#actually idk why it feels wrong here | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nabaath-areng · 3 months ago

Text

i just wanted to play around with gpose aimlessly i dont know who all these people are-

#the screenshot equivalent of just aimlessly drawing random character designs youve never seen before #i save all designs i do in case i wanna use them #whether thats for actual developments sake #for using just for fun in private #or for the development of other already existing characters i use #only just started with posting the resulting screens cause so damn many feels like a waste #so here we go with the tag:#silvis side characters #normally id use general tags but...#actually idk why it feels wrong here #'maybe cause theyre not chars i actually use + its just a screenshot dump of several of them at once #maybe ill add later shall see

12 notes · View notes

evermorepeyton · 3 months ago

Text

64 quotes and maaaany comments acting like this person actually murdered someone or something pls

#actuallyyyyyyyy i like them because they play games and their personalitiiies and their friendship okay good for you that you’re so superior #like of course i like their personalities but is it that crazy of a take? come on #isn’t it like at least something to consider?#not as a sole reason but as at least a very important one?#here’s the thing though no matter what was said targetting one person for saying something #not even that crazy to me mind you #is weird to me like #not that all of the comments are particularly aggressive but if it was me having so many people being like #actually you’re wrong and weird and no one watches them for the ship you’re just fetishizing them!!!!#i’d be like okay damn is it that serious #like there’s at least sort of a point here #why are we lying to ourselves #and we can disagree but 65 people against 1 feels weird to me idk #dnp #dan and phil #phan #phil lester #dan howell #daniel howell #dnp tit #d&p #dip and pip #amazingphil #dnptit #dnp games

109 notes · View notes

menlove · 9 months ago

Text

I'm ngl I get raising awareness but seeing ppl draw like. cutesy fanart of their faves waving palestinian flags feels so dystopian & a little disrespectful/tone deaf. or posting about how "fave character from x show would support palestine" like. there's no problem imo w still participating in fandom while bad things happen in the world but it just gets very odd and tone deaf when we start crossing them over. like there's people dying, I really don't know that it's appropriate to bring up how glup shitto would oppose that. maybe you as your own person can do that on your own perhaps? without making it about fandom? like idk! it's just odd behavior To Me.

#like you don't need to make it about fandom...... it's just :/#like it's different when you had smth like captain america during ww2 created by a jewish man #precisely for the purpose of representing what was going on #and taking an issue and fandomizing it #like if a palestinian made a palestinian superhero and drew comics of them fighting the idf like #that's one thing #or all the incredible art that's come out to raise awareness in general #BUT WHY DO YOU NEED IDK STEVE FROM STRANGER THINGS TO WAVE A PALESTINIAN FLAG.... ITS JUST NOT.....#it feels so insensitive to me #ofc if actual palestinians come in and tell me I'm wrong here and they love those posts #I'll glady be wrong #but it just feels so disrespectful

83 notes · View notes

oceanwithouthermoon · 1 month ago

Text

another thing i dont like about the belief that soulmates are a strictly romantic thing is like... people in this fandom will be like "aiura and saiki are only not dating because hes aroace" which does not make sense and is weird 😭 so like you think soulmates have to be romantic but it can cancel out if one of them is physically incapable of feeling romantic feelings... which, even though its STRICTLY romantic in your mind, is apparently totally possible and somehow more acceptable than just not dating your "soulmate" because you dont like them like that

"theyre not dating AND hes aroace" makes sense. "theyre not dating BECAUSE hes aroace" does not make sense.

