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#and what do we think about that#i should probably see a therapist#not probably#I should definitely see a therapist#but i keep going#wilmon#young royals#wilhelm x simon#young royals season 3#prince wilhelm#prince willhelm#simon eriksson#edvin ryding#omar and edvin#prince will
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Hey Maddie, as a dude who also grew up to have limited emotional capacity (yay patriarchy!), I legit found out how to have emotions through music. Like, if it weren’t for some of my favorite bands and their music, I don’t know how I’d have done it.
But I also totally understand - growing up and being taught that emotions are weakness really stunted me for a long, long time! I can empathize with you, 100%
Thanks for reaching out, Shhh! I really appreciate your sentiment and solidarity!
I used to have a lot easier time reaching my emotions. I've played piano for decades, and, like you, music used to be one of the ways I could reach it. I actually grew up knowing what my mom's mood was depending on what she was playing on the piano, actually, and picked up a little bit of that from her.
I feel like I've lost even that over time though. Various life factors have just made it impossible for me to allow myself to feel my own emotions or let them show.
Sorry for the pointless vent today. I just am really feeling how closely tied my kink is with my own emotional dis-regulation today and craving the ability to just let myself have some relief.
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It’s no secret that I have awful taste in men (I am delusional and I think I could fix them) so I thought I would make the bastards fight to the death for my own amusement
#poll#sk8 the infinity adam#handsome jack#diavolo jjba#doma demon slayer#tsukiyama shuu#sylas briarwood#I should probably see a therapist#all of these men are very concerning#oooohhh you wanna partake in the poll so bad
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julie stop listening to car seat headrest songs and making yourself feel worse challenge (actually impossible sorry...)
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#sylvia plath#clarice lispector#virginia woolf#joan didion#susan sontag#female authors#i should probably see a therapist
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Geniuniely not sure if im still sane anymore, but anyways how are y’all doing?
#/j#sorta but not really#ren talks#fun fact i actually do not know if im sane!#cause i have this thing where i fall into like.. actual delusion#i’ve been having it all my life#like when i was like 4 i geniunely belived my bestfriends mom was trying to kill me#why? idk man i was delusional#and everytime she would go up to get something from the house i expected her to either 1. abandon us 4 year olds and let us just kinda die#or 2. come back w a knife and kill me now that i was outa view#when i was like 8 i though there was someone living in my house waiting to kill me watching everything i did etc#there where a bunch of thoose#like my intire life#and i like actualy can’t tell the difference between these like delusions or whatever and reality#like at all#it doesnt matter if it includes real people or things i dont belive in or whatever#like i cant seperate it#i should probably see a therapist#cause like might have schizophrenia or smthn#…im sure its fine tho
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psychoanalyzing yourself is sooo annoying bc you're like ugh why am I like this and then it's like well. I know exactly why I'm like this. unfortunately having knowledge of what causes your problems doesn't necessarily mean you can fix them :/
#like. I am Aware this is a bad habit#And I know Why I do this#but that doesn't. mean I can stop#like oooooh yeah i shouldn't be do this but I do it because of X and X. that doesn't help me fix anything#a therapist would love me because I've done half their job for them#i just. need to know. how to fix it#hnvvvvvvgggvvgggg#i don't even know howr to fix it like#is this smthn can be fixed??? Or is it just an integral part of who I am???#if it is a core part of me can I change the way this is expressed/dealt with??? how do i do that?? is that even possible??#i don't know! I do not know I have learned NOTHING#all I know is why I do the dumb shit I do#AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i should probably see a therapist#I am just. annoyed. and frustrated.#surprisingly short term solutions don't fix long term problems#who would have guesed#sigh#another day of being abnormal#lilac post
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Bro I got new pants (from the men's section, where they allegedly use objective measurements like waist and inseam lengths) and I didn't have time to try them on but they're sized by objective measurements so I thought'no problem,' right? I just grabbed the size and style and brand I already had, that I was wearing a belt with so they'd fit right at that exact moment, and assumed it would be exactly the same BUT IT FUCKING WARNT IT'S TOO SMALL TO GET PAST MY THIGHS BUT IT'S ALLEGEDLY THE EXACT SAME SIZE AS WHAT I ALREADY HAVE THAT PRACTICALLY FALLS OFF WITHOUT A BELT I'M GOING TO BURN DOWN EVERY CLOTHING MANUFACTURER AND DEVOUR EVERYTHING THEY LOVE so now I have to get up early to exchange them before work tomorrow or just wear my same jeans that are starting to rip beyond my ability to fix for another two days before I get a day off :(
#clothing sizing is bullshit#even when the measurements are objective no they're not#why does it change?#sizing should be consistent#i should always know what size i wear because My body doesn't change that much#I'll probably wait to exchange them#but I'll be mad about it the whole time#i'm so tired#i thought shopping in the men's section would be easier#what with the sizing being by measurement and all#but it's apparently still a problem#you ever just give up completely?#that's about where I'm at rn#I'd just make my own but a) i don't want to and b) the while point of it is that they're supposed to be easy#i wish I could just vanish into the mist but unfortunately I can't#i should probably see a therapist#get some mood stabilizers or smth#fix the whole void thing I've got going on where my motivation should be#this really isn't that big a deal#but it is tho#but it's really not#it's not about the pants#but it is#but it's really really not#but its fine#sorry for the rant
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Ugh I hate this I hate customer service I hate social cues I hate being interrupted when doing something
I want a job where I don't have to talk to anybody and just do tasks, where I can have 100% focus on one thing at a time. Social interactions at work make me want to rip my hair out and my anxiety has me worrying about if I forgot to do a task because I was distracted by a customer.
