#bipolar mixed episode

[ittakesrain]

[funeral]

Giulio Perugi and Hagop S. Akiskal, "Emerging concepts of mixed states: a longitudinal perspective"

[manicpixiedreamguy]

I wish people would stop taking bipolar II less seriously than bipolar I

I saw a comment on an Instagram meme about mania making people productive that said "that's hypomania. Actual mania isn't a silly little thing" and it seriously pissed me off because hypomania isn't a silly little thing either and people need to realise saying such things is insensitive, disrespectful and harmful. And this might be a hot take but I don't think bipolar I is worse than bipolar II just like I don't think bipolar II is worse than bipolar I and the comparison makes no sense because they're both fucking hell in their own specific way (which can and does vary from person to person).

It's not the first time I see stuff like that and I do think the "memeification" and "tiktokification" of serious mental health issues led people to believe in the false notion that bipolar II is some sort of "fake bipolar" or easy to live and deal with but it's not and I think we're better than that; just because the Internet says that hypomania is cutting your own bangs in the middle of the night or dying your hair pink while being completely functional and productive in your everyday life doesn't make it true. I wish I could give you some examples of what hypomania is actually like to me but surprise surprise I don't fucking remember, all I got is some flashes of rage and sleepless nights and incoherent racing thoughts and disordered speech and substance abuse and shadow people at the corner of my eyes and being detached from reality while still somewhat being aware of it in a way that doesn't really make sense.

What does this race for who has it worse accomplish? People with bipolar II downplaying their own hypomania and ending up in a psych ward?

Stop engaging in nonsensical wars and stupid ways of thinking.

[mariposas8494]

Mixed episodes be like…

[messymotherfcker]

I’m slowly killing myself and I don’t care

[adhdstudybitch]

My bipolar folks who experience mixed episodes, how the fuck do you cope? For months I thought I've just been having a depressive episode, but the reality hit me tonight that I've been experiencing hypomanic symptoms as well, and I now understand why all the shit I usually do for full depressive episodes isn't working.

I recently went up on Caplyta (from 42 to 52.5 mg) and I don't think it's done much. Therapy has been spent talking about the unbridled rage I've been carrying in my throat my entire life. Idk I would love to hear what others have found helpful outside of meds and therapy.

[brainzcoaster]

[actualbird]

so my anxiety this month has been through the Roof (getting so bad it's making me throw up at least once every day) for certain reasons (those reasons being my workload, both in and out of my job) but like, i committed to these things so i Cant Change My Workload, so im like. okay i would like to stop being so anxious im trembling and nauseous all day tho. i havent seen my psychiatrist in more than a year but im debating seeing him again and just going like "HI. REMEMBER ME? IM UNFORTUNATELY INSANE AGAIN. GIVE ME DRUGS TO FIX THIS." or should i like just.....mindfulness(TM) my way through this?......idk man. i need to throw up like right now actually HAHAHAHKSFBLJD

[narcpocalypse]

Mixed episodes crazyyy it be like hyper despair. Ten cups of coffee but u still tired. Frozen soup

[doomedfromthewombfr]

Mixed-Episode Madness

Oh, look who showed up uninvited: a bipolar mixed episode, crashing through my life like a drunk cousin at a wedding. It’s chaos, it’s loud, and it refuses to leave. Imagine every emotion you’ve ever had trying to throw hands in your brain at the same time. That’s me right now.

I’m angry for no reason. I’m devastated over everything. I’m vibrating with energy but also so exhausted I’d fight anyone for a nap. It’s like my body is screaming, Do something! but my brain is like, Yeah, let’s sit here and stare at the wall for six hours instead. Peak efficiency.

The worst part? I know exactly what’s happening. I can see the storm brewing. I’m fully aware that my brain is being a little jerk, flipping switches between manic overload and existential dread. But knowing doesn’t fix it- it’s like watching your house burn down and thinking, Oh, I should’ve bought a fire extinguisher. Too late now.

And let’s talk about the irritation. Every sound feels like a personal insult. Every person existing within a 50-foot radius of me is suddenly unbearable. Earlier today, I got irrationally angry at my own hair for “not feeling right.” That’s where I’m at, folks.

Meanwhile, my thoughts are having a full-on rave. They’re blasting ideas like, “Start a podcast! Write a book! Change your entire life right now!” Except I can’t focus long enough to finish a sentence, so I guess I’ll just sit here, overwhelmed and annoyed, while my brain keeps yelling about how productive I should be.

And don’t even get me started on the sleep situation. Too tired to function but too wired to rest? Love that for me. It’s like my body is running on fumes, but someone keeps slamming the damn gas pedal.

So, here I am. Spinning out in the emotional Bermuda Triangle, unsure if I want to scream, cry, or learn how to play the ukulele at 2 a.m. Honestly, I’m just waiting for this episode to end so I can go back to my regularly scheduled dysfunction.

Until then, I’ll be pacing the room, sighing dramatically, and fighting the urge to throw my phone out the window. Bipolar mixed episodes: the gift that keeps on taking.

[chaosobsidienne]

You don’t want this in your life? Well I’m glad cause I don’t want this either. So we’re on the same page really.

[ghostlyschizophrenic]

me: i’m handling my psychosis very well throughout this bipolar crisis that’s great:

the sounds in the walls, water, and radio static;

[robynleefaryna]

It's that time of the year where things get weird for me. So sad and tired - just want to sleep, but can only mange to get 4-5 hours of broken sleep a night... I do nap during the day, but can only mange 45 mins to a hour and a half. I tend to have these ridiculous mixed episodes, and I'm worried I'm slipping i into one.

[narc1ssis1ic]

You ever find yourself bawling your eyes out out of sadness but laughing your head off from happiness at the same time?

[silkense]

bipolar

[messymotherfcker]

I feel so disconnected and different from other people. Like I don’t connect the same way they do. I am strange and out of place in this world