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the percy jackson tv show is actually great when there isn’t a little shit in your ear telling you it’s not “book accurate”
#it’s book accurate enough FOR ME#god can we just try to enjoy something for once#it’s an ADAPTATION. it is not gonna be copy and pasted from the books#but they have the tone and the humor and the CHARACTERS and the themes right#isn’t that what really matters?#and some of yall are acting like they changed the entire plot when really it’s just small changes that service the tv format#and deepen character relationships and interactions#seeing book fans say the movies are better is the most absurd thing i’ve heard in my life… like did we watch the same movies#every single thing the show does wrong is still light years better than every single thing the movies got right#can’t we just enjoy that please#can you tell i’m sick of the nitpicking😭#anyways maybe try to have fun for once in ur life idk#also ur allowed to have constructive criticism that’s so valid. or criticism at all#ofc u should critique the media u enjoy#but saying it’s not a good adaptation is kinda crazy to me idk#when it’s so clear how much thought was put in by the creators and cast to get it right this time#pjo tv#pjo tv show#pjotv#percy jackson#pjo#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo spoilers#percy jackon and the olympians#ruch rambles#sorry to hide all that in the tags but it feels very angry and i don’t want to be mean😭 i have the crit tag filtered for a reason lol#i’m choosing joy#but i just wanted to put these thoughts out there
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Stabby stabby time 😌✨
(Original meme audio source can be found via this YouTube video!!)
#once again I’m so bad at putting silly short meme stuff onto my main channel without thinking it’s gonna humiliate me HELP 🥲#l’ll get over it this is my exposure therapy hour#it doesn’t help that I told classmates in college about my YouTube channel and didn’t think about how that would fuck with my anxiety lol#like ‘OH NO WHY DID I DO THAT THEY’LL KNOW I’M CRINGE AND WEIRD NOW’#listen if people can’t tolerate you at your cringiest and you feel like you need to mask around them 24/7 then it’s not worth#you gotta be your authentic self and enjoy your interests regardless of how people view it#trying to people please the masses is only going to wear you out and make you feel disconnected from yourself#‘fuck it we ball’ mentality saves lives tbh#….I don’t know I’m still trying to pep talk myself into it being socially acceptable to post sillies :’)#for now this will be a Tumblr exclusive until I stop being a baby about it✨#(also wouldn’t it be funny if my channel has a running joke of everyone not knowing what Puzzles age is? Just a thought)#(first Meggy asks him about it and now I’m asking too)#(no wonder the guy pulled out a knife people won’t shut up about his age lmfao)#mr puzzles smg4 meme#mr puzzles animated#smg4 girl how old are you I’m getting nervous meme#girl how old are you I’m getting nervous mr puzzles meme#hplonesome art
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PLEASE STOP COPYING FICS ‼️
I am by no means gatekeeping concepts or tropes. We all know that it’s normal to see the same tropes or AUs be used differently, and that is not plagiarism. However, I recently found a fic that was oddly similar to my old (and discontinued) Gojo x Reader series, Reckless. The CEO! Gojo is nothing new, and neither is an accidental pregnancy trope. The only reason I am concerned is because this Gojo series I found has the exact same themes as Reckless that consists of: a playboy CEO Gojo with a very notorious reputation, a poor reader who is an employee and asset to the company (someone who works closely with Gojo), reader getting knocked up from a one night stand with Gojo, reader with a seemingly dead/absent mother yet still in contact with her father, Gojo with a very traditional family who does not like reader, and Gojo with an ex he struggles to let go of - which are all elements of Reckless.
The first chapter of that Gojo fic is also eerily similar to my first chapter with the same flow of: YN finding out she’s pregnant and her friend being there for her, Gojo saying he’ll take responsibility because ‘they both made the baby’, YN having to move in with Gojo to take care of the baby, and both of them coming to a mutual agreement that their ‘relationship’ will be purely for the baby’s benefit. The flow of events and specific details about the characters’ backgrounds are too similar to mine.
Again, I am not gatekeeping concepts, just as how I’ve had other writers ask me if they could write their own stories or takes based off of the NAOYA’S TROPHY WIFE COLLECTION or the BONTEN HUSBANDS EXCLUSIVE, and I’m fine with that. I’m even happy people are inspired by what I write. But being inspired is completely different from taking someone’s story and posting it as yours. Please trust your own creativity and skills in writing. You can write amazing stories and have people love them without having to steal from others.
