#drug abuse help

[girlyteengirl16]

as i get older i really do understand why people abuse substances now

[autopsyfreak]

if you shit on people for being drug addicts then just know that i hate you.

[3m0g1rlyyy]

the only way for me to tolerate people is by being on drugs.

[thankgod4pattsu]

I feel alone and scared.

[vanx-97]

You make me so angry and you make me sad

You’re so concerned about a future you don’t have

Far from what you can achieve, close to a body bag

Some people love seeing life, you love to see it pass

So cloudy and no one can make it clear 

You don’t know what to do with your career

Family talks of fallback plans you don't wanna hear

School graduate drug addict kid who wants to disappear

The friends you had I thought they were great

The friends you hold onto are the ones that I hate

Everything you borrow, nothing you repay

You’d fuck up someone’s week to be high for 1 day

You don’t even try, you just give up on your goals

You dread the day success comes close

I really hope that you don’t overdose

The world didn’t watch you grow just to watch you go

Young adults are all confused, you are not alone

So many stars that collapse into black holes

Some of those people you used to know

I think you should take it slow before you implode

You can’t control everything, you weren’t meant to

I don’t think that the universe hates you

Be yourself and do what you love to do

Take it from someone who had to die to see that life is beautiful

You will struggle, things won’t always work

This dance with death will only make it worse

You want to change, believe in yourself first

Eventually you will find your place on this earth

[emotionaleating]

fuck i texted him fuck fuck fuck i’m so stupid like what the fuck fuck fuckkkKKKk im stupid

[soulsoffairlight]

Dear ADHD friends, especially my newly diagnosed ones/ those who are just starting out on medications,

I am not a doctor. But I feel that every ADHDer taking medications should know,

Your ADHD medicine may stop working over time. This is called tolerance. It is normal and even to be expected.

Try not to immediately let your doctor up your dosage... and possibly make you feel the need to abuse.

Please, CONSIDER ASKING YOUR DOCTOR ABOUT TOLERATION BREAKS FIRST.

(Toleration breaks without guidance can lead to withdrawal, please be very careful and research the medication you are taking.)

And if you must increase dosage to the max and find yourself growing tolerant,

REMEMBER THAT THERE ARE MANY OPTIONS OUT THERE. YOU DO NOT NEED TO RESORT TO ABUSE.

Drug abuse, in general, is a stigmatized topic, and toleration for prescribed stimulants is something that I believe doesn't get talked about enough.

Your health is far more important than your grades, your work, and anything else your ADHD medicine may assist you with.

Toleration is your brain's response to the effects of stimulants over time. While some people experience it faster than others and it varies from person to person, there's a good chance that everyone taking stimulants will come across it at one point.

But once it happens, it's not the end of the world.

I'm recovering from stimulant abuse, and I NEED you to know, my friend:

The capitalist mindset may make you feel like you need to prioritize your ability to keep up with a neurotypical society over all else, but trust me. Your health comes first. No matter how demanding the world can be for us, you should NEVER risk hurting your body just to satisfy the increasingly harsh expectations of those around you.

Doctors will often immediately resort to upping your dosage in response to toleration. Once you've found your ideal dosage, avoid this unless absolutely necessary. Discuss toleration breaks with your doctor first.

It's a capitalist tactic to up your dosage when it's possibly not necessary with a little bit of breaks and listening to your brain.

By going off your medicine for a certain amount of time, the lack of stimulus may help your brain reduce that tolerance.

I didn't know this because toleration breaks don't get talked about enough.

This is what led me to stimulant abuse.

I kept growing tolerant to my medicines in a couple of weeks. Every time, my psychiatrist upped my dosage.

Eventually, I was at the max dosage. But I grew tolerant yet again.

I felt that I needed to risk my health in order to stay on top of school. So, instead of trying to take a break or getting help from my parents/doctor, I began to combine my medication with heavy energy drinks. Even if it worked, I felt sick. I was nauseous. I was shaky. I vomited. I couldn't eat. I struggled to breathe.

But I continued, and eventually started double dosing.

I became violently angry to the point I lost multiple friends. My stress was at an all-time high to the point where I couldn't sleep at night. I began to lose weight because I couldn't eat due to both loss of appetite and a sudden fear of gaining weight. My physical health got worse and worse. My goal was to get my grades up, but my grades also suffered.

Not long after, my body finally had enough, and I almost had a heart attack.

