#a goddamn clown

[coffeebrownn]

hly fucking shti am i really depressed or just bieng a dramatic bitch, jesus christ, if i know that i’m being a dramatic btihc than thats good, if i know if i’m depressed that’s good too that means that i can at least tackle it, but i have no fuckign idea what my brain wants right now, it’s so fucking exhausted no matter how much i sleep, drink coffee, energy drink, relax take a break, not to think, think, socialize, isolate, stare at the goddamn ceiling

look if i’m dead that means that i don’t need to hold any of these but i’ll be missing out good food to eat so what’s the fucing point

[mxtxfanatic]

I cannot believe the fucking EMPEROR is getting a goddamn redemption before Murong Lian, and he probably deserves it the least of the two!

[mistressemmedi]

Penalties decided after the race? So they can decide the final result that's more convenient for them for the sake of entertainment and the WDC? Alrighty then.

[cinnasalmon]

Please forgive the wall of text I am so sorry.

tl;dr seemingly pathetic geezer loses everything. keeps going anyway

The Astarion-to-Zevlor pipeline brought me here. I was neck deep in Astarion simpage but Zevlor is more of my type anyway in a fictional man: The underdog, easily passed over, forgettable, chock full of flaws and insecurities, maybe not too blessed in looks tbqh but it adds to the charm

He's so fucking hopeless with himself in the beginning and middle of the game. Like why is he still here??? I didn't like him at all until I rescued him from the pod and he confessed what happened. Oh. he's a very tragic character. My kryptonite.

I was then curious enough to read up on Hellriders and Elturel. Putting it all together made me realize how utterly fucked his life was when he meets the player, which makes his redemption in the final fight (and epilogue letter) sooooooooo much more satisfying. Lots of lore to play around with.

I don't get the zevlor love... but I'm willing to hear y'all out. so what's the reason?

[babybluebanshee]

The evolution of my thoughts on Fizzarolli

LooLoo Land: oh my god i'm so sick of seeing this clown robot everywhere, the only reason anyone likes him is because he's that guy who played beetlejuice Ozzie's: okay, he at least gets a slammin' ass song and fun animation and a hot boyfriend, i guess i can see the appeal Oops: oh my god i was so wrong, this precious moppet is the most adorable thing in the world and i'm so glad he and Blitzo are friends again Mammon's Magnificent Mid-Season Musical Special (ft. Fizzarolli): I WOULD DIE FOR HIM I WOULD KILL FOR HIM EITHER WAY WHAT BLISS I WILL PROTECT HIM WITH MY LIFE EVEN THOUGH HE DOESN'T NEED ME TO BECAUSE HE HAS THE BEST ROOSTER HUSBAND IN HELL *plays two minute notice on repeat for the rest of time*

[sergle]

When ppl will create a "curvy" girl character and get pretty much the whole body's proportions right, obviously they're putting emphasis on bust/hips but it seems like it's being executed well--- except that they completely, fully, and deliberately, skip the stomach entirely. Just nothin there. Not even a whisper. I'm like. Just sack up, make it make sense and be honest with yourself by making it official and say it's canon that they got a tummy tuck. You cowardly ass, yellow bellied, wet brained, upside-down dog mouthed dirty bitch.

[menlove]

paul breaking down before performing god only knows with brian wilson, because it's his favorite song. the song john had two lovers fuck to when they met in paris at the hotel him and paul stayed at. the song that inspired here, there, and everywhere which paul wrote while waiting for john to wake up and wasn't about jane. which is to this day his favorite song he's ever written. which was john's favorite song paul's ever written. which paul mentions when he talks about why it's his favorite song he's ever written. and he broke down. before performing god only knows. which was-

[phannie-by-night]

One thing I don't think we appreciate enough about dnp is that they never waste your time. Their videos are a tight 15-30 minutes unless there was absolutely nothing they could cut. Other youtubers I'll start some video and be like this is mildly interesting. Why is it an hour and a half long

[disappointingcabbage]

HAPPY EXTENDED SOUNDS OF BRUTAL PIPE MURDER DAY I SEE THE REMINDER ON MY PHONE AND THE TIME HAS COME TO DO ANYTHING BUT PAY RESPECTS TO THE MAN WHO HAD SO MANY FUCKED UP IF TRUE BOOKS

[wormbussy]

if you're a boycott Eurovision person just block or unfollow me, I'd like to be able to follow the tags I follow without it being clogged with moralfags trying to guilt trip people into getting on their bandwagon.

