#also... there is one guy... who .. idk why but he has this weird... attachment to me

[no1ryomafan]

I forgot to say as embarrassing as it is I finally finished gun x sword after putting it off for way too long-shit got in the way of me doing anything else but also I’ve been more demotivated lately-and man I can’t tell if it’s because I just took FOREVER and was just simply turned off by something or not cause I wouldn’t call the show (bad) persay it low key peaks at ep 16 and all the episodes after that- sure are. Like they don’t make me mad or anything, everything concludes well nor do I wanna say it’s rushed necessarily, esp not compared to stuff that comes out now for mecha sadly and I do overall like the ending being on such a comedic note but idk. Don’t hate it or really feel heavily conflicted, it’s a good show yet I wasn’t in love with after ep 16. Maybe I do need a rewatch one day in the far future since I got other stuff to watch but I guess I just overall felt underwhelmed.

[spacedkey]

it's funny how many little guys i have that i can make a whole art piece of them and nobody even knows who they are.

[friendlynaborhooddisapointment]

trying to write a oneshot where billy gets a phone (his neighbour in the condemned building he squats in gives it to him after she gets a new one) and then ends up starting a tictok account as Captain Marvel. he starts it cuz a tictok abt him got viral so he makes one to repy to it but then gets attached to the app a little (cuz he's like 12) and just continues to make them.

but suddenly i forgot about all tictok trends i could have him do . the only ones i remember are the "pass the phone to someone who" (gonna have him pass it to batman and then batman shits on him for filming a tictok in the watchtower) and the smash or pass cake. WHAT OTHER TRENDS CAN I HAVE THIS GUY DOOOO PLEASEEEEE.

things i want him to do with this acc:

when he sees ppl in shitty situations (abusive), he comments on them being like want me to beat them up for you? (? something along those lines)

dueting dance tictoks and failing really badly

making a video abt all the stray animals he visits (damian becomes an avid follower and fan after this one) and it becomes a series

an info dumb video about tigers

suspiciously helpful life hack videos that are sometimes borderline illegal

maybe a video where he goes around and interviews homeless people with stuff like hey whats ur favorite food? and supper mundane questions- want this to lead to a whole bunch of videos of Cap picking fights with people on the internet over the dignity and rights of homeless people

has a series of 'rate this parking lot' type videos but of different roof tops

Superman pissed him off so he starts a collection of interrupting and finishing Superman's fights for him (oh sorry was this your fight? rip ig u dont have to worry abt him now, see you later!) what did superman do? bro idk ill figure it out

a video taking abt the best websites to download music from for his mp3 player since a comment asks abt it when it shows up in a video (it becomes v obvious that he is broke as fuck in this video and thats all the comments focus on)

billy dueting with fanart and fan edits freaking out being like wow these r so cool!!! (he ignores all the gooner stuff eyes close do not see)

doing tictok dances with some of the homeless of facwet

ends up making a video on resources in facwet for homeless people (since some people ask for it) but they are all kinda unofficial or just survival tips, and also him dunking on some of the official ones that are kinda shady (weirdly personal advice for someone who is probably not homeless? is the vibe)

makes a video complaining abt how because of how popular it has become to pay with everything by card most people dont carry around change anymore, and because of that homeless people get a lot less money then they used too

videos where random citizens call out to him and ask questions or ask him to do random stuff (most of them start off with him about to do a video on something else then derails)

some of the JL ask to do join him on some of the tictoks so a few collabs wth them.

'how many times can i film batman without him noticing me' it gets to 2 because batman was to busy to tell him to stop both times. it ends with batman lecturing him on filming in the tower again

thats all i got for him to do. idk if i will actually write this so feel free to steal it to make your own fanfic (actually please do i hate writing). but i think it would be funny for this perceived adult to make half brainrot type content that feels weirdly natural. also the weird little hints he accidentally leaves abt his civilian life that is very concerning to everyone. no one can tell if he's a million years old or born yesterday lol.

also Captain Marvel and Superman beef pre identity reveal means everything to me. ALSO THE CAPTAIN CHILLING WITH THE HOMELESS AND BEING ACAB MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME and thats like half the reason why i want this to exist.

[thistlerock]

Collection of headcanons not elaborate enough for own word vomit post:

- I don't think Kristen can swim. She has the vibes of someone who never learned as a kid and now it's too late to bring up without being embarrassed. (Also I thought about what would happen if she fell in water — mechanically she's wearing heavy armor, would Brennan just let her swim since she's in universe only in a tracksuit or would she sink without a sufficient strength check? Idk, but that's how I got to the no swimming conclusion.)

- insanely weird hc to have but i think Fabian shaves his arm hair. Also like legs and arm pits i guess but the way more unusual and therefore notable thing is arms. This guy kills any body and facial hair on sight. Like no one has ever seen him with as much as stubble outside of Cathilda or the Bad Kids when they were sleeping over. Why? Idk he just prefers that, no deeper reason. I do think elves generally have less body hair but here his human genes come through so he has to shave. Or get it lasered away I guess. You can do that right?? He's rich. Maybe he'd do it.

- also Fabian's depth perception is dog shit. Using his crossbow is less impressive because Fandrangor is simply a better weapon and his flourishes and manoeuvres rely on melee combat, I know, but to me it's also just that he's better at hitting things real close to him.

- Riz is the kinda guy to have chronic migraines and think it's fine. "Everyone has headaches sometimes and I do sleep a lot less than I should ahaha" (the amount of coffee he drinks is barely saving him from the horrors.)

- Adaine also gets a lot of migraines in what I think are more. Passive non specific visions? Like a gut feeling that's always correct and also makes her body hate her. The proper visions are comparable to absence seizures I think? Like I don't wanna say it's that because it's magic but the process is kind of the same in the sense that she's out for like ten to thirty seconds and it can really suck

- I also think Adaine has synaesthesia! I can't really put this into words well so I'm not even gonna try, but she perceives certain sounds and/or colours at times where there shouldn't be sounds and/or colours. I think those associations also to an extend help in drawing connections between less specific visions and real life.

- we know Gorgug has a drumset in his room I think it's electronic. But like not in a normal way like we have them irl it's some insane artificer shit that would justify so much more noise complaints than a regular one and also could probably have its own pyrotechnics idfk. It's fully a safety hazard but it doesn't even rank on the top 10 of worst things to have in your house that is a TREE that the Thistlesprings casually own.

- I think either Fig or Kristen would be the shortest medium creature type Bad Kid. Like obviously Riz is four feet tall max but he's in a whole different category lmao

- Fig sometimes puts little braids in Jawbone's fur and he happily lets her. He only properly adopted Adaine and Fig has more than enough dads, but he does still act as sort of a paternal figure to her (and every other kid ((which in this case includes Ragh but maybe not Aelwyn)) in mordred manor because he's just a caring guy and it's hard not to grow attached) so that's their pseudo daddy-daughter bonding

- Fabian doesn't like, hate Gilear as much as he used to? Like he still has his moments but overall he thinks he's a good guy and absolutely has the "well I can shit on him but I'm gonna kill this other guy who did. How dare you make fun of my Mama's beloved??" mindset. But uhm he tries to make Gilear work out with him so he can "stop being death fodder". Gilear is a commoner and everyone else in Seacaster Manor absolutely is not and like he likes it and he loves these people but he does kind of live in hell. His wife? Could kill him. His step son? Could kill him. The maid? Could kill him. The dog slash motor cycle?? Could kill him. One hit. Also the entire current Seacaster household are dexterity based fighters they're all so graceful and skilled he's fully just a guy that spills every drink ever on himself

- I think the Hangman loves Cathilda because she gives good chin scritchies (hound form obviously lol) Generally he tends to mirror Fabian's attitude towards people anyway so he's always liked her, but once he started being a hound more she started petting him and giving him treats and he is smitten

- Gorgug (and sometimes Ragh or Ayda) play extreme fetch with the Hangman. Like I need to stress that he's not just a big dog he's large enough to be a mount, which means he'd have to be the size of a horse. Maybe a small horse sure but that's still a horse-sized dog. I think his mini looks fairly big but in my heart he's bigger. So yeah fetch with him (which they mainly do because they want him to feel comfortable in both forms because he's so good) is really big sticks. Like not logs or anything but sticks the average person can't huck all that far. Fabian casts enhance ability on himself so he can also do it, lol. The wonders of multiclassing into bard.

- I think the only Bad Kids who never use makeup are Riz and Kristen. Gorgug doesn't do it every day and not that much but he uses eyeliner sometimes. Fig's makeup is the most noticeable and usually very fun.

- Gorgug has kissed Ragh at least twice. So at least one time after the prom thing. I don't mean this in a ship way I mean this in I look at Gorgug and then I look at Ragh and I go yeah these guys have shared at least one tender bro kiss. I mean I think Gorgug is the kinda guy that would kiss all of his friends if they wanted to because it's not that big of a deal to him and he loves them but not everyone is comfortable w/ that lol. He and Kristen kiss each other on the cheek though, I think (this does not mean he wants to see her naked in public please put your clothes back on Kristen??)

[emblemxeno]

As someone who loves how cringe and fun Sonic is, have you SEEN how edgy Shadow is? He got flipping doom wings in the latest game and they went ALL in on it! And yet he's beloved people LOVE the edge of that hog. But it also kind of reminds me of people fighting over Movie Sonic and saying he's cringe and quips too and have these people seen 90's Sonic? That's his thing. He's like Spiderman he never shuts up and idk I feel like it's something to be said about fandoms now, they want thing to be deep and have a "morally gray" message instead of fun whimsy and fiction at the same time relate and attach to something instead of enjoying something.

