#derealistion

[bl0w-m3]

[sage-hazeline]

how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

[woundedwonder]

[glixt1weirdcore]

way no way

[dying-weeds]

This world is not real and neither am I (052024)

[craigslistpilled]

allenhurst, georgia

posted: 01-04-22

[vaefox]

Fragments

"how did we get here?" A doll asks in the confines of the dolls shell a collection of voices reply "pain", "suffering", "time", "isolation", "reality" responds some, others silent. The doll, feels that all of the others say the truth. Then again, that doll... Rather one of the many in the doll's shell that gives it life agrees. Feeling lost, it then looks into a mirror for perspective. It sees a shell that is cracked, broken, eyes hollow and lifeless. chips across the shell. The doll then inspects it's hands, ball joints and suffering all along. on it's arm, a massive crack, it goes though the arm. the materials that make up the skeleton broken. "shall we persist?" and in that voices head "why should we?" "What's the point" "who would care" it responds to itself. others in the shell "Because, we are more then this" says one "Because you deserve more" Another chimes in "This is not how you are to end" "you are not alone" as others say in turn. one after another. A system of love, and hope. Even if it's all it can do to help one of there own then as if by some deliberate act of coordination "We are here for you, and we love you.... As you love others" The doll that caused those responses lets out a cry and scream as tears fall on it's face. A thing it once lost the ability to. "we are a system, we are hope." Said a witch. "you who is blind to what others see for you." the witch said again as it hugs it's doll "Alas, must you only see with the pain others put upon you?" the stead fast witch uttered in a shaky tone. "You who hate your self so much that you do not see how others can love you" Continues on the dolls witch "will you accept even a small amount of love and hope you give others? Even if it is just mine?" Whispers the same witch "Perhaps... Perhaps it can try." the words left the dolls shell to it's surprise as it feels tears from a witch on it's frame. As it feels others hug in the shell, those apart of it's system share in the hug and tears "Perhaps, this one can try to see things in a brighter way." a doll says with slightly more conviction "That's all that is asked" replies the witch holding it's doll, and the doll's system mates holding it inside.

[h3xc0de]

[tragicvirgo]

"I'm trying to feel safe inside. My body doesn't feel like mine. I look at who I am. I think I fear her."

THE MIRROR, I Would Leave Me If I Could, Halsey

[embermint000x]

suicide wish

[crows-talking-place]

(tw for canon gillion backstory/elders being horrible, tw derealisation)

I realised the other day that we actually have like zero idea how much physical trauma Gillion has been through???

In episode one, Charlie described Gillion as "weirdly pristine", having zero cuts, bruises or scars.

At first i was like "oh it's because hes sheltered" but then i relistened to Gil's trials in the pearl, where it confims he trained in simulations, which it is implied the elders controlled. And that opens up a WHOLE other fucked-up door.

How many injuries has gillion sustained in these simulations? How many times has he DIED?? How many times has he felt agonising pain, had the world fade to black, and woken up with nothing but mental scars??? He could have been tortured, over and over and over, and he'd just wake up like nothing had ever happened.

He speaks of the elder's training, he speaks of the elder's punishment.

There's no evidence.

[bl0w-m3]

[glitched-clown]

⭐️🌀💊

Pic taken in my apartment building

[woundedwonder]

♡︎♥︎

[glixt1weirdcore]

suffering

[the-mythos-collection]

Back making emojis again!!

Hope these are useful ^w^