#pme

[living-with-pmd]

Comic from the Washington Post

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

hey if your period literally fucking cripples you every month but everyone keeps telling you that's normal and you're just overreacting

consider that it might not be normal

I've been on the depo shot contraceptive for several years longer than you're supposed to because it manages these symptoms, I had to go off it for a while by doctor suggestion to reassess if I still need it, my period has been back for three days and I'm seeing my doctor TODAY to get back on depo because I just can't handle the physical and emotional toll it takes on me

this shit is genuinely crippling, I cannot function, don't let people convince you that this is normal, listen to your body and get help

[neuroticboyfriend]

i just learned premenstrual exacerbation (PME) is a thing which is like. when your menstrual cycle makes pre-existing conditions worse (especially mental health conditions). i'm starting to wonder if i have either this, PMS, or PMDD... or both PMS or PMDD and PME. (yes ik PMS isn't the same as PMDD, i just dont track my symptoms well enough to know if it's just regular ol' PMS or not)... time to download a period tracker

[m0onjellies]

having pme/pmdd is like “ok so heres Overdramatic Bitch Disorder. Heres literal fucking hysteria as the word meant originally. Good luck being taken seriously ever btw”

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

♬⃝ Introduction Post ♬⃝

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Hi there, Neurodivergent! I’m Rhysand (pronounced Reese-Sund), also called Rhys (pronounced Reese). I’m a Queer, Nonhuman, and Reality Shifting Neurodivergent. This blog was made for my Neurodivergency, my special interests and my hyperfixations, and everything else to do with my neurodivergency. There will be positive posts, silly posts, relatable posts, negative posts, and more here.

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About Me

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Neurodivergency

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I’m undiagnosed AuDHD (Autism + ADHD), ARFID (Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder), APD (Auditory Processing Disorder), SPD (Sensory Processing Disorder), and Pure O OCD (“Purely Obsessional” Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), medically recognized (but undiagnosed) PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder), and diagnosed MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) and GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder).

I’m also undiagnosed BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder), Trichotillomania (hair pulling/picking disorder), Excoriation Disorder (skin picking disorder), and Misophonia.

I’m undiagnosed PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder) and/or PME (Premenstrual Exacerbation), and hopefully soon can be diagnosed.

Questioning POTS, HSD or EDS/hEDS. (NOT claiming to have this or self-diagnosed as of yet, I am still doing research, but I do have lots of signs that point to these things.)

My special interests are Wings Of Fire, Harry Potter, Dragons in general, and Neurodivergency.

I have no current hyperfixations that I’ve noticed, and I’m extremely low on dopamine because of it. /silly /srs

I have verbal shutdowns, shutdowns and meltdowns in general, I mask without realizing it a lot, and I’m usually in burnout. I also have severe imposter syndrome that I deal with literally 24/7.

Tone tags are very much appreciated when talking to me, so PLEASE use them! If you aren’t sure what they are or what they mean or how to use them, please just ask and I will happily let you know! <3 /gen

I used to cope by using maladaptive daydreaming, so I relate a lot to maladaptive daydreamers a lot.

I struggle with violent and horrible intrusive thoughts (due to my OCD) and have for years now since I was a kid.

I have lots of trauma, both remembered and not remembered, so beware.

I’m a SI and SH survivor and in recovery.

Little banner my friend ( @/lavenderkittycat ) made me:

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Queerness

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I’m a bit of a gender hoarder, but I don’t use that as my label. I usually call myself a Genderfluid Genderflux Non-Binary TransGuy, but just think of me as a mash of all the genders I experience.

Currently, I don’t know what gender I’m feeling.

I use He/It/They/Xe/Ne/Ze/Love/Wolf/Star/Moon/🌙/Sun pronouns + any/all neopronouns, nounself pronouns, xenopronouns, and emojiself pronouns. Basically, everything EXCEPT She/Her.

I’m AroAce, Aromantic and Myrsexual (Neuroasexual, Nebulasexual, Dreadsexual, Acorsexual, Apothisexual, Falsaesthsexual, Bellussexual, Rosesexual, Requiesexual, Placiosexual, and Merosexual), and I’m Homoalterous, Omniqueerplatonic, Panexteramo, Pansensual, and Panaesthetic.

I’m Ambiamorous with no preference.

I’m also a Lesboy and T4T-leaning.