#im definitely not properly phrasing this but i feel like other aroace people will get what i mean #it sets up this weird 'you WOULD like them like that if you werent aroace' thing which is... ough not a good thing to say imo #it makes it seem like them being soulmates means theyre SUPPOSED to be together #and him being aroace is like an anomaly that went wrong #does anyone get what i mean #can we all please just accept that soulmates doesnt automatically mean two people are romantically in love #it makes everything make sense and also not gross #idk maybe this is personal maybe im the only one bothered by this #but i dont think so #im not going to go into why i dont like when people use aroace as a term when they actually strictly mean 'romance averse aromantic'#or 'non-partnering aromantic'#but i digress #whole other conversation #meows post #also i feel like i should tack onto this that yes i was reminded of this because of a post on here but in no way am i targeting them #sometimes this is just a really simple phrasing issue and they probably dont mean it like this at all

27 notes · View notes

twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 7 months ago

Text

@dollsuguru pspspspps……….. the teeniest tiniest sneak peek just for u ………………..

#THIS IS A WORK IN PROGRESS OK I BARELY KNOW THIS MAN #idk why my first thought was to write him crying ok….. don’t look at me……. i just think he’d look pretty w tears in his eyes </3 #kairo do i have ur approval so far…………….. is he the type to cry . like at all. i can see him being a bit of a closeted crybaby #BUT I DONT KNOWWWW writing abt characters when u havent finished the source material is so terrifying 🥲🥲#im out here feeling like the author herself is gonna come after me if i write him wrong #(also trust that i’m breaking into ur dms when i Actually get started on this i’m gonna need u to be my coauthor i fear 😞)#ari noises ✩

52 notes · View notes

thegreatyin · 5 months ago

Note

this nemesis ambition started out a little slow but I am getting closer to finding that bastard who killed my wife, and I’ll not rest a minute now that im far closer to on his trail

sorry got in character for a second

Anyways fun ambition so far very fucked up though

congratulations on joining the murder club anon!!!! depending on who you ask the name refers to either people who have murdered or people who have witnessed murder. usually both. actually extremely often both. it's a swell time you'll feel right at home (don't mind our collective skyglass knife collection in the back)

#im still not far into nemesis personally but im very much enjoying it #honestly in a weird way it feels like it's moving faster than HD did. which. is funny bc nemesis is like The gated behind item grinds quest #idk. HD was a fun slowburn where we adventured around gathering our rogues gallery before the action kicked in #nemesis on the other hand feels like im picking up halfway through a batman serial #fallen london #ask #it's WAY more fucked up right off the bat than HD was. honestly ive thought abt red honey for ages. that's so fucked up #and we LEAD with that?? Okay #definitely a horrors-filled ambition befitting caeru (the guy who's constantly going through horrors)#it really encourages you to get fucked up and freaky and in ur character's headspace at basically every step along the way #i only have HD to compare it too but HD was like. a lot more interpretative in comparison? at least to me. that's what it felt like #and i adore HD for that dont get me wrong here #HD just also waited until like. halfway through before it asked what the scoundrel actually Wanted out of its heart's desire #nemesis in comparison is right off the bat who died? who are you mourning? anguish. justice. there must be vengeance.#it's a delightfully different vibe!! i like it!!!#oh god sorry anon im doing the classic yin talking way too much in the tags thing again #i havent had much excuse to talk abt nemesis and what i think of it so far and of course its rp effects on caeru #but i do have a handful of thoughts on it #it's good. im liking it so far. it's starting very strong if nothing else. and i have no spoiler knowledge of what happens in the future #beyond the choice between rewards at the very end #and im SO curious how we'll get to that point. what horrors will we adventure through next? off we go to find out!#it's biggest glaring weakness so far is how horrendously grindy it is. and like. ive been warned and done my research ahead of time #im doing it on the same account im seeking. i knew what i was getting into. but also gots damn.#in comparison HD's 5-card lodgings and dreamgate feel like footnotes #anyway while im already way too deep into rambling did you know the honey trip gives you fate?? insane. why does it do that. hilarious even

39 notes · View notes

squarebracket-trickster · 9 months ago

Text

Sorry guys, rant incoming. I considered deleting this but I put too much effort in.

"girlboss" "girl dinner" "girl math" "boy math" "gen z are making fun of us for wearing x" "here's how to dress like gen z:" "girlies" "girl's night" "boy's night" "me and the boys" "90s kid"

"I don't feel like an adult" "I'm 34 and I can tell you, I still don't feel like an adult either." "My parents seemed like real adults when they were my age." "I still feel like a teenager."

