#autistic fatigue

[snakesong]

So I've trained myself to ignore autistic fatigue and keep working even though my efficiency drops to like 30%. Even if it means an assignment that normally takes 1 hour ends up taking 4.

And you know what? That's dumb. I'm gonna actually rest. (Le gasp)

I'm gonna chill alone in my room, with my dim lights, noise-cancelling headphones, and weighted blanket.

Then when I'm recovered, that paper will take me significantly less time than it would if I tried to write it now.

[autisticdreamdrop]

constantly fatigued autistics, we see you

being autistic can be really hard. too much at once. autistic can easily be triggered for meltdowns, shutdowns and burnout and fatigue is a big part.

a lot of autistics are disbaled in mutiple ways, usally with medical and mental health issues.

we are a chronically disabled autistic system and we have a huge list of medical issues and it sucks. .

you're valid. you are seen. you deserve support. - The Dreamdrop System

[fantasy-harvest-rune]

Just worked 42 hours in 4 days (I have tomorrow off at least) after doing 50 hour weeks the fortnight before. I am gonna be DESTROYED by the end of the field season if this continues. #thatecologistlife

[zzzugzwanggg]

I just want to externalize this thought process, so I'm going to spit it out right here.

I recently had a conversation with somebody whose perspective I expressly trust about my identity as an undiagnosed low support needs autistic person. He told me he saw The Signs despite the fact that I believed I was masking *beautifully.* That alone made me feel like this label that I have such a hard time feeling like I have a right to claim, is something I can at least entertain.

So if we're agreeing that I can call myself autistic, then maybe we can discuss the topic of me experiencing skill regression/burnout/fatigue. I find it hard to imagine that if we're filtering this experience through the lens of skill regression, that autistic kids who "suddenly" stop walking actually forgot how to walk. It's more likely the sensory experience of Everything Around Them has used up all of the space they would need in order to filter and fulfill the task of walking-- fatigue makes more sense than skill regression.

Over the last month, I've fallen to the ground six times-- entirely too many times if you ask me-- I broke a microwave, cracked a toilet seat, and dropped and/or bumped into about a billion things. I also poke myself in the eyes every time I wash my hair. I know this is an autism thing or at least a sensory thing. My proprioception is shot. It's frustrating, it's embarrassing, and it's expensive to keep replacing shit I've broken because I don't know where my arm stops and the microwave starts.

I started a new position which I'm doing very well at. I work my old job when I can, I moved three times in the last 6 months, I'm doing well in school-- I'm doing a lot and it's all going well, but clearly something has had to give and my brain chose proprioception.

So now I'm in this weird space where nobody "knows" I'm autistic (maybe they know it but they don't know it), and I can't talk about it because I may or may not actually be autistic, and I have all of these experiences and frustrations that I just have to eat in fear of opening myself up to other people's opinions.

So as of now, I wouldn't walk too close to me because I'll probably walk into you but if you need nd friends to talk about Nd Things So Do I. And that's the moral of this text post.

[rose-like-the-phoenix]

[cor0t]

Girl that sounds like depression

Another Autism Thing I don’t see mentioned outside the community is how fucking *tired* you get.

I was just telling my partner it feels like it takes 110% of my energy to do what should, I feel, only take 60%.

Like it takes a good chunk of my mental and emotional energy to get to the level of “functionality” that, for allistics, is their baseline.

Like I’m starting a few flights of stairs down from the ground floor every day. Except nobody seems to know how to fix it aside from “run faster,” or “get up earlier.”

(Note: I know the term “functional” is erroneous and largely driven by capitalism. I use the word to describe what seems to be needed to participate, even while I know it’s bullshit)

And the thing is, I can’t always pinpoint what exactly is draining me so!

Does anyone else experience this? If so, what are your thoughts?

[bathask]

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[edwardshundredyearoldspunk]

I am unusually emotionally drained today. I know it's because I socialized more than usual, and I had a job interview, which is basically masking for forty minutes. but I don't understand why it took until NOW to catch up to me. I haven't even gone out since wednesday! but I'm just. so tired.

[neuroticboyfriend]

chronic fatigue from mental illness and neurodivergency isn't something you can just will your way out of. your nervous system is part of your body. your brain is an organ. the fatigue is real. you're not lazy. so be kinder to yourself. be gentler with your bodymind.

[crippledpunks]

i wanna say fuck you to anyone who shame disabled, chronically ill & neurodivergent people, especially homebound folks, for "spending too much time on their phone/on the internet/etc." when it's the only (Somewhat) accessible way for them to experience the world. many people don't get to get out much even if they want to because of their disabilities. shaming someone for trying to connect with the world, make friends and engage with hobbies in ways that are accessible to them is beyond cruel and unnecessary

[minimallycreative]

autism "i need my routine and the routine was already ignored yesterday" vs chronic pain/disability "good fucking luck dude. you got no bones today"

[yellow-dress-basil]

QUICK PSA FOR THE DISABLED COMMUNITY

If you take any daily medication, do not eat grapefruit or activated charcoal unless you know for a fact they won’t affect your medication.

Both Grapefruit and Activated Charcoal will cancel out medication.

‘Where would you ever eat activated charcoal?’ You may be asking

Well

Halloween eve is here y’all and if you want a black cocktail or cupcake, it was probably made black with activated charcoal! So please double check before consuming!!

[itsaspectrumcomic]

It's OK to rest

[chronicallymistreated]

People only have so much patience for those of us with chronic illnesses, chronic pain, and or mental health difficulties.

At the beginning there is so much support (or at least more support) but when they realise you're not recovering as quickly as they'd like... you get avoided, isolated, told you're exaggerating, etc. They seldom think about how those of us with chronic issues feel. How overwhelming it is to deal with everything day in and day out. There is so much anxiety, depression, grief, etc when dealing with chronic issues regardless of what they are.

If you're even more isolated because people refuse to see how much you're struggling or you're not recovering "fast enough" for the people around you just know you're not alone! There are so many of us in the same boat too

[nocternal]

a moment of silence for all us disabled ones who had to watch each of their friends move on with their lives without you and get jobs, go to school, have partners come and go, get engaged and move house etc.

shout out to my fellow struggling people who are still sitting in the same bedroom they grew up in. the ones who can't get a job, can't make new friends, can't find a partner or partners, can't move house and can't go to school.

I hope one day we can all find someone to at least sit with us in our rooms. I see you and I understand... and I'm sorry we can't be that person for each other

[boyfailurr]

being disabled has an affect on the social life that not many people are willing to discuss . the reality is, being disabled means missing out on a lot. the queer bar you think everyone should go to isnt accessible. nobody in your towns high school was willing to talk to the only kid with down syndrome there. not all autistic people were accepted enough to be social in the first place, much less doing drugs and having sex.

there are so many experiences to miss out on