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"You look like you've lost weight"
Oh???? My????? God?????? IT'S NOTICABLE?????? FUCKING FANTASTIC
Now I just have to keep going!
#that was the first thing my mother said to me today#I gave some nonsense excuse about having an apple watch again and trying to fill my rings even on my days off#I've got to think of reasons to tell her for this if it's already noticable#I can't SEE IT#but apparently she can#i wanna be weightless#ed no sheeran#ed not sheeran#tw ana shit#I don't think she would suspect... this#because my main tactic has been to only eat when someone else is also eating and/or give me the food#so I eat with my brother when he drags me out to lunch#and I eat dinner on my days off work#and if she hands me a tiny snack (often a couple pieces of cheese)#but never never never at work or when I get home from work at 11pm#So I'm doing 2-3 day fasts#and a lot of omad on the days I do eat#Saturdays off being the exception because of my brother; we drive up to cedar point and eat out twice#I honestly think this is a good way to do it too#because it feels MAINTAINABLE#it's really a very small tweak from my old habits#and the loss is still pretty fast. :)
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HOW DID YOU GET FROM BMI 22 TO BMI 14??????????
w these random diets that helped me lose like forty pounds :33
usual deficit - most of the time i have 300kcal on weekdays, 500kcal on sundays and 1200kcal on saturdays, which is reallyyyyy low so dont go straight into it if youre used to smth more ykwim
metab sandwich - 1200kcal plus on weekends, liquid fasts on weekdays !! defo dont do this one full time, five day fasts every week is unbearable i usually only do this for like two weeks when i need to drop weight fast
omad - i stand by pookie omad frfr its great when i dont wanna count cals but i dont wanna just fast either
low res - 1200kcal everyday :33 perfect for losing weight wo worrying people since its not rapid and its v easy to eat 'a normal amount' if you choose the right foods :D also great if you binge a lot :3
ALSO DRINK WATER OMFG HYDRATE
AND DONT OVERDO YOURSELF THAT NEVER WORKS TRUST
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Hey! Please can you give me your best tips for fastings and for fast weight loss?
Thank you 🥹🩷🩷
sure thing!! there’s far better ways to go abt fast wl but this is what’s worked for me!
i basically fast whenever i don’t need to eat; like days where im not tempted by anything or just laying around. i’ll go for as long as possible some times, but other days i stick to a 23:1 fast schedule that way i don’t binge after a longer fasting period.
DRINK WATER! literally the more water you drink the less hungry you will feel trust me, and if you’re fasting for long periods of time make sure you take a multivitamin and some salt!
fasting & omad (one meal a day) will make you lose weight regardless if you’re working out so don’t feel pressured to work out when fasting.
if you feel like doing more, go on walks! not a lot of effort and can take the mind off hunger
if you have any other specific questions just lmk! be safe! 🩷🩷
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this week will be so different.
i have a new plan.
i will wake up at 6, weigh in, and get ready for school
i found a way to skip breakfast and eat a tiny lunch without people finding out, so i will be able to do omad finally!
i will go to school and drink a lot of water to help focus
then, after school i will run for 2 hours
then i will shower and eat with my family
then i will do hw, go to bed, and repeat.
my main goal is to focus on just going through the motions and developing a routine. i want to get to the point where i'm in the cycle so that it will be harder for me to get off track.
i haven't weighed in for around a week, nor have i restricted at all or worked out.
so i'm expecting some pretty disappointing numbers at first
but that will quickly change.
i can drop 2 a day, so i will hopefully be around 12 less by next sunday.
i will update with how things went tomorrow!
wish me luckkkk
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How I got below 90lbs
I barely did any activities.
Most of the time im sitting or lying down
be as lazy as possible
Eat very healthy
take any and every excuse to skip eating
coffee a must every day
no carbonated drinks
no exercise. Especially no weight lifting
low protein diet. Lose that muscle mass
lots of fat. High cal and low volume allows flatter stomach 24/7
only exercise is walking but not alot
good sleep and enough sleep
stay hydrated
constantly body check for motivation
weigh day once a week first thing in the morning after bathroom
Do not do omad diet
no bingeing (duh)
no binge purging. Only ana. Mia is for fattys
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Not to trigger or anything girly but can you drop some tips and advice to lose w that really works? Dont be afraid to tw
Ok, here I go the best tips and the ones that have helped me the most to lose weight are doing omad every day, some days fasting but a maximum of 48 hours to avoid binge eating, if you eat more you have to purge and to have results you don't need Do a lot of exercise but you have to do at least 10k steps so go for a walk for 1 hour every day. To have a waist, wear a girdle all night (you can buy it at Shein ID: 11887050, this is the best) and do YouTube workouts to slim your thighs. The most essential thing is that you weigh yourself every morning to become obsessed with your weight and thus follow all these steps more easily. You can also use laxatives and watch thinspo on Pinterest to pass the time, try to find hobbies to not think about food and make time go by faster.
