#anti quinnies

[roxymorondraws]

He said you’re disgusting

get wrecked haters! 

[lunastar92]

[roxymorondraws]

Whoop, there it is

Well, wouldja look at that. Nice to see some articles that delve into the WHY of all the harassment.

I hope this picks up traction and calls attention to how SO MANY women are treated by fandom when they dare get too close to the popular actor of the week. This isn’t the first time, and it won’t be the last.

[sageandred]

Some minor things I'm thinking about/predictions for season 3~

-some more (pretty unedited) things I think could happen + predictions I don't necessarily hope to happen; + talking out some frustrations I personally had (if u don't want to read anything partially negative)

Missy & Amerie friendship. It would be good to expand to some less visited friendships. We got a hint of Amerie & Missy once again and I could see them talking even more nxt szn.

Sasha and Quinni are going to be working together nxt szn, and I can already see how the writers might try to rekindle something, but I don't want that, obviously. I could see them making Sasha develop feelings again only for Quinni to turn her down or it could be an opportunity for Sasha to actually apologize after some reflection as they continue to go their separate ways romantically.

Ant has to find out Harper also made the map, right? (that's the direction it's heading in??)

I don't care either way, but if Rowan wasn't just a 1 season and done type of character, I could see them trying to explore a mental health storyline, and separate from that make him more likeable/building friendships with anyone but Amerie.

Critiques of the Season/What I Hope Going Forward

They really missed some opportunities with Harper. It's totally valid for 2 childhood besties to grow apart in some ways and come back with an even greater and more mature connection. Instead, they just had Darren and Quinni adopt her into the group when I wish they would've spent a season of her developing her own friendships and building up her relationships that will be beneficial going forward.

which brings me to my points: I want Harper and Amerie to spend some time apart next season. I don't want it to be dramatic and I don't want them to have a fallout. They can actually be friends without being attached at the hip, but I don't want the s1 trio to be disrupted when I think that relationship is very special (sorry if this sounds harsh), and feels more organic than Harper's outside of the one that's developing with Cash.

Speaking of relationships: Ant & Harper feels underdeveloped to me. They could be a great couple. I wish they spent more time this season giving them individual arcs, but I think next season they kind of need to go through something dramatic to have the kind of break-through I'm wanting from their characters. They're kind of boring to me rn (I'm so sorry Harthony fans). They could end up together or not; I'm just not sold on their story yet.

New couples-I like the development stage of new couples/couples you don't expect. Give Quinni a gf, ofc. Switch up some of the dynamics. Relationships can be a means to another end, and it doesn't have to = the previous being bad. I don't want a love triangle, though; let them grow without the drama.

They could show the journey of Missy dealing with a toxic man, or they could show Spider/Missy grow together (I really don't care); I just want development for both of them individually and their own separate arcs regardless (especially Missy-he did have his own large arc this season). I actually think it would be cool to show the slow effects of how things add up and trauma causing some unhealthy behaviors with Spider (it doesn't have to make him bad; he's like 18 and anyone could grow from a failed high school relationship/become a really great person, but I just don't feel awe when I see their scenes...personally).

I didn't add this point with them on my other post, but I kind of want Darren and Cash to each have new romances/flings. I know there is love there, but I think they need to find themselves independent of one another. Their relationship very much feels like they grew up together and prematurely decided they belong together what with Cash's long secret crush (which is fine, but..); it is absolutely cute, though their incompatibility and continuous communication problems need to be explored/they need to mature.

[dreemurr-skelememer]

Curious to know your thoughts cause I always wondered this. What the fuck happened to the rest of Dreamtale? Like.. it's a whole earth right? An entire earth. It's not like the underground where they're confined there to release, there is a whole open earth. So what happened to the rest of it??

If canonically the villagers turned into weird undead zombie fuckers (i think idk) then like.. is that just the whole earth like that?

I'd like to think Nightmare didn't know how to immediately leave so after destroying the village he went about the whole earth to conquer the rest of it yk.. before expanding to the multiverse

Anyways I'd just like your thoughts!! :D

i have many many headcanons about this, but i think i remember in a fic (that only mentioned it briefly) that dreamtale's universe is like. constantly moving and changing and is a good reference of time for outcodes!

i like this idea because considering dreamtale is supposedly a very important AU (having the tree of feelings and whatnot), it makes a lot of sense as to why it'd just. still be moving and changing.

i like to think that because of this, there's multiple myths and legends about the brothers and the tree! very interesting

[jellyfishinc]

[tuiyla]

So sorry to drag you back to Gleeland when you are on a Buffy binge, but I have been thinking about it for a while and it drives me insane:

Why did Quinn go to Puck?

They are clearly not friends. They are more like people who are in the same room because people they are friends with want to hang out together. Quinn is just Puck's bro's girl.

So why did she decide to go to Puck because she was "feeling fat that day"? Did she go there for sex from the start, so she could feel wanted? But then the scene of their hookup makes it all murky because her consent is very dubious on the account of alcohol and said emotional vulnerability.

There is also the matter of when this happened because did this happen before Finn joined Glee or after, which would give another dimension to her comment (because Finn's attention was shifting to Rachel)?

This isn't me trying to shift blames or anything, I just don't understand how things came up to this point to start with. Do you have any theories, ideas, or even bits of canon that explains it that I missed?

Haha no worries I should be getting to Glee asks and do Glee stuff, it's just that my current commute between Sunnydale and LA doesn't allow for pit stops to Lima. I'll take a flight and be back eventually.

My interpretation was always just: it was a party, Quinn was feeling insecure, Puck was hitting on her, cue wine coolers and dubious consent. I don't think Quinn actively sought Puck out at all. Maybe subconsciously because no doubt he'd been hitting on her for a while and no doubt Quinn was pissed at Finn and some part of her wanted to piss him off by entertaining Puck's flirting. I think she did want to feel wanted, yeah, because if she can't feel loved then heck wanted will do. But I'm convinced Quinn did not go into that evening expecting to lose her virginity to Puck. I've spoken about the scene's appalling framing and the dubious nature of it previously and yeah, based on all that I think you could argue that even while making out with him Quinn didn't want to lose her virginity to Puck. But the way I've always imagined it is that it was a party or some kind of other situation where it wasn't just the two of them and that escalated.

I often wonder about the timeline, some say it's end of summer before the school year even began but eh, Glee itself doesn't keep track. So I would put it somewhere just after Finn joined Glee and started paying attention to Rachel. Does that work out, who knows, but it doesn't change that maybe some part of Quinn was drawn to Puck but it was mostly the feeling she was chasing and not with the intention of going all the way.

I don't think there's anything in canon you missed Anon so this is just my interpretation. I'm fairly convinced it was a party situation where Quinn didn't explicitly go to back, rather just enjoyed being wanted by him and hadn't thought things through before ending up on a bed with him.

[roxymorondraws]

Good the general masses are starting to see all the bullshit the antis put Grace through

[demogordon]

first controversial post of 2023 everyone

[abbadoabbadon]

I'm gonna add to this by saying I NEED systems to STOP comparing their system experiences to IRL ones.

Like for example me telling our ex about our cult trauma after we'd literally just gotten out of the cult, and him going "omg I totally understand what you're going through bc of my internal cult trauma that was from my story that I wrote myself 😞"

IT IS NOT THE FUCKING SAME, HOLY SHIT SHUT UPPPPPP

YOU cannot understand what the FUCK I WENT THROUGH unless YOU went through it, NOT IN YOUR SYSTEM ,BUT IRL HOLY FUCK

We get told headspace or inner world isn’t real

Well, it's technically not, but only when it's in the sense of "out there in the universe". Like no other person can physically go to it, it's only in your head. But also it is real to the system who has that inner world.

I think the people who claim it's not real at all need to do better research.

Edit: Alters can also communicate there and even reinact or live through their trauma on loop. Typically anything your imagination can think of, CAN happen, and yes it can be traumatizing, but it isn't real in the sense of outside in the universe and your experiences inside aren't the same as outside experiences.