3H's message was bad and I'm tired of pretending it's not, the whole game's world revolves around the backstory of a race who they just throw away because the red emperor is a girl, it's like the weird side thing they do in Awakening going to Walmart that has nothing to do with the main story but it's the whole damn game. What 3H does well and why it continues to dominate is how it gets you practically para-socially attached to the cast, and that's not a good thing it's like there are people who are stans to their celebs or people who will ride or die for their brand, 3H somehow hit that group and frankly it's a little disturbing how well it did how insanely attached people are to that game and cast, I'd love a psychological study on it tbh. Because you know what game does "you do what you can when everything is falling apart" well? Conquest which is my favorite for that reason. It's not perfect but the message to me about bonds over blood and how there is no justice in the world but it's the little things you do and the choices you make to get by, most people aren't going to lead a massive revolution they don't have the power, you just want your loved ones safe. Does it do it perfectly? No but nothing does, replaying it right now in this time period though makes it hit...so much harder to me. And everyone shits on that game despite making a hell of a lot more sense than 3H

Sorry for rambling in your inbox but to end this off, reality fucking sucks let has have whimsy, let us have cringe, let us have ultimate edge, let us have fantasy and stories that are just there to entertain us, crazy designs and uniqueness, because right now it's all we have

SPEAK LOUDER! SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOFS!

I think there's a lot of nuance lost in how media can be categorized. Like, Shadow is stereotyped as the prime "Edgy McEdgelord" character, but from my perspective, being a cringe edgelord isn't what Shadow has ever embodied (aside from when the social media market team for Sonic leaned into those perceptions, god that era is insane looking back at it).

Shadow's story is genuinely sincere and trying to be something memorable, heartfelt and really fucking cool. How it was presented in SA2 is exactly why he got so fucking popular. The warts started showing when extraneous aspects started to affect it, such as the amnesia subplot in Heroes and Shadow 05, the kind of forced gunplay and weaponry in Shadow 05 (it only made sense in 06 after he became an agent), and whatever the hell his Boom characterization was.

Shadow Gens (and I heard the movie version of him as well) leans into being sincerely fucking cool. It's edgy, but not tryhard. It's effortless. It's full of sauce. And the Sonic series itself embodied that from its inception! A simple yet unfortunately poignant story of saving the environment and liberating oppressed groups from the greedy and selfish ambitions of a tech bro (though at least Eggman has massive fucking charisma)

Thank you for bringing up Spiderman because I agree so much that Spiderman is on the same wavelength as Sonic (I even have plushies of both!), that I get weird vibes from people who say they hate them. Like, everyone's thoughts on Sonic games or Spiderman media are valid, but hating them as characters? They're just little guys making jokes, helping people, and living as themselves!

And again, you hit the nail on the head with the parasocial aspect, because I think at a point where someone starts envoking behavior of celeb stans, things have gotten really fucking dour. A central point of interactive media like video games is that there's an intentional degree of separation from the makers of the art and the audience who consumes it.

There are points to be told and lessons to be learned from stories, but they are still things we individually should recognize as things not to attach our personhood to. The FE fandom can't unanimously agree with the fact that the genocide of a particular race is bad, for example, because too many people have aligned their social presence with one of 3H's factions. And that's a real huge fucking issue! Were we not making progress IRL by trying to counteract the idea that victims don't have to be perfect or wholly pure in all intentions/actions?

Some things, like the morality and motivations of joining a war, are nuanced. But starting a war, as someone with a high position of power and control, with no prior motivation other than "correcting" the world (read: setting it back to "how it should be") due to the idea that they think it's only their's to lead, isn't nuanced. It's something that most rational and empathetic people can understand is evil.

Comparatively, the conflict between Elusia and Brodia is better written because it's effective to understand just from what the game gives you, and leaves no room for petty factionism. Elusia is being corrupted by Fell Dragon followers, including the king, so Brodia is taking steps to stop it. However, Brodia is hurting a lot of civilians in its expansion, and using this "keeping you in check" excuse to justify not bettering its behavior. It's because of the country's historical war profiteering that may have sent Elusia down a course of enthrallment by the Fell Dragon faith in the first place.

Boom. It's easy to swallow, shows both perspectives, doesn't excuse Elusia's actions in the present, nor handwaves the historical, implicative problems that Brodia helped foster. And it resolves well in the ending where Diamant and Ivy guide their kingdoms to better futures.

You don't need to explain every perspective, thought process, or ethicality to the letter for a story element to be effective or well written. You just need to write it well.

[lasats-are-lovely]

kind of fucked up of you to make fun of how people relate to kallus.

... okay, I'll bite.

If this is about the tags I used on my last reblog (genuinely don't know wtf you would be talking about otherwise lol) then... okay? I'm not going to apologize for stating the fact that I don't find enjoyment in some of the fanon interpretations of Kallus that are popular here. I am allowed to disagree, and I am allowed to say that I disagree in any capacity on this website. If you are this mad because I stated that I disagreed with some interpretations in the tags of a post I reblogged, then... idk man, that's just weird? Weird and controlling?

I will say it again, with my chest this time (something you might want to try), that I definitely agree with the sentiment that a lot of Kallus's complex personality/traits/experiences are ignored or whittled down to very superficial labels in favor of amplifying what the audience here (which is a lot of younger afab people) finds relatable. And that's fine, as I said in my tags numerous times. Fandom is about exploring characters in a way that is enjoyable to you - y'all can do whatever tf you want with these guys.

I just personally don't find a lot of what is shared or said relatable. I don't enjoy the interpretation of Kallus as this uwu little baby (he's a 40 year old man who commited war crimes) who listens to TikTok artists and is a wittle gay virgin/total gay twink slut (don't personally think he's exclusively into men. Nor do I think Zeb is if the pinups in his bunk are anything to go off of. And he isn't a twink, he's 6'4, over the age of 25, has facial hair and is built like an ox, please stop misusing terms) who has a horrible guilt complex that Zeb needs to coddle him about as he cries about committing a genocide. It comes across to me as infantilizing, and doesn't make for interesting storytelling.

As a grown ass adult who is in a grown ass (healthy) adult relationship... I just see a lot of young people who haven't had the experiences in life that I've had. They relate to the media in ways that make sense to where they are in life right now -- but I have already been there. I have already done that... and I firmly believe that the character in question has also been there and done that, which is why I relate to him, and I just don't see that reflected much. That is literally all I was trying to say.

... and all that being said, I did see that one of the tags I used (the one using Sabrina Carpenter as an example) just so happened to relate to someone's specific posts. That was completely accidental, I literally pulled the example out of my ass at 1 am before going to bed with my fiance. It was not my intention to talk about anyone's specific posts, I was not aware that anyone had made a Sabrina Carpenter inspired Kalluzeb post. So if that person is you or someone you care about and you're defending them then yeah I can see why that would have upset you, but again I stated a half-assed opinion in the tags of a post I reblogged in the middle of the night... and I'm not going to give you an apology for that, especially because you decided to go about getting one like this. Step up and come back with a name attached to your words and maybe then we'll talk ✌️

[box953]

vinnayyyyyyy idk if anyone has asked you before but what are your post canon visions for all the surviving characters??

HIIII umm let me pull some thoughts out of my beautiful mind.

The only thing i have really ever ruminated on is the idea of Jacobi showing up at Minkowski’s house after disappearing off the face of the earth for several months and forcefully moving in on her couch. Minkowski who is in the process of trying to heal her relationship with her husband who thought she was fucking Dead and who is going through a Lot because that healing process comes with realizing just how much she has to tell him about what she Did up there and then Jacobi, one of the guys who was greatly impacted by the things Minkowski Did, shows up like hey lol. Im here to be your reoccurring sitcom side character.

i think Jacobi shows up to her place because he’s incredibly aimless without si-5 work and without Kepler to follow around like a lost dog. He absolutely guilts her into it because he Knows that she feels bad about Maxwell and i think his lost dog schtick really nails home how much hes lost and she feels responsible for his aimlessness on earth. And also in a weird way his anger towards Minkowski is also a memory of Maxwell and that all funnels together into a weird brain concoction of feelings that make him feel very Attached to Minkowski, even if he doesn’t like her.

Any other characters are a lot more vague in my mind. I have absolutely no clue what they would do with Hera and her supergiant supercomputer brain but through the power of “dont worry about it” maybe they just turn her into a home security system or something. I don’t think she’d like it but they don’t have much for other options.

I think a lot about Eiffel’s memory loss and. While i dont Like it. If i had to play in the space with it, i feel like Eiffel should regain those memories. And, playing into the fact that Doug Eiffel is a coward, i think it would be interesting if him regaining his memories on earth had to be an intentional process that he had to work through in order to gain those memories. Because then there is the possibility of him realizing more and more about who he is and having to wrestle with the idea of just taking the cowards way out and continuing to forget. Forget what happened, forget everything he did, forget why he was ever sent up to orbit wolf 359, and just move on as this new version of himself instead of having to address the person he is. Could be fun. Could be silly. I envision him and Hera wandering around his mindscape (dont ask me how they have the resources to jack her in there) and idk i think it could be interesting to play with the visuals of actively having to go find your memories in your mind.

lovelace…. Lovelace…… i want good things for her. I do not know if they would come to her easy back on earth. I feel she would be very restless. I think she would go hard into no-contact, no way to track her down, disappearing to a beach off the coast of nowhere for a while to decompress after four years of the torture labyrinth. I think that has mixed results and has the capacity to tip over into just pure isolation. After some time maybe she wraps back around to keep in touch with Eiffel to make sure he’s doing okay and then just keeping in touch with the others over time. But i think shes going to need a lot of support once she gets down there.

and this is all without really considering any Goddard related nonsense. I think a post-canon wolf 359 has the capacity to just delve into More Story Happening. I think Lovelace should plan to infiltrate Goddard futuristics to literally blow it up from the inside. That could be a fun spinoff series. But thats its own entire thought process and im just looking at this through a pov of “what if they were returning back to normal lives on earth”

[werelivinginadaydream]

Hello! Hoping I can use this as a sounding board of sorts! Soo, I've been having this niggling feeling for a while now, and the new pictures make me more convinced that Harry's got plans to come out, or like do something equally radical and crazy. Cos why else would Simon Jones, who's got ties to Cowell and the 1D days, make Louis' public image So Far Off Harry's?! It's the absolute contrast for me. This guy? Who's such a laddy lad all loved up in Costa Rica with an influencer/Kardashian wannabe girl- to be involved with Rome-loving, tote-bag-touting Harry? Can't be. Like, their images are so far off from each other, it's like opposite ends of the world. It would also explain why Louis seems more okay to be involved, compared with the stunt with El- there's so much riding on this.