Hope this helps <3
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so a lil bout me if anyone wants to be moots: (i also have a backup in case i lose this acct, it’s the same username but the “e” in lethal is 3)
you 1,000% do not need to read all of this, however i truly think it is super helpful considering i was raised by a dietitian.
im pro-recovery JUST BY CHOICE NOT FORCE. so PLS JUST BLOCK DONT REPORT. we all have backups and backups for our backups. so it’s pointless. you’re breaking up a community where we get support. so fvck u if u report.
my “rexie tips n tricks” losing weight healthily yada yada yada is below the cut if you’re interested!
cw: 180lxs 81kg (i know it got out of hand 🥲)
gw: 130lxs 58kg (doing everything i can to get here by christmas)
ugw: not sure, just wanna see my b0nes. maybe 111lxs (50kg)? (gimme that angel number baybeee)
lw: 145lxs 65kg
so basically, if you do these things i can guarantee you 100% will lose weight. if you’ve plateaued, if you’re just starting out, if you’re trying to take it slow after relapsing, even if you’re petite and need a metab boost to start loosing lxs again, i’m not saying it’s good to be apart of this community but im along this ride w ya so. here u go.
1. keep your e@ting window as small as possible aka eat to live don’t live to eat (the r3xie motto 🤪). i’m f@sting minimum 16:8 and i try to extend that. but major thing is don’t beat yourself up if you can’t make it 16hrs and be happy the days you can make it longer!! esp if your just starting out.
2. stay low c@l. i’m trying my best to stay under 500 c@l/day. and consume that how it works for you. if five 100 c@l snacks over 8 hrs work best some days that’s ok. if OMAD works best, great! my mom is a dietitian and i promise, eating a little of each food group (dairy, carb ik scary, protein, veg & fruit) will help your metab which in the long run will help you l0se more weight. sometimes just having one protein bar mid day works 4 me. others i need a full meal. fuel your body or you will burn muscle which leads to organ damage.
3. don’t do LONG term fasts. i’d say up to a week with heavy liquids is okay. and not just water, incorporate broths, mio, even sugar free jello is good (if it’s clear typically it’s ok) but long term fasts can lower your metabolism, deplete electrolytes, and sodium, which long term is going to bloat you, keep weight on (or make you gain it back quickly), and overall make you feel like shit (which could lead to hospitalization)
4. don’t eat refined sugar or refined foods. do literally AS MUCH AS YOU CAN to eat sugar free and whole foods. i have a major sweet tooth so i turn to sugar free jello/pudding, sf caramels, halo top ice cream if i REALLY need it. otherwise i do sweet fruits and veggie based substitutions for carbs. i use cauliflower rice, zucchini noodles, or there’s these great hearts of palm noodles.
5. eat tons of fiber!! laxatives will help momentarily, consistent fiber will keep your 💩 regular thus keeping your body from holding onto it aka extra lxs. i add unflavored benefiber to a lot of my drinks (the flavored ones have added sugar). i honestly could promise you that fiber will help with shedding !bs.
6. drink as much water as you possibly can. yes you can become over-hydrated so add electrolytes or legit just a lil salt to your water here n there. but your body is going to retain water (!bs), and bloat if you are dehydrated. #1 thing to remember is you are depleting your body of what it wants. finding a way to basically trick it makes it easier and quicker to lose fat.
7. stay distracted! discipline and hunger may hurt now, regret and guilt are going to hurt 50x worse later. a grumbly tummy is not worth it. get some motivational phrases, tactics, distractions, that work for you and RELY ON THEM. water, i use mio in mine when i’m desperate, gum, diet soda, bubbly water, reading, tv, ANYTHING. i have other reblogs with some good motivational tactics. i also look at th!nspø as well as pics of my own body multiple times per day to keep me on track. YOU ARE NOT ALWAYS GOING TO BE MOTIVATED SO YOU MUST BE DISCIPLINED. i repeat that to myself 100000 times a day.