An alter who claims to be something the body isn't/has never experienced won't actually be like that externally. Ex: an alter is a perfect chef inside, but because no one learned anything externally, the alter would not be a perfect chef outside.

[capquinn]

https://www.tumblr.com/capquinn/752177148682436608/a-closeness-q-hughes?source=share

loved this so much. i also imagine q being anti-pda and think about coming home after being out all day together and him just pouncing on his significant other the minute the door closes a little too much hehe could you write something along those lines? 🤍

ahhh i’m so glad you enjoyed it!!!! i appreciate u!!!! also you sent this ages ago and i fell down the rabbit hole of imagining a lovesick quinny who can’t keep his hands to himself, started writing about it…kept writing about it…and it turned into a whole thing lmao so pls enjoy!!!

Redemption | Q. Hughes

pairing: fem!reader x quinn hughes content: mild smut word count: 2.5k note: as always, smut isn't my sweet spot creatively but i did it and i did it blushing the whole time so let's go ↪masterlist

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There’s a quiet privacy to your relationship, something unspoken but understood. In public, Quinn is composed— affection kept to the simple brush of fingers or a quick squeeze of your hand, as if any more would give too much away. He’s never been one for grand gestures or public displays of affection, preferring the subtlety of connection. A lingering touch here, the gentle press of his hand against the small of your back there — just enough for you to feel him, but never more.

It’s something you’ve grown to cherish, those little moments of contact that belong only to the two of you when others are watching. Quinn doesn’t need to say anything. He doesn’t need to kiss you in front of anyone to show how he feels. The real affection, the kind that makes your heart race, is reserved for when you’re alone, behind closed doors, where he can let the weight of his restraint fall away.

And now, after a long day of those quiet, fleeting touches, you’re finally home. The front door closes behind you with a soft click, and suddenly, the quiet of your apartment wraps around you both like a warm embrace. The world outside fades away, the hum of city life muffled by the thick walls of the place you share. It’s only when you’re finally alone that Quinn exhales, the tension in his shoulders melting almost instantly.

You glance at him, watching as his usually composed expression shifts, softening in a way that’s reserved only for these moments — just the two of you, away from the eyes of others. His hand, which had remained firmly at his side all evening, now reaches for yours without hesitation. The contact is immediate, fingers lacing with yours, and it’s like a floodgate opens.

Without a word, Quinn tugs you gently into him, his arms wrapping around your waist, pulling you flush against his chest. There’s a quiet urgency in the way he holds you, like he’s been waiting all day for this. This closeness. This space where he doesn’t have to hold back. His face buries into the crook of your neck, and you feel his breath, warm and steady against your skin.

“Missed you,” he murmurs, the words muffled but clear enough to make your heart skip. His voice is low, almost vulnerable, a stark contrast to the casual cool he kept in public.

You smile, threading your fingers through his hair as he nuzzles closer, his hands sliding up your back, pulling you in tighter. “You had me the whole time,” you tease lightly, though your voice softens with affection.

“Not like this,” he mumbles, lifting his head just enough to meet your eyes. There’s something raw in his gaze. Something unspoken but understood between you both. This is the part of him that no one else sees, the part that holds on just a little too tight because he can finally let go.

Quinn leans in, his lips brushing yours in a kiss that’s soft but charged with everything he’d been holding back. His hands stay firm at your waist, fingers pressing into your hips as if grounding himself in the feel of you. When he pulls back, his forehead rests against yours, his breathing a little heavier, eyes fluttering closed for a moment.

“I hate not being able to do this all the time,” he admits, voice barely above a whisper, his thumb brushing softly along your side.

You lean into him, your arms winding around his neck. “Well, you’re home now,” you say, voice quiet but steady, and it’s all the permission he needs.

In an instant, he’s pulling you to the couch, sinking into it with you on top of him, your bodies fitting together effortlessly. His lips find yours again, and this time, there’s no hesitation, no holding back. His kisses are deeper, more intense, as though he’s making up for every moment he had to restrain himself in public. His hands roam, not possessive, but searching, savouring the simple fact that he can finally touch you the way he wants to.

As you lean into his touch, his kisses grow deeper, more languid, each one a little slower than the last, as if he’s trying to memorise the feel of your lips. His hands roam from your waist to your back, fingers tracing the outline of your spine through the fabric of your shirt.

You can feel the tension he carried all day unwinding with every press of his lips, every soft sigh that escapes him. His thumb brushes your cheek as he pulls back slightly, his lips just hovering over yours. He’s breathing harder now, his chest rising and falling beneath you.

"Been wanting this all day," Quinn murmurs, his voice low, almost a whisper. He sounds relieved, as if holding back all evening had been an unbearable task. He runs his hand through your hair, letting the strands fall through his fingers, and the gentle touch sends a shiver down your spine.

He lets out a breathy chuckle, and shifts beneath you, one arm wrapping around your waist, the other coming up to cup the back of your neck as he pulls you down for another kiss.

The kiss deepens, and you feel his grip tighten on you, pulling you closer until there’s no space left between your bodies. His hands are everywhere. Cradling your face. Running down your sides. Holding onto you like he can’t bear to let go.

You shift, your legs tangling with his as you lean into him more, your hands resting on his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat beneath your fingertips. His breath hitches slightly when your lips graze the corner of his mouth, teasing. He pulls back just enough to look at you, eyes half-lidded and glazed with a quiet need.

"Don’t be like that," he mutters, his voice gravelly, and there’s a playful glint in his eyes that makes your heart skip a beat. “Tease.”

You grin, pressing another soft kiss to his lips before sitting up slightly, your hands resting on his chest. "If you say so," you bounce back, your fingers tracing idle patterns under the hem of his shirt, continuing with your antics. Moving slowly, really drawing the moment out, eyes flickering to his to gauge his reaction.

But Quinn isn't having it.

In one swift motion, he rolls you onto your back, flipping you over so he’s hovering above you, his body pressed against yours. His lips find your neck, trailing soft, heated kisses along your skin, and your breath catches in your throat. You feel the weight of him settle between your legs.

His hand slides under your shirt, fingers brushing the bare skin of your abdomen, the lightness of his touch sends a shiver coursing up your spine again. He lingers there, tracing slow circles with his fingertips, moving deliberately, but with an almost teasing restraint, as though savouring the feeling of your skin beneath his touch. And perhaps, a taste of your own medicine.

He shifts slightly, his knee nudging your thighs wider as he presses his body closer to yours, and the warmth radiating from him only intensifies the electricity crackling between you both.

His hand inches higher, the rough pads of his fingers skimming along your ribs, tracing a path that makes your breath hitch again. You arch into his touch, craving more, and the sound that escapes you is soft, a quiet moan slipping past your lips.

"Thought I was the one who missed you," he murmurs against your skin, his lips grazing your ear before capturing your mouth in another slow, intoxicating kiss.

It intensifies, and for a moment, everything else fades away.

It’s just you and Quinn, tangled together on the couch, his weight pressing down on you in the most comforting way. His hands roam your body with a familiar tenderness. His lips are relentless, tracing the curve of your jaw, your neck, your collarbone, each kiss sending sparks through your body.

"Quinn," you whisper, your voice barely audible, and that’s all it takes.

He pauses for just a second, lifting his head to meet your eyes. There’s something raw there, a silent question, a quiet need for reassurance. But you don’t have to say anything. Your fingers tangling in his hair, pulling him closer, tell him everything he needs to know.

With a groan, he responds with more pressure, his hand cupping your breast, thumb brushing over the peak in a slow, deliberate motion that makes you gasp. Your fingers dig into his shoulders as you arch into him, every nerve in your body alight with sensation and giving in to the feeling of being completely and utterly consumed by him.

His lips return to yours, kissing you deeper now, more insistent, as though he can’t get enough. His free hand slides down, resting at the curve of your hip, fingers squeezing just enough to make you squirm beneath him. His touch is everywhere. Intoxicating and deliberate.

