#actually apd

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

♬⃝ Introduction Post ♬⃝

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Hi there, Neurodivergent! I’m Rhysand (pronounced Reese-Sund), also called Rhys (pronounced Reese). I’m a Queer, Nonhuman, and Reality Shifting Neurodivergent. This blog was made for my Neurodivergency, my special interests and my hyperfixations, and everything else to do with my neurodivergency. There will be positive posts, silly posts, relatable posts, negative posts, and more here.

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About Me

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Neurodivergency

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I’m undiagnosed AuDHD (Autism + ADHD), ARFID (Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder), APD (Auditory Processing Disorder), SPD (Sensory Processing Disorder), and Pure O OCD (“Purely Obsessional” Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), medically recognized (but undiagnosed) PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder), and diagnosed MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) and GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder).

I’m also undiagnosed BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder), Trichotillomania (hair pulling/picking disorder), Excoriation Disorder (skin picking disorder), and Misophonia.

I’m undiagnosed PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder) and/or PME (Premenstrual Exacerbation), and hopefully soon can be diagnosed.

Questioning POTS, HSD or EDS/hEDS. (NOT claiming to have this or self-diagnosed as of yet, I am still doing research, but I do have lots of signs that point to these things.)

My special interests are Wings Of Fire, Harry Potter, Dragons in general, and Neurodivergency.

I have no current hyperfixations that I’ve noticed, and I’m extremely low on dopamine because of it. /silly /srs

I have verbal shutdowns, shutdowns and meltdowns in general, I mask without realizing it a lot, and I’m usually in burnout. I also have severe imposter syndrome that I deal with literally 24/7.

Tone tags are very much appreciated when talking to me, so PLEASE use them! If you aren’t sure what they are or what they mean or how to use them, please just ask and I will happily let you know! <3 /gen

I used to cope by using maladaptive daydreaming, so I relate a lot to maladaptive daydreamers a lot.

I struggle with violent and horrible intrusive thoughts (due to my OCD) and have for years now since I was a kid.

I have lots of trauma, both remembered and not remembered, so beware.

I’m a SI and SH survivor and in recovery.

Little banner my friend ( @/lavenderkittycat ) made me:

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Queerness

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I’m a bit of a gender hoarder, but I don’t use that as my label. I usually call myself a Genderfluid Genderflux Non-Binary TransGuy, but just think of me as a mash of all the genders I experience.

Currently, I don’t know what gender I’m feeling.

I use He/It/They/Xe/Ne/Ze/Love/Wolf/Star/Moon/🌙/Sun pronouns + any/all neopronouns, nounself pronouns, xenopronouns, and emojiself pronouns. Basically, everything EXCEPT She/Her.

I’m AroAce, Aromantic and Myrsexual (Neuroasexual, Nebulasexual, Dreadsexual, Acorsexual, Apothisexual, Falsaesthsexual, Bellussexual, Rosesexual, Requiesexual, Placiosexual, and Merosexual), and I’m Homoalterous, Omniqueerplatonic, Panexteramo, Pansensual, and Panaesthetic.

I’m Ambiamorous with no preference.

I’m also a Lesboy and T4T-leaning.

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Nonhumanity

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I’m a Polytherian, Otherkin, Otherfix, Otherhearted, and a Fictionflicker.

I have a Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf Theriotype, a Red Fox Theriotype, Nurse Shark Theriotype, Snow Leopard, Norwegian Forest Cat, Maned Wolf Theriotype, Coyote Theriotype, Side-Striped Jackal Theriotype, and a Canada Lynx Theriotype.

I have a Fiction Kintype (Dark Fey, Forest Type, from the Maleficent movies), a Dragon Kintype (SeaWing/SilkWing hybrid), another Dragon Kintype (Night-Light Fury hybrid), Angel, Silver Fox, Avian (humanoid with wings and tail) and a Raccoon.

I’ve had Fictotypes for Hylian, an OC species of mine, Orphinki, Sable, and Owl (all).

I have a Whale Shark Hearttype.

I’m transspecies, humanfluid, pseudohuman, sunnonhuman, and voidpunk.

I fluctuate between Nonhuman and Human, although am always on some level both, just other times are stronger for one and the other not so much, but I refer to myself overall as just Nonhuman. My soul is a combination of human and nonhuman.

All of my Nonhumanity is due to a combination of Past Lives, Fate, and Neurodivergency. I believe I was all my ‘types in past lives, and only found out about it in this life due to my neurodivergency.

I’ve been awakened for only a few months now. I want gear, but I don’t have any right now. I’m making my own wings currently, and I hope to have them done soon if my ADHD brain will allow me.