8. incorporate foods/drinks that speed up your metab. coffee, green tea, spicy foods (pepper, cayenne pepper), cinnamon, B12 there’s sooo many. and this goes hand in hand with making sure you’re getting your vitamins. picking up a general multivitamin will help make it so your body doesn’t want to cling onto every last cal it’s fed.
9. exercise if you are mentally & physically able to. i have some other limiting factors which make me unable to go to the gym or get as many steps in as id like. an avg day is 2k-5k steps for me rotting on the couch. i PROMISE like 100% money back guarantee (srry bad joke i swear im not a damn ana coach 🙄) your diet is 1,000,000x more important than any exercise you’re going to get in. exercise will help with toning so i try to get some laying ones done on the couch but dude you burn calories just existing. so if you eat lower than that which is 1k-2k (you can look it up it’s your TDEE) you will lose weight. it may be slightly slower than if you walked 20k steps/day or worked out 5 hrs every day but give it time.
literal str8 up proof of this^^^ is my father. he’s a gym junkie like going every morning at 4am (insanity but not my kind), but was eating a lot, and garbage. high carb and sugar intake. and even though he was working out A TON with a lot of steps/day he was gaining fat. he came to me and i told him str8 up to eat less and stop treating his body like a dumpster. eat healthier. homie is shedding lxs.
so besides all that, if you wanna be moots ill probs just vent and post th!nspø
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Heyy girl!! Can u help me here???❤️❤️
I NEEDS TO LOSE 1-2KG WHAT SHOULD I DO I HAVE ON THURSDAY UNTIL I HAVE TO WEIGH MYSELF!! Last time I weight myself I was 62.7kg, but am afraid that are weight are 63,4 kg or something like that!! I’m ready for anything! READY FOR A CHALLENGE!!!🥰
WHAT SHOULD I DO??? PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU HAVE SOME TIPS❤️❤️
well, firstly, I’d say if you can manage it without b1nging, I’d recommend going on a 48 hour fast, as that tends to help lose weight fast. Also, while fasting, I tend to do some exercise (not anything insane, maybe stretches, a 10k walk, etc), to help burn more. Also, take paracetamol during the time when you get a headache, they’re AWFUL otherwise. I’d also recommend either gum or sugar free mints, as your breath begins to smell really fast during a fast otherwise. And it doesn’t have to be a water fast! Drink tea, drink flavoured water, anything that’s 0 cals, drink it if you don’t want nothing but water for 48 hours. if you can’t fast however, I’d recommend a low c@l limit, maybe 2-400 a day, and either do omad or eat multiple small and filling meals (salads are always a good go to, as well as fat free Greek yogurt), always CHUGGING water in between bites, and stopping the second you feel full, even if you have food leftover. Then do lots of exercise (personally I like to do ballet for at least an hour a day and get about 15k steps in, but any workout that you enjoy, and burns lots of c@ls is fine), personally I tend to go until I’m either at a net negative or at a net of under 100 if I’m going for losing lots fast, but do whatever you can without wanting to eat more, because doing all of this won’t help anything if you just get really hungry and eat a big meal regardless of what you do though, I always suggest to have lots of water, do lots to distract yourself from hunger, and always take vitamins and supplements <3 Stay safe!
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daily status . . . { nov. 14th, 24 }
breakfast { 6am - 11am } , 2/3 of apple juice (73)
lunch { 12pm - 4pm } , snickerdoodle cookie from friend (121)
dinner { 5pm - 8pm } , 1/2 chocolate elevation bar (135)
water drank , 16fl oz
. . . total ate ; 329 cals
burned , 663 cals
workout time , 80 mins
water was not very good today, BUT, i think i have a couple things that'll help me long term. first thing- READING!!
i've been reading The Poppy War (highly recommended) and at first i was jus using it as smth to read if i had nothing else better to do. but now? i got thru abt 195 pages w basically have no thoughts of food. i was even reading while cycling?? surprising w enough music my mind can take me anywhere lol.
another thing r the elevation bars- i only could eat half before i felt super full 😭 i still do and it's been abt 30 minutes to an hr since i finished snacking on it. i could literally only take super small bites or my stomach would freak ┌[ ◐ ‸ ◐ ]┐i think it has to do w the amount of protein it has since i think it has either 20g or 27g, but either way it was definitely helpful
last thing was drink juice in the morning. now i hate having anything but water in the morning cus i luv a clean omad, but the electrolyte truly did wonders considering today was the first day i didn't go home w a pounding headache. it wasn't even a lot!! jus enough to keep me pushing ig
felling asleep while making this again... gmm yall 😭
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Relapse is RELAPSING.