Each press of his lips, each glide of his hands eliciting another soft sigh as your body responds instinctively to him.

"Quinn," you breathe, your voice barely audible, and his name falls from your lips like a plea, a sound that only fuels the fire in his eyes.

His gaze locks with yours, and the intensity in his expression makes your pulse quicken. He’s always been restrained in public, composed and careful, but here, in the privacy of your home, there’s no holding back. His control, that steely composure, has cracked, and the raw desire in his eyes makes your stomach flip.

"I love it when you say my name like that," he murmurs, his voice low and gravelly, sending another shiver of anticipation through you.

Without breaking eye contact, his hand moves to the hem of your shirt, and in one fluid motion, he lifts it over your head, discarding it carelessly onto the floor. The cool air hits your skin, and for a brief moment, the contrast between the air and the warmth of Quinn’s body heightens every sensation.

He takes a moment, his eyes roaming over you, admiring the way your chest rises and falls, the way your body responds to his touch. The intensity in his gaze makes your breath hitch, and when he leans down, his mouth pressing a slow, lingering kiss just above your breast, a soft moan slips past your lips.

His lips move lower, tracing the curve of your chest, before his tongue flicks against your nipple, the sensation sending sparks of pleasure through your body. His hand squeezes your waist as his mouth teases your sensitive skin, and you can’t help but arch into him again, hips rolling into him, your hands tangling in his hair, pulling him closer.

"Please," you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper, but the desperation in your tone is clear.

Quinn doesn’t need any more encouragement. He pulls back just long enough to yank off his own shirt, his body pressed flush against yours as he returns to kissing his way down your chest, his hands everywhere — exploring, caressing, teasing. His lips find your other breast, and the warm flick of his tongue sends another surge of pleasure through you. Your back arches off the couch as his mouth lavishes attention on your sensitive skin, drawing out gasps and sighs that fill the quiet room.

Every touch, every kiss, is deliberate, and laced with an urgency that you feel building in the way his hands grip you tighter, the way his breath stops with each moan you let out.

His knee presses more firmly between your thighs, adding pressure where you need it most, and you can’t help the way your hips rock against him, searching for more friction.

A low groan rumbles in his chest, and his lips brush your throat before pressing a lingering kiss there. "So pretty, baby," his voice drops, soft and reverent. His hands move over your body slowly, like he’s committing every inch of you to memory, the words still hanging between you as his eyes sweep over you with unmistakable adoration.

You’re barely able to form coherent words, your body reacting instinctively to every movement he makes. His hands glide down your sides, fingertips teasing the waistband of your pants.

Without a word, Quinn pauses, his eyes meeting yours. There's a silent exchange between you that speaks volumes — there’s no need for words. You can feel the care in his touch, in the way he lingers, waiting for a signal. And with a slight shift of your body, you lean into him, a silent invitation.

Quinn’s hands move with purpose now, slowly tugging down your pants and discarding them onto the floor. He pauses, taking in the sight of you laid bare before him, and the intensity in his eyes makes you feel like the only person in the world. His hands return to your waist, sliding down your hips, and the heat of his touch is almost too much to bear.

His fingers trace the inside of your thighs, the sensation making you shiver, antsy with anticipation. You let out a quiet moan as his hand moves higher, brushing against your most sensitive spot, and the friction sends a wave of pleasure crashing over you. Your breath catches, and you can’t help but buck your hips into his touch, silently begging for more.

"You drive me crazy," he murmurs, as his fingers continue their slow, teasing exploration, every stroke sending you spiraling higher. His lips find yours again, kissing you deeply, passionately, as his hand works to unravel you piece by piece.

You feel the tension building in your core, every nerve alight as Quinn’s touch pushes you closer and closer to the edge. His fingers move with practiced precision, his lips never leaving yours, and soon, the heat pooling in your stomach becomes unbearable.

"Baby," you gasp, your body trembling beneath him as the intensity of his touch overwhelms you.

And then, with one final stroke, you fall over the edge, your body shuddering as a wave of pleasure crashes through you. You moan his name softly, your grip tightening on his shoulders as you ride out the wave, your body quivering beneath his.

Quinn holds you through it, his touch gentle, soothing, as he presses soft kisses to your forehead, your cheeks, your lips. His forehead rests against yours as you catch your breath, his breathing just as ragged as yours.

For a moment, neither of you say anything, the quiet of the room filled only by the sound of your breathing, the warmth of his body still pressed against yours. You’re both tangled together, his hands resting on your waist, fingers gently stroking your skin as you slowly come down from the high.

The world beyond ceases to exist, and all that matters is the feeling of his body on yours, his hands on your skin, and the overwhelming feeling of being wanted.

With an exhale, you fall into the moment, knowing that this is where the real affection lies — the kind that’s not for show, not for anyone else, but just for you.

[joosthead]

touch tank || j.k. f!reader

WARNING #1: explicit real person fiction ahead, dni if below 18. dni if anti-rpf

WARNING #2: explicit rpf/real person fiction content ahead. read at your own risk. dni if anti rpf, dni or read ahead if you simply don’t like rpf lol

₊˚⊹⋆ prompt(s): 16S) the classic “oh, let me help you put some sunscreen on” but then the little massage turns into something more

part 2 of just too soft for all of it — this is a standalone fic but both of these are set in the same universe if you want some more : )

₊˚⊹⋆ reader: f!reader, gets referred to as joost’s girlfriend. notfamous!reader. if you are a person who does not tan/burns—pretend that you can tan easily for this fic😭 exploration into joost and normal!reader’s dynamic. little bit opposite aesthetic reader

₊˚⊹⋆ word count: 7.7k

₊˚⊹⋆ cw: smut (oily massage, f!receiving oral+eating from back, unprotected piv, outdoors [but still private] sex, creampie), perfect world w perfect temperatures and pools, quite sappy lol didn’t know i could top jtsfaoi but here we are, google translate dutch. note: ice lolly/popsicle in mind. yes this is important. idk if they have these in nl but they do now < 3

WARNING #3: rpf ahead—don't like it, don't read it. do not repost this on any other platform, screenshots or text alike. do not click ahead if you don’t want to read rpf. do not interact if you are below 18. how to block tags/words on tumblr.

₊˚⊹⋆ track(s) of the fic: “touch tank” by quinnie, “love is strange” by mickey & sylvia, “pink in the night” by mitski

₊˚⊹⋆ junote: i really wanted to combine this with prompt 14 but i couldn't make it work : ( i do have requests for that that i’ll fulfill so stay tuned teehee !! sorry this took so long, i am a perfectionist and absolutely adore this prompt so—here you guys go !! enjoy : 3

₊˚⊹⋆translation: "Kun je me hier voelen, diep in je?" - "Can you feel me here, deep in you?"

18+ only — explicit rpf content ahead, minors dni, anti rpf dni. 4th and final warning!

Because your life is so perfect, the day after your meltdown and subsequent putting back together (courtesy of Joost), your area gets hit with the worst heatwave of the summer. 

You guess that this is some cruel tactic of the universe to make its stars align for you in any way it can. The unbearable beams of sunlight beaming down upon you the moment you exit Joost and your shared home into the backyard. “Are you sure we should have a day outside?” you call back behind you, putting on your sunglasses. “Shouldn’t we just chill inside and watch something?” 

Joost comes up behind you, arm snaking around your waist, lips planted on your cheek in a second. “Some sunlight will be very good for you, you’re always holed up in the office or library,” he mumbles into your shoulder, covered by the baby-blue cotton fabric of one of his button ups. “You can bear it.”

You shake your head, but keep walking forward down the steps anyways, sandals slapping against the small wood deck. “I think the heat might kill me.” 

“It won’t—I won't let it!” Joost exclaims proudly, letting you go and going ahead of you. Even without seeing his face, you know how big of a smile he’s got on his lips. 

