori). Unlike Sei, he doesn't relate any of his thoughts about Sei to work.

He thinks about Sei a lot period. There are actually several dialogue points where he refers to things he had thought about Sei. But the most notable is probably during the entire walk with the umbrellas. They only talk about Sei (and Fujisawa). Hagiwara initiating mostly.

Sei answers Hagiwara's questions, because he's an incredibly blunt and straightforward person. Sei never asks Hagiwara any personal questions here. He didn't care to know Hagiwara deeper at that point.

Hagiwara offers to buy Sei a cup of warm, fresh coffee after returning the umbrellas. This is symbolism people. The coffee talks.

Once they are at the museum, Hagiwara reaches the statue first. He's already enthralled. However, it's at this point that Sei joins him. They sync up physically. Their movements begin mirroring each other.

Sei actually mentions sending the e-mail first. They sit on the bench together. They discover that the person they've been e-mailing is the man in front of them, and there is joy in that discovery.

The museum encounter changes how Sei sees Hagiwara. Hagiwara is inviting him to listen to the rain, and he now has the link to do so. He reconciles that the stranger he had been e-mailing was the physical man before him. I've ran out of images, but Sei's whole body posture changes on the bench after getting the link to the rain app.

When leaving the museum, Sei's eyes track and dwell on Hagiwara. It's the first time that happens.

Hagiwara invites Sei to dinner. This is the THIRD time he's invited Sei to something with just the two of them (if you count the coffee).

It's the first time that Sei accepts the gesture. (He refused to let Hagiwara pay for the coffee).

Sei now starts asking Hagiwara personal, sexual questions.

But Hagiwara? None of his behavior with Sei changes. It had already started for him prior to the museum. It just deepens.

That's not to say the museum isn't important for Hagiwara. It's VERY important. It's where they synced. It's where emotional and physical merged. It's where they met in the middle, and that makes it special.

I've now written WAY too much about this show. For those that want to read it, here's a master list. I'll keep updating it as I add new posts.

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Anti-ICE protesters are blocking both sides of the 101 Freeway in Los Angeles (02 February 2025)

The protests are still going on.

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Friendliest States 2025 based in the Politeness Index

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GelBoys Documentary OUT NOW!

AVAILABLE WITH ENGLISH SUBS

Notable points/quotes

Director Boss Kuno was inspired by gel manicures of his screenwriters Junior and Kate and wanted to make a series about the teenage relationships of boys with gel nails.

The series is shot entirely on phone.

"[The series] is like a digital footprint of T-Pop culture."

"The series talks about manicure. We get to tell the story about that through it."

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gelboys so far is using social media in a way that shows that it's an extension of how people feel and gets used in ways connected to how people feel. it's interesting because i think given even the plot points so far, there could've been an aspect of specific social media abuse in it, but there's not.

i've never shared a spotify playlist, but i've made a lot of mix tapes! on cassettes and on cds alike, i shared music as an expression of my feelings for a person. and so do the gelboys!

i've never blocked somebody from spotify or deleted a playlist, but you know what i have done? broke cds in half and pulled the tape out of a cassette before throwing it away.

i've never waited for someone to DM me back, but i have stuffed a note in somebody's locker and waited for the reply. i have gotten the reply and been too late to my next class to read it. i've tried to read the note in class subtly without anybody else knowing and ended up with my friends poking fun at my crush.

the experiences that the boys in gelboys are having resonate deeply with me, not because my adolescence looked exactly the same but because the stuff that's coming up is very normal teenage feelings. the agonies when you're a teenager are the end of the world, but you realize by the time you make it to adulthood that those pass too.

in gelboys, boss kuno is asking you to remember that the joy and fun of being a teenager is what balances out the inevitable agonies. and that's pretty cool! it's different from a lot of people who do media set in high school, and i think it sets his shows apart in a good way.

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I kept thinking during the episode that Bua and Baabin should just date each other and leave Chian and Fourmod to *gestures* whatever they've got going on. Then I went back to watch the trailer again and--

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USA people! Buy NOTHING Feb 28 2025. Not anything. 24 hours. No spending. Buy the day before or after but nothing. NOTHING. February 28 2025. Not gas. Not milk. Not something on a gaming app. Not a penny spent. (Only option in a crisis is local small mom and pop. Nothing. Else.) Promise me. Commit. 1 day. 1 day to scare the shit out of them that they don't get to follow the bullshit executive orders. They don't get to be cowards. If they do, it costs. It costs.

Then, if you can join me for Phase 2. March 7 2025 thtough March 14 2025? No Amazon. None. 1 week. No orders. Not a single item. Not one ebook. Nothing. 1 week. Just 1.

If you live outside the USA boycott US products on February 28 2025 and stand in solidarity with us and also join us for the week of no Amazon.

Are you with me?

Spread the word.

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The whiplash from these two scenes being back to back

Why did we go from Sangmin's parents wanting to kill him for money to Rik fucking himself with a cucumber. I do not understand where this show is trying to go. It's a fascinating mess

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if you follow me, or simply see this and have 1 free minute, could you read this post please? i'm in desperate need of as many and as varied ideas as possible from different perspectives and people

i cannot bear to stay where i am much longer, living here is killing me from inside, i'm clawing at the walls. i want to move countries, cut ties with almost everyone, have the freedom of marrying anyone i want, adopt, change gender marker, work in a region where my preferred job field is much more progressive and valued, and stop holding myself back from living. in order to do that i need savings and money to get shit done like documents and gender affirming stuff. to do that faster i need a job with as high of a pay as i can get. i really want to get the fuck out of here in 6 or 8 months

i want to kindly ask, please if you have an idea of a job that would be a possible fit for my needs, no matter what it is, leave it in replies here or in anons. might be something innovative and unusual, or might be something obvious that i haven't thought of before

further info under the cut

- note, i live in Kazakhstan so almost any eu/us/nz/au jobs are considered high paying to me because of our enormous difference in the currency value. in case of a possibility of job done from faraway i can figure out the taxes issue

my skills and characteristics that can be helpful to think of something, but also not limited to those: - fluent in 2 languages (russian and english) - adaptable, very fast learner, good at finding things and doing varied tasks, analytical - fast to make people open up to me, charm them - good with computer shit, passable in photoshop - conventionally attractive (it has been helpful in all customer service jobs) - almost completed a childcare degree, have all skills that come with handling kids - though i do not have a degree yet. i quit astrophysics major a decade ago and will only finish my bachelors in early childhood education this summer

jobs that i have done before:

- the most successful and longest one: store chain manager where my position combined responsibilities of offline store manager, sales manager and internet store manager. promotion of top-price brands and their growth in popularity, training personnel, working with vip clients, working with suppliers, choosing and purchasing all products, social media advertising, fully taking care of online store too - various sales - real estate agent

jobs i do not consider: - childcare jobs (the field is in the ditches here, the aim is to earn money, not put myself into debt) - teaching jobs, same problem - persuading people to buy anything - translating text. i am horrible with written speech, very very poor writer's skills - the kind of customer service where you have to prostrate yourself to customers. i don't have patience to take shit anymore - please don't suggest sugar dating. done that. trauma

i can easily find a job on my own but i wanted to be smarter about it this time and consider everything, use all resources including this blog. if you thought of anything, please tell me

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Yes I can tell you don't know how to play. bc as a former flute player I honestly didn't clean the outside much like that. It stays pretty clean if you store it right. It's the INSIDE you have to clean regularly. Gets kinda gross. Also the key pads.