I just... there are so many questions still, though. Why would their image clauses from Cowell's days still be attached to them, considering they're in solo careers now (but the presence of S.Jones is so weird and concerning...) Also, if Harry does pull off a soft/hard CO, then... what about Louis? :( If this is indeed something the both of them are working towards, then... either Louis has the patience and strength of a saint, or I'm just talking out of my ass LOL. I just want my boys to be happy- hidden from the world in their safe bubble, or out in the open, loud and proud :( Sorry if I said anything wrong!! I know the fandom is quite sensitive now..

hi!! thank you for taking the time to send me this. you made a lot of valid points!! all i truly want is for harry and louis to be happy, healthy and free. i want them to be able to have full control over their careers and to be truly free. i want them to succeed and thrive.

i agree with you in a way about harry potentially coming out. there have been so many signs. i’m also iffy ab this happening bc of the azoff’s. they are one of the most powerful families in the industry and harry is managed by jeff azoff. i don’t know if they would ever truly agree to harry coming out publicly. i believe that they feel like it would harm his image. also that mindset was drilled into harry and louis since 2010. i genuinely hope i’m proven wrong. i want him and louis to be able to be themselves without having any restrictions.

also you are so right when it comes to them marketing harry in contrast to louis. i mean look at how they market harry and how they market louis like they are polar opposites. in a way it’s gaslighting the public into thinking “why would they ever be together like they are too different”. also simon jones and jeff azoff they will never make me like you. i see right through their bs.

what’s crazy i wasn’t as annoyed when he stunted w eleanor and danielle bc they were at least tolerable people. even if i wasn’t a larrie i would still hate him stunting w zara bc she’s a racist who glorifies ed’s. it’s very evident that’s it’s a pr relationship and louis hasn’t made it look believable once. also idk what louis is gaining from this stunt. he’s lost a lot of followers and monthly listeners. she’s gaining more of a following and attention from the gp. unless they are using her as a way to end baby gate or help get louis to come out publicly idk how this would benefit him in any way. idk if he has any control or say in this stunt. i mean ik he doesn’t have full control but i’m also wondering if he has any say in how they handle his stunts, especially this one. louis is a very intelligent person and i wanna believe that he has a master plan in terms of what he does.

idk much about the contracts tbh but i wanna believe that they will gain their freedom back this year. not just larry but niall and zayn as well. i want all my boys to thrive and live their lives freely. i love them so much.

i hope they are gonna be able to be seen publicly soon or that they are privately supporting each other. i know they are all probably on better terms now, especially after liam’s passing. i feel like liam’s passing made them realize how short life is. i hope they are all sticking together throughout all this and that they are supporting each other. they all deserve so much better.

[moonystoes]

Nurse? - Elisa De Almeida x reader (highschool students)

Summary: When the school has never felt this empty, you decide to escape the students by helping out the nurse. Only to find out you can't escape her.

Warning: yap sesh I'm sorry, confusion??(girl me too idk), an annoying guy x

Wc: 5.670k

A/n: Ugh writing the summary is worse than the whole fic wtf. Also finding pics and trying to make the coloring match is shit I'm sorry LMFAO. Apologies for the late post, I've been going through it in school. and as I said again, im pretty new to writing so constructive criticism or advice is needed :)

Part one

This is FANfiction. Please don't view Elisa this way.

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“Do you know who you're going to prom with?” You turned to look at Sam, walking down the school hallway to your shared class. Prom has been a topic of conversations since they first revealed it two months ago. Now, prom will happen in two weeks, and all the young teens are procrastinating to look for partners.

“Ugh, no! I don't even know why our school decided to add this thing. We don't have to copy Americans, let them do their thing and we will do our thing.” She groaned loudly. You looked around you, noticing people glancing at her weirdly.

“Okay… but the students voted for it, not the school. So technically it's our fault.” You whispered, tugging her closer to remind her to lower her voice. You thought about who might ask you out. Xavi has been eyeing you for a while, but he was caught creating fake Instagram accounts to catfish girls. So there is no possible way of you agreeing to go with him. Edward was a year older than you, and you've been chatting with him at lunch. As much as you enjoyed the conversations with him, you didn't feel anything with him. He was the most attractive guy in his grade, his hazel eyes and dark skin made the girls swoon around him. For you, his personality isn't as attractive as his face, therefore you aren't crazy about him.

Then there is Paul, your childhood friend. You've known him since first grade, sitting together at the school park. In your head, you had imagined your friendship to stay forever, until you both get jobs and live close to each other. But after the both of you hit puberty, he started to act weird and felt uncomfortable around you. You hated it, but you knew it was bound to happen anyways.

It also didn't help you how attractive he grew to be, his short dark hair matched his brown eyes but also contrasted with his pale skin. His soft smile and attentive personality made many of the girls attach to his hip. You were never insecure about your looks, but now you started to question yourself. Did he stop our friendship because I was too ugly?

At some point, some of the girls came up to you and asked what he likes so they can ‘buy him a gift’. Your response was an easy lie, ‘I don't remember, it's been years.’

That doesn't make you guys strangers, he still comes and talks to you every once in a while, just like now.

“Hey y/n… can we talk privately?” Paul startled you. You turned to look at him with confusion, the last time you talked to each other was last month when he asked for the English homework (which you reluctantly gave to him out of kindness… and because you're a people pleaser). You glanced at Sam to check if she's okay with you leaving her, she gave you a small nod and left the both of you alone.

“So… have any plans for the winter dance? Or prom I don't even know what it is.” He awkwardly grabbed your arm and pulled you to the side of the corridor to not interrupt the people walking.

“Are you asking me out as your date?” You questioned slowly.

“What! No…i mean yes. Do you want to come with me?” He shook his head, obviously distracted with something. You stayed silent for a few seconds to think about it. You aren't a ‘party’ person, but the winter prom is a new thing and you wanted to experience it for once. Paul was a complicated guy, he wouldn't talk to you for months and then approach you like nothing happened. At least when he does approach you, he treats you right, or that’s what you thought.

“Sure…do you have any planning? For the dress or just the day as a whole?” You asked. Everytime you watch an American teen movie, you imagine yourself and Mr. Perfect together at a shop buying a dress, the shocked face when they see you going down the stairs all glammed up, going to dinner before prom, and having a soft kiss at the dance…. Although now you don't really feel like sharing your first kiss with Paul.

“Oh?... What thing for the dress? And no, I didn't volunteer for the dance so I didn't plan anything with the organizers,” And just like that your hopes were crushed, of course a 14 year old boy wouldn't know a thing about romance. He clearly didn't care about what dress you'll wear, or what the both of you would do before the event. You shook your head with a sigh, faking a smile and walking past him to your class. “Ohhh! I did vote for you for prom queen… you know? So we both can be like ‘famous’. You should vote for me, if that's what you mean.”

You felt disappointed, pretending not to hear him and walked into your first class. Great. He ruined your day and it just started.

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Your parents were excited when you told them about Paul asking you. Of course, they've known him for years and his parents are in touch with yours. You were at the store trying to look for an ‘age appropriate’ dress. Your father is staying in the car, obviously fed up with the indecisive behaviors from you and your mom.

“Look, this is great!” You heard your mom cheer from the back of the store, she came up to you with a flower print dress and a bright smile on her face.

“Mom, it looks like I work on a farm.” You sighed, turning to the other side where there are dresses lined up.

“Are you serious? It looks amazing. I like it!” Yeah, you like it. You turned to look at it again, but the sadness in your mother's face caught you off guard. So you decided to lie. You grabbed the dress from her hand and turned it to see it ‘from every angle’.

“You know what? I think it's great. And it's not expensive like the other dresses here.” You faked a smile and looked at the cashier that was standing uncomfortably close to the both of you. You handed her the dress and both went to the checkout.

For you, making decisions isn't something you care about. Everytime you think of something, you'd agree with the others because at the end of the day ‘it's not that serious’. Sometimes, your friends end up scolding you for choosing people's happiness over yours. But when you turned to glance at your mother's happy smile, it was worth it.

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Wed 19th of December 2012

The next week, Paul had thrown your prom ticket into your locker with no message or any indication. At least he bought you the ticket. Sam has gotten sick as well as the other two girls close to the both of you. She had sent you a message saying she probably won't be at prom, explaining in great details of her vomit and sickness.

You felt all alone and the class has never felt emptier. Fleur had a major knee injury from football practice, two guys were suspended for a fight. Students are calling this week a curse, considering that it's wednesday and prom will just be in a few days. The filled class now is almost half empty, making the class feel quiet.

“Okay…since most of the students are absent, we won't take a lesson today,” Cheers erupted from the class, happy to not have biology. “I'm not done! You will be partnered up to discuss prom preparations.”

The atmosphere changed from cheering to groaning in a second. You glanced at Paul, wondering if he would be your partner. You hoped that Paul would realize he has responsibilities for prom today when the both of you discuss it. But as the teacher started labeling the partners, you realized that it doesn't matter who is your date, she is randomly assigning them.