The pool sloshes on its own, the aqua blue water spilling over the sides and darkening the gray pavement next to it. On one of your loungers, Joost sets down the tote bag he prepared of towels, sunscreen, the change of clothes you’ll wear when you go back inside. You woke up to it this morning, along with a butcher paper wrapped breakfast sandwich and a glass of water. A text accompanied it—he would be out back, taking the cover off the pool and setting everything up. 

Usually, you're the one setting everything up, preferring to have it your own specific way, but—you chose peace last night, going straight to bed after taking that bath together  After these few years together, Joost may not be as Type A as you, but he can certainly hold his own now around the household. 

Your backyard is a quaint sight: the fence lined with various flower bushes, clean cut grass all around. A tree stands in the corner, roots surrounded by a ring of decorative rocks and pink carnations—there isn’t much either of you have done to upkeep any of it, but somehow, they bloom year after year. Your loungers are baby blue, covered in the towels that Joost has set out, the tote bag spilling over on the left one. 

It's almost like you’ve taken an outing to the beach and you're not in the little old house you’ve lived in for the past few years. Any day with Joost is that extravagant, he makes it that way. Already, you can relax, your shoulders lowering as you sit down on the edge of your lounger and watch as Joost squats, running his fingers along the surface of the water in silence. 

Low on his hips, Joost’s swim trunks are black and needlessly designer, just the way he likes them. He’s shirtless, the expanse of his back to you—his own name is tattooed on his right shoulder in some sans-serif script he must’ve liked before he ever met you, and in this sunlight, you wish in secret to see your own next to it.  

“You’re staring, lieverd,” Joost remarks over his shoulder, giving the water one final splash as he stands up and you smile. 

“How could I not?”

“I’m just too beautiful, aren’t I?” He comes over to you, standing in front of you and shielding you from the sun. “You ready to get in the pool?” 

Behind your sunglasses, you squint up at him and nod. “Put on some music and I’ll go.”

Goofy as always, he salutes to you and marches away like some Supreme swim trunk clad soldier. As he sets up the speaker on the far side of the pool, you unbutton your shirt, get ready to slip off your flip flops, but in your pocket, your phone vibrates. 

You check it—it’s an email from your supervisor, asking you to look over a few files for her. Regardless of your big day out taking up your time…it’s a Saturday. And yet you still find yourself about to respond, about to start typing when Joost places his big hand over your phone screen, saying, “We can look at that later, yeah?” Your grip on the phone loosens; he’s right, you can look at that later. There’s still a part of you that wants to reply, scared of what the consequences will be if you don’t, but—“Today will be great.” Taking your face in his hands, he presses a kiss to your forehead. “Come, now.” 

You stand up and he slips off your button up for you, dropping it on the deck chair. You adjust the strings of your bikini; white and blue and flowery, patterned like a delicate porcelain vase, so pretty on you and Joost tells you such.

Turning to him, you hold your hands out to the side, showing yourself off. Joost’s hand comes up to your collarbone to fidget with the matching necklaces you both have that you wear now—pearl pendants in dainty silver cages attached to short chains and these green and tarnished (“well-loved,” Joost calls them) old halves of a “BEST FRIENDS FOREVER” heart-shaped necklace from a Claire’s you both visited on a trip to America. He wears them both today, too, chains intertwined and tangled as always. 

“Do you realize how pretty you are? Zo mooi mijn liefste,” Joost says, taking your hand and twirling you around for a better look—he wolf whistles, and it makes you laugh, cheeks warming with his eyes on you. 

“With how much you tell me, I think I’m starting to realize it.” 

“Very glad,” he says, pulling you in for a kiss on the cheek. “I’ll tell you more then.” 

Grinning, you pull away and make for the pool steps, but not before Joost taps you on the ass; you act scandalized, dropping your mouth open, narrowing your eyes at him, but it’s lighthearted, and just makes you want to finish what you started last night. “Smokeshow!” he whisper yells through his cupped hands around his mouth as you walk forward and to the side of the pool—it’s still morning, and your neighbours are weird about noise. This is his version of being considerate of that. Too bad for them that you moved Joost Klein into your once quiet home. 

Dipping a toe into the water, you immediately suck in a breath through your teeth at how cold it is. Even with the tarp and the sun shining down upon it for hours, the water still nips at your skin, something in your brain perceiving it to be freezing and impossible to step into. “Ew,” you mutter, and Joost snickers from behind you. 

“Baby can’t handle it?” he teases. 

“Not true,” you mumble, going down the second step, ankle deep, and immediately scrambling out of the water. “Jesus Christ, what the fuck?” 

“You’re surprised that water is supposed to be cool?” 

“It’s not supposed to be that cool.” 

“Come here.” You turn around, walk right up to him. Even without shoes, you still have to look up at Joost, and he smiles right down at you—you know that’s going to happen. “C’mon. Jump, schatje,” he says, tapping the backs of your thighs, so you do—he can carry you with ease, all the times he’s brought you upstairs this way, all the drunken piggybacks he’s given you. You wrap your arms around his neck, wrap your legs around him tightly, while he has his hands under your ass. “Good, baby.” 

He takes the opportunity to press a kiss to your neck, then starts forward down the pool steps, slowly so you can adjust. “Agh!” you yelp softly as he moves further into the pool, the cold water coming up around your body, engulfing you. The temperature is a shock to your system, though the way it cools your hot skin is so, so welcome. It isn’t as cold like this. 

“Is it okay?” 

“I’m okay,” you say, though you hug him closer to get any sort of warmth on you. 

“Are you sure?” he laughs, and you nod, still clinging onto him like a little bear. “You’re so cute. I think I deserve a kiss for that.” 

“One for carrying me,” you say, kissing him on his soft lips. “Another for setting all of this up.” You kiss him again, and Joost deepens it, somehow squeezing your body even tighter to his, tongue teasing at your mouth as he squeezes your ass, as you rest your hands on his chest.  “Have we ever done it in a pool?” you ask once you pull away. 

“Never.” Joost gives you one last peck, one last kiss on the jaw as he smiles at you. “Do you think today is the day?”

“Maybe. We’ll see.” 

—

After around an hour of wading around—you’ve both decided that today is not the day to do it in a pool. It’s too hot, even with the cold water you’re situated in. Not even your house or the tree in the corner of the yard provides good shade for the water as the day gets later, the sun beating down on your shoulders; it would turn into a burn if you were that unlucky, but you, however, are not. 

In the morning when you first stepped out, the pool was still shaded and you and Joost could do whatever you wanted: breath holding contests, Joost trying (and failing) to do a handstand underwater, racing each other across and back several times like this was some backyard Olympics. After a bit, you floated on your backs together, laughing about what the water feels like in your ears, laughing about how terrible he is at floating. Finally, you felt all of the worries from the past month melt away and into the water as you gazed up at the blue sky above you. 

You heard it before it came—Joost swiping the surface of the water, making a large splash that drenched your face as you floated. You exclaimed, “You dick!” and freed yourself from your float to splash him back in the face hard, then he feigned the hurt and sorrow that fills one’s heart after chlorine fills their waterlines, rubbing at his eyes—you weren’t not going to come over and dote on him, but then he splashed you back as you looked over his red eyes, and it made you splash him back even more. 

Noise be damned, you were both laughing and shrieking and splashing for around an hour—in the midst of your splash war, you noticed how pink Joost’s shoulders were, the beginnings of a nasty sunburn afoot with the afternoon sun shining down on both of you. You shooed him out of the pool and into the refuge of the umbrella covering your lounge chairs, and started to rummage in the bag before he sprung up from his seat. 

“Wait, wait, wait! Before I forget—” Joost exclaims, running back up the stairs and into your house. A minute or two passes, and he comes back with his hands behind his back, closing the sliding door shut with his foot. In front of him, he holds out a twin popsicle—two sticks encapsulated by sweet red syrup and already melting in its package. “Ijslolly!” He presents it to you as he comes down the stairs, then bows to you deeply and dramatically, which makes you laugh. “Here you go, m’lady,” he says, then tips his imaginary fedora to you because. Because of course he would—anyone else, it would make you cringe, but it’s Joost. Perfectly goofy, perfectly sweet, perfectly Joost. 

