#cw disordered eating mention

[prince-liest]

Return Ticket: One Way Only ??

This is the other one that doesn't have any snippets yet (kjxhcfg, bad luck, first two asks managed to get the two only WIPs that didn't) because I often outline extensively before I start writing at all, BUT:

This is my theoretical sequel to The Last Bus Stop In Hell, Now Boarding. I'm not 100% sure that I'm going to write the entirety of it, but it exists as a concept because the one thing I was sad I didn't figure out how to hit upon in the original fic (due to timeline issues, mostly) is what it would be like for Alastor and Angel Dust to deal with each other's cravings if they were for some reason left over even after they returned to their respective bodies.

Angel Dust is addicted to "drugs" (more specifically, he buys PCP in the pilot and references how expensive a coke habit is in canon, but I'm sure he uses more than that just based on how he talks about it), which I feel like the show does not really dive into (fingers crossed in season 2) both in terms of how it affects him and how it's really not just a "Oh, have Angel throw his stash out and it's all good!" kind of situation to change. The most we really get from canon on that front is a one-off line from Charlie to Lucifer about how they've almost found all of Angel's drug stashes when she's showing him around the hotel, and I really want to shine more of a light on the complexity of that little situation, because it deserves more than to be just a punch line the way it's been so far.

Being addicted to drugs is an incredible way to feel like you are spiraling horrifically out of control if you can't get your hands on whatever you are needing. Alastor is kind of a control freak. Combining the two seems............interesting.

On top of that, I often write Angel Dust as dealing with some disordered eating issues, because 1) I can never resist that particular subject matter and 2) the old Voxtagram posts have some very blatant diet-related negging directed at him from Valentino that caught my eye. I think it would be interesting for him to deal with Alastor's cursed craving for human flesh making that entire situation like ten times worse and even more viscerally horrifying than it otherwise already is.

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[angelsdean]

ok but fad diet paleo sam tho

[spider--hyphen--man]

Me to myself: don't give yourself an eating disorder just to lose weight you won't be able to bounce off of it easy it's not something you do and then when it's fulfilled its purpose it goes away.

Also me to myself: but I'm built different though

[greenhairedfreakglobal]

if nicocado avocado can do it, so can i

[ayeforscotland]

Fucking Christ.

[bl0gger4n4]

Omg this th¡nsp0 is so good I wanna look like this so bad

[teenidwoll]

how it feels to give into your hunger urges

[lovely-sk1n]

does anyone else try massaging their stomach down to make food digest quicker and slim ur stomach out? ive been doing it since i saw an episode of supersize vs superskinny where a girl did it

[tsarkiller]

@babelpuppet

'Combative Patient'. There are words for people like him, an entire fucking word bank of words for people like him as he's learned over the past week, and that's the one they stick to anyone who's justifiably upset with being fucking detained . Combative Patients get Clozapine in the mornings. So do people labelled violent psychopaths.

Hanseok gets good at manipulating the pill with his tongue and quickly stashing it above his gums; the nurses get better at making sure he's not just swallowing water in the morning. Hanseok learns to induce vomiting like the wannabe-idols in the women's ward; his new masters learn to start sending someone to accompany him on the morning bathroom breaks. Corners, corners, corners, constantly backing him into corners. It's infuriating, and the only thing that's kept him from wringing the morning shift charge nurse's fat neck like a fucking pheasant's are the horse tranquilizers they've been shoving down his throat this entire goddamn time. He's smarter than them, stronger, more clever. The only way they can keep him under their thumb is to drug him like a circus animal; the lack of chains is only for optics, no doubt.

He's tired and bored and angry, so, so fucking angry, the only emotion that interrupts the monotony and flatness. There are no visits other than lawyers who talk to him about his coming relocation to the States and the Babel-paid psychiatrist tasked with teaching an utterly disinterested audience of one to act normal and not let the world know - at least until he's informed that at the end of the week his idiot brother will be coming to talk to him for God knows what reason.

Friday comes; he sits at the same kind of table a prison visitation room would have, long arms stretched out on the surface in front of him, hands fiddling with a piece of macrame. At least they don't seem to have many pretenses; the place is a prison and they don't mind pointing that out with the decor.

Hanseo enters the room with that stupid open-mouthed look he always has, the one that makes Hanseok's blood curdle, even now with the dampening of the few things he's still able to feel in earnest. His stepbrother sits.

"Hanseo-ah." He gives his best insincere grin. "Did you miss me? I've been thinking of you." Hanseok opens his hand and slides the unmistakably noose-shaped pantomime of a bracelet in his direction, then adds, as though it not being knit is what will stand out to his visitor, "No sharps on the ward." That you let Dad throw me in, you son of a bitch.

[lixiekc4lz]

it's crazy how i immediately think that 700 cals are too much and then i remember the normal quantity of cals are over 1600. like, i'm already eating 900 cals less than normal people would on a diet, and i still think that 700 cals is gonna make me fat (and it is).

[ibleedwhite]

I’m dying

(Literally, help)

[saddi3grl]

I hate all food but at the same time I love it so much.

I hate my ed but at the same time I'm addicted to it.

[coffeeforanaliza]

DANCE ‘TIL YOU’RE DEAD

[cvtmyhearttopieces]

So jealous of the girls spending their teenage years having fun and not obsessing over their bodies

[dumbyblonde]

ummm some1 help me calculate the cals ?? yumm

[bl0gger4n4]

I need this