#complex ptsd vent

[forestvnts]

they were so cruel to me. but there's nothing I can do about it; it's done and over with. so why does it still hurt so damn bad?

[rainywhispersblog]

[borderlesbian]

i don't want to heal i want them pay for what they did

[hello-friends9500]

[youwillleaveme]

i can’t and shouldn’t have relationships, ever

[traumabody]

all i wanted in life was love and now i am terrified of it

[lostmf]

[cccat-in-a-meat-sack]

me, with both:...

[sage-hazeline]

how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

[vacant2007]

[neuroticboyfriend]

time with complex trauma is like. i need to do everything all at once and if i don't i'm a failure, even if there's nothing to do. three months ago feels like yesterday but i can hardly remember yesterday anyway. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. i need everything to slow down but my life is so stagnant. i can't go to sleep because the day can't end, but i need the day to end or i'll go insane. i'm constantly worrying about the future but it feels like i have no future. i'm running out of time. for what? i don't know. time has no meaning but every second is the end of the world.

or is this just me?

[rainywhispersblog]

[borderlesbian]

i've never got the time to be a child and now that i grew i'm a child in the body of an adult

[hello-friends9500]

[youwillleaveme]

i cant stand it anymore i don’t want this brain i dont want this life i want to live but not like this not with those constant feelings and thoughts and self destructive behaviors and all of that i cant do it anymore i cant

[forestvnts]

nobody apologized for how they treated me. they just blamed me for how I reacted.