See, at Eurovision when a country does a thing you don't like, you let them join and then boo them until they leave themselves. Which is probably what's going to happen to Israel this year, not for the first time, and certainly not exclusively to Israel.

Russia invaded Georgia in 2008, have since been occupying a third of their territory, and hosted the next year. Even Georgia didn't boycott that year, but trolled the Russians into banning them that year by sending a song called "We Don't Wanna Put In".

Russia invaded Crimea in 2013, and in 2014 passed the foreign agents law and gay propaganda law, in-between occupying more bits of Ukraine. In 2014 the hair-conjoined twins that got memed by John Oliver that one time got booed so hard the EBU had to invent boo-dampening technology the next year. Of course Conchita Wurst won in 2014, which the Russian broadcaster had to show in full or they would lose broadcasting rights, despite Conchita Wurst *existing* probably counting as "gay propaganda".

For that matter, Ukraine won in 2016 and hosted the next year. Russia didn't even boycott, they sent fascist Tiny Tim as their entry, knowing she had entered Crimea from Russia which would force the Ukrainians to ban her from entering Ukraine to compete while looking like lunatics for doing so.

The ESC wasn't even going to ban the Russian broadcaster from competing in 2022. Initially they were like nah it's non political so it's chill (not to mention it had been 8 years), until about 6 countries including Sweden wrote to the EBU saying "if Russia's in, we're out", and then hours later the EBU decided you could have a contest without Russia but not without Sweden. Not because there's some rule in a song contest that says "you're not allowed to kill people or we won't let you sing".

There is a *WAY* these things are done.

I am perfectly fine with people looking at the way things are and going you know what, I'd rather give it a miss this year. Nobody is forcing you at gunpoint to watch a song contest, block the tag and see you in a month.

But brigading the eurovision tag with this moralizing bullshit about how nobody is allowed to enjoy a show that includes 42 entries that aren't Israel or else we're all genocidal (((zionists))), while turning off notes to your posts so nobody can respond to you, is toddler behaviour.

[qiu-yan]

sensitive topic incoming

not a haterpost i promise.

sect leader yao is not a reliable source

further explanation/hypothesizing:

it happened exactly as sect leader yao said: self-explanatory. the version of events preferred by jiggy antis

he mercy-killed rusong: maybe rusong was already showing signs of a life-altering disorder as a result of the incest. or maybe jiggy just felt that, if the incest information ever came out, rusong would be doomed to a life of suffering in a heavily prejudiced society. jiggy himself had spent his entire life suffering and getting kicked around due to his own proximity to society's pariahs/taboos, so perhaps he felt that he could not subject his son to the same miserable existence. thus, jiggy gave rusong a more peaceful end, before (in jiggy's mind) society could force rusong to suffer.

he allowed rusong to die through inaction: this is really only a "kill" under a utilitarian moral framework. by this explanation, maybe jiggy found out in advance that someone was planning to kill rusong; however, for any of the other reasons listed here, jiggy decided to do nothing and allow the assassination to happen. thus jiggy would consider himself guilty of allowing rusong's death to happen through inaction.

he did it to justify eliminating an opponent of the watchtowers: maybe the advancement of the watchtower project, which jiggy knew would make society a safer place, had hit a deadlock because of a particularly stubborn opponent. so jiggy killed rusong and framed the opponent in order to engineer a situation in which his annihilation of the opponent would be entirely socially sanctioned.

and here is where the utilitarian arguments come in. perhaps jiggy knew that the watchtower project would improve the lives of millions of people and would make society as a whole safer. and he saw that one political opponent as the final major barrier. and jiggy could think of no other way to get rid of this guy. so jiggy weighed the lives of those millions of people against his one son, and concluded those millions of strangers were weightier; his son became his iphigenia.

of course, this is still a rather unhinged plan to just come up with on your own, so perhaps a better explanation of events is this reasoning paired with the "he allowed rusong to die through inaction" series of events.

rusong was killed by political opponents and jiggy blamed himself: now we reach the "he didn't do it" section of the potential explanations. jiggy has a habit of claiming kills he didn't strictly perform himself; so long as the chain of cause and effect can somehow be traced to somewhere near him eventually, jiggy will claim credit for someone's death. this is how jiggy takes credit for the death of jin zixuan: even though [novel canon] no one forced wei wuxian to lose control of wen ning and no one forced wen ning to attack jin zixuan, jiggy still acts as if he can call himself jin zixuan's killer, simply because he sent jin zixuan to wei wuxian's location.

