#alcohol and narcotics

[introspectivememories]

bear wears this every chance he gets and tim fucking hates it (but his cults anonymous group loves it so ha! suck on that timothy)

[gaysexdungon]

Any druggies wanna be friends on discord so we can talk about drugs together

About me: I am 18, love to write, love death cab for cutie, any pronouns, love plushies, also insane but sweet

Drugs I take: ecstasy, weed, alcohol, adderall/adhd meds, benzos, opiates, cough syrup (otc)

I want to talk about drugs with someone but non drug users find it uncomfortable

DM for discord don’t be a creep

[mishalnasir]

Relapse

One more time,

Let me have a taste of heaven,

You call it insanity,

Drinking at night from six to eleven,

Just one more pill,

And the sadness will go away,

Once I am under the influence,

Who cares if I listen or I disobey,

Give it to me,

Some ketamine and those happy pills,

You’re scared of me now,

It’s giving you ticks and chills,

Take the back seat,

Look at me go down with the ride,

I thought I was invincible,

Because I didn’t have anything to hide

[moss-gender]

addiction recovery tips

1. Protect your space. You don’t have time for bullshit anymore. Cut out the people you’ve been meaning to cut out. Make the most space for the people who have chosen to believe in you. Spend less time on social media. I’ve deleted my facebook and instagram apps. It doesn’t have to be permanent but you need to avoid triggers and to an emotionally sensitive person like many addicts are due to Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome social media is full of triggers. It’s shown that social media makes you compare your lives to others leading to a lacking mindset rather than one of appreciation for what you have.

2. Find a recovery group. The important part is making community outreach a regular part of your week. Some people go to meetings everyday. There are plenty of meetings out there. AA, NA, DRA, SMART recovery, recovery dharma… if you don’t like the meetings you have available I recommend going anyway to connect with people. Take what resonates and leave the rest behind.

3. Take it a day at a time. You don’t have to commit to being sober for a lifetime, though hopefully you get there eventually. Just be sober today. 24 hours. And then do it again tomorrow.

4. Be as open about recovery as possible. Shame is a normal part of recovery but the more people you’re open with the more chances you have for increasing your support network. Outside of meetings, a support network is very important. No one is an island.

5. If you need to, “kill” yourself. Kill the old you. You have a blank slate. You’re starting fresh. You aren’t defined by your past. Reinvent yourself. Dare to dream big. You’ll need to have hobbies and goals to distract yourself when you get urges. Because you will get them. And sometimes it will be very bad. It helps to have a routine activity you enjoy to engage your brain and tap into your rational mind.

[chefkids]

I find it very interesting that Natalie suggested Carmy go to Al-anon instead of Nar-Anon. Most of the meetings he spent talking about Mikey, but we know his addiction was painkillers. Carmy said he didn't even know Mikey was using drugs, but he definitely knew of his mother's alcohol problems. He never mentions her in the meetings, at least not directly.

Even though Mikey's death was devastating for him, Natalie knows that he's never going to be okay without addressing the real root of his mother's issues and how it all impacted him before Mikey even died. I really need them to come face to face in Season 3.

[mels-wanderland]

Rock.

The best part about Rock bottom is the Rock part. You discover the solid bit of you. The bit that can't be broken down further. The thing that might be your soul. At our lowest we find the solid ground of our foundation. And we can build ourselves up. Renewed.

[gnomeherbs]

Working on a cute lil friendly discord server & I would love if people joined. I'm still building it, please be kind but feedback & suggestions are totally welcome! You are not required to be over 18 but it is suggested.

[truecampbell]

So true.

[soup-is-here]

Mouthwashing Spoilers

TW: Addiction and Self Harm

I wanna go on about Swansea's final monologue but it's hard to put into words, but I'm gonna try anyways cause it's a short, but strong story about autonomy again. This post ended up significantly longer than I wanted though

It's the autonomy to choose the "less healthy" option because it's appealing to you. It's the moral assignment to normality and stability. An alcoholic is an alcoholic by choice, technically, but do they owe us otherwise? Is it morally reprehensible to enjoy taking LSD at a party? Should we see someone as less than because they relax with a xanax instead of a hot shower? It's not healthy. We know that. We've seen anti-drug ad after ad after ad. But is that the part that's morally wrong, in and of itself? Does enjoying the drugs and chaos make Swansea a worse person?

