#Suspected Trans

[robotmechagirl]

I was too chickenshit to flirt with the cute mechanic, that I suspected was into me, because I remembered I’m a trans woman, and that it comes with the risk of getting hate crimed

[shalom-iamcominghome]

What led you to decide conversion to Judaism was "for you"?

I'll preface this post by saying that you are, essentially, asking to open a Pandora's box - this is an inherently huge question to ask, and I only request that you keep this in mind when I talk about this. I'm completely open to this discussion, though! I am absolutely happy to talk about my journey because it is so deeply personal and fulfilling,

I was raised in a Lutheran family - I was baptized, but I was never really... required to go to church. We'd gone before, my dad and I, but I don't remember this because I was young. However, what I do remember is just not believing in any of it. I never truly believed in Jesus, I'd only said I did. Despite having little pressure put on me in a religious aspect, I'd always just assumed that I should please my family. I went to Jesus camp (a moniker for the religious camp I'd gone to a few times), and I went to a handful of confirmation classes. As I understand it, Lutherans practice confirmation in order to educate young adults about the religion, and by the end, the person decides if this is right for them. I dropped out completely, and honestly, it was simply due to "I believe none of this besides g-d."

Once I had consciously admitted to myself that I really could not reconcile my disbelief, I decided to disconnect completely from all forms of xtianity. I mostly kept to myself and didn't even interrogate my feelings about g-d or religion at all.

After a while, I realized that I truly knew nothing else besides xtianity. I always thought it was my duty as a person to learn about others to accept them. I started throwing myself into education about other religions. Now that I think about it, I think part of myself really did want to connect with something that felt right in my soul. For a while, I didn't find that. Once I started learning about what were the true basics of Judaism, I felt a strange and indescribable feeling, really for the first time ever.

My journey into Judaism really began on an intellectual level. I truly jived with what I was learning - I remember one of my big issues with xtianity was the idea of "spreading the Good News," or proselytizing. I think learning that about judaism was what made me realize that there was something out there that I could logically understand. I loved the cultural understanding of disagreement - that you can even disagree with g-d and not be sent to Hell For All Eternity. I loved that observing mitzvot wasn't really a strict dogma. It was a process we all undertake on some level. I'd say that the common attitude held in the xtain spaces I was exposed to all my life (that is - "all of this is strict dogma, and no questions are deemed acceptable.") really made me appreciate the intellectualism that judaism often fulfills. By nature, I want to disagree with others, explain, agree, and ultimately learn, and I loved the culture of education.

I'd say much of the emotional attachment I now have to judaism came later. There is only so much you can appreciate about judaism from the sidelines, and once I got involved in my community, I truly learned this. Much of my love for judaism is simple - it's everyday life, really.

I think what made me decide so soon that judaism was right is because I am trans. I am no stranger to this feeling, I just had never felt it about religion. It's a deep, soul-level understanding of belonging. It's a feeling you can never do justice to through word alone. I've felt this before, and I know this is a feeling that I cannot simply ignore. It's something you can only grab hold of and never let go. It is a primal understanding within your entire being - at least it is for me.

Because of this, there is so much that I have not touched upon here, but I think I've been rambling for long enough. Again, I welcome any and (almost) all questions that may be remaining. So much of my decision about judaism came down to exposing myself to conversion stories and thoughts about judaism from jews, and if there is a chance I might be even a little like that, I will always welcome it!

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

hi. why is that foxgirl named penis. is arlnights okay

Her name is Sona, her operator codename is Flametail. She is one of the founding members of the Pinus Sylvestris knightclub (club for knights, not a nightclub) which got its name from the scientific name of the European Red Pine tree because she and her girlfriend that she founded the club with are squirrelgirls.

Penis Sylvestris is the tag I use for even just vaguely horny art of the Pinus Sylvestris club because it’s a funny tag to use

[bagaluten-sys]

☆Denial in OSDD, information and tipps with sources☆

Hey, this is an informational post with many aspects to denial in OSDD. It might ease denial and ensure more knowledge on this very present state that people with this disorder struggle with (diagnosed and undiagnosed equally).

In this post I included:-- What do people mean with "Denial is part of the disorder"(protection and amnesia)--Media portrayal and its focus on alters--the self invalidation of own trauma--DID vs OSDD--Is it really that rare?--"Shouldnt I have noticed it?"--Communication in systems--"What if im still wrong?"

I have my sources in the end of the post and as always additions/corrections/experiences and questions are welcome :) (I am not a professional)

What do people mean with "Denial is part of the disorder"?

First of all one big part of the disorder is dissociative amnesia. This can show as covered amnesia or selective amnesia or emotional amnesia. All these arent fully noticable if you arent aware of it and they might lead to forgetting your own symptoms and the time alters fronted.