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Nonhumanity

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I’m a Polytherian, Otherkin, Otherfix, Otherhearted, and a Fictionflicker.

I have a Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf Theriotype, a Red Fox Theriotype, Nurse Shark Theriotype, Snow Leopard, Norwegian Forest Cat, Maned Wolf Theriotype, Coyote Theriotype, Side-Striped Jackal Theriotype, and a Canada Lynx Theriotype.

I have a Fiction Kintype (Dark Fey, Forest Type, from the Maleficent movies), a Dragon Kintype (SeaWing/SilkWing hybrid), another Dragon Kintype (Night-Light Fury hybrid), Angel, Silver Fox, Avian (humanoid with wings and tail) and a Raccoon.

I’ve had Fictotypes for Hylian, an OC species of mine, Orphinki, Sable, and Owl (all).

I have a Whale Shark Hearttype.

I’m transspecies, humanfluid, pseudohuman, sunnonhuman, and voidpunk.

I fluctuate between Nonhuman and Human, although am always on some level both, just other times are stronger for one and the other not so much, but I refer to myself overall as just Nonhuman. My soul is a combination of human and nonhuman.

All of my Nonhumanity is due to a combination of Past Lives, Fate, and Neurodivergency. I believe I was all my ‘types in past lives, and only found out about it in this life due to my neurodivergency.

I’ve been awakened for only a few months now. I want gear, but I don’t have any right now. I’m making my own wings currently, and I hope to have them done soon if my ADHD brain will allow me.

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Reality Shifting

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I’m a Reality Shifter, which means I move my consciousness from one reality into another one.

I do believe in the multiverse.

I’ve known about reality shifting since around 2020 or 2021, and started my journey then.

I spent a lot of my time trying to shift, even though I didn’t have the proper mindset or knowledge to shift.

I took a huge break after trying for only a month or so, only trying to shift occasionally.

I’ve come back to it in 2024 after finding shiftblr, having more knowledge, a better mindset, and more motivation.

I’ve shifted once to a parallel reality, where I relived/redid a day.

I have way too many DRs to count, and I’m thinking about permashifting to my Better CR DR.

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Links

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@rhysandshiftingthespectrum - My account for my experience with Neurodivergent Reality Shifting, pretty active on there

@neurodivergentshiftingcultureis - My ask account for Neurodivergent Shifting Culture, pretty active on there

@theverynothumankai - My main Nonhuman account for everything Nonhuman, active

@malakaitheyappingwolf - My account for my Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf theriotype, active

My Tagging System

My Queer Labels

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Other

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I’m taken by my amazing boyfriend ( @itssiryapsalot ), and he’s also neurodivergent, nonhuman, queer, and a reality shifter! (And a lot more, too!)

I’m Agnostic, slightly spiritual, and very respectful and interested in others’ religions. (Although, I do have negative experiences/trauma with Christian and God/Jesus Christ focused religions, and if your blog is heavy with that, I would prefer if you didn’t interact with me! Thank you!)

I’m celiac, have a dairy intolerance, have a dust allergy, pollen allergies, and probably some more that we aren’t too sure about yet! Basically, my nose is constantly stuffy and I have to be careful what I eat.

I have a few hobbies that I’m learning to be involved in again, because they make me happy and I’ve kinda lost touch with them. They are: drawing, writing, painting, coloring, reading, and more.

I stand with Palestine.

I’m pro non-offending p@raph!les and etc., who are in recovery/getting help.

I love receiving and answering asks, so always feel free/unafraid to send one in for infodumping, questions, or anything else! <3 /gen /pos

Let it be known that any and all kinds of neurodivergents are welcome here. Diagnosed, undiagnosed, self-diagnosed (with lots of research, of course). Autistic, ADHD, ANY kind of personality disorder, ANY cluster A disorders, ANY cluster B disorders, ANY cluster C disorders, ANY other unspecified personality disorders, ANY kind of any disorder, those with anxiety, those with depression, ANY AND ALL OF YA!

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DNI

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(I’ve just copied this from my other account’s DNI list and pasted it here, so that’s why there isn’t much/any difference to it.)