It’s sad to say this is not the first time I, and other writers, have been plagiarized. It’s even more upsetting to know that a friend of mine who has also written a Gojo series (that I’m sure you all know and dearly love) experiences the same issues with the same person. The fact that this is happening to many writers out there is disheartening. We work hard and pour a lot of love in the stories we create. None of us are getting paid for this, and we simply want to share our passions with others. So please, let us be kinder with one another and show love and support the right way. If you love a fic, you give feedback and rb/comment + show support to the writer. You don’t steal their ideas and play it off as your own because you liked it.
#for context: my Reckless series was posted around 2021 and this new Gojo series I found was posted in 2023 (when I was already in my hiatus)#i’m just... this is so upsetting. i have been in love with jjk for so long but i won’t lie and say the fandom hasn’t given me problems :(#there always seems to be drama or issue going around... why can’t we just all enjoy reading x reader fics in peace#if its not hate anons or discourse it’s plagiarism. it’s tiring#this is one of the reasons why i moved fandoms after my jjk works. because i used to love it sm but i just felt stressed out#and imagine my shock when i saw my friend got plagiarized bcos no way you guys are doing this to someone who worked hard on a fic for YEARS#imagine my double shock when i see that writer’s page and see a similar work to mine too like 😭 c’mon guys. you guys have big brains.#you can write something juicy and awesome without ripping it off from others#and please do not send hate to this creator at all! that is not the intention of this post. i will also not be dropping any names.#now i’m aware i take inspos from other media too - i say it often that my fics take inspo from k-dramas or songs#but i take inspirations only. i do not copy the entire thing and then tweak one minor detail to make it ‘a little different’
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WHY IS COMMANDER SHEPARD ALWAYS LATE TO THE COUNCIL MEETINGS DOES SHE NOT UNDERSTAND THAT WE NEED TO BE AT LEAST EARLY TO THESE
#commander shepard#garrus vakarian#mass effect#mass effect 2#mass effect 3#thane krios#liara t'soni#miranda lawson#mordin solus#urdnot wrex#please girl I can’t do this#just be on time#Anderson can’t enjoy waiting for us#no wonder we weren’t given spectre status before
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One of the fun experiences I’ve had with the dragon age fan base here on tumblr.com in the last 10+ years is that folks put their vent/hate posts in that character’s main tags. It’s only after I reblog it and I get the vague post/rb about how something I was excited about and thought was being celebrated was actually getting shitted on by someone who spends their day being angry about a fictional man 🫳🌱
(Yes this is about solavellan mattering in Veilguard if you make the choice for it to)
#can’t you let people enjoy things????#same vibes as busting into a pie festival and loudly proclaiming how worthless and gross you think pies are#sigh#I thought we moved past this#if you’re one of those people please block me#it’s fine to not like things/characters ofc but like??? you don’t get to impose that sentiment onto others….#dragon age drama#you know that you can just???? make an inky that didn’t romance him right???#there’s a way for this to not affect you at all babe
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Naruto has a multitude of characters where their writing is heavily based in queerness and queer experiences. From the devotion two characters have for one another to a point where they would trust each other with their lives, to feeling like the other one is the only person who truly to their core understands them and accepts them for who they are despite their flaws and issues they’ve done in the past.
Naruto as a series is so queer in its writing that the writer - whether intentional or not - made the main two characters always run after each other even if one of them fell into darkness, saying he’d shoulder the pain he’s holding just so he can be near him and you’re saying you think… Obito is gay?? The guy who literally lost his mind over a girl??
Edit: I’m talking about canon btw. Hc if you’d like I’ll always support that, but he’s not canonically gay or bi. His character is rooted in his love for a girl and the only reason he saved kk was to have time alone w Rin because he didn’t want him interfering. He’s in love w Rin and only Rin in canon🙇♂️
#Obito Uchiha#anti obkk#anti obikaka#Sasuke Uchiha#naruto uzumaki#hashirama senju#madara uchiha#Maito Gai#rin nohara#kisame hoshigaki#Itachi Uchiha#sasunaru#sns#we have lost the plot#Obito wouldn’t kiss a man even if his life depended on it#out of ALL of the characters ALL of them… it’s him??#I just don’t understand how you can see his spiraling beginning with Rin’s death#and then say he’s absolutely in love w kk…#I’m not saying you can’t enjoy the aus or the fanfics#what I’m saying is y’all who say it’s CANON that he’s in love w him are stupid#there’s just no way y’all read this shit w your eyes closed…#please don’t debate me about this idc I just wanted to share some thoughts on my blog#and I know I’m right. Obito would choose Rin over kk any day and y’all are maaaad#sins posting
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Why tiktok is more than a dance trend app.
