#actually pmdd

[pmdd-and-it-showz]

[living-with-pmd]

Comic from the Washington Post

[judgmental-eyebrows]

one of the worst things about having PMDD is how embarrassing it is. like, I know I’m going to Not Be Me for part of the month. I think I’m ready for it, that I’m prepared and this time, I’ll be in control! and then in the moment, the world is ending. everyone hates me. I’m paranoid. there are tears. there’s rage. my mood swings around in a whole damn circle. and then my period comes and I’m fine and sane again!

[iam9inwonderland]

I feel so bad because it’s like I have a certain amount of energy to talk to people online nowadays, there are a couple of cool people I’d like to talk to but it’s like… I physically can’t? The energy I have I use it all up for the closest people in my life… but I feel so bad- I end up ghosting people without meaning to- ugh

[run-of-the-milf]

Things that help my PMDD, ADHD, & CPTSD symptoms:

- regular exercise

- limiting alcohol and drug intake

- eating a healthy balanced diet

- getting regular social interaction

Things that are extremely difficult/impossible due to these disorders:

- regular exercise

- limiting alcohol and drug intake

- eating a healthy balanced diet

- getting regular social interaction

[puppyypawsss]

Health anxiety is so fucking ridiculous. I swear, my period is due in nine days and I’m like “ why boob hurt :( “ when this straight up happens every damn time of the month. Pms exists. Fuck.

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

going to go to the doctor soon to start getting my PMDD diagnosis! (like in a few minutes gonna leave to go there)

(and also hopefully be pointed in the direction of diagnosticians who can diagnose my AuDHD and my other undiagnosed stuffs that are covered by our insurance, IF there even are any)

[the-mechanisms-system]

Okay at this point it's gone from highly distressing to kinda funny actually. Every single month without fail I go through just the worst fucking spiral for a week and forget that I've ever felt anything other than how I feel during it and then I start bleeding and feel peachy. And yet every month I'm like why is the world so evil and bleak and why does everyone hate me why do I hate everything woe is me curse this wretched existence. I can think of no possible reason for this undue suffering :((

*7 days later* oh.

[bedsheetghost413]

Also trans men who have pmdd I love you and I fucking get it. Pmdd is not a "women's disorder" it's a mental disorder that happens if you have a hormonal cycle. You deserve inclusive treatment and language. You deserve to have proper treatment and to be treated properly by others. You're not alone. You'll get through this.

[spooky-salesman]

Ughhhwhhh what they don’t tell you about Pmdd is how much if literally fist fights your other disorders. Like I have such bad artblock suddenly and just straight up depression right now, but also at the same time. My Audhd makes me want to do 10 different other things, and since I don’t have the energy to do it it makes me wanna have a meltdown. I’m like actually rolling around my bed in pure frustration rn 💀

Fuck Pmdd bruh and fuck that post P depression.

[sunlightfeeling]

I noticed during my pmdd/early cycle days, I’m exponentially more “foggy-headed” after taking my meds

it’s like my eyes feel incredibly heavy and it’s difficult to keep them open

does anyone else have this experience??

[pmdd-and-it-showz]

[living-with-pmd]

[somethingmissingthiswaycomes]

I feel like it should be required that a person's medical records are automatically sent to them just by default, full transparency. Imo tbh.

Looking over the records I requested from my last psychiatrist, I wasn't aware of some of this, and I didn't know if half of it had been put down officially or if we had just theoretically discussed it.

[iam9inwonderland]

Currently missing the normal me that I am during the other half of the month. I don’t even know who is inhabiting my mind and body right now

[run-of-the-milf]

At its worst, my PMDD episodes look like: me unable to get out of bed, scrolling on my phone even though nothing brings me joy, isolating from everyone in my life, not replying to messages, hating myself, unable to believe that the people in my life even like me at all, severe body dysmorphia, too fatigued to do basic house work or make meals, crying non-stop or unable to cry at all, curled up in the fetal position listening to my brain tell me how pathetic and worthless I am, how ugly and unlovable I am, suicidal thoughts telling me to just do it, it's never going to get better.

I vividly remember the worst episode I've ever had. It felt like there was a voice inside my head that wasn't mine repeating over and over:

Kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself

Hearing my mom's voice next, telling me I'm just being dramatic. Get up and do the things you're supposed to do. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. You're fine.

Then spiraling and hating myself even more for finding just being alive so difficult.