You laugh as he opens the wrapper and splits the popsicle in two—one for him, one for you. “Thank you, kind sir,” you giggle, playing along. “Where’d you even get this?” you ask, taking your half and licking at the melting syrup already dripping onto your hand. 

“I went to the store while you were sleeping,” Joost says proudly, biting into the popsicle. “It’s strawberry, do you like?” 

Walking forward, you nod and get up on your tiptoes to give him a kiss. “I love.” 

He beams at you, sits down, chomps at his popsicle while you eat yours; he puts his hat and sunglasses back on and you do the same, and you sit together as the music plays for you. 

A new Charli xcx song, Joost and Käärijä’s recent collaboration, an incredibly sexual recent Ski Aggu release that you make a note of texting him “???” about later. 

Before you know it, you’re left with a red-stained stick, a red-stained mouth, a satisfied sweet tooth. “Okay, Joosty. Sunscreen time.” He gives you an exaggerated grumble but sits down at the edge of the lounger nonetheless, and you stand between his legs, taking the sunscreen from behind him and uncapping it. “You need it more than I do.” 

“Shush,” he says, but lets you take out two fingers worth of sunscreen, lets you take off his sunglasses and spread the sunscreen on his cheeks, rubbing it in. You can’t resist him and his pretty face, dusted pink cheeks, ocean blue eyes looking up at you through long blonde eyelashes. 

You’re so distracted by his face that you don’t pay attention to where you’re going—“Oops,” you giggle. “I got sunscreen on your mustache.”

“Oops,” he repeats. “I don’t mind.”

Hands on the backs of your thighs, Joost pulls you close by them and presses a kiss to your stomach, then hugs you tight around your waist. Automatically, your hands come up to play with his hair, combing your fingers through the strands. “All of your sunscreen is going on my stomach, Joost.” 

“Don’t care. You think if I lay out in the sun for long enough, it’ll bleach my hair more?” 

You snicker, “The heat will singe you to pieces before it can even bleach your hair.”

Sighing, he presses another kiss to your stomach. “You’re lucky. You get to tan today.”

“I ran out of my oil in Cuba, Joosty, I can’t.” A couple’s vacation with Appie and Alanis in Havana, feels like so long ago even though it’s only been two months. Fruity cocktails on the beach (and in your hotel room, and at the bar, and in the club, and…), running down hallways, fussing over Joost’s sunburned cheeks, Joost ogling you sunbathing but unable to do anything out of respect for your friends right next to you. You should have picked up another tub, but you weren’t exactly expecting to be tanning back in Amsterdam anyways. 

“You can't, or you won't? Look in the bag,” Joost mumbles into your tummy. You lean over behind him and reach into the tote—most of the other things have already spilled out and onto the lounger behind him: your sunglasses, two droom groot caps, the wrapper of your popsicle, a cheap film camera, and…a brand new tub of coconut oil. Your favourite brand. He must’ve picked it up on his trip to the store this morning, and you laugh, “You're so sweet.” 

“Mm-mm,” Joost hums. “That’s you, lieverd. You should lie down, I’ll put the oil so you can tan your back.”

Cocking an eyebrow at him, you snort, “Feels like you have something up your sleeve, Klein.”

He grins a toothy smile up at you—“Maybe I do.”

Joost gets up and moves all of the things to the other lounger, allowing you to lie on it on your stomach. You wiggle around a little on it, settling into the soft cushion, your back already stretching with your position. 

“I will be a great masseuse, schatje, don’t you worry. “ Careful not to put too much weight on you, Joost straddles the backs of your thighs. 

“Should I be worried?”

“No.”

“I feel like I should be worried.”

“Don’t be.” From behind you, he gets up, and you turn around to see what he’s doing—he gets your/his button up from the other chair and slips it on. “No more burning today for me.” 

You nod as he settles back on you, and you hear the sound of your little coconut oil tub being opened, the safety seal being ripped off, the clicking of his tongue at it ripping off unevenly. The air is a comfortable blanket of warmth upon you now, your worries melting away with it as you wait for Joost. 

“Can you untie the string around my back?” you ask before you forget. 

A few beats of silence pass until Joost finally says—“What?” 

“Is there a problem?”

“Why untie?” 

Joost’s voice has deepened an octave—almost grave, the tone of his voice is, because all of the possibilities in his mind floating around. Just your bare back and its expanse in front of him.

“I don’t want a tan line,” you explain. “Untie it and I won’t get one.” 

“Okay,” he affirms, though sounding uneasy as he undoes the tight strings of your halter top, the strings around your torso. He swipes them out of his way, and you assume the pause in his movement is to dip his fingers in the coconut oil and warm it up for you. 

Your assumption is right. In a minute or so, Joost’s big hands smooth across your back, firm yet gentle—he knows exactly how to handle you. The oil provides a lovely glide for his palms against your skin, and it smells so great; the pressure he’s applying is perfect on you, and you let out a little mewl of pleasure. The knots in your back are melting away with every swipe of his hands across it and you have to ask—“Where’d you learn to give such a great massage, Joost?”

“A magician never reveals his secrets.” 

Even if you tried, you couldn’t deduce how he learned to do this; maybe you’re just super tired from the last month (very likely) or he was a masseuse in his past life, but you’re already less tense with his hands on you. He digs his thumbs into the small of your back and rubs circles into it as you sigh in contentment at how it feels.

“I like this song,” Joost mumbles as it changes to this one you found years ago, some song about baby blue shirts, how pretty he looks going down on you.

“Mhm,” you hum.

“Seems very appropriate for the situation, right?” Eyes closed, you smile with his fingertips hovering just above your skin, a pause now in his treatment for you. “Can I…you know…” with his finger, Joost writes a small J, one, two, three times, on your back and sliding with the oil waiting for your response. 

“Massage me for a little more, I’ll think about it.”

“Fine,” he breathes, then gets back to work. 

Joost smoothes his hands over your back muscles; first over the top, over your trapezius, then up to your shoulders. He pinches a little around the shoulders, gliding over the smooth skin there. Hands sticky with oil, the solid melts with the sun-warmed dip of your spine, the valley of your back before him. The dip is perfect to smell, perfect to kiss; perfect to put a light hand on in public and a harsher grip on in private. With every movement of his hands, it smells more like coconut, smells less like you, and Joost has to resist the urge to bend down and nose at it to get your scent back. Every movement is accompanied by a little—a little breath. A little happy sigh from you, and it makes him go insane with every press of his hands against you. 

You’re much more refined than he is, more able to keep it together; if Joost was in your position, he knows he’d be a mess under you, quick and fast and easy. You’re his favourite person—the wave of your hand could bring him to his knees. Taking care of you comes so easily to him, even if he’s so commonly doted upon by other people. This feeling—no wonder you like taking care of him as much as you do. 

Today is so happy, a day that’ll get him through weeks and shows to come without you, long days on the tour bus wishing you could be by his side. Joost got through yesterday, his flight, the ride home using the prospect of you, seeing you, to get by. Then he got home, and seeing you was all he could look forward to after being away for what felt like forever, and he finally did, and he was so overjoyed and then—then you were crying, and he felt so sad that all he could do was hold you. He wants badly to understand why. 

“Can I ask…can I ask why you cried yesterday, lieverd?” Joost adds in a soft voice, still running his hands firmly over your sore muscles, “It’s okay if you don’t want to talk about it right now, I understand. But I’d like to know sometime, so we can help you feel better.”

You’ve known since the moment you started crying that you’d have to talk about it sometime. Sharing everything with each other is the way your relationship is, how it always has been—you thought about it in the bath with him, his chest against your back, deep and tired voice reverberating with it. How to word it as he played the first track on the new album, so crazy experimental and unlike anything you’ve ever heard from him before. Thought about it in the pool, thinking about it now. 