jiggy, in pursuing the watchtower project, aroused a lot of public anger. jiggy made himself, and by extension his wife and his child, the political enemies of many, and thus political targets as well. thus, if an enemy targets the life of jin rusong because they are jiggy's enemy, jiggy is entirely justified in feeling as if rusong's death is his fault. after all, if he hadn't pursued the watchtower project, then maybe rusong would still be alive.

jiggy said "he had to die" as a Cope: losing your son sucks. perhaps jiggy, in the despair following his son's death, tried to cope with the new reality by telling himself that rusong would have had to die anyways, because he was an incest baby. if rusong was always slated to die, then the fact that rusong is now dead can now be survived. thus, "rusong had to die" becomes an emotional coping mechanism for jiggy.

no, jiggy himself is uncertain if he allowed rusong to die through inaction: this one is a a bit fanciful but bear with me here. on one hand, jiggy loves his wife and son. on the other hand, jiggy is horrified by his marriage with his wife and by the existence of his son, because his wife is also his sister and his son is the product of incest. jiggy lives with not only this horror but also the constant fear of exposure, because if this information ever got out, the lives of himself, his wife, and his son would all be over.

rusong's growth thus becomes a source of dread, not hope: every day lived brings the possibility of rusong developing some disorder or condition that eventually proves the incest. is it not possible that jiggy, living every day under such fear, might come to believe that things would be better if rusong stopped growing older? if rusong died--then gone too would be the evidence of the incest, would it not?

now along comes the political opponent who assassinates rusong. jiggy does not see it coming and jiggy is thus unable to stop it. but afterwards, upon beholding the corpse of his son, what does jiggy feel? rage? despair? no--relief! he feels relief! though he also grieves, the constant fear shrouding his entire life has, for once, lifted!

but if jiggy is relieved by the death of his son, what does this imply? can jiggy truly say, with full confidence, that he did not see the assassination coming? can he really say, with heaven and earth as his witnesses, that his failure to stop the assassination was not to some degree a choice? is there truly no small part of him that did in fact see the assassination coming--yet, knowing it would be so relieving for him, simply chose to do nothing?

but if jiggy did not see the assassination coming at all--if rusong's death truly cannot be pinned on jiggy at all--then what does that say about jiggy's power? about jiggy's safety? jiggy being innocent of killing through inaction means that jinlintai really is somewhere assassins can penetrate into. then jiggy's son really was killed by a force jiggy had no way of stopping. then, in this situation, jiggy really was powerless.

you can remove the ambiguity and argue the case either way: jiggy knew about the assassination and let it happen, jiggy legitimately knew nothing and could not have stopped the assassination. but the ambiguity makes this scenario more interesting to me. jiggy lives for the rest of his days uncertain if he chose to allow his son to die through inaction, or if he really was just weak enough to fail to protect his son. maybe jiggy's memories of the incident even manage to start distorting after a while, implying either one or the other depending on jiggy's own mental situation.

thus, when jiggy says "rusong had to die," he's uncertain if he's justifying his actions or delusionally coping with a reality he had no hand in making. when jiggy says "i killed my son," he's uncertain if he's even telling the truth or not.

ah well. this is basically original fiction at this point. it's just a potential scenario.

anyways, these are just a few scenarios based on various meta and fanfics of this subject ive read over the past few months. you can probably come up with all sorts of explanations. whatever you come up with, though, should be better than just blindly taking sect leader yao at his word.

[ilovemesomevincentprice]

His flaming flamboyancy is fucking fabulous and I am obsessed!!!! 🖤🖤🖤

Vincent Price - Clown Alley (1966)

[fullmetal-scar-simping]

Fma fans being perfectly ok with watching their faves commit a genocide, but drawing the line at a movie having an alt universe version of one of their genocider faves being a member of the Nazi Party is peak "it's worse to be called a fascist than it is to be a fascist".

[eikichi-supremacy]

they don't deserve him ...

[oscar-isaac]

just finished twd 7.01 and idk how i can even go on at this point 🫠

[kyle-but-n0t]

PILBY REGRETEVATOR??? IN THIS ECONOMY???

yes. yes pilby regretevator.

decided to play it saturday and oh my goodness when i saw them it was too late for me. i was aware of them before then but NOW? biggest pilby fan.

love this little loser sm man. affected by the pilby disease, wormed their way (get it) into my brain.

i mean their a BUG, and their a CLOWN... that's, like, my TWO main things!!! my two main interests as of late!!!

kinda tempted to make a daily pilby account now... would anyone be interested?