“Elisa and Marie you don't need to sit at the back anymore, the class is practically empty. Elisa, you sit with y/n. Katoto, sit with Adam.” You sighed frustratingly, why her? During the two months of school, she has been treating you like dirt. Ignoring you and always avoiding you. Whenever teachers put you in groups, she'd ask the teacher if she can be partnered with Fleur instead.

But she's been more open and relaxed now, and it's somehow freaking you out. She has made some friendships there and there with the other girls. She laughs louder, jokes more with her side of the class. And even if her ignorance towards you confused you at first, it wasn’t why you were freaked out. It's how she treats the girls in class. It's like the guys…but gentler? She stares at Amy the same way the guys do, with heart eyes. And all of this frustrates you, because why is she looking at Amy like that? She's not supposed to like Amy. And why is she treating every girl in the class sweetly except you?

Everytime you catch her looking at Amy, you remember that Quora comment. Admittedly, you've been thinking about it everyday for the past 2 months. When you’re near her, you stutter and avoid looking at her eyes. Because when Elisa looks at your eyes, she can read you. And although you know you're not necessarily hiding anything, you don't want Elisa to know how she affects you.

Elisa rolled her eyes in annoyance when the teacher told her to move to sit next to you. Of course it would be you. Your bubbly and nice personality makes her sick, because right when it comes to her, you become mute. It feels as though her sitting next to you makes you feel grossed out and disgusted. It doesn't help how Sam glances at the both of you everytime Elisa walks past you. It's like you have told her something about her, that elisa is some sick joke you told her about. Growing up, Elisa realized that not many people liked her. But she didn't care, until it was you.

You were kind and sweet to everyone. Whenever anyone asks for help, you're always there. Whenever you have to be surrounded by people you don't even like, you're still respectful and treat them well. But why is it when it comes to her, you ignore her? Every time she's near you, she sees your uncomfortable glance, she’s already used to it by now, but it still breaks her.

Homophobia isn’t something surprising, it’s everywhere. But again, the most non-judgemental person… you, she didn’t expect you to be just like everyone else.

She threw her bag next to your seat as she sighed. Of course she’s already groaning around you. You rolled your eyes at her dramatic reaction, pulling open your notes to write anything you need for the prom. You wrote ‘dress’ check, ‘hair’... you’ll just straighten it, ‘make up’ you’ll ask Sam to help you with it. You glanced at Elisa, a blush ran through your face when you saw the sketch of a woman on her notes. Does she have a date? Did she get asked… or did she ask a girl out? There is no way she’d go with a boy… just the idea of Elisa with a boy makes your stomach churn, and you don’t know why it would feel better if she would be with a girl, a person like you.

“Um… so, do you have a date?” You stammered, trying to act casual about the question, as if it hasn’t been on your mind all month.

She looked away from her sketch to glance at you, “no.”

“Why not?”

Elisa was silent for a moment, “Fleur tore her ACL so she won’t come with me.”

Fleur? Why Fleur? Your kind smile slowly turned to a frown, fuck I know I said it would make me feel better if she would ask a girl out but Fleur? Does she like her? No way.

Elisa noticed the way your smile turned into disgust. At first, panic started to get into her head, would you tell everyone that she wanted her date to be a girl? It’s okay, right? A lot of girls go with their friends? Fleur is her friend. But her panic turned into anger, fuck you and your disgusting beliefs. Of course you wouldn’t like the fact she’s into women, and although she never said she's gay out loud, anyone who glances at her knows about it.

“ACL injuries are really serious, tell her I wish her a speedy recovery.” You mumbled, you didn’t know why you’re acting this way, and why does it happen every time with Elisa. Elisa ignored what you said and continued to draw. You were looking at her sketch from the corner of your eyes, what else would she add? Big boobs? Blonde hair? Is her type in girls the same as the boys’? But suddenly Elisa stopped drawing for a second and took a deep breath, then she scribbled all over the drawing, ripping the page away from her notebook and standing angrily to throw it away in the bin.

When she sat back, she moved her seat slightly away from you. You lowered your head feeling shame, what did you do to deserve this from her? Your heart did the fluttering thing again around her, but now it’s because of the heartbreak of rejection. Elisa kept on tapping the pencil on the paper, writing nothing on her notebook. You glanced at Paul, realizing that he was partnered with Amy. Because of the panic of Elisa sitting next to you, you didn’t even think about Paul. Great, Paul is with the hottest girl in class and Elisa here hates your ass, you already knew Sam would be tired from the phone call this evening.

You glanced at the teacher quickly to make sure she's not looking at you. You grabbed your phone and opened the chats between you and Sam and sent her a message.

“Sam I'm sorry for the monster I'd be when we call today.”

Elisa noticed you using your phone, slightly surprised since you've always been the ‘good’ girl of the class. She saw you texting Sam, quickly diverting her eyes away from your phone. Are you texting Sam about the drawing? Is she seriously that grossed out by a silly drawing? Elisa's frustration has faded, now filled with sorrow. How can someone be filled with that much hatred? How can you sit here and act all cute and innocent to everyone but react this way over a drawing?

Right when the bell rang, Elisa grabbed her bag and left first, not even waiting for Katoto. You breathed out slowly, glad that she's not sitting next to you anymore. The rest of the school day was miserable, feeling all alone. At lunch, you sat on the ‘loner benches’, which are placed behind the school buildings near the football pitch. It's called that because nobody usually notices it, so it's always empty. For once, you were too tired to be friendly and socialize with people you can't stand.

When you were watching the football game, you noticed Elisa playing. Sighing, you got up and walked to the building, deciding to help out the nurse in easy tasks like bandages. She likes you, and had previously written notes to the teachers for you ‘to skip’ their classes. And after what happened in class with Elisa, you really didn't want to face her again.

When you reached the nurse office, you saw Ms. Eugene frantically running around her office to grab things into her giant bag. When she turned to look at you she gasped, “oh thank God! I was about to call the office to bring you,” She grasped your arm, pulling you to sit in her office. “My daughter… she's sick, they called right now. Can you please take over my place? You know we don't have other nurses, and I trust you. You're very smart, y/n. If anyone came here with something more serious than a cut, don't hesitate to call the ambulance.” She rambled, her face filled with stress as she grasped her keys.

“I can stay here, just let the office know so I don't get counted as absent,” You were getting more worried about her daughter the more you looked at her. Ms. Eugene is a single mom of a 3 year old girl, having to carry the responsibilities of both parents as one. She nodded at what you said, and pulled the door open. “I hope everything works out with baby Lee.”

She turned to look at you with grateful eyes, and left you alone. You were stressed about the new ‘job’ you got, but excitement started filling you when you looked around. The posters, the small medications, the tapes and bandages. You can now pretend to be a nurse! You pulled out your phone to text Sam about your new adventure, until a knock made you flinch.

You glanced at the door, yelling out a ‘come in’. When the door opened, you heard Elisa's pained voice, “Nurse Eugene?”

When Elisa glanced at you, she rolled her eyes and limped outside, making sure to shut the door as loud as possible. Usually, you would be hurt at this. But by the way Elisa was limping, you jumped up from the big chair and ran out to see what happened.

“Elisa, are you serious?!” You pulled the door open, finding her limping down the stairs. She looks up to see you and asks, “What are you even doing here? Where is the actual nurse?”

“She had a family emergency,” You followed her down the stairs, “Elisa you're limping! I'm just going to tape you and you will not see my face again.” Your voice cracked as you said the last part. Usually you're good at masking your feelings, but Elisa's pained face in front of you and the way she ran away from you broke you.

Elisa groaned loudly and took a step forward, holding onto the stairs’ railing and following you back into the nurse's office. When she got in the room, she limply sat on the bed. Glancing at the wall in front of her instead of you.

She had heard the neediness from your voice, and it made her heart throb quicker. Even when you clearly feel disgust around her, at least you were worried about her right? Did you do this because you cared about her? Or because you didn't want to get in trouble?

You brought disinfectant wipes, a cotton ball, pre wrap, and a tape. You placed them near her on the bed then turned to look at her to see what actually happened. Elisa lifted her foot up to show that the injury was there, and when you looked down you saw a trail of blood and a cut on her lower shin.

You pointed at the bed as your face scrunched in worry. Awkwardly, Elisa twisted her body towards you and layed down, resting her upper body on her arms behind her. You sat on the bed too, making sure the tapes were near you.

You grabbed the wipes packet, glancing at Elisa to make sure she knows it will be painful. But she was already looking at your face, so you panicked and just placed the wipe directly at the cut.

“Fuck!” She pulled her leg away and threw the wipe away. But you grabbed her foot and pulled it to your lap, using a different wipe and attempting to clean up the cut again. Elisa’s hiss was loud, and it involuntarily made your breath hitch and bite your lip for a second. You had to stop being inappropriate and dirty minded. It's disrespectful, so you tried to ignore it and continued cleaning up the wound. But when her defined and thick calf tensed up, you froze. Of course she will have muscles… She plays football!

“Can you be quick? It's burning me.” Elisa's frustrated groan pulled you out of the daydreams, so you quickly placed your right hand on a piece of cotton there and awkwardly tried to place the pre-wrap over it with your left hand. Elisa saw you struggle so she placed her fingers on yours over the cotton pad.

You quickly removed your fingers from her warm hand, and started wrapping her shin tightly with the pre-wrap. It was easier now to be completely focused on the injury in front of you instead of Elisa’s gaze or warm hand, it was your dream to major in a medical field and you didn’t want to harm Elisa or tape it wrong.