“I just…I’m probably the most mundane part of your life. There’s this little voice in my head, maybe it’s what I think people are saying about me—‘You’re telling me Joost Klein couldn’t find someone more interesting?’” You think back to an offhand Tweet you saw come up on your timeline, 10 angry quote tweets already defending you, no likes, but it still sticks to the back of your mind like some aggravating super glue: “‘His girlfriend doesn’t even do music or anything special and she still can't show up for him.’ I don’t travel like you do, I’m not always making music or doing things. And still, I couldn’t be there for you. 

I watch you at your shows and you’re this…enigma, you’re amazing. I want to be as good as you, I wanna show you off like you show me off. But there’s always something in the way. My schedule, or university, or work.” It’s truly difficult now not to feel like you overshared, dumped something on him that maybe you weren’t prepared to dump on him—a cloud shadows the sun, just at the right moment, and the parts of your skin not already touched by the umbrella’s shade are cooled momentarily. “Or maybe I’m just not trying hard enough for you.”

“I’m not flashy,” you say softly, settling on your forearms. “My way of being flashy is the way I love you, and I don’t know if I’ll ever think it compares to how you do it. I feel bad, that’s all. Like I could be doing more for you in every way.” Whatever it is, whether or not you were prepared to say it—it’s out now. “‘Cause you deserve it, you always do.” Blindly, you reach behind you and hold your hand out for him to hold, and he does, squeezing it tightly. Your cheeks warm, and it’s certainly not because of the temperature outside anymore. “I’m sorry I killed the vibe.” 

From behind you, you hear a sniffle, and you raise your head and look back, alarmed. Joost wipes a tear away with his other hand, laughs a sniffly laugh as you laugh, “Joooost. You’re gonna make me cry.”

“No, no, no vibe killing in this house.” You crane your head back again, pursing your lips, and he leans forward so he can kiss you, then peppers kisses until your shoulder, mumbling, “I should be comforting you, lieverd.”

“It’s okay,” you say softly. “Don’t really need to be comforted, just need to get it through my head that it’s not like that. I’m just sad that you’re sad.” 

Joost rubs your back, though it seems like he needs that more than you do if you’re judging by his sniffles and wavery voice alone. “I never knew you felt that way.”

He wraps his arms around your torso, hugging you close and continues, “If it’s any consolation, which I hope it is—you could never be careless. You set out my favourite sleep clothes for when I got back, favourite snacks, plushies on the bed, a place in the dresser for new stuff.” You have to admit—you were pretty proud of that last idea when you came up with it. “You’re thoughtful, and you’re kind, and I’m so lucky to have you. I love you, I love you. I love you.” 

With every “I love you” is a kiss upon your skin that you can’t see, but feel wholeheartedly anyways. “My muse, my saviour,” he says, and you have to laugh a little. “I mean it, you know I mean it.” And you do, you know it—how could you not when it comes from Joost? “You’re the most extraordinary part of my life, schat. Every show, your presence is there with me, even if you feel you aren’t.” 

“Not true,” you say, voice teasing. “That would be impossible, wouldn’t it?” 

You can feel the roll in his eyes from here, even though you can’t see it. “Yeah, yeah. But you know what I mean, right? Best friends forever, that’s what our necklaces say. Always there for each other. You’re always there with me.”

He kisses your shoulder. The oil is strange on his lips, but he doesn’t mind—it’s you. “Nothing compares to you, everything we have together…I hope you know how I feel now.” Pausing, Joost rests his forehead on the back of your head, breathes you in. “I’m obsessed with you, I think,” he whispers into the nape of your neck, then kisses it, and you laugh with the tickle of his lips, his facial hair against your sunwarmed skin. 

“You are? I didn’t know,” you tease, perking your ass up against Joost on top of you because—somewhere in your conversation, he’s gotten hard, and it’s poking against your thigh now, making you bite your lip. Stroking each other’s egos has gotten you both excited, it seems.  “What’s up with that, hm?” 

“You should know. I’m telling you right now, I’m obsessed with you. And this?” Joost grinds his crotch against you just lightly, kissing the side of your neck as he lowers his voice, “This, I like talking about you too much. You can’t blame me for it, you’re gorgeous.” 

“I don’t think I know how obsessed with me you are yet. Tell me more?” 

“Do I have to tell you, schat?” he says, gentle and low, fingering the delicate ties on your sides and the sensitive skin of your hips under them. His fingers drag down the column of your spine, tease at the edge of your bikini. “I don’t think I have to tell you, right? That I love you, need you?” 

“You don’t? Have to tell me?” 

“I’ll show you.” 

You imagine what he looks like behind you—burnt shoulders, rosy cheeks, dark sunglasses, chlorine dried blonde hair all messy and the tips dripping with water still upon the billowy cotton of his button up. Those blue eyes, blown out at the sight of you underneath him, wandering every lovely curve of your body. Slowly, he unravels the ties that hold both sides of your bottoms together, the nylon springing back against your skin, and you fight the urge to smile in anticipation of Joost all over you soon. 

“You don’t want any tan lines down here?” he asks, fingers already underneath the damp fabric of your swimsuit bottoms. You shake your head no. “Ok, then no tan lines.” 

Joost slips the fabric off of your skin; the dampness makes it cling to you still, though it’s easy enough to take off completely. You hike your leg up for easier access, turn your head so you can get a good look at him. In a sort of headband, his sunglasses are perched atop his head; the button up wrinkled and a bit stained with oil; rightfully, his eyes are half-lidded with want, his fingers fidgeting with the hem of his trunks.

“What do you want to do?” Teasing him, you run a finger down his bulge and he smiles at you. Truly, you haven’t a single idea about what Joost wants to do with you next, and it looks like he doesn’t either—until his eyes light up, and you figure that tugging gently at his trunks for him can help expedite the process.

“Can I try something?” 

“Go right ahead.” 

You lie in wait as Joost lowers his shorts, erection springing out and his hand coming to wrap around it and give it a few pumps—you reach behind, running a finger down the slit, and he sucks in a sharp breath through his teeth as he strokes himself, then settles his cock on the soft cleft of your ass and glides it against, between it. 

You laugh, “You’re such a dog, Joost,” but as he ruts gently against you—the little moans he’s doing in your ear, already rambling about how good you feel and he’s not even inside yet, one hand gripping your hip and keeping his cock in place and the other on the back of the lounger so he can keep his balance; this is your personal paradise. 

“Fuck,” Joost whispers, biting his lip. You love a show, and he’s ever the showman—but you’re outside, he’s outside, he’s very aware of your cranky old neighbours, and he loves you and your house. One day, you’ll share the lease together, so he tries and stays quiet for the sake of that dream, so you both won’t get kicked out for verbal indecency today. 

“I know how much you like it, Joost,” you purr from under him, voice muffled by your arms. “You can tell me.” 

From Joost’s point of view, you look like a line in his song, the notes in the margin crafting and tailoring the work to his perfect vision; you look like the fully realized final draft of something he’s been working on for months, trying to find the sound of for years. 

If he could write something about this moment, it would probably result in entire sagas, but for now—keeping you like this close to his chest is a gift only he has. 

“I can’t be eloquent like this,” he laughs, and you have to agree; whatever goes on in that head, he short circuits before he can say it in this state of pleasure. 

Joost pauses his small thrusts, catches his breath. “Go on,” you encourage, but he breathes a quiet, “No. If I go any more, I’ll cum early and that would be so lame, schat.” 

“Not lame. I would personally love to see it.” 

“Mm-mm. We are not doing that today,” he laughs, and the sound makes your heart warm. 

“Put it in,” you say softly, trying to convince him to keep going—it’s so cute how far gone he is already, how hard he’s trying for you. 

“No, no, no. Let me taste you first.”

You cannot argue with that. 

In an instant, you abandon your bikini top, abandon the bottoms too in a crumpled mess on the ground laying on your sandals and his flip flops. “Hands and knees, lieverd,” Joost says, and you follow his direction, settling so you’re on your elbows and your ass is hiked in the air. 

A few moments pass as Joost sits behind you, and you have to ask—“What are you waiting for?”