Maybe you'd feel more like an adult if you started calling yourself one. Maybe you'd feel more like an adult if you stopped trying to dress like a teenager. Maybe you should move your bed out from the wall and get a wallet. Maybe find a calendar app that works for you.

You are an adult. Even if you live with your parents. Even if you do part-time shift work at minimum wage. Even if you haven't graduated college. Even if you are single. These are adult things to do. Because you are doing them. And you are an adult. Start treating yourself like an adult. Fake it 'till you make it if you have to.

In other, writing-related, news:

That trend on TikTok of 20-40 something women authors (and writers yet to be published) promoting their books like,

"Omg! I can't believe I've sold X number of copies!! I never thought I would!" "Ahhhh imagine publishing your book and all your dreams come true and now you get to meet famous authors and work with big names in the industry!!" "Would you read a book where [proceeds to list a bunch of oversaturated tropes that tell me nothing about the actual plot]?"

It reeks of infantilization. If you didn't believe anyone would want to read your book, why should I? You made it on the NYT bestseller list! Stop acting like a mega-fan who got to meet a celebrity. You are their peer! "Would you read a book--" What if I wouldn't? Why does it matter to you what I think of your book? And for the love of god stop hiding behind tropes you know are already popular. "Here is my book: This is what it is about." Have some goddamn confidence.

It is fine to mention in passing "this idea was really far-fetched so I didn't know if it would appeal" or "I was struggling with self-esteem when I wrote this". It's fine to fan a little bit. It's fine to discuss the tropes in your book. But why are you building your brand as an author off of your inferiority complex? You are using your poor self-esteem as a marketing tactic to seem "humble" and "relatable" but it's coming across as unprofessional and desperate for reassurance. You are an adult. You are competent. The more you act like it the more you will believe it.

And of course, I haven't seen a man promote his book this way...

On another note, do any of the 20-40 something women writers who do "write with me" videos on TikTok actually enjoy writing or are they just doing it for the aesthetic?

They all have gorgeous minimalism writing spaces full of white and pink and a macbook beneath a window. Their makeup is done and they are conventionally pretty to start with. But their entire video is just them talking about how little progress they made, how many pages they deleted, how often they got distracted, how frustrated they are. And like, yeah. We all have those days. But what about the good lines you can't wait to share? The days when the words just flow? The cool stuff you learned while researching? Why don't you ever make videos about that?

Is this some other attempt to seem "relatable" by only talking about the "bad" side of writing? Because again, it's coming across as lacking confidence at best and, at worst, that you don't actually know how to write. And that is not the brand you want as an author.

Again, its always women. Why must women market their self-esteem issues in order to sell their art? Why must we be perpetually awestruck children (girlies, book girls) in over our heads?

#also why do I get the sense these women are selling a lifestyle more than they are actually promoting their own books?#I feel like someone more qualified than me could link this to modelling good christian gender roles #and cultural conformity or something #it isn't lost on me how much of this is about trying to seem humble #and how much validation is tied to protestant success and hard work ideas #is this where the indoctrination starts?#give us 'role models' as influencers #also Alex Aster of Lightlark fame is the WORST for this #her content makes me physically sick to watch #and again interesting that it is pretty widely agreed on at this point that she is an industry plant #interesting that the industry plant is leaning so heavy on the humility and infantilization of women tactics #as though appealing to protestant christians is a major concern of the industry #what's that about? is it just sales? or is it related to those evangelical groups trying get books banned?#how much influence does conservative christian america have within the trad pub industry?#maybe I am really reaching here idk #I don't have any sources #it's just speculation I am open to be proven wrong

50 notes · View notes

icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

Text

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

12 notes · View notes

longagoitwastuesday · 2 months ago

Text

Jacob Elordi and Margot Robbie as Heathcliff and Cathy seems like out of The Onion