All Elisa was doing while you were taping her shin is look at your face. She was intrigued on how you knew how to do this. For her, she plays football and it’s mandatory for all of the players to know how to tape and deal with certain injuries. But for you, she wasn’t sure on how you knew how to do this… or how you’re good at so many things, you were just perfect in everything in her eyes.

She shook her head at her thoughts and looked at your hands instead, watching you bring the sticky white tape and securing her shin just like the physio at her academy. When you were done, you softly tapped her foot, indicating that she can lift it now. She removes her foot from your thighs and twists her body to sit on the bed instead, forcedly turning her head to look at you with a thankful smile, “you taped it well, thank you.”

You shrugged and looked down at both your feet, dangling them around as you bit your lip in embarrassment, “Thank you, I’ve always wanted to do this in the future so…”

“Be a school nurse?” Elisa asked.

“No, just anything with the medical field.” You replied. Elisa didn’t realize how close you were both sitting next to each other until she accidentally nudged your foot when she started moving her feet like you. She stood up, making sure not to put her weight on her foot, and walked to the door.

“Good luck with that, you’re smart and I think you’ll be able to do it.” You looked up to see her at the door, heart slightly warming at what she said. You smiled gratefully at her and nodded, before mumbling a short, “good luck with football.”

Elisa giggled with a shrug at your comment, and closed the door behind her delicately this time. You released a breath you didn’t know you were holding and hid your face in your hands. Why was it comforting to you that she thinks your hard work will actually get you to your dream major? Did she lie to make you feel better?...Elisa hates lying, you have noticed that because everytime she doesn’t like anything she’d stay quiet…not lie.

But the door was opened shortly, Elisa appearing again with a flustered smile, “I forgot to ask you for a nurse pass.”

You raised your face from your hands and nodded in her direction, standing up from the bed to the desk and writing a note. When you reached ‘time:’ on the notes, you turned to look at Elisa, “Hey Elisa… Do you want to go to class now or walk around the school? I can lie about the time and basically give you free time.”

She looked away from a random poster and turned to look at you with a bright smile, the ones kids do when they get offered candy. “Will you actually do that for me?”

You giggled at her reaction with a nod, she skipped happily and sat on the bed again. She turned to look at you with a grateful smile and pulled out her phone from her pocket, “thank you, I can’t stand the PE teacher or any of the students.”

You hummed in agreement as you sat there awkwardly. Elisa continued scrolling through her screen, while you were just looking at her. “If the teacher asks you why it took you so long you should say that you were dizzy and almost passed out because it is mandatory for nurses to keep students in their office for a minimum of 20 minutes.”

She looks away from her phone to look at you for a second before returning her eyes back, “yeah thanks.”

You didn’t like how she wasn’t really talking to you, even when you knew she didn't like you at all. For a second, it felt like all the tension that was there in the morning had oozed away, but you soon realized that you had to accept that the discomfort Elisa felt toward you will always be the same. As you thought of a topic to talk with her, there was a knock on the door.

You glanced back at elisa to signal for her to hide her phone, before calling out a ‘come in’.

When the door opened, you saw Elisa visibly grimace and you realized that it's Paul the moment he said your name, “y/n! Or should I say Nurse y/n?”

You turned awkwardly to Elisa with a confused look. Nobody knew you were there other than the office, how did he know? Your minutes of peace were frustratingly disturbed now that other students know. Elisa shrugged to show you she didn't know how he knew, but she didn't want to admit that she did text Katoto about you helping her skip.

“Hey Paul, do you need a bandage?” You fake smiled at him. After the whole prom planning that happened, you really didn't want to be around him.

“What? No, I'm just here so you can write me a note to skip class.” He laughed as he sat at the seat near you, grabbing a note from the desk and giving it to you so you could write him one.

“I'm not allowed to do that Paul, you know that.” You looked at him disappointedly and returned the pack of excused notes back to where they were. Paul groaned in frustration. He glanced at Elisa on the bed and pointed at her, “what about her?”

“Elisa is dizzy and has to stay here for a while.”

“Y/n do you seriously believe that! C'mon, I'm your prom date! She fell and bled a little, that's all. I was there. Look! She can stand and walk normally with it taped.” He cried out, pointing at Elisa's taped shin.

“Calm down weirdo,” Elisa calmly said. She didn't like the way he was yelling at you, and she was slightly worried if you couldn't think of an excuse to tell him about how she was dizzy so she tried to waste time.

In fact, Elisa didn't know why you were doing this in the first place. Taping her shin is understandable, but helping her skip class? Memories of first period hit her, and now she doesn't understand you.

Paul turned to look at Elisa after what she said, “weirdo? Did you just call me that?”

“Paul, stop acting childish!” You groaned. “Elisa got dizzy…when girls are in their…you know what, they can feel dizzy. Especially when they lose even more blood.” You mumbled to him as you pointed at her shin. It may not be the smartest excuse, but Paul doesn't know a single thing about women's bodies and you know he's going to feel weird and awkward when anyone mentions ‘periods’.

Paul looked down in embarrassment after what you said, turning to look back at you. “Um…sorry I forgot you guys get that, I'll just leave.” He talked under his breath, before opening the door and leaving you both alone.

Both of you and Elisa exhaled in sync, before turning to each other with a soft smile.

Elisa looked away from you to the door, “he's a dick.”

You sighed as you relaxed into the seat, “Yeah I don't know what else to do with him,”

You looked at your painted nails, avoiding Elisa's glance. You wanted to speak about this with someone, but you didn't like to put your problems into someone even if it was your best friend. “He didn't even…bother to ask me out properly like the movies.”

Elisa noticed the deep frown on your face. She never expected a day where the both of you are sitting down and talking about boys, but it felt slightly better to know that you're opening up now especially after the two months of ignoring and distancing yourself from her. Maybe you weren't as mean as she made you seem in her head, and she liked this vulnerable side of you. “Well… he's a guy, what did you expect from him?”

You let out a scoff, “it just feels like no guy is good enough. We always put the effort in everything, he couldn't even care about what dress I'll wear or flowers or anything.”

Elisa wanted to make a gay joke, but she still didn't trust you enough to joke that way. And considering the way you behaved around her drawing just a few hours ago, she didn't think it would be a good idea. “You're too pretty and smart for him anyways.”

You looked up to glance at her, but she was looking at her taped up shin. Did she mean it? A deep blush ran through your face, and you let out a soft giggle at the thought of her thinking you deserve better than the most handsome guy of your class.

“Yeah? Like who?” You questioned. Maybe Elisa knows someone she can set you up with for the next prom, or maybe she can help you find the love you always yearned for but the boys are too immature and inappropriate…Or maybe she'd say she's the one for you.

Elisa glimpsed at you and stayed quiet with no response for a few seconds. She shrugged, “none of the guys here for sure. Maybe somewhere else.”

Elisa didn't like the attention you just gave her. You turned a compliment into a questionnaire she can't answer. But who is there to blame but herself, she's the one who said you deserve someone better. Elisa loved the small giggle that came out of you. No matter how much she hated your behavior towards her, she always liked making girls realize guys are trash.

You crossed your hands in front of you as you rested your head on them, looking up to Elisa from your seat. She was deep in thought, and you started wondering if she'd ever date a girl in your school. Would she give her flowers every week? Would she receive flowers?... She's still a girl no matter how different she dresses, and she still deserves them. Would she be a physical person like the students that do PDA? Or would she pretend she doesn't know her girlfriend to not gain attention?

Elisa noticed you staring at her weird, the same glance she'd see Katoto has when she looks at Adam. Her ears turned pink and she pulled out her phone to complain to Marie about the ‘Voldemort guy’ interrupting what could've been your first ever sane conversation.

You were probably thinking about Paul, right? Maybe your ‘dream’ man since the both of you were talking about it.

You realized your thoughts were drifting too much, so you closed your eyes tightly and hoped sleep would come and take you somewhere away from Elisa. You shouldn't be thinking about her that way. And you also shouldn't assume her sexuality, like what that Quora response said…even after what she said about guys.

Elisa had noticed you sleeping, so she concluded that your dreamy stare at her was probably sleepiness making you tired. She sat there and scrolled on her Facebook and Instagram.

When she realized that it had been over an hour of her time in the office, she knew she couldn't use that excuse anymore and needed to focus on the other classes. She stood up and approached you, whispering your name.

When she didn't see you react, she knew she had to touch you. But she didn't know how, childishly afraid of tapping your arm. Your fringe had been covering your face, so Elisa lightly moved them away and placed them behind your ears, hoping you wouldn't feel her touch. Elisa always had short hair and she never wanted to grow it out, but she still loved the feeling of hair in her fingers. Fleur gets frustrated whenever Elisa plays with her hair, and Katoto has braids so Elisa was ‘not allowed’ to touch her hair no matter what (she tried one day and Marie yelled at her).

Your eyes scrunched at the feeling of soft fingers on your forehead, and when you opened your eyes you saw Elisa's horrified eyes. You sat up looking confused, worrying about why she looked like she had seen a ghost. “umm… sorry for touching your hair I tried to wake you up but you didn't wake up from my voice.” Elisa rambled quickly, stepping away from you towards the door.

“Wait,” you groaned out, “You're leaving me?”

Elisa smiled at your confused face, slowly speaking so you could understand, “I spent too much time here already, I can't miss more classes.”

She almost laughed at the way your face contorted, something deep in her is warming up and now her whole body is burning. She knows she needs to leave this room before her thoughts start spiraling, so she gave you a small wave and left the office.

Maybe it was the sleepiness talking, but for once, you finally knew that Elisa is a sweet person… and your heart break from the morning today came back, when you realized that what happened today was only a one time thing.

