#but I have no choice but to be ok
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Honestly… I’m just tired. Tired and sad.
I’m tired of being tired and I’m tired of being in pain and I’m tired of being sad and having no money and trying to do everything with no help.
I physically and mentally can’t do this, but I’ve got no choice. No choice, no help, just dealing every day with this, and it fucking sucks.
I’ve got no money, no time, no happiness, and truthfully lately it feels like I’ve got no friends either. Not that I’d have time to spend with them anyway.
I’m just so exhausted and I hope this is worth it in some way in the future, because I’ve never tried so hard in my life to not give up….
Now time to suck it up and go do more crap…
#personal#me#I’m not doing ok#but I have no choice but to be ok#no one really understands#I need a sugar daddy that has zero expectations of me.#just need the dopamine of buying meaningless crap to make me happy temporarily#but no money#life is fucked#I just want it to get better#almost 6months of this shit#and I’m losing it
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John Cusack, the voice actor for Dimitri in Anatasia (1997), shared his statement on Palestine 🇵🇸 🇵🇸 🇵🇸 🇵🇸
P.S. He has been a Palestinian supporter for years
#palestine#free palestine#gaza#free gaza#west bank#free west bank#“if you're there - what choice do you have?”#john cusack#anastasia 1997#israel#israel occupation#israel apartheid#anastasia#update to tags: yes i know he didnt just do anastasia but thats the one that stood out to me i love anastasia#the way everyone is like ok this is super serious topic but ANASTASIA??? is so amusing to me pls keep them coming#also please continue sharing about palestine!!!! FREE PALESTINE
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we need to destroy the idea that girls should wear makeup. normalize bare faces on prom queens and flower girls and cheerleaders. no products at all instead of '7 product simple makeup routine.' no more 10 step skincare and regular facials and dermablading and gua sha just to be comfortable with yr natural face. i want to see eye bags on the funny librarian and acne on the swim coach and wrinkles on all our adult role models. i want to see a 16 year old girl that has never tried putting on eyeshadow. i want to see a 7 year old girl who doesn't have to go out and buy powder for her dance recital. i want to see trans women and girls everywhere to never have to wear makeup, regardless of how well they 'pass.' no more 'contouring to look masc' either. a post-beauty industry world is possible
reblogs are on but if you bring up the stage makeup point that i have addressed three times yr blocked on sight ☹️
#this is me warding myself against the b arbie m ovie shitstorm. </3#too many teenage girls have had 'bimbo feminist' thrust upon them by the attention economy + consumer-feminist culture#its ok to just be fucking lame. like you can still be fem/me and stuff while doing it#there is a world where you can feel comfortable in yrself even if you arent Aesthetic#the makeup industry is trying to hinder this tho#plus i saw that post thats like. 'the reason we see a lot of casual pseudo-gender-essentialist and choice feminism rhetoric...#... is because we have fewer posts now that have basic feminist messages'#that resonated so i am the change i want to see in the world#i wanna try and make a r iot g rrrl masterpost for anyone getting into that side of things later so lmk if you want to see it
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"Now, the vow will be honoured, and my Lord brother's soul will return."
Radahn stans keep winning, but I personally am in Miyazaki's walls rn
#my art#shadow of the erdtree spoilers#sote spoilers#shadow of the erdtree#elden ring#godwyn prince of death#godwyn the golden#miquella the kind#miquella the unalloyed#promised consort radahn#fromsoft#i do not think critiques of radahn are as shallow as “pay $40 to fight a boss we already fought”#the dlc is good right up until the final boss#most of the new bosses are good#i loved midra and metyr and messmer and the dancing lion#radahn as consort just comes completely out of left field and just seems like a huge disconnect between the dlc and base game#radahn's story was done with the festival#and it's a good end! i like the festival and the base game radhan fight#but here he shows up again out of nowhere when godwyn is the obvious choice and a godwyn boss fight would be new and interesting#you can even still have your villain miquella story#puppeting his brother's living-but-soulless corpse unable to accept#that just because godwyn is breathing and follows his command like a deprecated computer program#even godhood can't bring his brother's soul back#his body must be slain and he must die a true death#we could have at least gotten a line of dialogue from radahn but nope#ok rant over#this pic is sloppy but idc#no cleanup we die like men#yes i know miquella's model technically has only three arms but i gave him four bc three looks silly
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ive been putting this off for a bit ,, eerhehrhere im gonna crumble
#WHOOOOF its been a busy week for me#but we’re so back trust#the color choice in this is questionable but thats ok#i think ive just been staring at it for too long#i have many words to say but i cant really remember#stuff has been pretty wacky lately#tmnt#tmnt fanart#tmnt 2012#2012 tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#fanart#vphews
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This is very much an experimental unsure thing but now that the student experience is slowly catching up to me im thinking of opening commissions for portraits in the style of those gravity fals one i made? As i really like making them and dont really have the time to sell more polished arts. Well i dont know if theres an interest in that. Theyd be for 20 usd i think. Well alright
#cant really get a job at the moment so ill take whatever. i have not forgotten about keychains i just need things to stabilize first#feedback much appreciated? though even if the interest is low i will still try to do them. not much choices#TO CLARIFY i am not in a dire situation. trust me youd know if that was the case. im doing ok. so dont feel obligated to do anything#peace and love forever
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Haven't you fired a gun before?