And my own thoughts…
I’ve struggled with feelings of helplessness through the genocide in Gaza but tiktok has given us hope in the dark times. Through sounds and filters even those of us who were struggling financially ourselves were able to help. Watching videos all the way through to get them their lil payout, using sounds and streaming songs, playing with filters, it all accumulated to real tangible aid. When tiktok shop rolled out it became almost annoyingly omnipresent but activists found a way to make it work for themselves. Content on Gaza was not getting the reach it had been so they utilized the algorithim and used shop posts to get their message out to a wider audience as shop videos are given more push. They would advertise Palestinian owned businesses to generate larger cashflows to affected families and then donate their sponsorship money to charities delivering aid on the ground while giving updates on the crisis and other resources to help.
And they are ripping that support network away because they do not like how we are speaking or what we do when we assemble together. Through Operation Olive Branch and the TikTok intiative Pass The Hat i saw gfms that were stagnant be filled within a week or less, most of them well over 100k+ a piece. And when they met their goals the creators sponsored a new family and fundraised for them until that one was full. MILLIONS were raised for evacuation funds through tiktok.
We are STILL fundraising for them and the US gov is cutting us off BECAUSE OF THIS. AIPAC lobbyists were caught on hot mics saying tiktok needed to go because of our sympathy for the Palestinians. This ban, should it go through, will be inextricably tied to the Palestinian genocide in our history books.
#tiktok ban#us politics#free palestine#free gaza#us imperialism#tiktok#i dont known if people off tt even knew this was a thing going on#but my side of tiktok is all about mutual aid and manipulating the algorithm and the functionality to meet the average persons need#we boost videos to get people their payout from the app#i hear ‘please stop just watch to the end’ And I’m there cause i know our 1min of attention can accumulate into real blessings for people#i can’t believe they want to take that away. i can’t believe they want to render us powerless like that#i’m enjoying the xiaohongshu migration but i am also so so sad about what we could be losing#this app has done so much good for so fucking many#tiktok when utilized as the tool it is is a force of change and they hate it#tiktok aint never put features behind a paywall#they pay you in fact for using it and having a following#even if you just talk about stuffed animals or a very specific kind of bottom feeder fish#or one discontinued shade of yellow crayon#they changed our economy and the ways in which we can help each other and they want to take it away i truly fucking hate it here#us government#save palestine#save gaza#save tiktok
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tlou hbo you will never be what I want you to BUT that trailer was so much more promising than I expected!!!!
#choosing not to be a hater today and instead focus on the parts I enjoyed (I am so brave 🤍)#Ellie x Dina. I gasped it was GORGEOUS#the tunnels snip!!!!! but also you can’t tease day one and not include Ellie’s birthday trip like please 😔#seraphites!!!!! Issac!!!!!!!!#Jackson <3 Joel’s HOUSE and his lil porch 🤏🏻#the GARAGE 😭 made my heart so happy seeing Ellie’s space like that#even just the visuals of the snow while they were out on patrol + Abby escaping from the horde it’s sooooo!!!!!#visually it’s soooo gorgeous and they’ve done an incredible job#I’m just so curious about pacing and plot and what’s going to be taken and left like let me in I need to know#also#many question re: the horde + Jackson? Jackson therapist the Ellie snippet#game girlies we will have much to discuss come next year#g rambles
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for the love of all things holy if you’re going to post spoilers can you at least spoil them properly instead of just putting them on blast. there’s literally a cut option on tumblr pleaaaase 😭
i don’t complain a lot but it feels super stingy to post them when it’s not even supposed to be out yet
#guys please i’m gonna lose it#i can’t scroll anywhere without seeing spoilers i just want to find fanart#i know we’re all very excited for jay and all that but#c’mon have a bit of decency#not everyone wants to see it so early#some of us enjoy the suspense of waiting#plus we already got two pieces of content this past month#idk i’m not gonna be grumpy about it it’s just upsetting#ninjago#chard rambles#is this a ramble i’d call it more a complaint#but i don’t wanna make a tag for that#ninjago dragons rising
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😇- What's their best trait?