Today was the first day of school and I’m already getting back to my honeymoon phase.
been fasting for 24+ hours so far, went to football practice, ran around a lot there, then went to the gym tonight and did weights and stuff, and tomorrow before school I’m waking up at 5:30 with my guy bsf to hit the gym and then walk to school. I had my phone down during all the running but I still got almost 12 thousand steps just from walking around campus all day and climbing up and down the stairs a lot.
THE BEST PART is that I haven’t thought about food all day because I have been so busy with sports and back to school. Usually on the first day of fasting I am constantly thinking about eating. I don’t even feel any hunger.
3 workouts in 30 hours and while fasting means I’m burning a ridiculous amount of fat. I can’t wait to see how much I lost.
I have no idea how long I will be able to get away with fasting tho but I made salad which is just spinach and apple and lemon apple cider vinegar dressing, which I pretended to eat tn but actually saved for tomorrow. It’s only 50 cal a serving so I was thinking if I am forced to eat dinner tomorrow I’ll just have that as my OMAD. I don’t want to be super susicous that the salad has been sitting there for days even tho I’d rather fast.
Trust me guys. I was in a position where I thought my life with Ana was over and I wouldn’t do it anymore, but I was so wrong. You just have to be super distracted. Gain control loose weight!
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My Meal and Exercise Plan
Hey y’all! Decided to share my intake + workout routine, because it’s done really well for me for the most part to keep me motivated, consistent, and healthy. If you decide to try any of this, let me know!
Nutrition:
My intake, on average, has been between 600 and 800 cals. I know it’s higher res, but I’m very active throughout my day and I don’t have enough energy to get through if I don’t have at least 500cals. I never go above 900 tho, it’s too close to 1000 (worst number ever in my head)
I try to avoid heavy carbs or fried foods
I really enjoy grilled chicken and fresh fruit (fruit salad is a MUST every day)
I don’t like them, admittedly, but protein bars make up a lot of my diet.
I try not to drink anything more than 100cals (but I do make an occasional exception for coffee)
I drink at least 2 quarts (30oz roughly) of water everyday, i try to go for more than that if i notice i’m feeling super hungry
I don’t usually do OMAD, just because it doesn’t work for me. I try to eat small amounts every few hours.
Exercise:
I get at least 10,000 steps every day
I do 50 russian twists and 50 sit-ups every night
I love cardio and pilates! Def my favorite workouts
I try to be careful with exercising if I’m eating less, the last thing I want is to pass out.
In general, I burn a little over 500 active calories every day (according to my watch)
Other Stuff:
I try to stay on top of my self-care routine (skin, hair, nails, etc.) because it just makes me feel like I’m on track.
I’m also a student, so I try to align my fasts with my study time or when I have lots of classes.
Part of what keeps me motivated is journaling/blogging. I enjoy documenting my successes and it helps to remember my failures. I keep a journal on my computer and I try to update this blog whenever I think of something to post!
I keep an album of th!nspø on my phone, full of aesthetics I would love to try once I have a better body.
And that’s it! I hope at least something in here is helpful to somebody. Thank you all for reading, don’t forget to drink water and I’m always here for you <3
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maybe fasting after a few day binge streak isn't the best idea actually, i feel like i try to do this a lot, maybe i'll just omad instead or do higher res (900-1k) the next couple of days before coming back down to my normal limit (700)
omad rules for today are 500-700 cals, minimum of 45g protein, i have to eat in the kitchen (aka no distractions), and i have to drink three cups of water before going to my room :3
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Dinner with Parents
Tw purging
It kind of sucks that still as an almost 30-year-old I have to go about eating with my parents. But anyways, today I had dinner with my parents at Korean bbq. I knew the dinner was coming for the past few days so I was able to limit my calorie and take Monday and Tuesday. And I planned the Korean bbq OMAD for today. I had pre-planned the calories I was going to intake from the amount of meat I consumed and I feel like I stuck to it pretty closely slightly over 800 cal. You might be thinking wow that’s a lot. And yes, it definitely is 800 cal for one meal is pretty crazy crazy however I have explained that my parents are pretty obese and that’s just typically what we all eat every meal so I always plan for more rather than less. However, I was feeling incredibly sick after eating like I legitimately didn’t even need to “purge” but I straight up needed to vomit like actually sick. It was just too much food and one sitting. Unfortunately, afterwards, we had to do a family activity and I was sick and dying the whole entire time, but I was not able to throw up because my parents kept me busy and I wasn’t allowed to go to the bathroom. Whether this was intentional or not, I don’t know. But once I got home I actually tried to hold in the food and I did end up getting sick unfortunately but at that point almost nothing came up with stomach acid. What a difficult day.