Any queerphobes (including those against intersex, mspec lesbians and gays, lesboys, turigirls, gaybians, etc., just basically any contradictory label), Radqueers, TERFs, SWERFs, racists, sexists, proshippers, those who sexualize age-regressors and pet-regressors, ableists (including those who demonize personality disorders), those against physical alterhumans, those against furries, offending MAPs and P@raph!les + supporters, pro-ED, pro-SH, pro-SI, those who romanticize any sort of mental illness, neurodivergency, and/or disability, anti-shifters, those against permashifters, respawners, and race-changers, those against endogenic/non-traumagenic/etc. or mixed origins or unknown origins systems, those against people who self-diagnose after research/with research, those against Palestine, those who’s blogs are Christian or God/Jesus Christ themed heavy (nothing against y’all, just have trauma with it), those who directly send NSFW stuff towards me, those who can’t respect boundaries, JK Rowling supporters, and just about anybody else that makes me uncomfortable. I will block incredibly freely, so beware.

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[nowthatyourehere]

Almost every month, for the last 7 years-a giant rain cloud casts a dark shadow on my reality

Almost every month, for the last 7 years-a giant rain cloud casts a dark shadow on my reality. The way that I perceive this world, and react to this world is then filtered through it.

And yet each month, nothing about my reality really changes, just my perception of it.

I know now that what I was experiencing all this time was called PMDD. Premenstrual dysphoric disorder. Essentially, 10 days before my period I deal with a depressive episode, ruminating thoughts, and more. 

It’s rough. 

Before I moved to NYC, I remember convincing myself that my new home was the solution to all my sadness. I’d eventually find myself crying on the Q train more times that I can count. 

My (the) mind is like a home - my only constant. I take it everywhere I go, and it’s the longest place I’ll live in, in this lifetime - and it’s through this home that I experience the world. 

And thoughts can be like people showing up to my house like uninvited guests. Except they don’t even knock, they just barge in.  And month after month, after month -- turned years, I was letting people walk in. 

Letting them tell me that the “people around will leave me,” to look for clues and proof in my history that fact, telling me that I’m not good enough.

Telling me that who I am, as I am, is not enough. I let them walk all over me. 

But, we are not our thoughts.

I began to build my own meditation practice, and eventually joined a meditation teacher training to force myself. The FIRST thing it took away from me immediately was my ability to say that I had nothing left to TRY. That is always the case. Perspective is plentiful, and it is everything. 

Through that chapter of effort, it gave me 1) the power of personal responsibility. 2) Hope, and the ability to reflect on the belief that change is possible. 3) Possibility. 

Those thoughts still come walking in. In fact, I’m in that 10 day period. But today, they’re coming through my door a little less sure of themselves. But now I have the power, awareness, and practice to address them in a way that works better for me. I can look past them, or inside of their eyes, and see that they just needed a little bit more love. 

We all deserve to have a safe space in our minds. So try, as much as you need to try. Somewhere. Somehow. It all counts for something, and builds up along the way. 

You wouldn’t expect a flower to bloom in one day, so don’t pull up a chair in frustration waiting on yours. Water it, care for it, live your life, when you drop the ball, wake up the next day and pick it up. It’s all about the return. Never let anything or anyone take your hope away. 

[sillymickel]

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[sickbugdude]

ppl with premenstrual disorders need paid sick leave during the luteal phase. awareness won't save me if this illness keeps me stuck in poverty bc employers will always penalize me for being physically unable to work for a few days per month. literally the only accommodation that would make a real difference for me is paid premenstrual leave. this would also be suicide prevention for a lot of ppl with these conditions. deadass

[mordellestories]

One moment you’re soaring on the wings of creativity, deeply invested in a scene, and the next, your body is like, Nope, we’re crying now—

—over a commercial, or because that one chord progression in a song felt too powerful. Chronic hormonal sensitivity can feel like you’re walking on eggshells with your own body, never quite knowing what each day will bring. It’s not just the mood swings; it’s the physical toll. You might be deep into editing or brainstorming, but a sudden hot flash or muscle ache pulls you out of focus. You lose time just managing the physical symptoms.

That unpredictability can disrupt the delicate balance between creativity and productivity. Writing requires a certain level of emotional engagement, but when you’re extra sensitive to emotional triggers, you might find yourself overwhelmed by your own stories. A scene that’s meant to be joyful might hit you harder than expected, or a conflict between characters could amplify your own stress.

Then there’s the mental fog that sometimes comes with hormonal fluctuations. You want to work on that intricate plot twist or complex character development, but your brain feels like it’s swimming in molasses. All of it combines to create this tricky dance between your body, your emotions, and the very stories you’re trying to tell.