Not as such...
Good Omens S2/Ep4
#hi i have the gif bug again yaaaay!#good omens#good omens s2#good omens 2#good omens gifs#gif set#goodomensgifs#goodomensedit#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#crowley#the magic show#the bullet catch#ok we are NOT going to talk about how Aziraphale's eyes drop to Crowley's mouth ONCE AGAIN#as he asks him about firing a gun#i just can't#the CHOICES#a duck gifs#1941#1941 minisode
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wearing the pretty new collar that mommy gave me cause I'm a good girl who does what I'm told~
thanks @antifatemptress <3
check reblogs for pics~
#i love this thing so much#i literally slept in it last night lol#not that i have a choice#hopefully soon ill get some cuffs to match so everyone really knows im owned#:3#nixie pics#me#reblogs ok#trans#transgender#transfem#trans girl#tgirl#mtf#girls like us#girlslikeus#nsft#trans nsft#mtf nsft
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time’s a winding centipede, burrows in our memories, and that is all we’ll ever be
#UP N ADAM HIII#*randomly#ransoms came across this song and was like huh ok and then put it on loop#to draw this. needless to say I have no choice but to like it now it’s ingrained into my brain#artists on tumblr#digital art#camp here and there#camp here & there#ch&t#ch&t fanart#chnt#chnt fanart#up and adam#chnt adam#tw bugs
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the haters are trying to get me to care about canon. they're trying to get me to only fuck with canon. newsflash you stupid bitch if you are in a fandom space you are consuming fanon. i don't CARE that it's canon that bruce wayne has hit his kids in canon. i make my own world where it's common fucking sense that heroes are good people who would not be abusers. "human flaw" this my ass that motherfucker drives a Batmobile and wears a Batsuit and throws around Batarangs. live in a suspended belief and have fun before you dry up and die a sad raisin of a being
#while i'm at it i am so fucking tired of power scaling#“ok these two characters in a fight” how about anything else for fucking once#these 2 characters but they both have to talk to each other while waiting for the train because they accidentally initiated conversation#these 2 characters but they find out they're cousins and are like “how tf did that happen”#these 2 characters but one of them just watched the other trip and fall at Walmart#like yeah sometimes it's annoying when fanon spaces completely misinterpret a character#but sometimes fanon is just more fun or makes MORE SENSE than a canon choice#and i would prefer reading or seeing that#guess what my guy the world is not black and white it has so many colors#open and use the eyeballs in your skull#unless you're like actually blind#then i guess feel every emotion all at once and that would describe a color#erinwantstowrite#dc#batman#robin#canon vs fanon
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Cool awesome reminder that you don’t need amazing technical skill to be a good artist/storyteller
#I still compare myself to other people but also like. Damn. What if I don’t need to#That’s literally what working with other people is for . so you can fill in for eachother and make an awesome thing :)#Reminder that Toby Fox is not a skilled visual artist LOL he makes concept art in mspaint#Ik He’s more of a composer / character writer but you know what I mean. He works with other people to bring those ideas to life#You don’t have to be good at everything !!#Txt#art#I say this because rendering pieces of art takes me dozens of hours and it’s literally so much work and I hate it sometimes#Ok then make a simple stylistic choice instead of doing a giant painting !! it will still carry the same or maybe even greater impact#I still want to make awesome giant beautiful pieces of art (illustration) but alas I don’t have infinite energy#I usually only make sketches instead and that doesn’t mean they’re unfinished. Maybe that’s just all they’re meant to be#Until I change my mind at least 🩷#Adhd#Honestly anything that gets your idea across is good enough. Depends on the idea
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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between
#to be or not to be. that is the question#ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment#musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is#To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL#reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires#the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live#even if just out of fear of the unknown#and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live#despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others#theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts#I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79#working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH#I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever#anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff#banger after banger from me tbh#this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse#it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want#like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere#a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want#ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work
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EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK!!! I want to be coherent about this season but please picture me foaming at the mouth and running on the walls. S2 being what if Mark's just like his Dad? Insanity. I love this show. Anyways, AU where an Evil!Mark tries to make Our!Mark worse, and Our!Mark tries to make the other better. Something something confronting your idea of the worst version of oneself. Plus, tweaked black and yellow costume because I saw it and immediately went murder hornet lookin' ass and knew I had to draw it. Evil ass Mark. Horrible. I think he should be dragged kicking and screaming into redemption.