“Just enjoying the view,” he says, then gives a kiss to your ass cheek, making you giggle. “So impatient today, schat. Is it because I was gone for so long?” Joost moves your knees so they’re spread even wider, giving him more access to you. “How much did you miss me?” A kiss to the back of your thigh, right near your center, your stomach caving in with the deep breath you take in anticipation. 

“I missed you a lot,” you whisper, looking back at him focusing his dilated eyes on your pussy, and your cheeks grow hot at the sight. “Missed you more than you know.”

“Did you?” He licks a tentative stripe up your slit, up even higher over your hole—so sensitive, your knees could shake with only the tip of his tongue teasing you. “Show me, let me hear it, lieverd.” 

“Joost,” you scold, though your arching back reveals your true feelings about what he’s doing.

“Sorry, can’t resist.” He presses a kiss atop it before coming back to your pussy.

So exposed, so vulnerable, so open, Joost’s fingers parting your folds. He spreads them gently so you’re even more open to him and licks in between, drinking from you. The smacking of his lips against you—it’s filthy. You’re so cognizant of the sound; is it unmistakable from outside, Joost’s tongue flicking against your clit, his fingers rubbing circles on where he can’t reach? You hope the sounds of the city outside your flat cover the mewls that spill out of you as he lays his tongue flat against it and laps up your wetness. 

“I think we should get you more tan in the front, too, right, schatje?” Joost says, breathless, and you flip over, laying on your back for him. Before he can get back to business, you cup his chin, pinching it gently between your fingers. His lips are covered in your wetness, glistening with it in the sunlight. You pull him to you, bringing his lips to yours, the salty taste of yourself on your tastebuds, on your chin as well now. 

This all makes you realize—you weren’t wrong at all for missing him so terribly. 

When you pull away, Joost pauses, gazing at your face, brushing your hair out of your eyes. On top of you, lying partly on you, he cups your cheek, silver chain resting on your chest, the pearl pendants and the halves of one heart of the matching necklaces you own together right next to each other. 

“Zo mooi,” he says quietly as he lowers down, kissing your chest right next to your pendants, kissing down between the valley of your breasts, maneuvering so he can graze your nipple with his teeth, flatten his tongue over it. His hand comes up to cup your other breast as he sucks at the bud, then sucks at the skin next to it; that will leave a mark tomorrow, a sweet reminder of your time together. 

Finally, he’s satisfied with his work on you and starts down your body, kissing your stomach, your hips. Before you can even process it, he folds you in half, hands on the backs of your knees; licks one long stripe through your folds, then attaches his lips around your clit, sucking it, forcing a loud and choked moan out of your mouth as he alternates between licking hard at your bud with the tip of his tongue and sucking.

Joost is a fiend for it, devilish look in his eyes, smile on his mouth even when it’s pressed up so close against you—his fingers tease at your dripping wet hole, then his middle fingers are inside you, and then he’s there to the knuckle and petting at your g-spot incessantly. 

Joost knows you inside and out; can already tell that your pretty hands resting on the back of his head and holding him there will result in your fingers tangled in his hair and tugging lightly; knows that a few more seconds of his curling fingers and his tongue on you will make you try and push against his hand still holding you open with your thigh, you’ll fail to do so, and be happier for it. 

You’re too lost in your pleasure to look at him like he wants you to. No matter—you’re a beautiful sight coming undone for him, eyes closed, chest heaving with your breaths, a slight sheen to your skin. “Joost,” you sob quietly as he continues pumping his fingers in and out of you, continuing to lap at your pussy like he’s trying to quench an unquenchable thirst. 

“Mhm? Do you like it, schat?” Joost says against you, the vibrations of his deep voice making you twitch. You nod, and there it is—he pauses to smile when he realizes you're holding his head in its place, burying his face in your center. Who is he not to give you what you want? He drinks you in, and it makes you moan louder. “Keep quiet,” he mumbles. “We wouldn’t want the neighbours to hear, now would we?” 

You’ve come back to reality enough to nod, quiet down a little, but after a few more seconds of him sucking your clit, pistoning his fingers in and out of you, you cum, saying his name over and over again, then whispering it once you realize that yes—you’re still outside. Joost presses one last sloppy kiss against your overstimulated bud, and you nudge his face away with your fingertips, laughing breathlessly. 

Joost laughs too as he settles his cheek on the inside of your thigh, peppering soft kisses to it as he gazes at you; the look in his eyes is so tender, you almost want to look away, but you don’t. You’d take a picture if it wasn’t so glaringly obvious what you were doing before. You cup his other cheek, and he nuzzles further into your thigh, eyes closed. 

For a few moments, you stay like this, catching your breaths, basking in the afterglow of your orgasm together. After a little, Joost wipes his mouth and his cheeks with the back of his hand. “Owie,” Joost winces, reaching back to rub over the spot on his head where you pulled on his hair. “You really enjoyed that, schatje,” he smiles, climbing up over you. 

“I'm sorry,” you say softly, putting your hand over his as he lies down on you, head on your chest. “I shouldn’t have tugged so hard.” 

“It’s okay, it was worth it.” You pet his hair—Joost is so warm, the air is so hot around you, but you’ve never felt better. “I’m so hard it hurts, schat,” he mumbles, and you laugh as he shifts around on top of you, erection through his shorts poking your thigh. 

“Let’s fix that?” 

“I thought you’d never ask.” 

With quickness, Joost is up and off of you, straightened on his knees and parting yours, but you sit up. Hooking your fingers on the waistband of his trunks, you pull them down slightly, pulling him in to kiss you as you pull them lower, letting his cock spring out as you kiss sloppily, strawberry stained tongues meeting. You wrap your hand around his thick shaft, run your thumb over his weeping pink tip to spread around the precum, which makes him groan into your mouth, makes your teeth knock together. 

You stroke him a few times, Joost’s hand resting at the base of your neck. It’s like time slows down when you pull away from him and watch him and his furrowed blonde brows, the way his lips are dropped open, the pink blush of his skin creeping down his neck to his chest with all of this exertion. 

Joost opens his eyes, catching you gazing at him intently, and he brings his forehead to yours as you keep jerking him, and holds your face in his hands. “Catch me if I fall?” he asks, and you laugh. 

“So dramatic.”

“You don't even know, dude.” A few more kiss-filled seconds pass until Joost finally calls it—“Enough, baby, I need to be inside of you now, please.” 

Nodding, you lie back, opening your legs for him. He sits back, stroking himself. “No crying today, hm, schat?” Joost says as he takes his place between your legs. “No crying unless it’s out of pleasure, of course. Or if you want to cry out of sadness, that’s okay, too.” 

“I’ll take note of that, thanks,” you smile as Joost lines up with your entrance, lying over you. You slip your hands underneath his shirt, fingers running over Rayquaza, his skin piping hot on yours. The pool still sloshes, the sun is much higher, he's inching his cock inside of you and saying something in Dutch that sounds like whatever is equivalent to “fucking Christ,” his face screwed up in pleasure. 

“So warm,” Joost practically whimpers, and you both know that he certainly didn’t mean to say that in such a whiny tone. “So warm,” you laugh, making an exaggerated moan to tease him as he covers his face with his hands and laughs with you. 

“Shut uppp.” Another inch inside you, so deep. “I wish you could feel how it feels, it’d change your life.” Every vein and ridge on his cock, you can feel as you envelop him fully. “You changed mine,“ he says, and it makes your heart soar. “Over/under, 3 minutes, schat?” 

“Under. Over/under 30 seconds?” 

“Under. Maybe. Jesus fuck, you feel so good,” he laughs, breathless. “So tight, you’re amazing.” Joost goes silent as he fully bottoms out in you, but a few moments pass, and he states like he’s been thinking of it the entire time, “Lowkey, I wish we had one of those squeeze bottles,” he makes a disturbingly good squeeze bottle sound with his mouth, “Pfft-pfft. We could be oiled up super quick if we did. Maybe for next time I give you a massage.” 