👿- What's their worst trait?
for Tuesday and Chuu
“Miss Chuu’s best trait? Mmm… You said this is an interview for your retelling of the Warriors of Light and their journey, right? I’d say it’s her unshakeable resolve. She decides she’s going to do something, and she doesn’t give up until it’s done. Ah… I’m not allowed to speak more on Miss Chuu without her presence, my apologies, mister Levraut.”
“You broke into my house,”
“Your lovely wife let me in actually,”
“To wake me up from my nap and interrogate me on my assistant,”
“Interview, Mademoiselle, not interrogate. Though I am sorry for waking you, your eyes were open so I assumed-”
“Ah-ta-ta. You wanted to know Two’s best trait right? Adaptability. Any environment, any obstacle… he’s got brains enough to figure the way through most anything. And failing that? He knows a top notch engineer in Magitek to kit him with the right tools to overcome his few shortcomings. Hey wait did you fucking call me a mad gazelle, you lop-eared scab?!”
“Thank you for your time, both of you. I have just one more question before I consider this interview complete and I let you both go back to your.. erm, busy schedules. What would you say is each others weakest trait?”
“I knew it! This IS an interrogation! Two, don’t-”
“Ah, that would be Miss Chuu’s paranoia, mister Levraut. Most of her other traits net positive gain,”
“Watch your mouth, Two.”
“That is.. ah, her paranoid trait has served to pull her out of many situations she would have landed in had they not afforded her foresight and caution to approach most situations.”
“Two’s worst trait is how I just can’t seem to keep mad at him when he finds and exploits loopholes in whatever rules I’ve set for him. And last week I asked him to bring me lunch, and he was nowhere to be seen for nearly six bells.”
“… Miss Chuu, if I may, you were in Azys La, and you called me via Linkpearl to bring you specifically egg sandwiches from the Bismark, even utilizing the Aethernet it takes time… and when I arrived at your last marked location you were nowhere to be found.”
[Duo Oc Ask Meme !]
#I’ve been rotating this ALL day but I think this is relatively acceptable#id misunderstood the assignment right at first but my husband is v smart and cleared it up for me ahdbfcjdjcjddna#if I wrote non-dialogue with this it would take me a lot longer and way more words because I’d get caught up in the. all of it.#I have another one from this to chew on still but I’m trying to figure out the best pair up for the question cbdbfbdndns#And I also have a big lore question I’m still working on 🫣🫢 I took some screens for it today and I’m resisting doing a bunch of fiddly edits#because if I did I’d have to ask my friend to borrow one of the written alphabets he made up#and then I’d have to learn to write it and I just can’t make myself do that actually I’m just a wee frog#ffxiv Chuu#ffxiv Tuesday#ffxiv levraut#ffxiv Gears Duo#ffxiv Viera#ffxiv elezen#Levraut Manseauguel#Chuusday Gears#Tuesday Gears#please appreciate their faces in the last panel I was trying very hard to convey a particular vibe#and I only just realized I forgot to fix Chuu’s skirt#poor Lev is just trying to compile information for his novel about the adventure’s of the Warriors of Light and how they saved the world#as we know it like 15 times or something.#spawn speece#writing this was silly and fun ;v;’#ty for the ask 🫣💖 I hope I got this right in the end of it all#also sorry for the Christmas Colors my mental jury is out on if I enjoy it or not-#I gave Tuesday Blue finally in situations where it’s Chuu and Tue so it’s not green on green.#🤦 can you tell I played Mario Odyssey repeatedly#ask game
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#unexpected side effect of having had gay sex last night#this is the first thing that happened since we broke up that i actually want to tell T about#which is so silly like aw :( i ate pussy :( he loved eating pussy :( DJJFJDJFHFH#but also i didn’t realize i was worried about this but im pleased to report i am Confirmed Bisexual#like i had a rly wonderful time last night BUT i don’t feel like the world has changed and that it’s so much better you know?#i was thinking like ‘oh no maybe i’m not bi bc i don’t feel like that’ but no im just a lesbian#like my brain can’t fathom why i wouldn’t fuck someone if they’re hot and into me too#but i suppose some girls wouldn’t?? or wouldn’t have enjoyed it?? idk seems fake#but im also attracted to men!! and they them’s!!! wow sexuality is crazy#i’ve been identifying as bi for over 10 years but i think i finally believe myself#just *not a lesbian oops
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when I was in high school there was a tendency whenever there was an attractive boy to simply fan over him. in a way that talked over everything he might say for himself and created a narrative that completely ignored, the fact in some cases, that he was really struggling—or if he was struggling, to pin all the blame on the girl he’s dating and completely ignore the thousands of other factors (no it can’t be mental illness or unaccommodated disability or systemic abuse or exploitation and if he is in an abusive relationship we won’t ever consider the factors that put him at risk for that)
and I’m not saying this fandom is like that. I get the need for privacy around some things and how in public conversations sometimes it’s a lot more respectful to stick to the positives (everyone who does that, I admire you) or even the struggles that are talked about publicly, show respect by not reading too far into them. there’s a time and place for that. but sometimes I feel like our only options are shitty and ableist gossip or totally ignoring the systemic and structural issues we know exist in something like the music industry until someone dies and then we’re looking for someone to blame. friends, there is a point where the respectful thing is to listen to what someone says and come together to make things better. and you can learn how to have that conversation respectfully. please do