#mark and the fact he is fighting for this fucking life to avoid the Many Bad Endings???? im pacing. getting out the red string.#when the season is about who you are and what you could become. when trying to be good is an active choice and a struggle.#RAHHHHHHHHHHH#chewing on the bars of my enclosure...when every mark is evil OUR mark is the outlier. the exception. the OTHER. RAHHHH#dog poetry being mark poetry because how often can you kick a dog before it starts snarling before you raise your hand?#how often can you beat it before it rips into you without mercy? when it bites not at your hand but at your neck?#when does violence for survival and violence for vengeance start and end? when your opponent is down and you keep drawing blood?#circling and pacing and losing my mind over this btw if you care#anyways self vs self gets me going crazy. did you know i loved the end of atsv? because it shows.#i think o!mark would lose his fucking mind at what evil wasp looking mark has done + this mf wasp would LOATHE mark's kindness#they both see the other as the WORST version of themselves and they can't stand it. They can't shatter the mirror but they think they can--#--change the reflection.#evil mark seeing mark and seeing what he USED to be#mark seeing what he COULD be#CAN U SEE THE VISION??????#digital art#invincible rotating in my mind#invincible fanart#fanart#mark my beloved#mark grayson fanart#mark grayson#invincible s2#invincible show#mark like hello this is my secret twin and he is NOTHING like me hahahaha anyways wanna debate about having mORALS and LIFE#mark grayson vs the urge not to accept every responsibility as his own#he's batman coded that way#ok im done yapping#if this happened in the comics in any way shape or form dont tell me JACK SHIT or i will PUMMEL YOU with my SHOES
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first dada class😳✨
#FINALLY FINISHED THIS ILLUSTRATION😇🙏#for chapter 3🫶#Eloise actually isn’t so good at dueling but I used fencing videos as reference#I just wanted to do a dramatic picture ok😆#she wins the duel in the way I probably would have chosen if the game didn’t just give us the illusion of choice#(aka underhanded Slytherin 😭😭😭)#fun fact or sad fact bc I’m revealing my evil nature#but every time I take the tests I am 0% hufflepuff and 0% Gryffindor#almost forgot Sebastian’s freckles again…#im actually going to reupload the sketch I did yesterday BECAUSE I FORGOT THEM !!!!!#like on top of remembering every little detail and fold and shadow in thst sketch#I have to remember the FRECKLES TOO??!!??????🥲#im not actually 100% happy with this one but I kind of just wanted to finish it and move on bahahahahahah#WAIT…😳#I NEED TO DRAW THE TROLL IN HOGSMEADE SCENE😭😭😭😭😫😫😫😫😫😫#well more dramatic paintings from me in the near future I guess rip#I’ll get better at them anyways#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart
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it's been 9 years i think we can all collectively agree now that Flowey has never been a master of psychological manipulation.
No shame to him, he's a kid who's been recently awakened from death and probably became very socially detached thanks to the nature of resets,
but you can't tell me that Papyrus didn't/wouldn't have caught on if he had been planning to take the souls at the end of true pacifist. Flowey is not a good liar. In any case, this does lead to monsters being freed, so was Papyrus really wrong to play along?
And who's to say this all wasn't Papyrus simply playing into whatever would set Flowey on the path he takes in true pacifist, trusting that the human and him would work it out? Flowey can have his power display and then realise what really matters. sometimes you gotta work through your problems the hard way
local kid with zero issues of abandonment/isolation whatsoever
#papyrus#flowey#undertale#this fandom has a thing with assuming that the adults are easily fooled by the kids into evil plans#see: the “chara has been evil since forever” takes#im bad at articulating my point but I hope it's clear what I'm getting at#Papyrus wouldn't get preachy with him he'd let him make the choice in the end (which he does.)#you have to keep in mind that Flowey is a very traumatised child. you can't just barge in and tell him what to do#it's ok hes working through it. and yea it does involve violence but hes like 12 it's fine#fluo rambles
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genre: the princess is Plotting Something
#theloyalpinedit#the loyal pin#princess anin#becky armstrong#userrlana#khaotunq#tuseralexa#tuserhidden#tusersilence#purpleguitar#every single time they zoomed in on her face for way too long it made me laugh. i love this choice very much lol#ok that's it for today. i'm withering away i gotta sleep#theres one or maybe 2 more sets i wanna make but they have to wait
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