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~ yes, the next chapter will be prom

~ fun fact, there are some countries in Europe that do prom nowadays. Maybe not back in the 2010s but this is fanfiction so xx

~ did you guys notice something about Paul's looks? yeah y/n has a type ;)

[eazy-peazy54]

ugh THANK YOU for making that will wood fandom post. okay this ask is gonna be super long and i’m really sorry to vent in your inbox but anyway. i heard about will on tumblr several years ago right after the normal album dropped but before he “blew up” (using that term loosely lol) and i’ve steadily watched his fanbase become more and more unbearable. for context i’m in my mid 20s, so unfortunately quite a bit older than a large portion of his current fans.

it’s really disappointing to me to see how strangely and unhealthily young people interact with media they like. i won’t waste time reiterating what you already said very well, but i will add something about the opposite end of the weird fan spectrum. so you basically called out some of the very public manic obsession that his younger fans display, but then there’s the other fans who do literally the opposite (to an obnoxious degree) where they say he’s literally just some guy etc. and like. i’m totally on board with the just some guy movement like yes let’s please acknowledge that artists are just people who happen to create something that you enjoy (especially small artists like will who aren’t even “famous” like he’s a niche indie artist that gained some recognition for a viral song but there are some kids out here treating him like a c-list celebrity like??) HOWEVER i do not understand why they have to act like any sort of emotional attachment to him or his work is toxic fan behavior. there’s absolutely no balance and it’s exhausting.

i personally feel like i and some of his older fans (older in age and duration i.e. mid 20s and/or been a fan since before early-mid 2021? i feel like that’s when he went viral) naturally engage in a more sane way. i personally am incredibly attached to his music, it means a lot to me, i listen to it a ton, and i also enjoy will as a person; i very much admire the brain, the mind, the person behind the art. i think he’s funny, intelligent, interesting, not to mention one of the most talented musicians / artists in general that i’ve ever come across. i like listening to him in interviews and on his podcast. and i think i manage all of that in a healthy and respectful way. i don’t think it’s difficult. but for some reason there are some fans who probably wouldn’t like the second part of that. they take “separate the art from the artist” way too far. “Do Not Have An Opinion About This Human You Perv”. it’s annoying. calling him pretty or attractive or whatever also gets met with some very weird reactions. “HE’S JUST A GUY” yes most of us are, in fact, just a guy™️ (gender neutral). saying he’s cute is not sexual harassment.

another thing that actually pisses me off so much is these fans describing and categorizing him based on their and their mutuals very specific demographic. “white teenage transmasc audhd neurodivergent mentally ill queer etc. etc. etc.” music. that is such a limited and myopic generalization. first of all, he had fans way before you, your age group is not his target demographic, nor is it his core demographic, on top of that he’s explicitly stated he doesn’t want people your age listening to him. he’s not for you. second, it absolutely makes sense that mentally ill people gravitate towards him given that he himself is severely mentally ill, so this part of the description pisses me off the least, but still, he’s also a recovering/recovered alcoholic, but i don’t see people saying he makes music for addicts? idk.

next is the queer bit. yeah gay people like him. i get it. he’s a queer safe space and that’s cool and i appreciate it but i feel like it’s still narrowing the categorization. he also has a lot of neurodivergent fans and i understand why. i think my main issue is just a combination of all of these very specific descriptors you know? like yeah he has fans that fit all of this but when you lump all of it together to describe his music and the entirety of his fandom then it becomes too much. whatever. anyway. the one that makes me the most mad is the white thing. i hate it when music that isn’t inherently racial is divided by race. it’s alienating and divisive and exclusionary and unnecessary. there are plenty of fans of color and there would probably be even more if some of y’all didn’t insist on generalizing his music based on your own limited experience. i think that’s sort of a microcosm of what a lot of poc talk about on here, about being shoved out of fandom spaces? like imagine you’re an adult queer black guy and you keep hearing about this will wood person who makes really cool music so you go to give it a try and find a bunch of 14yos calling him white preteen transmasc music. super off putting. even as someone who actually does fall into a couple (not all) of the demographics they talk about i know i would absolutely not be a fan now if i’d discovered him later than i did. which makes me sad. anyway. sorry this is definitely getting very long and rambly so i’m sorry about that i just have a lot of opinions about this fanbase.

oh my god this put everything i missed into words THANK YOU 😭

I completely agree with everything you just said!!! Honestly the whole big point with my essay was to just say "hey guys, don't be weird about this, and be respectful because there is a real person behind the screen!"

everyone who goes too far with the "HES JUST A GUY" thing isn't helping. its like. yeah, hes just a guy, but that doesn't mean i cant have any sort of attachment to his music whatsoever??? some people's idea of treating people like real people is really just treating them worse than how they were being treated before 😭

The people who are policing the fandom too much aren't helping either, its getting really exhausting to keep seeing posts saying "oh he looks really good in this photo!" and seeing like 200 replies being like "STOP SEXUALIZING YOU CREEP!!!!" (although there are people who actually do sexualize him, (which is really gross and weird) but i digress,)

music based fandoms are usually very,,, eh.. but honestly most of the fandom isn't bad, its just the people who take things to the extremes (in both directions) who are kind of making it a bit more awkward.

i think the fandom, and his music as a whole shouldn't just be narrowed down to "gay neurodivergent weirdo music," but it should just be like. "music for cool people" or hell, just fuckin "music"

[lokiinmediasideblog]

For the character ask game - What are headcanon(s) you have for Loki? (Comics or MCU, whichever you feel like)

Comics:

I have this weird HC that the yellow tassel Loki had was Sif's hair that he kept as some weird fucked up trophy to taunt her. It was definitely not his hair as his hair was black and often short. It was later drawn as yellow/golden strings rather than hair, so I probably made this shit up, but IDK I kinda like it? Seems like the sort of petty fucked up thing he'd do.

Loki is a Jotun half-breed. He just looks too different from the rest. The Doylist explanation is that they started making Jotuns bluer with time because they had regular skin tones and basically looked like overgrown Vulcans back in the day.

Loki's mouth being sewn shut is cannon in every comic run not just the ones where it's shown. I just like the angst of that myth so much.

My perception of Loki and Asgard is heavily influenced by Loki (2004) aka "Blood Brothers" where Loki is clearly a hostage/ward and everyone knows he is an adopted Jotun. So, I interpret a lot of the earlier "good Asgard, perfect Odin, perfect Thor, kind and virtuous W4" as being told by an unreliable narrator. I've mentioned before how annoyed I get by the most random and far-fetched suspicions of Loki being "proven true" by the narrative in the majority of Thor comics. Have you considered Loki's not the only one who can lie? Also, a lot of Loki's evil in earlier comics is so over-the-top and the narrative pretends there's no good reason for it. There's no way he wasn't ostracized, abused, or bullied.

Asgard has very good PR and basically chose an adopted Jotun hostage/ward to blame for everything wrong in the realm. They also like to pretend they've always been on the right side of issues and history. IDK I just get frustrated by the narrative quite often. They'll have the good guys manhandling Loki (kid!Loki too) for no good reason but "it's fine because he's evil/his past life was evil."

I ship Loki with every villain they've teamed up with.

MCU:

Frigga had lost her second child (Balder) around the time Loki was brought into Asgard. She resented Loki for a few years because "that thing got to live and Balder did not." Eventually she grew very attached to Loki, and due to guilt, she'd try to overcompensate for her rejection (of course not where it mattered because in my HCs she continued to lie even when it harmed Loki). Loki's not aware of this past having very severe attachment disorders and abandonment issues. Loki's first memories are about being rejected.

Loki had difficulty with any sort of Fire Magic due to being a Jotun but he kept practicing despite how much it harmed him because it was the only time Odin looked at him the way he did Thor. Frigga tried to stop him from doing this but of course, kept the truth from him. Loki interpreted this as her thinking him weak and doubting his magical capabilities. It put a strain in their relationship until Loki managed to conjure Fire with only minor burns. Frigga didn't make things any better, but continued to overcompensate in other ways because guilt.

Loki caused the Gatekeeper (let's call him Vili) that preceded Heimdall to lose his position after a noodle incident. Vili outed Loki to Odin which got him on Loki's shit list. It also caused Loki to learn to conceal them from the All-Sight.

Loki got into a lot of dangerous situations by concealing them-self from the All-Sight.

Either Odin permanently altered Loki's physical form and even the Casket of Ancient Winters can't undo all of it, or Loki is only partially Jotun. Again, he looks too different even when holding the Casket.

Sif and Loki were very close until Loki sabotaged their relationship by cutting her hair as a prank.

[sporadicmoontimemachine]

911 season 8B theory 😚

okkkkk so another theory. I’m very much solid on the idea that it WILL indeed be a Buck feelings and Eddie not. Before yall scream at me let me just say I don’t think it’s an actually Eddie doesn’t have feelings but he doesn’t know about them and definitely doesn’t act on them like Buck does.

I say this because after I saw the leaked scene it got me thinking about their interactions up to this point. Buck has ALWAYS put Eddie as a priority in his life and when I think about it Eddie acts more like a regular bro friend than Buck does(not by much lol). Which I think Eddie acts like that because he’s been terrible at displaying his emotions, but overall Buck prioritizes him always. From the very beginning with the animosity he had and how much he wanted Eddie to see how capable he was and eddies like yeah good for you dude don’t care 😭. Then after they became friends how he helped Eddie with Chris and became his go to person. I think this was something that Buck did himself- intentionally inserting(heh) himself into eddies life. Then I think back to season 7 and early 8 with the whole Tommy thing.

Always clocked the fact that Tommy and Eddy were basically weird doppelgängers of each other and that made it that more suspicious to me when watching their kiss scene. First I think Buck really was expecting Eddie to show up to his door not Tommy. And I think that goes back to Buck prioritizing Eddie and eddies emotions more than Eddie does him because while Eddie thought nothing of Bucks weird basketball encounter- Buck was being eaten up inside. We’ve all had that crush on someone where we over analyze every encounter only to find out no Jake didn’t actually have a hidden meaning when he said he liked your book bag.