#forever haunted by ‘I wasn’t always a cynic it’s just I’ve been bought and sold’#and actually this highlights my whole frustration with the conversation around mental health just about anywhere#like you tell people something sucks and they’re completely unwilling to even try to challenge the status quo in order to help#and idk. I tell myself they’re going to be fine. they’re so resilient. I’m doing all I can; I’m not on the ground there I’m at a distance#but at the same time is it not bittersweet sometimes to enjoy music born from trauma? to be at a live show knowing they shouldn’t be?#to me these stories have to be told for the reason that yes so people relate but also so we can do better for the next generation#anyway I’ve gotten deep into inxs lore lately and I can say. yes it is better for 5sos simply for the fact men can talk about emotions#but that didn’t come without a MASSIVE fight don’t you ever forget that. it’s gonna still carry shame. they’re choosing to fight that#but the sad songs we got as a result?? idk they’re the thing that turned me parasocial because there’s rarely absolutely nothing you can do#like if we’re ever gonna give them a gold star for talking about this stuff as early as sgfg til today we gotta ask ourselves to look at#larger systemic issues and stuff that we ARE a part of and while we can’t be there for them when they have a bad day. we can work on#anyway the high school example still haunts me. still drives some of what I do now. we were just kids. but most of us here aren’t anymore#and the newbrokenscene is grown up now and tbh the status quo should be TERRIFIED#so idk. at the very least sign the petition for liams law. advocate for better. address local issues of injustice and addiction etc#which in some ways I’m lucky that I get to do that in sydney so it feels connected but this is just as valuable anywhere#tbh the 2010s era of bubblegum pop and ignoring all our problems is over. you’re punk now. even katy released chained to the rhythm#thinking about the nfp I’m trying to start and how to start small. for disadvantaged kids maybe? intervening via urban design?#(don’t you ever forget 5sos WERE disadvantaged kids not even 20 years ago. that shit sticks to you no matter how much you achieve)#albums and activism#anyway it fascinates me to see how differently people do this kind of thing to each band member. like the vibe is different but still track#for this whole phenomenon like whether they’re seen as pretty or strong or cute or smth else that becomes the main thing not their words#and I say that but tumblr is pretty good overall. I just wish sometimes we could have a more active conversation before any tragedy#so gosh I’m ranting so much but PLEASE talk about this with me. I notice far too much and I can’t say any of it publicly#so occasionally I come out with a rant like this
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there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn
#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon#although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great#whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time#kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’#or at least triggers that i can plan around#the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one#the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni#and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis?#but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal#i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months#so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically)#so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point#obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again#i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time#BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT#‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately#personal#but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12#so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’#and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes#wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health#and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder#so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test#i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing#might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained
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Do I deserve to be happy?
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(a discovery I made about myself which in turn lead to a discovery about society’s obsession with a martyr-complex)
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^^^ a study I did on my my own baby photos (I tried my best guys I’m being so fr I can’t draw kids)^^^
One thing I’ve noticed recently is that I look rather young for my age. Now granted, I still AM young but as I’m reaching the point of adulthood I’m starting to notice how I’m not losing the same features my peers have long grown out of— my round cheeks, my feathery soft baby hair that has yet to lose its youthful pallor, my stature, my flexibility, etc. all things I’m used to and have accepted as a part of who I am— and shockingly I also noticed that in no way am I insecure about the way I look. I chose to be positive about it and grateful for the little things that make me who I am. Just how the converse traits like looking older with scruffy beards, course salt and pepper hair and twinkling eyes are also positive traits.
As I’ve mentioned my transition into adulthood, I’ve been thinking a lot about identity and realizing I don’t know a lot about myself and this is one of the things I have recently realized and I really feel the need to express it because I’m excited to have a piece of the puzzle that is me and I really want to share it with the world but I’ve found that there often isn’t a positive connotation to how people view themselves.
Especially online when people write a self-reflective post, usually exhibiting traits of self-depreciation and such a viewpoint skews the frame of mind of the reader to the point where a simple observation such as my own taking a positive or even a neutral place in my self-esteem seems overtly narcissistic.
I’m kinda just ranting into the void at this point but I’ve just been thinking about this idea for some time and I think I need to get it out into the world so I can finally relax and let it go, knowing my revelations will not be lost to the chaos that is my mind.
Recognizing that I have a youthful appearance, and that I don’t necessarily despise that trait initially made me feel strange and insecure about my own confidence which is truly ironic. Something tells me that my experience with the oxymoronic attitude is unfortunately more universal than not. And it’s made me think about the implications behind the way that we as a society have chosen to assign negativity towards things like confidence and self-respect despite the hollow encouragements of posters and self help books adorning our guidance counselors’ offices.
Are we so corrupted that we starve ourselves of love and affection just to savor the idea that we deserve such things?
Is it possible that we have been unintentionally feeding each other’s anxieties and insecurities by projecting our own into the world? Have we unintentionally harmed those around us in an attempt to stave off the feelings of selfishness that haunt us every night? Do we crave so deeply to be needed, to be wanted, that we present ourselves as a thing that we despise despite not necessarily believing the things we say about ourselves? Do we simply say them because we don’t want to address the fact that we don’t beleive them? Are we all just trying to diminish ourselves every day because we can’t stand the idea that we might actually like ourselves, because we’ve been conditioned to think that anything positive is a selfish and undeserved benefit only fit for a person who is so humble and self-sacrificing that they would never accept such an idea anyway?
Do we earn the right to deserve love? Even if it diminishes the ability to experience love in the first place?
#philosophical thoughts#philosophy#screaming into the void#identity#self discovery#self love#confidence#op wrote this instead of doing her piles of homework#help I’ve fallen into a rabbit hole of existential dread and I can’t get up#please dispatch a hot fireman to save me#no beta we die like (insert hysterical sobbing)#do I hate myself?#maybe#i haven’t decided yet#just thinking aloud#probably just been listening to too much Mitski#is it possible to overdose on tragic Spotify songs?#i may be insane#RELEASE ME#but we can be insane together !#I enjoy tags far too much for my own good#art study#also#bc I figured it was relevant idk#Spotify
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If you want to go and be stupid (make me wait in a car for an hour and a half knowing I haven’t had lunch or the bubble tea we had agreed on AND that I have a history of being dehydrated to the point of passing out) don’t do it in front of me (drag me along just cuz YOU want to meet your old professor)
#I was listening to please please please so#I can’t even enjoy teenage dream by katy Perry HHHH#Insert that creed meme#if I can *enjoy teenage dream by katy perry* what’s all this been about???#I didn’t even half switch on the engine until just now cuz I don’t want the car to overheat or smth#but IM overheating now#I have the car keys and istg it’s not even funny how close I am to driving off right here right now#and it’s so frustrating cuz we agreed to keep Fridays open for us to spend together like I didn’t got for my orientation session today cuz#of that#and she could have met her professor yesterday but she said the timing was too close to peak#cuz she didn’t want to drive in peak hour#which fine but she literally could have kept the meeting next week#and I still would have been fine waiting if it was just an hour#now we’re coming up to 1 hour 45 min#ugh I’m just in such a bad mood#personal#tw vent
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Just saying, Evil!Buck gave me some flashbacks to Ryder and I am not complaining one bit about it.
#evan buckley#911 fox#911 spoilers#can we have more?#I would deeply enjoy that energy focused on Eddie#just saying#please and thank you#eddie diaz#buddie#911 on fox#I can’t be the only one#just give it to me#I will do anything
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