#alto vents

[altosys]

tw: entire post is me rambling about that one part of aph (anything nsfw is cut out)

mfs be like "uh, DID rep didn't exist until 201-" no. no no no. see, circa november 26, 2007, (ironically. i'll explain that part in a bit), there was an animation. a certain animation that i will not be naming for the sake of preventing everyone here from getting even more traumatized. now, what happened in this animation? some of the best goddamn trauma-holder factive rep i have ever fucking seen. like,

"...so don't get mad at us; we've shielded you from the painful truth. We fight to serve you, the common man. / ...because I remember! I remember quite well, actually. It happened to me! I was filling in for you with your alternate personality, [censored for tw reasons] while you were dancing the polka with.. Jerry Seinfeld unicorns!! That is the Playhouse, created so you could dance the polka and be all merry and happy and la la la. ...But I also came into existence so that you could go preserved and unscathed. I am for the sole empty purpose of being a trash receptacle for everything you couldn't handle. And you filled up that emptiness well didn't you, Alfred? With all your pain? All your trauma? That pain rotted at the bottom of that receptacle and filled it with desire. Me, the steaming desire for power and revenge! It created my own being, my own purpose and need. The abuse that happened to your body nourished me, made me grow. Saved me from all of the bad. I have seen and known the truth!! I am Dictator Pickles!! So, let me give it to you straight. That thing there... (points to Alfred in the mirror) That - is you. That cannot handle reality. Nobody in reality will ever love that—I know it! ...But the Playhouse loves you. So, why don't we go back to how it was, forget we've been [censored for tw reasons] and you can remain in ignorant bliss. You know, two plus two is five, and all that jazz. Besides, Alfred, you are forgetting one tiny thing: We are your mind. How can you escape from yourself?"

i should re-take acting in school next year just so i can do this monologue, because holy hell it HITS. like it starts out as "oh, the fucked-up dog has multiple personalities" and then ends as "EMILY DON'T FUCKING CALL ME OUT LIKE THIS. NOT IN THE YEAR MY SOURCE WAS BORN, NO YOU FUCKING DON'T."

-electra⚡

[sydicidal]

How I’ve been feeling lately

[banesberry-anomoly]

Cut off the flesh that betrays

Alt

[eff-ston3mblogs]

it’s my only safe place

[jenniferchecksbitch]

⊹ ࣪ ˖ ౨ৎ ⋆｡˚

[suntraitor]

If Jesus died for all our sins, he left one behind in the body of I'm in

[wanderingtheark]

like a lamb to its slaughter , buried in water

[thescaryhyperfem]

me when i fail to do something haha Does this count as angst

[scp-infohazard]

[l1m1nal-aff1n1ty]

Tw for Clef/Francis fictives/irls.

More source stuff I'm working on.

[brookee202]

Me smoking after every inconvenience

[goingnearlyinsane]

honey. i get my gender envy from alto clef, Micheal Shelley, spamton g spamton, and kill streak Kim. my gender looks like an arcade carpet, and i've had abandonment issues since i was six. why don't *you* tell *me* whether or not you think i'm a well-functioning member of society.

[altocat]

Ugh. I hate slow fic progress. I seriously feel like I'm letting you guys down. It's been kind of difficult lately to get into the groove. Lots of days where words just don't come out sounding the way you want them to. I'm sure you'll be able to tell once I've finally published something new.

Still hoping to have something for you guys out this week.

[banesberry-anomoly]

tired to my bones...

[eff-ston3mblogs]

[iloveannaliese]

Why do I turn into Emily from Palo Alto whenever I see him?