That moment when Tommy came instead of Eddie I think he really latched on to him in that moment especially when Tommy brought up the situation that he was freaking out about. The unwillingness to analyze his emotions on why he REALLY acted crazy with Eddie plus Eddies weird double reaching out to him instead of who he really wanted made him use Tommy as a distraction.

And I think that becomes apparent with the way he reacted on the date and almost everytime tommy and their relationship was brought up. I just don’t think Buck would’ve been weird about them being on a date if it wasn’t Eddie that showed up. Then later when Bobby asked Buck was he going to see Tommy and Buck got awkward about that like uhhhh yeahhhhh. Then before when he told Eddie about Tommy and obviously wanted some other reaction from Eddie than the one he got. Like when Eddie was like omg great you and Tommy and Buck was like ….oh yeah me and Tommy. Then season 8 when Josh gave that speech and he’s like ahhh yes I think he’s a swell guy obviously if I’m dating him.

I just think that Buck is going to realize that he is completely attached to Eddie in a way we haven’t really seen Eddie match. It gives all the signs of big crush he literally turns into a schoolgirl whenever he gets positive attention from him. Now Eddie is leaving Bucks about to freak out and probably do something drastic. This may be jumping the gun but I really do see a spontaneous kiss that Eddies like wtf I love you Buck but not like that about and it makes it awkward between them. Also I’m kinda sure Eddie knows that Buck has some type of crush on him and he just kinda ignores it for what reason idk. I think maybe he likes the thought but doesn’t KNOW he likes it.

[ravenbloodshot]

Not Gong yoo and LDW casually being each others ideal types lmao! 🤣 I peep 👀 I always see LDW being so endearing to him though, like man/bro-crush vibes? I am not saying he's on the DL, I'm not the delusional type. But he looks like the type that's super intelligent and because of that finds it hard to look up to people or even see them as someone he can see as an equal or respect. I know he's the oldest, so he has eldest sibling vibes but I think he grew up quicker than he should've lol, it looks like gong yoo soothes him or is that big bro he's always wanted. I always see he turns small next to him and tries to impress him, kind of like he needs to be subdued or stroked on the head. I know it's an unpopular option because he looks scary but he's so sweet lol, I literally see it pouring out of him and he always feels responsible for his surroundings, so I think no one sees him. Which is why in your break up reading Suzy was out off by him seemingly being more heart-centred than he looked and you said it changed the way he approaches relationships etc, I wouldn't be surprised he was attracted to her and opened up and she was put off? She's probably the type that likes getting taken care of and not the other way around, so she was like you're doing too "much". His change because "oh I'm too much, for future reference I will not get too deep or show a woman my heart". I wouldn't be surprised if he's the type that struggles a lot but his "manliness" makes him look disgusting if he expresses it. Idk he looks like he needs people who see him clearly? I also don't think he's an overly sexual guy, like gong yoo. I usually see him with his red band, you know the Buddhist one? Where the wear it for abistinece of certain things? I'm not saying he's celibate lol but I know he doesn't live beyond his "means", he's a very conscious person, I don't think he ever just rolls out of bed and "does what he wants". Idk I always see these grown ass people need love lol, especially since embarking on my spiritual journey. We really all just are kids needing to be "seen"? For some reason LDW always gave me anxious attachment style whereas gong yoo is dismissive and I know those styles fit each other like a glove. It's always the scary looking ones being marshmallows though. I am also surprised gong yoo even let him get close LMFAO 🤣 I know LDW "chased" him a lot because they talk about it! He's always out here, even toxically seeing the good in people, he also gets along with everyone and stranger love him. People always invite him on shows etc? Idk he's so cute LOL 😂 (I know I'm weird) I wouldn't be surprised if they both would've loved to package each other into the perfect type for them but really they are complimentary. What one is on the outside, the other is on the inside. Also LDW always likes them cold, dismissive types lol. I see that his demeanour changes around his female co-stars when they're the cool types. He also gives to an extreme, he's always having peoples back, which gong yoo typically looks like a happy go lucky people's person but the man really is out for himself and is super hedonistic 😂. Not saying he's bad but I don't think he cares enough and wouldn't think twice about icing people out. It's giving "cut-off game STRONG". All in all, I can tell LDW feels so happy "earning" his spot in his life, I'm sure he's even surprised that he was able to pull it off. Kind of like a drag off a cigarette? Idk his energy always gives me "I'm still here", I think people think he's got his shit together lol. I wouldn't be surprised if he looks up to him and gong yoo is also intrigued by him etc. They're good friends. I want complimentary friends but my ass busy being like Gong yoo. Blissfully unaware of the reason why people like me, body looking like "better not get close, I bite not bark". LMFAO and also couldn't care about the whole kissing ass, I'm so sorry that's what it feels like to me LOL 😂. Please if you ever can, will you do a friendship reading, I would love to see this? Thanks!

Hope you don't mind, it's been a while, I come here sometimes, you're literally the only person who reads... "correctly", or satisfyingly enough? I don't know, also I saw you apologise to an anon talking about "they're either dating or they're not" and you were talking about how you come across some way, you said "whoever said he's either dating or not, isn't saying anything at all because the entire population is either dating or not" etc, idk word for word verbatim but ima have to say you don't owe anyone an apology! That anon said "I have to monitor what I say etc and took it out on you, when they were projecting their lack of understanding and then blamed you and made you monitor what you said and apologise for your own words? Also, why are people bringing up other "readers" if they can't take criticism, they better had learned how to read cards themselves, the audacity!? It's not your business to correct or respond, you are already doing way more than the average reader and excellently engaging with people and nobody is paying you for it. This is incredible and unbelievable, to have this calibre of content for free and actually be a lit ass person, I will literally attack any disrespect shown towards you! Sometimes people think we're doing exactly what they're doing. It pains me to see you had to "correct" yourself when they were literally fighting their own projection and lack of understanding of others. Go back and read it from an objective perspective, you'll see! I want you to take back that apology, even energetically if you can! Something else I want you to know Raven, we LOVE you and we think you communicate CLEARLY, whoever wants to understand it WILL! If anything, you're the only tarot page that reads on people and actually SAYS something that I frequent and enjoy, you actually talk to people properly and read and entertain us. You're the last person who should get attacked. We love you, don't change and don't apologise! Take care you lil sexy bird 🐦‍⬛❤️

— Lip Service Girl 💄💋

Spot on as always 👏👏

A friendship reading between these two does sound interesting, I'll make it happen. Tbh, I never saw a scorpio/cancer dynamic where the Scorpio was the sweetheart (the chaser), and the cancer was more standoffish (or should I say the runner). I found their personality differences/similarities very intriguing.

Also, thanks for understanding and supporting me. Me giving that apology wasn't really bc I thought what I said was wrong in any way, but bc i knew I hurt that anon. They sent separate asks and it just seemed like they wanted to feel like they didn't have sensor their thoughts or have their opinions shut down. And ik exactly how that feels. I didn't like that I made them feel that way even if I didn't mean to.

[silasamerica]

unpopular opinion for a rarepair again (not sorry) but I’m kinda sad more people don’t explore how wrong Jim’s is when it comes to Edward.

Jim Gordon wasn’t Edward’s friend. Never once did he ever show anything more than the niceness you’d carry for your acquaintances or coworkers to Ed. Never once does he try to stop bullock’s (who is bullying Edward for ableist reasons and is Jim Gordon’s closest friend mind you) bullying of Ed, let alone anyone’s else bullying of Ed. Like guys the ableism it’s right there and he didn’t do shit please please please…. To Jim, ed is just a guy pre finding out he’s genuinely insane. He’s just a guy who helps him and is kinda a bit too weird for him to want to hang out with for long, but still just a guy. A guy to just use a bit of and then leave behind because the cons of hanging around him for too long for too much. He’s doesn’t have strong feelings for Ed ever really and gets confused by Ed being attached to him for basic human kindness. It’s so one sided it makes me wanna pull my teeth out.

Its one sided nature makes him now suddenly switching gears and claiming he and Ed were friends IS what makes it so tragic to me!!!! They were not friends!!! This is just a lie Jim is telling himself in order to avoid responsibility. He’s twisting what really happened between their brief interactions in order to avoid any slight accountability for Ed becoming like this. Even despite Ed being basically in a psychotic break when he was point that gun at Jim, he was ultimately right about their dynamic. And Jim can’t accept that.

Also we both know season one Ed wasn’t the soft meek angel Jim paints him as now due to guilt. No the fact he wasn’t Jim fell for the facade. Ed has always been his narcissistic snooty insecure self he just had to hide it from everyone in season one in order to be safe. We literally see his ego leak out and show itself multiple times(Kristen interactions, the fucking hands in the locker incident, him smirking when it came to bullock having his shift before Jim’s, you get the point). While it is important to acknowledge season one Ed is very much insecure which Jim gets right, he never truly understood Ed.

like guys why can’t we just ship two egoistical men together that’s so fun. They weren’t friends before this entire dynamic happened because Jim got curious. Sure Ed could have a one sided crush on Jim in season one that makes sense but idk it feels exteremly important narratively for Jim to NOT CARE for Ed back then and let his bullying completely slide. Like please guys see the vision

NYGMAGORDON IS SO FUN WHEN BOTH OF THEM UNDERMINE THE OTHER BTW….ED PAINTING JIM AS A FOOLISH IDIOT WHO KNOWS NOTHING WHILE JIM PAINTS ED AS A WEIRD LUNATIC WHO USED TO BE SO PURE AND INNOCENT BEFORE HE JUST SNAPPED FOR NO REASON JUST LIKE HOW HE PAINTS BARBARA IN THE SHOW!!!! PLEASE!!!! IT BEING ONESIDED FOR MOST OF IT AND JIM ONLY FOOLING AROUND WITH ED LATER OUT OF CURIOSITY AND GUILT WOULD BE SO INTERESTING PLEASE HEAR ME OUTTTT

[cruesuffix]

Mars dream. Ngl this one made me sad idk why tho. He was with his grandkids. There was a fashion show and mick wore a dress. It was really funny and he didn't care. He let one of them wear his hat. I'm %100 sure marsman has grandbabies. Stormy said so. They have to be in their 30s or mid 20s now. In the dream they were kids. Idk why I dreamt that.