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November 1 - Friday
Soo, since I'm writing a few days later, I'm just gonna write what I wrote in my cutesy little journal since I don't remember much of Friday. Actually I don't remember anything about it except that I had work and a sleepover... I fasted for about 22 hours and broke my fast when I got home from work. Like I said I was having a sleepover with my friend this day, but she didn't want anything to eat so I just got some food for myself.
Description: 5 naan bread dippers, cheese and pepperoni cubes, a rice cake (not in pic), 2 whopper packets
(Also I made this calendar! I think it's cute- a little messy, but it's enough for me.)
Total Cals: 648
Omad was pretty good tbh. I was scared that I was gonna feel like I needed more (or actually go get more) because it didn't feel like I ate a lot of food, but I was actually pretty satisfied (though that might have something to do w/the fact I binged the day before..)
I also got a pecan pie because maybe a week ago I tried a bit of my friend's (from my work), and oh my, it was heavenly. I made the mistake of mentioning it to my mom and she wanted me to get one for us, so I did. I was really nervous/scared I'd have to eat a piece, so I thought that I'd just offer it to my friend or worst case scenario omad it, but it was fine lol and nobody even wanted a piece. Four days later my mom is the only one who has eaten a piece pfff
My total steps for the day ended up being 9.5k which I was pretty happy about.
Over all, I'd say it was an okay first day of the month.
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Hi water!! I love your account so much, you inspired me to get back into Ana and stick to it this time :)
I have been eating 700 cals a day and I know this might be kind of high, but I exercise a lot throughout the day and probably burn around 500-700 cals a day. I have also been drinking lots of water and sleeping good. But I have barely been loosing any weight 😭 only like .3 ibs a day. My goal is to be 115 by thanksgiving. I’m 125 rn btw. Do you think it’s possible?
Thank you🫶🏼
Hiii you are so sweet <3
Trust me friend I get it, 10lbs in 2 weeks can be a lot some time, I think it’s possible but if i am being honest with you the calorie intake can be a little bit high for 10lbs in 2 weeks.
If you add some intermittent fasting or OMAD that calorie intake then everything could be better and possible, if not then the calorie intake should be a little bit lower to burn faster.
But even if you stay in your normal plan you will still lose a good amount tho <3
Keep drinking a lot of water (sometimes we think we drink a lot and we don’t, so make sure you measure your water)
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i’m ngl guys, i still eat my comfort foods n foods that aren’t necessarily “healthy” or “low cal.” i just limit myself n give myself portions so that im in a deficit. it makes me feel too “normal,” but then i realize that i try to fast every day.. n thats not normal. also the entire mental aspect of it is just fucked. it just kind of sucks that some people try to tell me that i’m not trying hard enough to lose weight when i’m literally ripping myself apart because i will never be skinny enough. i’ve lost a lot of weight from fasting n omad-ing n making myself miserable because i keep comparing myself to skinny people. i still do. when people WITH EDs tell me that i dont “qualify” to have an ED, that just sets me off. because EDs aren’t about how you look/come off, it’s about the mindset n the obsession. i may not “look” like i have an ed, i may “eat too much” to have an ed, but i HAVE an ed. there isn’t just one type of ed. there isn’t just one type of obsession or mental pain/damage that an ed is limited to. there is more than just an obsession with being skinny. there is sometimes the feeling of eating n seeming like you’ll never stop. there is avoidance and restriction. i’m just sick and tired of feeling invalidated about my ed because i don’t “act the part.”
thank you for coming to my ted talk.
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