Like him talking about his entire life and ending it by saying between the "stable" "normal" life and him waking up every morning with a new hangover, he preferred the latter. People always talk about getting clean and fixing their lives and Swansea did it! He did the thing "good men" do! A wife and kids and a trade job and sobriety! He was doing it! He was finally "worth" something!

And he hated it! I mean I don't know if he actually hated/despised it, but he misses his previous life. He misses drugs and partying and living like you might not wake up the next day. He said the thing that changed him was seeing himself dead in a ditch under the bright beam of a streetlight. Now he's looking down the barrel of a gun. And as he looks down it, he looks back. That was his preference. It felt good to be like that. And he wouldn't be here if he stayed there

We always have a narrative about drugs or gambling or sleeping around where a person suddenly realizes that they aren't "doing anything" with their life and becomes stable and it's always played like addiction is a false pleasure. Swansea got to the stability people said would be the real pleasure of life and that just wasn't true for him. One bad paycheck could've been the difference between his stable life and falling apart anyways. His lifestyle was going to kill him someday apparently, yet he's staring down the barrel of a gun at his steady trade job to feed his wife and kids.

I don't know quite how to word it but Swansea is the poster child for rehabilitation. There's this weight to him saying his alcoholic period was the best time of his life. Like it just hits at that pang that makes people wear DARE shirts while smoking weed and post those videos of smoking 100 cigarettes at once. Anti-vaping ads tell you about the damage they do to your body but everyone knows that already. Everyone knows "this is what your brain looks like on drugs." I smoke medical marijuana and it isn't good for my lungs but it's good for my pain. Doing drugs isn't good for me and I know that and that's sorta the point sometimes.

I don't know it's just this weird pang where I know what Swansea means, just not to nearly the same extent. I don't have an addiction so I don't think I could fully understand it. Maybe a better thing I could relate it to for myself is self harm. It's not healthy sure, but who do I owe health? Myself? Other people? And what is healthy? Is it feeling better now? Is it resisting now and feeling worse for it until it stops? What if the coping skills I learn make it worse? What if they make it better? Do I want it to get better? Does Swansea want to get better? What would better feel like to either of us?

Who knows until you try. Swansea got a collared shirt, a mortgage, and a credit card. He got a job and a wife and kids. He got sober. He got healthier, depending on your definition.

But did he feel better? He's looking down a barrel of a gun and he has to decide if he feels better. It doesn't seem like he regrets his new life. He says he wants his kids to be better than him. He wants good things to happen for them. He saw himself as one bad slip away from falling again. I don't think he felt better though. I think he got healthier. He likely would've ended up in the ditch he dreamt about, but we don't know that. We also don't know if that's what he'd prefer. But, we do know he got healthier, depending on your definition.

[cleanaf]

[ellisdee161]

Lightning Aesclepeon 2022

[exjunkiebaby]

6 months clean

One week ago I accomplished 6 months of being clean and sober, totally abstinent from ALL drugs (including weed). I have never had this much time since I was 16 years old. I can’t tell you how I did it. I’m in shock and awe at myself. My family is actually proud of me. The people I love can sleep soundly. I no longer cause chaos in everything I touch. I feel free.

I guess I did it one day at a time. That’s all I could do. I’ve been wanting to use again, but logically it makes no sense. I can’t go backwards - I’ve worked so hard to get here. I currently have covid but I have never been so in love with my life. Most days are endless and boring, but occasionally I am surrounded by burning bright souls. My sister, my parents, my friends - admiring my brothers accomplishments from afar - I love them all so much.

If you are hopeless and alone, I understand you. I feel you. I was once in your shoes and I wanted to die. I wanted to do fentanyl, fall out, and pass away. But I wasn’t ready to put my loved ones through my funeral. I wasn’t ready to leave a shore of monumental pain. Going to rehab for the 5th time truly fucking saved my life.

I can get one year. I know it! Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers throughout this journey - they worked!

[deelitefulrecovery]

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[italianpawg]

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[mishalnasir]

Someone told me to try it sober. So I wake up each morning to forget about the past a little bit more. I try to smile a little bit more. The junkie lifestyle started from the age of eighteen and lasted for a while. But now I want to live life -I want to try it sober.