You give him a puzzled, amused look—you know him like the back of your hand, but where his mind wanders sometimes, you aren’t sure. “I just don’t know,” you laugh. “Maybe we can workshop that idea.” Joost grinds himself against your clit, and you moan into his mouth as he comes down and kisses you. 

Joost fucks you like you both have all the time in the day to be here—as far as either of you are concerned, you do. Long, languid thrusts that you both watch as his cock disappears inside of you, his thumb rubbing gentle circles on your clit. The wet, hollow slaps of his hips against your ass are filthy music to your ears; you pant into each other’s mouths, close enough to touch, but not wanting to for the sake of watching each other, eyes open. 

You snake your arms around his neck, bringing him closer as his thrusts become shallower, quicker, erratic, punching into your g-spot. Without warning, Joost straightens up, exiting you fully, then lifts your hips up to meet him where he is, his shaft rubbing against your clit. 

“Ik hou van je, lieverd."

“Ik hou van je, Joost, I love you so much.” 

Joost’s face lights up then melts once he hears you speak Dutch—it’s so cute, like a little surprise for him even though you try to speak it with him regularly. Since it’s easier for you to express yourself in English, he'd rather you just speak Dutch at work and school like you already do, but the excitement in his expression when you do speak it is priceless. 

He sinks inside you once more, a loud shared moan between you two; this angle allows him to be deeper inside you than before. You tighten around him, and he sighs in pleasure. Joost splays his fingers out on your belly. “Kun je me hier voelen, diep in je?” 

“Ja, je voelt je zo goed, schat,” you breathe. Your praises seem to incense him to thrust into you firmly, out, in, out, in, sloppy, though you can’t blame him. Still, the head of his cock hits your spot with every seat of himself in you. He smoothes his tattooed hand over your chest, your erratic heartbeat probably felt through to his palm; he moves up to put his thumb in your mouth, and eagerly, you suck as he fucks you. Anything to quiet yourself, anything to have more of him inside of you. “I’m close, Joost,” you say once he moves his hand to your shoulder for leverage. 

Nodding, he says, “Me too,” keeping the pace, smearing more of your wetness over your clit so his fingers slide over it better as he rubs it for you.  

A few more reckless thrusts, your arms flying up around his neck for support, lips catching each other’s, swallowing each other’s moans. That familiar tugging feeling in your stomach grows and grows until you can’t ignore it anymore, your core tightening, your pussy tightening around him as you gasp out his name over and over again with your climax, and he gasps out yours. He’s not finished yet, but his hips have lost the rhythm they once had, his control over his impending orgasm with how you’ve constricted around him. 

“Schat, hold on for me a little.” 

“I should be telling you that,” you say, though you understand—the overstimulation of his cock dragging against your insides is getting to be a lot. You hug him close, your lips right next to his ear, his panting breaths right in yours as he ruts into you. “Cum inside me, Joost,” you whisper, and with one last deep thrust inside of you, he cums with a groan, with a breathy moan of your name, clutching your body tightly in his hands as he shoots inside of you, cock pulsing; so warm, being filled up like this, no space between you two, his stuttering hips fucking back into you for a few final thrusts.

In each other’s arms you lie there, panting—sweaty skin on sweaty skin, music still playing from the speaker, him softening inside of you. Joost kisses you deeply, kisses your cheeks, your chin, and you smile. “You are everything I’ve ever wanted and more, schat,” he says into the side of your neck. “Don't forget that.” 

thank you so much for reading! likes, comments, reblogs always so so appreciated <3 : ) - juno

[antiendofictives]

yay!! also i feel like i should tell yall im in the same system as quinny n 🌺anon.

we share a brain. its a very loud one lol. thank you for being a safe space for us

-Ghostie

ooh, that's cool! And no problem! We aim to be a safe space for all anti endos! ^_^

[wellgoslowly]

what are songs you think the trio associates with each other. (example of lucy thinks of lockwood when blah plays and thinks of george when blah plays)

OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS QUESTION !!!!

I went a bit overboard but here are the ones I chose!!

SONGS I THINK THAT LUCY ASSOCIATES WITH THE BOYS:

the good side by troye sivan

south london forever by florence + the machine

friends by laundry day

to build a home by the cinematic orchestra

SONGS I THINK THAT LUCY ASSOCIATES WITH LOCKWOOD:

baby you're a haunted house by gerard way

everybody loves me by one republic

end of beginning by djo

it's called: freefall by rainbow kitten surprise

touch tank by quinnie

grapejuice by harry styles

telephone by waterparks

eat your young by hozier

voulez-vouz by abba

this charming man by the smiths

SONGS I THINK THAT LUCY ASSOCIATES WITH GEORGE:

george by lowertown

all my ghosts by lizzie mcalpine

mad iqs by I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

good old fashioned lover boy by queen

boys will be bugs by cavetown

cocaine jesus by rainbow kitten surprise

everybody wants to rule the world by tears for fears

vienna by billy joel

glue song by beabadoobee

freaks by surf curse

SONGS I THINK THAT GEORGE ASSOCIATES WITH LUCY:

these boots are made for walking by nancy sinatra

champagne supernova by oasis

stronger by britney spears

new romantics by taylor swift

seventeen going under by sam fender

killer queen by queen

would that i by hozier

twin size mattress by the front bottoms

brutal by olivia rodrigo

bloody mary by lady gaga

SONGS I THINK THAT GEORGE ASSOCIATES WITH LOCKWOOD:

be nice to me by the front bottoms

team by lorde

R.I.P 2 my youth by the neighbourhood

cigarette daydreams by cage the elephant

little dark age by MGMT

trouble by valerie broussard

anti-hero by taylor swift

trouble by cage the elephant

applause by lady gaga

you're my best friend by queen

SONGS I THINK THAT LOCKWOOD ASSOCIATES WITH LUCY:

lucy lucy by betcha

maneater by nelly furtado

burning pile by mother mother

candy by robbie williams

sweet dreams, TN by the last shadow puppets

she's kerosene by the interrupters

volcano girls by veruca salt

don't take the money by bleachers

the adults are taking by the strokes

blue hair by tv girl

SONGS I THINK THAT LOCKWOOD ASSOCIATES WITH GEORGE:

best friend by conan gray

act my age by one direction

paper mache world by matilda mann

lifetime achievement award by lemon demon

the knife by maggie rodgers

soldier, poet, king by the oh hellos

orgasm of death by the growlers

how I survived bobby mackey's personal hell by lincoln

ghosting (live sessions) by mother mother

weird science by oingo boingo

I had so much fun with this tbh I love assigning songs to characters so it was really fun to do it through the eyes of other characters!!

[quinnysnursery]

Yk how I said I’m becoming a sturniolo girlie the other day?

It’s coming full force now. I had a DREAM with them in it where Chris was my cg for a bit and buying me toys in a store and he argued with a anti-agere Karen..

QUINNY HELP

-🐾

HEEELPPP I CAN'T SAVE YOU NOW

[quinnigallagherjones]

heartbreak high!

ahhh thank you anon !! 🫶🏻

my favourite female character: quinni (everyone pretends to be shocked hahaha)

my favourite male character: malakai !!!!! (i adore him and i hope he gets a happy ending in the final season)

my favourite book/season/etc: season 1 (i preferred the main storyline in s1 but there are elements of s2 that i really enjoy too)

my favourite episode (if it's a tv show): s1e6 (as much as it is a really sad episode i think it's so important and a great episode for autistic representation)

my favourite cast member: chloé hayden (once again everyone pretends to be shocked lmao)

my favourite ship: amerie and malakai (i do think they genuinely love each other they just both need time to grow)

a character i'd die defending: quinni, malakai, cash !!!!!!

a character i just can't sympathise with: spider (he still has a lot of work to do)

a character i grew to love: sasha (i really didn't like her in s1 but i can see a really good arc for her in the final season that hopefully she will get)

my anti otp: missy and spider (missy deserves better !!!! i said what i said !!!!!)

send me a show/movie/fandom !!