#Who knows maybe they'll be amazing like how Tom Hardy is able to pull being an amazing Heathcliff #But I doubt it I've never been into any of their roles much idk #And also #Couldn't they just #Even if they were amazing #Couldn't they just cast amazing people that actually fit the air vibes and look of the characters?#And not just some actors that are popular at the moment of the process of filming?#Besides very popular actors playing very popular characters is always ALWAYS wrong #I don't understand at all #And in 2024 year of our lord or whatever how do you cast a white man as Heathcliff? With all the significance it has?#Have you read the book or only wikiquote?#I think Jacob Elordi is a better fit than some others before him. At least he has some charm and you could believe he could throw a punch #But. Couldn't they just. Cast a man that also has physical presence but that fits the description of the book #and is not the pretty boy of the moment? It's detrimental for such an iconic character that the actor is that well known #and Heathcliff being non white is key. How do you mess that up every time ahfkabdkskd or #This will sprout more obligatory Dev Patel fancast and I don't want to see that either #Dev Patel is also famous and doesn't fit Heathcliff at all in vibes or looks. He is lanky and soft faced #Those fancasts always sit so wrong on me #Won't even talk about Margot Robbie as Cathy. The vibes are all wrong. She could have been Catherine Linton perhaps when she was twenty #But as Cathy? Cathy Earnshaw? All the wrong vibes #Truly like out of The Onion what is this mess #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #Weren't they going to make an East of Eden adaptation that also had Famous Actress of the Moment as Cathy Ames?#Why do they always do that? Don't they know it's always shit? ahfkabdkskd #Why do the Dev Patel fancasts sit wrong on me? Because they feel lazy and kinda racist #You know one very famous non black actor of colour and cast him as Heathcliff. Come on. There's more people in the world #There's more actors of colour. There's more Indian actors. Many of them must be amazing and many of them are not famous #and many of them must resemble Heathclif's air and looks way more than Patel. Who is amazing but is not a good choice here #Tbh WH fancasts always kinda give 'Jacob Elordi and Margot Robbie as Heathcliff and Cathy' to me haha

8 notes · View notes

autisticlee · 8 months ago

Text

sometimes being autistic really separates me from other people. there's an invisible wall that separates me from people, society, the world. all those things can reach through the wall and slap me around, but it's one way. I can't reach them. and they never pat me on the head. nothing nice comes through. and I can't get out. I try to share good things. nothing gets through the wall. they see it as I purposely don't come out of the room i'm locked in. they think I act like i'm too good for them. they are offended and reach in to slap me. i'm desperately screaming and trying to reach out to them. trying to be part of things. but I can't. I can't connect with them. I can't be part of society. this wall isn't my doing, but they are making sure it stays up and making sure they only send negative signals through. know I can't stay behind this wall or I literally can't live. but also can't get out. i'm stuck and blamed for it. told i'm not trying and it's on purpose. i've been kicking and screaming at the wall my whole life and didn't make a dent. the lonliness and disconnection that can be felt when autistic is something nonautistic people will never feel or understand.

#lee rambles #just feeling that autistic lonliness and disconnection strongly today so heres vague rambly nonsense #autistic #autism things #actually autistic #dont know how to truly connect to people. or be part of society in a way that benefits living. people dont seem to try #nor do they want to help. they just act like and assume im the one not trying. im trying way harder than they ever will.#i need some patients and accommodation and understanding. needs and boundaries need met and respected. i never get those.#no one tries to connect with me. i have to do all the work but dont have ability to. but im expected to. since i cant its my fault.#so i stay on the outside looking in. begging for the door to be unlocked. while they stare through window laughing #and blaming me for not walking through a solid wall because they dont unlock the door fkr others so why would they do it for me #ahhh. idk what im talking about. need to do mamy things but think brain dissociating. idk who i am right now i could be anyone #patience* typed wrong word. cant move tags in right place on phone anymore

13 notes · View notes

turtlecleric · 10 months ago

Text

.