#cdd protector

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

"I wouldn't wish that upon my worst enemy" well I fucking would

[rainbow-glittery-gutz]

if u come at me with a "source" on endos that mentions being transgender, tulpa, or even the word sysmed

im not fucking reading ur source

CDD is NOT comparable to being transgender AT ALL

tulpamacy is a CLOSED PRACTICE

and SYSMED IS ONE OF THE MOST TRANSPHOBIC TERMS IVE EVER SEEN AND NO ONE FUCKING LISTENS TO US TRANSGENDERS WHEN WE SAY IT.

you CANNOT BE TRANSPLURAL. thats NOT how disorders work

you CANNOT make the brain randomly start splitting. CDDS develope AS A CHILD

THEYRE A FORM OF PROTECTION. DID IS YOUR BRAIN BEING TOO OVERWHELMED AS A CHILD TO HANDLE TRAUMA THAT IT PUTS UP AMNESIA BARRIERS TO PROTECT ITSELF. NOT SILLY CHARACTERS IN YOUR HEAD.

ALTERS ARE NOT THE ONLY SYMPTOM OF DID.

and even if in the slightest chance you can have alters without amnesia and trauma, it is NOT CDD

reminder that in the dsm5 it literally says "if the symptoms are caused by a religious practice, or reported not caused by trauma, DID should not be diagnosed"

"oh but doctors are studying endos" THATS LIKE 2 DOCTORS COMPARED TO A MILLION OTHER PROFESSIONALS AND RELIABLE SOURCES STATING OTHERWISE. YOUR SOURCE IS BULLSHIT

[mystery-aberration]

System roles do not have to be your entire identity. You do not have to conform to the stereotypes of them, and you do not have to hold your role alone or without help. You do not need to keep them forever, either. They may be what you were placed into the system to help with, and they may be something you are good at--but it does not have to be you forever.

I am a persecutor, and that does not mean I should be treated differently or harmed. Being a persecutor does not mean that everyone should be scared of you by default either.

Protectors should not be expected to be strong and emotionless walls to put in front of everything all the time. They do not need to be tools.

Comforters might need a break to unload their own stress and need comfort in turn. They do not need to give all of themselves to everyone else and never expect help back.

Littles may not be littles forever, and should not be devalued just because they are children. They are just as real and alive as any other system member and should be taken into account.

Trauma/memory holders might need help to cope with the things they hold, and sometimes when the time is right it means sharing that burden. Maybe there is no right time, but they deserve support whether they can share those memories or not.

Gatekeepers may need a break from controlling switches or access to front, and should be allowed one if needed. Gatekeeping can be a lot of work.

Hosts do not need to do everything for the body or system all the time. Sometimes, being the host of a system can be hard, and support and breaks are deserved.

Systems often put a lot of weight on roles, and it can impact the way that those who have them can feel about their role. It is okay to fit into your role, but it is also okay to not fit, or to end up not fitting your role over time. Some headmates can feel like a failure if they do not uphold their role, some can feel like they have no other choice even if they wanted to not perform it. But a role is a description, it is not an essence of who you are and will forever be. This may be non-traditional but we use roles exclusively as self descriptors so that we do not get wrapped up in what we "should be". If the label no longer fits, or if you need help more than you might have in the past, that is okay.

Be kind to yourselves, and be kind to your other headmates.

[innerworld-ooc]

"oh, i split ages ago. i've been in the tunnels." queen WHAT

[littlest-bugz]

How it feels when you split a new alter and they know nothing about why they split

[sysventing]

We are fully allowed to curate our experience here, and that includes this specific side blog. We are fully allowed to block those who make us uncomfortable or trigger us. And we are FULLY allowed to disallow interaction from a group of people who actively harm minors, poc, animals, and disabled folx.

The idea that we’re not allowed to keep ourselves safe on this blog is wild. Sorry if some of you feel “excluded” but I’m totally fine excluding folx who actively harm others and hide behind the “queer” label.

Yes this is a vent.

Mod Bat 🦇

[exorsysm]

i hear a lot of people talk about their split tolerance and how it is low and they hate that

i thought i would share my experiences as part of a system with a high split tolerance since, im sorry but, its not much better.

something bad happens and people just.. go dormant. im the only one pre-syscovery who is still regularly active. right now id say theres only about 4 of us active.

and you think "oh low alter count=easier to deal with=better"

no. CDDs are hard to deal with, period.

we have no active protector. at all. the last one went dormant after dealing with a particularly nasty group of fakeclaimers and we just.. havent had one. hes better at socializing and making up with friends than anyone else and we just. dont know what to do. im not cool like him. but i cant leave his friends hanging. im EXHAUSTED.

[turtlesystem]

Arlo is literally the grinch oml … he’s allergic to showing affection in a way that doesn’t involve looking like a hater (it’s okay he’s very easy to see through) (thanks for being happy for us Arlo) (he’s trying to bite my arm off in the inner world right now but he’s very kindhearted trust)

- YJ

[jwi-coins-stuff]

enraged protector (alter term)

a term used to describe an alter that's both a protector and an anger holder. an enraged protector may protect their system and headmates in ways that are heavily influenced by the feelings of anger they hold. this term can be combined with other system terms.

(flag by @ambonexus)

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[ghost-jester-sys]

i love you protectors

i love you protectors who struggle with your role

i love you protectors who feel overwhelmed sometimes or all the time

i love you protectors who are also persecutors , gatekeepers , prosecutors , caretakers , hosts or any other extra role

i love you protectors who hate your role sometimes or all the time

[rainbow-glittery-gutz]

Still loving your headmates while still not wanting DID can absolutely co-exist btw

Someone had the nerves to accuse our co-host of romanticizing DID all bc he vented about not wanting DID while still mentioning he still loves us despite it bc he didn't want us to see it and feel like we were hated

[innerworld-ooc]

"The darkness is hungry" doesn't elaborate

[germplush]

hello. i am Scarlet Doe.

i am an objet alter. i am a protector. i have a human form. i am plush F.A.O red dragon. i am genderless and sexless, they/it pronouns. i am ageless, but an adult. i have. brittish accent, doesn't come out when fronting. - Scarlet Doe

[dreamergraveyard]

Being a "recovered" persecutor will never not feel odd. I look at other persecutors in the system and feel so much sympathy towards them, yet I know that they feel no such thing towards me. I know that I've come so far, and I want them to do the same, but for now, they're either badly coping, traumatized, or, like I was, incorrectly protecting the system. I hope they choose to pursue healing one day, too. Even if for some it will take therapy or more extensive help to do so. One day. Hopefully.

~ Sirena 🖤

[aspenpostsstuff]

AZP3N.WEB

THIS BLOG IS RAN BY AN ANTI–ENDOGENIC TRANSGENDER WOLF!!! IM NOT AFRAID TO BITE!

I USE HE/HIM PRONOUNS AND AM DESPERATELY IN LOVE WITH MY IN SYS BF MXRZ.

IM THE MAIN MANAGER AND A SOCIAL PROTECTOR. ASK ME ANYTHING ABOUT MY SYSTEM DUTIES OR SYSTEM!

I LOVE TALKING TO PEOPLE, TELL ME ABOUT YOUR DAY OR SOMETHING IN MY ASKS!!

I LOVE AND EXCLUSIVELY LISTEN TO 2018 GACHA MUSIC. I FUCKING LOVE WHY DONT WE.

NO DNI BUT ONCE AGAIN I BITE AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO BLOCK.

EMOJI SIGN OFF -📘

[plural-headcanons]

some alternate T.K.O.s with only the protector & persecutor flags because I love him