Is it wrong I'm scared of that goth grandpa dying? Ik we all do it and it's going to happen eventually. I'm scared of anyone dying tbh. I did have a nightmare where it did happen last year. I woke up to see if it DID happen fr. There was false news at the time where he passed on. Thankfully ofc he didn't die. I hate clout chasers sm. I don't understand why there's rockers OLDER than Mick who don't get treated badly or bad mouthed but Mick gets treated like he's feeble, confused and sick when he's fine other than being in constant pain 24/7. I do not have AS but it's safe to say that sounds like ableism and everyone wants to put him down. When Mick goes away, I don't want him to suffer or be in pain. I don't want his family to be upset. I don't want motley crue to pull some stupid shit that would ruin him iykwim bc you know how people are when someone dies. Sorry for bringing depressing shit on your blog, I needed to say it. I worry about him. Kinda makes me emotional. Idk why I'm like that.

mars dreamer… :((( i totally get this ask a thousand percent.

first of all, i love the cute little dream. i wish we could have seen mick in a dress, that would have been cute! and yes, mick does have grandkids (a whole bunch!), and i think most of them are in their 20s-30s. cute that they were all small though. i guess there’s something sort of melancholic when i remember this guy is an actual grandfather and all that… i don’t call him peepaw for nothing!

and i guess that brings me to your second point. i’m sorry about that nightmare, that’s a big fear of mines as well rn. and, i feel the exact same way. for me, it’s gotten to the point where i can’t listen to their music most of the time because i have this crippling fear that i’ll jinx something. it’s hard to explain and it probably just sounds weird. i still watch live concerts of theirs on yt though, so this isn’t me “admitting i don’t listen to their music” cause i do… just not in a normal sort of capacity. i can’t even think about that without feeling like i’ll jinx it. it’s just unnerves me. it’s like… i was almost a full fledged fan back in 2022, but i stopped because i was like “i like peepaw too much i don’t wanna get attached and then something happens!” but now i kick myself for not getting into them more cause… i could have spent a lot of time really getting into them! now it doesn’t matter to me, it’s been a year and i still love them so idc.

you also bring up a great point that i never really thought of before. mick does get treated horribly by the rock community (and he has for decades tbh). so many rockers, like ozzy for example, are revered by the community. i mean when ozzy said he was willing to do one last show with sabbath everyone was going crazy talking about how legendary he is and how they’d pay money just to see him sit in a chair and perform and all that… but even during motleys “final” tour in 2014 everyone was talking about how the Crüe “keeps bringing that corpse onstage.” it’s such a weird double standard that i do think is rooted in ableism. we have to remember, mick was disabled for his entire career. from 1981 to 2022 he performed while disabled and in pain. yes, he is older and his disease has gotten worse over the years but… this is still the same man who dedicated his life to playing guitar. nothing about those last few shows of his in the Crüe suggested he couldn’t, so idk ppl still make those same jokes over and over again. as if he can control how he looks… its just weird.

i will say though, even though peepaw is usually mia online, i do still get worried a bit, which i know is unnecessary and weird but… i can’t help it! i just hope he’s doing ok right now and that he’s safe and comfortable. people do make up a bunch of rumours and i hate it cause i never know if it’s true or not. i remember someone on tiktok once commented that mick broke his hip and i was like “wtf?!!!” so i asked them if it was true and they said they didn’t know… i know they meant well but i wish ppl would stop saying things they don’t even know are true or not! nearly gave me a heart attack! like… we know peepaw can’t afford to break another hip… he’s barely got two! (joking joking… still!) side note: i don’t even want to think about what the Crüe would do when that time comes… a think a nice little in memoriam on insta would suffice. no need for anything else, especially from that big yapper.

ok ok, now i’m rambling!! all i can say is, you’re not alone mars dreamer. that is a constant thought in my head i wish would go away. i worry about that man all the time, all i can do is hope he’s ok. i hope he’s surrounded by love constantly, because that’s what he deserves. i know i don’t really like talking about this but i do want to comfort people who feel this way as well. I think we’re all a little paranoid and worried about mick, it’s something we can’t help because we do treasure him so dearly. anyone who puts him down should suffer (joking… but also side eying anyone who does!), and mick should be comfortable and safe wherever he is. dw mars dreamer, i’m emotional about that man 90% of the time.

[eebeewrites]

I feel like callon is that friend that can fully find out everything about a person off of just there name

It’s not even something he learned from being part of mafia it’s just a talent he has. Like during a meeting someone mentions an old friend they had or something and callon pulls out his phone. 15 mins later when everyone moved on and forgot Callon randomly speaks up and now knows their birthday, height, social media, friends, family, work, social security number. Everyone just stares at him wondering how he did it and he just pulls an Elle woods “what, like it’s hard?”

I also feel like Anthony can do it, I’ve kinda just been making him up temporarily. Ezra one night mentions an old friend he has beef with or something. 5 mins later Anthony just speaks up, with his deep voice (still love the quiet shy voice who actually has a deep voice) and has all the persons info. Callon then joins him and they both spend an hour getting enough information of the person that they probably know him better thann be themself. I also feel like because hes really good at reading people’s vibes so he was even able to fully understand the persons personality just from the posts

(Piggybacking that I find it funny and sweet to think that Ezra immediately caught on that callon was probably part of something bad or had a dark secret but also could tell he’s good so he decided that it was still worth being his friend and ignore it. One time when Callon was feeling bad after a mission Ezra was randomly like “you’re good, Callon. We know you are, don’t worry “ or something and callon was so confused but it made him feel better none the less)

~⭐️ anon who’s forming an attachment to Anthony even though we know basically jack shit about him (this is me being stupid, and is not accurate to Anthony most likely but it’s funny)

Callon is the type of person to act really silly and call himself stupid constantly, only to casually pull out some big brain shit. Something that’s been mentioned throughout Tali’s story is the school they go to is pretty prestigious; it’s not Yale or Harvard, but they only admit around 35% of applicants. Sure, his dad might’ve made some hefty donations, but he got in on his own merit, even if he didn’t go as hard as Alex. After all, at the end of the day Callon had decent grades at a fancy private school and played an instrument well. Without his father’s ‘assistance’ it would’ve been close, but he’d manage.

Anyway, yes. I feel like Callon, despite being told not to, is on every social media platform out there. He’s smart enough to scrub location data before posting, but he’s hot and he wants the world to know that. On the contrary, Alex doesn’t have any social media whatsoever. He only gets this world’s equivalent of Snapchat when Callon asks him to, but once they start officially dating he kind of abandons it once Callon just starts sending him sexy photos over texts (that he absolutely has saved in a secret folder to jack off to while Callon’s busy).

Anthony’s fun because everyone has this intricate backstory or connection to someone important, and Anthony is just. There. He’s just a guy. But that’s why he’s charming I think. I feel like Anthony’s the type of person who’s just like “yeah this is all public record dude” or “this just shows up on google, you should really be more careful.” I think he’d end up in some sort of cyber security type career, whereas Tali just wants to make video games.

Also Anthony absolutely knows who the fuck Callon is. He hasn’t told anybody, but I like the idea he figured it out through something really silly. I also still am kind of into the idea of Callon trying to hook up with him either before him and Alex are official, or during one of their breakups, and either A) getting turned down immediately or B) Anthony agrees to it, but Callon’s already drunk off his ass and the entire night is just him sobbing and saying way too much.

Idk is it weird I want to write them hooking up? Like there’s a lore reason for it, bro is hypersexual and using that to cope with a lot of his issues, but also like. Callon’s just kind of The Bottom of All Time and has a massive voice kink.

I think he totally on the downlow has fantasized about being gangbanged by all his friends, but he’d never bring something like that up to Alex unless he brought it up first. Also still wanna write Rennyn hooking up with him at a party, but I think that’s also partly because I think writing Rennyn with a power bottom would be very interesting. All my ocs are Barbie dolls that I wanna just slam together for the hell of it, like the smut can be just for sillies. I also kinda wanna write a dubcon/noncon thing with them? Idk, as mentioned again below, Callon is my punching bag for all my own trauma manifestations and what not

Who knows, I might even end up writing something with a reader fucking tali’s dad just for shits and giggles. Which is hilarious, because his first introduction in my main project is him turning down a student propositioning him for the same damn thing LMAO like he’s 650 years old he probably gives crazy head if u think abt it. “We haven’t heard anything abt tali’s mom” it’s me sry yall I just need a 650 year old elf man to fuck me /j probably won’t tho bc it’d be REALLY ooc for him to do something like that. But also he’s so fineeeeee idk. Maybe I’ll write it just for me. As a treat.

Tbh it’s probably got something to do with how I relate to Callon a lot especially on topics such as gender and hypersexuality but that’s a conversation for another day. Yay for being nb and traumatized!

ANYWAY I think that’s kinda gonna be how it ends up. At first Ezra is disgusted with Callon, but there’s gonna be a turning point in the story where he, and even Taleisin’s father, are just kinda like. Man. I’m so sorry bro that’s so fucked. Oh my god.