I want to be left a alone when stocking products, lemme please just listen to music or a podcast and put things on a shelf without having to run back and forth from the register. Uggghhhhh and there's really no jobs in my town that let me do that without being in a horrible company
#just me#i should probably see a therapist#like im pretty sure i have anxiety and depression#but also maybe autism#but i dont want to get tested because i fear a diagnosis#will effect my current position and future job opportunities
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Really wanna get into writing, I write good in my native and think it'll be same in English but don't know where tf to start. Any tips??
#what the fuck do i do#really wanna try#i have so many ideas#and my prompts are good#I just never put them to life#wilmon#young royals#wilhelm x simon#young royals season 3#prince wilhelm#prince willhelm#simon eriksson#edvin ryding#omar and edvin#prince will#ao3feed#ao3 link#ao3#ao3 fanfic#i should probably see a therapist#you are real??#art#get a room#sara's a bitch
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I’ve never been able to get much comfort from my parents. I’ve always had a hard time explaining things to them, especially because my dad was/is pretty emotionally unavailable (probably cuz of his mom dying when he was a young adult and no therapy) and my mom always tried to find solutions or give me lectures about things. So I often found, and still find myself going to tv show characters for comfort? Like, imagining them with me in the room, and talking to them. And then understanding and hugging me. And I feel like that isn’t normal? Or there’s something weird about that. I don’t think most people do that. Sometimes it gets so bad that I have a hard time bringing myself back to reality and stopping talking to them. Pretty sure there’s a mental disorder in there somewhere
#maladapting daydreaming disorder#comfort characters#what’s wrong with me#i should probably see a therapist#I should probably go to therapy
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does thinking “why hasn’t someone euthanized me??” every time i make one (1) single fuckup count as suicidal ideation? asking for a friend
#i should be euthanized#is it depression#who knows#i should probably see a therapist#but i have no time#ughhhhh
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feeling quiiite overwhelmed and lost atm but at least im hitting PBs @ the gym
#i should probably see a therapist#im struggling a lot tbh#my body image is absolutely terrible#like i feel sooo unattractive and disgusting#like im trying to be okay with that#but idk i was a stereotypically attractive woman for most of my life#and now im just frumpy and sad#i just miss being pretty a lot#i had to film an introduction video for one of my school classes today#i put on a nice dress shirt and hoop earrings but still felt like crying when looking at it#idk im struggling a lot a lot a lot#sometimes i wish i could just shave off my body hair and grow my hair out and paint on a full face again#i wont because it goes against my morals.#but i miss that. feeling good about myself#looking in the mirror or at a photo or whatever and being pretty. yeah
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Does anybody have those moments when you're crying but there's no tears and you're hyperventilating and you want to scream and nobody around you seems to feel emotions like you do and them you just immediately become calm when you pretend to be your favorite character but they you don't know how to stop pretending fully because you don't actually know who you are? No? Just me? Alright then.
#rant#cw panic attack#i think#i do this for useless things too like convincing myself to get in a cold pool#but whenever its a serious thing like this#i have trouble figuring out how to stop pretending#i know im pretending and this isnt how i act#but i also dont know how to act normal again#it gets extra fun when i start doubting that i dont usually act like this#i should probably see a therapist
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i have a word doc called "if i were more radical, this would be my manifesto" and it's basically a place i can dump my ramblings, thoughts and various ponderings and act like i'm talking to people who care it's great i definitely recommend it
#manifesto#sorta kinda#ramblings#highly recommend#it's great#it's basically my therapist atp but who cares#i should probably see a therapist
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