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as the resident Brit Bitch (british accent alter), i feel the need to say that no, i do not drink tea, and no, i do not eat beans on toast 😭😭😭 fuck that shit

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someone : *mentions a trigger*

our primary protector, filled with the rage of a thousand hornets :

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Also unpopular opinion, but I think looking at source material with the intention of "updating" your fictives to be more like their source is anti-recovery. Source separation is extremely important when it comes to healing- you and your system needs to realize that your fictives are not their source. Please let them exist as their own beings, not who they were in their source. I think it's worthwhile to not only accept them the way they were formed, but also allow them to grow in ways that work for them. So what if they are different than their source? I think that's a good thing.

PS- Im not talking about the times when a fictive automatically has a change. I mean when a system intentionally attempts to force it on their fictive. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't- either way, it's unhealthy.

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I think OSDDID is less formed by the type of trauma you endured, and more formed by the way you as a child coped with it. The window of tolerance is different for everybody. Someone who went through emotional abuse is just as valid as someone who went through sexual abuse, because it's very possible that the first person's window of tolerance could not handle the trauma. The main points of forming DID are dissociation and trauma. While most psychologists/psychiatrists believe you have to have some sort of physical/sexual trauma, I don't necessarily think that's true. There are many types of abuse (neglect, emotional, verbal, isolation, etc) that can cause extreme reactions.

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im always feeling so guilty. im sorry. im so sorry.

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i’ve been wondering lately why i survived and they didn’t.

it was nothing that they really did wrong, but it was also not really anything that i did right. it’s what i was born into, it’s the role they were assigned by the adults. and i hate that. i wish i could have saved them, or given them a better family to have been born into. i would give anything for them to have the love that i was given

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The amount of times we've written "(insert thing) 🤩(🤩🤩) (insert thing)" on this app is terrifying

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it's my birth month 🤩 let me die

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i just submitted music to write out loud 🤩 wish me luck guys im scared

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*at the alter store* uhhhh they're all out of normal guys

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Our alters don't necessarily do things differently but I can't tell you how many times someone has come out and spontaneously dyed our hair a different color because they wanted to look like themselves. we literally JUST dyed it pink like maybe two weeks ago and yesterday a bitch came out and now it's black 💀 (/lh /aff I call them bitch in a nice way)

i'm curious, how many people with DID like.. dress up as their alters? is that the right word? i mean it as in, wigs and stuff to make you look like more how you do in headspace, yk? i'm aware some parts in our system have different fashion styles from the host, including me. the host actually prefers Japanese Street Fashion/VKei while i just like.. casual clothes that aren't so overstimulating lmfao

(sowwy for the spam blogs)

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people who put "..." at the end of random shit annoy me like. how attention seeking can you get my guy 💀

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Lol we've rebranded

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Key for Tags

This is the best you're gonna get for introductions on this page :)

🌹- Parker; she/her; 17

🌌- Quinnie; any pronouns; 18

🏳️‍- Ana; she/her; 18

🏴- Mark; he/him; 40ish

♟️- Anon/other

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Trans places exist, kid hold on

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Reminder for the next 4 years:

If you know a queer person, don't tell anyone

If you know a trans person, don't tell anyone

If you know a African American person, don't tell anyone.

If you know a immigrant, don't tell anyone

If you know someone who voted blue, don't tell anyone.

Dont say a fucking word