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Reality Shifting

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I’m a Reality Shifter, which means I move my consciousness from one reality into another one.

I do believe in the multiverse.

I’ve known about reality shifting since around 2020 or 2021, and started my journey then.

I spent a lot of my time trying to shift, even though I didn’t have the proper mindset or knowledge to shift.

I took a huge break after trying for only a month or so, only trying to shift occasionally.

I’ve come back to it in 2024 after finding shiftblr, having more knowledge, a better mindset, and more motivation.

I’ve shifted once to a parallel reality, where I relived/redid a day.

I have way too many DRs to count, and I’m thinking about permashifting to my Better CR DR.

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Links

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@rhysandshiftingthespectrum - My account for my experience with Neurodivergent Reality Shifting, pretty active on there

@neurodivergentshiftingcultureis - My ask account for Neurodivergent Shifting Culture, pretty active on there

@theverynothumankai - My main Nonhuman account for everything Nonhuman, active

@malakaitheyappingwolf - My account for my Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf theriotype, active

My Tagging System

My Queer Labels

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Other

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I’m taken by my amazing boyfriend ( @itssiryapsalot ), and he’s also neurodivergent, nonhuman, queer, and a reality shifter! (And a lot more, too!)

I’m Agnostic, slightly spiritual, and very respectful and interested in others’ religions. (Although, I do have negative experiences/trauma with Christian and God/Jesus Christ focused religions, and if your blog is heavy with that, I would prefer if you didn’t interact with me! Thank you!)

I’m celiac, have a dairy intolerance, have a dust allergy, pollen allergies, and probably some more that we aren’t too sure about yet! Basically, my nose is constantly stuffy and I have to be careful what I eat.

I have a few hobbies that I’m learning to be involved in again, because they make me happy and I’ve kinda lost touch with them. They are: drawing, writing, painting, coloring, reading, and more.

I stand with Palestine.

I’m pro non-offending p@raph!les and etc., who are in recovery/getting help.

I love receiving and answering asks, so always feel free/unafraid to send one in for infodumping, questions, or anything else! <3 /gen /pos

Let it be known that any and all kinds of neurodivergents are welcome here. Diagnosed, undiagnosed, self-diagnosed (with lots of research, of course). Autistic, ADHD, ANY kind of personality disorder, ANY cluster A disorders, ANY cluster B disorders, ANY cluster C disorders, ANY other unspecified personality disorders, ANY kind of any disorder, those with anxiety, those with depression, ANY AND ALL OF YA!

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DNI

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(I’ve just copied this from my other account’s DNI list and pasted it here, so that’s why there isn’t much/any difference to it.)

Any queerphobes (including those against intersex, mspec lesbians and gays, lesboys, turigirls, gaybians, etc., just basically any contradictory label), Radqueers, TERFs, SWERFs, racists, sexists, proshippers, those who sexualize age-regressors and pet-regressors, ableists (including those who demonize personality disorders), those against physical alterhumans, those against furries, offending MAPs and P@raph!les + supporters, pro-ED, pro-SH, pro-SI, those who romanticize any sort of mental illness, neurodivergency, and/or disability, anti-shifters, those against permashifters, respawners, and race-changers, those against endogenic/non-traumagenic/etc. or mixed origins or unknown origins systems, those against people who self-diagnose after research/with research, those against Palestine, those who’s blogs are Christian or God/Jesus Christ themed heavy (nothing against y’all, just have trauma with it), those who directly send NSFW stuff towards me, those who can’t respect boundaries, JK Rowling supporters, and just about anybody else that makes me uncomfortable. I will block incredibly freely, so beware.

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[originallyjustolookatmemes]

For everyone with ASPD, you deserve good representation.

Help me write you an Aroallo ASPD character that represents how we can heal and be ourselves to spite our trauma without having to bend down to prosocials.

How can you help? Reblog with ramblings or comment about your personal experience of living as a pwASPD. if you aren't a pwASPD, reblogs and likes still help!

i've tried my best to do the research necessary, but the amount of ableist sites that get shoved in my face with a basic google search has pissed me off. im taking matters into my own hands and asking y'all directly for your experiences.

I haven't gone for an ASPD diagnosis because it is simply not in the cards for me right now, and would potentially be harmful for me, but i check many boxes. However, due to a likely BPD and ADHD co-morbidity i dont trust myself enough to write a solely ASPD character based off only my own experiences.

Thoughts, advice, encouragement, all is appreciated.

