#but i keep going

[youngroyals-stuff]

[drink-some-cranberry-juice]

u know the hyperfixation is doing its ~thang~ when u start losing sleep

[addictt-with-a-pen]

i sincerely don’t belong anywhere.

[dritten170]

Everyday I have to firmly grasp my shoulders and shake myself and say “IT GETS BETTER IT GETS SO MUCH BETTER THIS IS NOT US WE ARE NOT STUCK AS THE WORST VERSION OF OURSELVES” and everyday I believe myself just a bit more.

[5280ft]

heh, heh. well ladies i beleieve i may have made a mistake. and by “mistake” i mean i ate nail polish

[laupiehouppette]

Chapter 4 + bonus chap should arrive soon! Sooooo many things have gotten in the way of this fic and still getting in the way hopefully, things will finally call down for me. Me trying to work on my fic :

[mrfluffles300]

real

i can't be trusted with sour gummies i'm guzzling this shit down like a hog that's tasted blood

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

[oldbutchdanielcraig]

hey guys if you’re planning on making a vaguepost on the dashboard can you message me with the details and some of the lore behind the vague post you’re making. a vaguepost for the dash and a detailedpost for me. because i like to know what’s going on. if you do this i will automatically take your side because you’ve done the right thing by letting me know what’s up. thanks in advance ❤️

[nariarts]

Spent a ridiculous amount of time last night obsessively editing my hand written zines in Photoshop to take away any tiny blemishes so they were definitely readable.

Whatever. Understand or don't.

[hunny-k]

This is the funniest way you could've put it

[frankierotwinkdeath]

Y’all want Taylor Swift to be gay so bad but you won’t even write femslash about her

[dovesick]

endless night

[sparrowlucero]

speaking of how to train your dragon and creature design, the shift from the really naturalistic art direction and character animation for the first movie's toothless- the face getting flatter, the eyes bigger and closer together, getting rid of the little realistic details like the dust collecting between the scales, the pink splotching where the scales end at the nostrils, the muted markings, the animation making a shift from largely realistic animal behavior to much more anthropomorphic- is such a huge downgrade to me, made worse because it's subtle in such a way that you will sound insane if you mention it

(huge L for the "the audience's capacity to find a creature cute and empathetic and expressive is directly proportional to how much it looks like a human baby" principle of character design because the first one is so so much cuter)

[inkskinned]

the tradwife movement is the same as it has always been - back in the kitchen, back to breeding - it just has better branding.

when i was younger, i hated pink. i was not like other girls. this is now something i'm embarrassed of - this was not me being a "girl's girl."

but it was expressing something many of us felt at the time: i literally wasn't what girlhood was supposed to be. this is a hard thing to explain, but you know when you're not performing girlhood correctly. it isn't as easy as "i liked x when girls liked y" - because there were other girls that liked x, too - but i never figured out exactly the correct way to like x, or to be interested in y.

now there is the divine feminine. this is the same rhetoric it has always been: women are biologically driven to like pink and ribbons and submitting to our husbands.

the problem is that the patriarchy found a better PR team. because yes, actually, i want every woman to have the choice to be a homemaker. i also want her taken seriously for her legitimate home-making labor. i want her to be recognized as also having a job, just unpaid. i want men to have this opportunity, too.

but it is no longer "i made this choice and I love it." instead it is a sixteen-paragraph rant about how selfish it is that my generation isn't having kids. instead it's long videos about how if you feed your children processed foods, you're going to kill them. instead it is "this is what womanhood is supposed to be. i feel bad for any other choices you're making."

the shame spiral is just prettier. it is large houses devoid of personality. it is the implication: if you don't have this, you aren't happy. the solid, everlasting assurance: women are actually supposed to be submitting. this is the default. this is the natural state of things. all other attempts inflict suffering.

but you can no longer say i'm not like other girls. you can no longer reject this image completely. you cannot find it revolting, even if you know that the underbelly is toxic and festering. sure, it is the same repackaged patriarchy. but the internet does not have shades of grey. you should support and reward other women! your disgust is actually internalized misogyny. not because you are seeing a vision of yourself the way they're trying to train you to be. not because you feel her ghost pass within an inch of your earlobe. not because your father will eventually ask you - why can't you be like her?

because they figured out how to make it beautiful: women will sell other women on this idea, and we will find the singular loophole in feminism. sure, she's shaming you in most of her videos. sure, she implies that a different life is obscene. but she just wants you to be happy! you'd be happier if you were listening!

and the whole time you're sitting there thinking: i'd actually just be happier if i had that kind of money.

[authormazieirene]

It finally feels like winter where I live, and my heater gave me the finger sometime in the middle of the night. Goodbye central heat, hello space heaters. The joys of home ownership and being flat broke right before the youngest goblins birthday and X-mas. But, this is life. I tell my middle goblin who is one year from adulthood that life is nothing but a series of clusterfucks. Nothing hardly ever goes to plan, or how we want it to. What we do when that happens is what defines us as a person. While it's okay to be upset, to be angry, to feel let down, or feel overwhelmed, we have to deal with it regardless and move on, make new plans and goals, let it roll off of our back. Taking my own advice, I DID cry in the bathroom for a good 10 minutes this morning. I then washed my face, broke out the space heaters, and made everyone hot cocoa to warm up before school with my normal corny one liners and bad humor (no dad in the house so someone has to pop those dad jokes "Mom, I'm cold", "Hi Cold, I'm Mom" Yes, I am that parent). Once they were out the door, I rage cleaned the kitchen blasting some aggressive classic metal, and started a big pot of chili in the crock pot. I would love nothing more than to lay in my bed and cry myself back to sleep, but instead I am going to open my draft and do some editing for a few hours, check Indeed again, and try to keep my head up. My mantra today, and the words I wish to be put on my headstone or my family crest... It'll work out eventually, eventually everything will be okay one way or another. Until then, fuck it.