But here’s the thing: when you manage to harness those heightened emotions, it can bring a richness to your writing that might not have been there otherwise.

We often talk about hormones in terms of balance, but the truth is, they’re never static. They’re in constant flux, shifting in response to everything from stress to sleep. So when we talk about ‘hormonal balance,’ it’s not really about perfect stillness—because that doesn’t exist—it’s more about finding a sense of stability amid the chaos. And for those of us whose bodies seem allergic to their own fluctuations, that idea of balance can feel like chasing a mirage, always just out of reach.

[living-with-pmd]

[theblankest123]

I just need to get through this

I jsut need to get through this

I just need toget through this

I just need to get through this

I just need to get through this

I just need to get through this

Hopefully then ill be emotionally stable again

I just need to get through this

I just need to get through this

I just need to get through tjis

I just need to get through this

[jasvvy]

this is the most indie-looking cage. 

[bipolar-bi]

While I was researching PMDD I came across this disorder called PME, which stands for premenstrual exacerbation. It is a premenstrual disorder that coexists with another psychiatric disorder, with symptoms worsening in the premenstrual phase. I found it really interesting! Here's an article with more information:

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

♬⃝My Tagging System ♬⃝

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#autisticrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my autistic experiences/autistic things

#adhdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my ADHD experiences/ADHD things

#audhdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my AuDHD experiences/AuDHD things

#ocdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my OCD experiences/OCD things

#arfidrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my ARFID experiences/ARFID things

#ptsdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my PTSD experiences/PTSD things

#gadrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my GAD experiences/GAD things

#sadrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my SAD experiences/SAD things

#spdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my SPD experiences/SPD things

#apdrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my APD experiences/APD things

#mddrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my MDD experiences/MDD things

#pmddrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my PMDD experiences/PMDD things

#bddrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my BDD experiences/BDD things

#misophoniarhys - For when I make posts specifically about my Misophonia experiences/Misophonia things

#trichotillomaniarhys - For when I make posts specifically about my Trichotillomania experiences/Trichotillomania things

#excoriationdisorderrhys - For when I make posts about my Excoriation Disorder experiences/Excoriation Disorder things

#traumatizedrhys - For when I make posts about my trauma experiences/my trauma in general/my trauma things

#hyperfocusedrhys - For when I make posts about my current hyperfixation/my hyperfixation in general/my hyperfixation things

#infodumpingrhys - For when I make posts where I infodump about anything and everything

#specialinterestrhys - For when I make posts about my special interests/my special interests in general/my special interest things

#disabledrhys - For when I make posts about how my neurodivergency is disabling me/experiences that make me realize I’m disabled/etc.

#hyperfocusedbfrhys - For when I make posts specifically about my on and off hyperfixation on boyfriend

#overstimulatedrhys and/or #sensoryoverloadrhys - For when I’m experiencing overstimulation/sensory overload/my experiences with overstimulation/sensory overload/etc.

#hyperfocusedqueerrhys - For when I make posts about my on and off hyperfixation on my queer labels/queer label in general

#neurodivergentrhys - For when I make posts about my neurodivergency in general/when I make posts about a combination of my disorders/neurodivergencies

#verbalshutdownrhys - For when I make posts about my experiences with Verbal Shutdowns/Verbal Shutdown things

#stimmingrhys - For when I make posts about my stims/me stimming/my stimming experiences

#burntoutrhys - For when I make posts about being burnt out/being in burnout/my experiences with burnout

#maskingrhys - For when I make posts about masking/my masking experiences/etc.

#supportiverhysreblogs - For when I reblog something important/for when I reblog something that I’m in support of/etc.

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[nowthatyourehere]

My eyes move in and out of focus, I switch back and forth from being present to getting lost in the dialogue in my mind. Why I’d ever choose to be more present there, than right here, is beyond me. Smiling kids, someone’s favorite song playing softly in the background on the coffee shop’s playlist. Sometimes, I feel on days like today I’m seeing the world through eyes that are not my own. If you’re not careful, you can begin to believe the veil. 

Today, I’ll transmute the experience into art, into a journal entry that takes a positive spin, into sending love outward to a friend. Knowing what this particular realm feels like, is one of the cards I have been dealt. I wouldn’t be the same without having experienced it though, and I (you) offer something beautiful to the world — perspective, empathy, and all of your unique lessons. This is our catalyst for growth, breathe into it.