(Post made by Shawdios on YT)

Spice (legal name Simon) is a felinefolk/birdfolk hybrid who works as a bartender for his side of the bakery-bar Sugar & Spice that him and his caretaker formed. He grew up bouncing around in the foster system and treated like a oddity to hide due to his odd mix of genetics. But his last caretaker, Sugar, he grew to see as a genuine mother to him because she was the first to believe his side of the story and not treat him like an "Other".

Due to his feline side, he often was found hunting down squirrels, birds, and rodents as a young child. Some of which he toyed with as they died, others he simply bit and killed. This behavior off put many of his foster parents and got him transferred around to different homes quite a lot. Spice was quite the delinquent as a child, he often was provoked into fights that he most of the time lost. (The first time around at least.) But he always got a cruel form of revenge depending on the bully who knocked him down. The fighting got worse once he hit middle school, to the point where he was once expelled for half blinding another child with his claws (and going home with a broken wing and shoulder himself) By the time he's finished highschool, Sugar had adopted him and done her best to help him mellow out and process his traumas from bouncing around the system and being treated like a thing to be tamed. But, he still gets in enough trouble to gain a Conduct Disorder Diagnosis and later after he graduates an Antisocial diagnosis.

The entirety of his moral system as an adult is built on what would or would not disappoint Sugar. He's perfectly content to live out his short life baking with his mother figure, mixing drinks, and curled up by a sunny window with his nose burried in books till his bad genetics kill him, but Sugar tries to get him to at least try to interact with others. And he holds her in such high respect that he does his best to maintain a good reputation with those that stop at the bar.

His care for the world revolves solely around himself and Sugar till a birdfolk with one wing named Autumn violently enters his life (and Re-enters Sugar's) and then violently leaves it five years later.

[wheelie-sick]

auditory processing disorder does not make you hard of hearing. it just doesn't! they are just simply different experiences. this doesn't mean auditory processing disorder is lesser it's just different and it's just not hard of hearing.

-someone who is/has both

[mutsukiss]

What's up w no one ever talking about how auditory processing disorders can cause or intensify speech impediments. Do people know Can't Understand You Disorder can be the reason you stutter? Did you know Can't Understand You Disorder can make you switch similar sounding or related words? Is anyone aware Can't Understand You Disorder may be why you keep moving words or sylabes or sounds out of place in a sentence? Could anyone talk about that??????? Please??????????

[empatheticnymph]

Life with A Mental Health Disability Leave Mother. I go back to work Halloween. It’s been almost 5 months and I’ve needed every second.

[selfdxculture]

Self-dx APD (Auditory Processing Disorder) culture is:

"Have you seen my phone?"

"Huh?"

"Have y-"

"Oh! Check the bathroom."

"What is wrong with you? Your hearing's fine?"

"Haha, I dunno." (Hearing Blippi from downstairs)

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[virovirokun-has-adhd]

NO LITERALLY THIS IS SO BAD

Auditory Processing Disorder shite cuz people don’t talk about it enough rip

* Getting frustrating when people don’t warn me before they talk so I can “turn on” my hearing. 

* Needing subtitles on movies and tv shows, not because I can’t hear it but because I can’t understand what they’re saying

* Hearing in perfect clarity what the teacher next door is saying and not a thing of what the kid I’m talking with is saying.

* Losing all concept of how to decipher language when more than one sound is playing

* Feeling like a dick for asking people with accents to repeat themselves so much (guys pls i swear im not racist i just have a hard time with speech guys pls-)

* Looking at people’s mouths when they talk, not because I can read lips or anything but because it just helps me figure out what someone is probably saying.

i hope this makes some modicum of sense kalsjdfakojwhepo

[autiebiographical]

Please be patient with those of us with auditory processing disorder. We just need more time for the gears to turn in our heads.

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Experiencing Auditory Processing Disorder

The Autistic Teacher

[gayvampyr]

one thing i hate about being “out” as autistic is suddenly all communication errors are your fault. unclear directions were given? your fault for being autistic, you must’ve misunderstood directions that were “probably perfectly clear.” not enough actionable information was provided for you? it must just be your autism, you should’ve picked up on what wasn’t said. they didn’t actually tell you what you were supposed to do and expected you to read their mind? your fault, not the allistic’s for not accommodating you or just saying what they want. because apparently it’s a one way street where autistics have to bend over backward to conform and placate allistics. its your fault even when they’re 100% culpable. i hate it

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

♬⃝My Tagging System ♬⃝

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#autisticrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my autistic experiences/autistic things

#adhdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my ADHD experiences/ADHD things

#audhdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my AuDHD experiences/AuDHD things

#ocdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my OCD experiences/OCD things

#arfidrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my ARFID experiences/ARFID things

#ptsdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my PTSD experiences/PTSD things

#gadrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my GAD experiences/GAD things

#sadrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my SAD experiences/SAD things

#spdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my SPD experiences/SPD things

#apdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my APD experiences/APD things

#mddrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my MDD experiences/MDD things

#pmddrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my PMDD experiences/PMDD things

#bddrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my BDD experiences/BDD things

#misophoniarhys - For when I make posts specifically about my Misophonia experiences/Misophonia things

#trichotillomaniarhys - For when I make posts specifically about my Trichotillomania experiences/Trichotillomania things

#excoriationdisorderrhys - For when I make posts about my Excoriation Disorder experiences/Excoriation Disorder things

#traumatizedrhys - For when I make posts about my trauma experiences/my trauma in general/my trauma things

#hyperfocusedrhys - For when I make posts about my current hyperfixation/my hyperfixation in general/my hyperfixation things

#infodumpingrhys - For when I make posts where I infodump about anything and everything

#specialinterestrhys - For when I make posts about my special interests/my special interests in general/my special interest things

#disabledrhys - For when I make posts about how my neurodivergency is disabling me/experiences that make me realize I’m disabled/etc.

#hyperfocusedbfrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my on and off hyperfixation on boyfriend

#overstimulatedrhys and/or #sensoryoverloadrhys - For when I’m experiencing overstimulation/sensory overload/my experiences with overstimulation/sensory overload/etc.

#hyperfocusedqueerrhys - For when I make posts about my on and off hyperfixation on my queer labels/queer label in general

#neurodivergentrhys - For when I make posts about my neurodivergency in general/when I make posts about a combination of my disorders/neurodivergencies

#verbalshutdownrhys - For when I make posts about my experiences with Verbal Shutdowns/Verbal Shutdown things

#stimmingrhys - For when I make posts about my stims/me stimming/my stimming experiences

#burntoutrhys - For when I make posts about being burnt out/being in burnout/my experiences with burnout

#maskingrhys - For when I make posts about masking/my masking experiences/etc.

#supportiverhysreblogs - For when I reblog something important/for when I reblog something that I’m in support of/etc.

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[originallyjustolookatmemes]

ASPD Content creator!

[anexperimentallife]

Which one are you?

[kingspadedying]

APD can be at least *amusing* sometimes

[mascspomax]

if someone could write a book on how to do everything ‘normally’ with specific step by step instructions that’d be very appreciated!

[snortoborto]

Hey! If you think people with BPD are inherently abusers, you're literally just an ableist piece of shit.

I actually love to break it to you, so here you go:

if you've been hurt by a person with a certain trait or an individual who belongs to a larger community, and you use your personal hurt to validate your bigotry against all other people who share that trait or also belong to that group, you're just that, a bigot.

I don't know why it's seemingly okay to vilianize, dehumanize, and abuse people with cluster B disorders, even in progressive spaces. Especially BPD.

As someone with borderline, I've been mistreated by a wide swath of people (obviously, considering this is the disorder you develop from being abused), but I've never harbored dehumanizing ideas or perpetuated harmful behaviors towards or about entire minority groups because of my individual expirences.

It's wild to me that so many people with BPD are so deeply empathetic and considerate, but people just choose to demonize us because that's easier than accepting the reality that all individuals from all walks of life are capable of doing harm.

I'm not responsible for the actions of someone with BPD who hurt you just because we share a diagnosis. Everyone with a cluster B disorder does not have to die on the cross for the sins of one individual. This is a very simple concept that people generally understand until they're looking for an excuse to be ableist.

And also FUCK pop psychology for instilling the general idea that anyone who does harm MUST be disordered (specifically cluster B) because normal, nice, safe neurotypical people are incapable of doing harm. The world and the people in it are a lot more complex and multifaceted than you think. I know everyone wants an easy way to deem individuals safe and kind and good, in contrast to those bad, evil, unsafe people, but ableism is not the answer. In fact, there is no answer because that's not how the world works. That's not how people work.

If your acceptance of and advocacy for neurodivergent people only includes woobified notions of people who are "too afraid to ask for no pickles," you are basically just virtue signaling.

If you actually care about mental health awareness and mentally ill people, you might have to be ready to feel uncomfortable in order to confront some deeply ingrained ableism. And you might have to, God forbid, engage with mentally ill people who have lost the ability to perform or mask, or who never could in the first place. You'll have to see and recognize pain that is not "tragically beautiful" or whatever. You'll have to see our reality, warts and all.