My parents finally saw through my masking and realized that something was wrong. I was taken to therapy where I got the help I needed.

I was taken off the medications for some time... and yes, I struggled with school. However, with the help of therapy, my parents, and teachers, I was able to make it through.

By the time I took my medicine again at a lower dose, it worked just like it used to. As I continue to heal, toleration breaks help me in ways that I cannot express in words. I've gotten much better thanks to it.

I learned it the hard way.

Stimulant abuse is never the answer. It's not worth it.

Some time without your medicine may be difficult, but trust me. It's far more worth it than risking your health and even life only for it to make everything worse. I'm BLESSED that my situation wasn't worse.

Keep your head high. Know that you are not a working machine, and you are a strong, beautiful human being that can get through this. You may feel belittled by the neurotypical "standards" that our society unfortunately has, but you're worth way beyond that. It's up to you to put your foot forward and have a say in your treatment.

And if you are currently going through stimulant abuse, know that you've got this. It's not your fault. You're completely valid. There is plenty of hope. Seeking help can save your life. Reach out to parents, doctors, school counselors, teachers, family members... ANYONE.

If you don't have anyone you feel you can safely speak to, here are some resources:

US:

UK:

FIND HOTLINE FOR YOUR COUNTRY:

[alyssalover67]

Daddy jimmy has been too rough with me lately. It has taken a toll on my mental health and physical health. He has been getting new toys everyday, each getting bigger and bigger. It really hurts, i can barely sit anymore. I don’t know how to tell daddy that i need a break, this kinky stuff is all he ever wants to do anymore. I have been thinking of going back to A*****. I know she was abusive but she still loved me. She was gentle. I think I still secretly love her still as-well. Daddy degrades me calling me a tranny, faggot, and sometimes even the n word. (Daddy jimmy isn’t black and neither am i.) He would hurt be so bad that we would go into debt from the hospital bills. If i leave him now, i will end up homeless because of the amount of debt i am in. I do not want to be in debt. Debt is a very bad thing. The crazier it is, the crazier my life will be. I just wanted to be a tiny little sex slave, and now… here i am. I feel like a kid again, even my biological dad was named jimmy. Jimmy would often beat me and my mother. I miss my mother. She was an awesome woman. Jimmy is bad, both my bio dad and sexy daddy jimmy. My bio dad would also do some things I would not like to say:(. My bio dad also had lots of debts from gambling to drugs. All of that was passed down to me. I have all the debt now, great. I bet A***** wouldn’t treat me like this, huh? I know she would yell and scream, even sometimes get rid of my new dragon dildos. At least A***** never beat me. She would never, she loved me so much. I dont know if i can handle myself without my mommies or daddy’s. Cant i just be someone’s little slave without being abused, beaten, and almost killed?.. do i deserve this. I just wanted to have fun and be someone’s little femboy. A femboy they would love, hold, fuck, kiss. Not a femboy who they would hit, slap, punch, and stab. I just want my mommy back, i wanna be in her lap, barking and being a little good boy like i was meant to be. I miss the old daddy Jimmy, back when he would give me aftercare and spongey cuddles. Daddy Jimmy never.

[waiting-for-corruption]

should i fake bein sick n call off of work? i cant stop rubbin my clit n wishin someone would cum n take me away from all this n make me their cocksleeve… make me realize that i’ll always be a girl, no matter how hard i try.

i need a dom to tell me what to do, i cant make any decisions right now 🥺

[girlyteengirl16]

when even the drugs don’t make you forget

[intercomkris]

🚬i hate you so much sometimes i wish you'd die...

Marcato Scott-Tanaka. age: 27-early 30s ish gender: cis male nationality: american ethnicity: haitian, japanese occupation: drug dealer

[elialys]

"There were a couple of scenes we tweaked quite a bit, particularly one where Lindsay, her boss, takes her home. And it's one of my favourite scenes in the show, actually.

And I think because it is so ambiguous, because it is never commented on after, you couldn't put a scene like that into a modern day show without having some repercussion for it, or having her have a conversation about the specifics of that. But we very, very specifically did not want to do that, we wanted to simply present it. And then the audience has to live with it. And that's the uncomfortable part that they're living with." Anna Torv [x]

THE NEWSREADER | 1.02 "Once in a Lifetime"

[3m0g1rlyyy]

i can’t function normally without drugs.

[thankgod4pattsu]

I need FUCKING XANAX!!!!!!!

[angelstrawbabie420]

in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality