#cluster crash

[louisupdates]

New cymbals with good names! for Steve Durham, music director for Louis Tomlinson’s Faith In The Future World Tour, and producer of Louis’ new Back To You (studio version).

via Steve’s Instagram story 11.1.2024

[deceiver-of-god]

Please make everything about me. Adore me, praise me, kiss the ground I walk over.

Please don't look at me. Don't perceive me, forget about my existence, let me bury myself with no consequences.

[narcvampp]

Splitting and crashing over smth so stupid that nobody knew was important to me is so annoying like. STOP!! STOP IT. NOBODY GETS WHY I'M UPSET SO SHUT UP!!!!9

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd culture is unintentionally treating others like they also have NPD. like oh? you've earned my respect? well this is how my brain works so i will treat you how everyone should treat me

like giving non pwNPD supply n shit instead of however the fuck you're supposed to interact positively with people and offer support

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[imagoodone-iswear]

does anyone else have extreme trouble with backpaddeling or just feeling this urge to downplay themselves every single time something is supposed to come from myself?

everytime im stable with a decision and an opposing decision or an agreeing decision comes up, i immediately second guess and feel like i have to downplay this or change my decision because this came from ME so "yk its not that bad after all" or "im sure i just thought wrong its actually better than my brain makes me think".

yeah sure...

im so sick of saying yes but then being like "yk what, no,,, thats not my opinion, nah, its not even that bad, we can just do whatever you want its fine" after 3 years (/hyp) of pondering what the fuck i even want.

its so fucking annoying i cant even put it into words. and every single time too. i just have this urge to downplay myself, my thoughts, my opinions, my struggles, everything from myself. so i also backpaddle on a lot of stuff because suddenly im just "nah its not that bad, i swear".

[ur-all-fucking-idiots]

Please all I want is attention and love why do I have to grovel on my knees for it

[clusterbstarfall]

i don't even know what to do anymore. nothing i do is right and nothing anybody else does is right. everything i do is wrong and the people around me trying to make me feel better or asking who i am are only doing it out of obligation and i know it.

it's so fucking lonely being closeted about npd when your friends believe in narc abuse and your parents would think you couldn't possibly have npd because you don't "act like a narcissist" because you know neither of them actually know what npd is.

i only have a few friends who know about my npd and it's because they have it too. i'm so fucking scared and pissed off and my supply is low and i'm trying not to combust.

[im-so-not-fine-man]

FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF YOU DONT GET TO HATE ME YOU'RE A FUCKING ASSHOLE FUCK OFF FUCK OFF YOU SHOULD FEEL BLESSED. BLESSED BY THE FACT THAT MY POSTS CAN EVEN GRACE YOUR EYES.

[npd-polls]

How long do your narc crashes typically last?

< 24 hours

A day

Multiple days

1 week

2 or more weeks

A month

Multiple months

> 6 months

My crashes don't have an average duration

I don't remember / I don't pay attention to this

I have too infrequent of crashes to answer this question

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( I have the worst memory ever so I apologize if I already submitted this )

Dont worry anon, you didn't submit either poll twice. And I'd rather have people send a poll twice by accident than forget to send them at all anyways.

[clusterrune]

lets try this again

i have

narc

narcissist(s)

narcissistic

narcissism

npd

narc/narcissist(s)/narcissistic supply

narc/narcissist(s)/narcissistic crash

covert narcissism

overt narcissistm

delusion of grandeur

chosen person (cp)/(chp)

equal person (ep)

narc/narcissist(s)/narcissistic rage

what other npd/narcissism centric terms can i add?

[ghxst-system]

oooo i love bpd oooo i love wanting to rip everyones head off even if im meant to love them oooooo i love it its so fun

idc if someones right shut up i want to slam my head into a wall

also npd crash HAHAHAHHA

[notesfrompanihida]

would you still love me if all i wanted was to kill you

[autopsyfreak]

in my experience, after a breakup, the narc crash i experience is quite horrific and i end up relying a lot on supplies and trying to keep myself from breaking down via seeking things that feed into my ego.

it’s something i never really see get mentioned a lot but my ego is often trashed after a breakup.

[literallyagod]

Honestly, saw a video a bit ago on tiktok. Some shit about "destigmatizing ASPD", which was all cool and shit. It was a woman responding to someone who fakeclaimed her, she said some stuff about ASPD and spoke about how she was trying to destigmatize it. Which, again, cool and all, but I go into the damn comments and GOD DAMN. The amount of demonization of NPD I saw there. Literally saw people trying to diagnose the person who fake claimed her with NPD, saying she was Narcissistic for fake claiming her, ect. And it really pissed me off, cause like... Couldn't she have deleted those comments at least? God damn. I hate it.

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

PLEASE TAG FOR SUICIDE!

npd crash culture is when you’re not someone’smost important person anymore, you need to die.

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[phosphenemoth]

My b, bro.

I didn't mean to get so angry because I was in physical pain that now I'm emotionally numb that my brain shut off because: Emotions Are Too Intense™

It'll happen again, though.