Denial can serve as a defense mechanism and a protective function. The idea of the disorder is to protect from trauma and severe stress. The unawarness or lack if acknowledgment over the disorder and your own seperate parts serves to avoid the host being overwhelmed with emotions and unwanted memorys. Usually the host is an ANP and has to maintain a functional state while dissociating from the stressing reality of having the disorder and the trauma it caused.

(Source: DSM-5, Therapeutic Work with Dissociative Identity Disorder (book by Colin A. Ross))

Media portrayal and its focus on alters

The portrayal of OSDD in media (including TV shows and social media) often centers around dramatic or sensationalized decisions of alters and can lead to misunderstanding and mispresentation. These portrayals can impact public perception, potentionally inducing denial among individuals with the disorder.

Since many people (especially ones that dont actively research the disorder) get their impressions of the disorder from media, the symptoms can be widely misunderstood. Common mistakes/clichees the media might make include: Overly dramatic switches, stereotyping alters, fantasy elements that make the disorder seem more magical then an actual disorder, exaggeration, undermining seriousness of disorder, Stigma, Lack of awareness of other symptoms.

In social media specifically the risks are: Glorification, lack of professional guidance, focus not on education, risk of the people not having the disorder.

If your system and alters and symptoms dont work the same as in media does by far not mean you dont have it.

(Sources: DSM-5 (2016), Ross C.A, DID: Diagnosis, Clinical Features and Treatment of Multiple Personality)

DID vs OSDD

If you often think: "I cant have that disorder because I dont have full amnesia between alters or because I dont have very distinct alters" then always remember: its literally what the diagnosis OSDD is for. Its described as followed: It is used for individuals who have similar symptoms to those with DID but who do not meet the full diagnostic criteria for DID. Most commonly, this describes individuals who have dissociative parts that are not sufficiently differentiated to qualify as alters (sometimes known as OSDD-1a) or individuals who do not have amnesia between alters (sometimes known as OSDD-1b). Some individuals with OSDD-1 lack both amnesia and highly distinct parts, and other individuals with OSDD-1 have highly distinct parts but rarely or never switch between them. These latter cases are also sometimes described as OSDD-1b.

(https://did-research.org/comorbid/dd/osdd_udd/did_osdd)

Is it really that rare?

People with red hair: approximately 2 percent

People with DID: 2 percent (few estimates up to 5 percent)

Thats all. (sources: www.did-research.org, worldpopulationreview.com)

"Shouldnt I have noticed it anyway?"

The disorder forms in early childhood, so the symptoms might develope, change and so on, but it still has been there for a long time and there isnt much chance to see how it would be without it. In conclusion you might just accidentally be used to it and didnt realize something is different.

(Source: Dissociative Disorders - Pasadena Trauma Therapy, DID-Research.orghttps://did-research.orgWhat Causes Dissociative Identity Disorder?)

Communication in systems

In denial because your parts/alters dont clearly talk to you? That happens often. Communication can also be through sharing thoughts and feelings or even none at all. All systems are unique akd so is their communication.

(sources: several books including books from the authors Colin A. Ross, Deborah Haddock, Marlene Steinberg and Maxine Schnall, Suzette Boon and more)

"What if im still wrong?" (No sources, my personal conclusion)

Then its okay. This life is hard, so is trauma and everybody makes mistakes. If youre wrong or right in the end feels important, we know that, but in the end a diagnosis doesnt matter as much, your experiences do and no matter what: feelings are always valid and everybody deserves an open ear.

Okay, this all took hours now and the post is pretty long, but I hope this helps :)

[fuckboyzuko]

Tumblr: Porn is banned! Selfies from trans people are also banned for some reason! We are banning everything that could be considered even remotely sexual whether it makes sense or not!!!

Also Tumblr:

[icarusdiesatdawn]

can gender fluidity be like. seasonal

[unopenablebox]

people around me online are always disclosing their kinks, like by writing fic about them or writing posts about them or reblogging the same photo of lee pace thirty times. but i can't do that. because my kink is embarrassing

[nedsseveredhead]

I think maybe when i die, im going to leave my loved ones simple record tapes or something cause the amount of times ive just wanted to hear my dad say "hey kittycat" these past few weeks is. Yeah

[heartbarisi]

i’m cooking in my word document rn guys you have no idea

[lovenliterature]

Used to be

Strong, where I used to be soft and gentle Angry, where I used to be calm and patient Tired, where I used to be full of boundless energy Sentimental, where I used to be controlled Forgetful, where I used to be reliable Nostalgic, where I used to live in the moment Nothing, where I used to be everything

[stjohnstarling]

Several years later, Facebook has been overrun by AI-generated spam and outright scams. Many of the “people” engaging with this content are bots who themselves spam the platform. Porn and nonconsensual imagery is easy to find on Facebook and Instagram. We have reported endlessly on the proliferation of paid advertisements for drugs, stolen credit cards, hacked accounts, and ads for electricians and roofers who appear to be soliciting potential customers with sex work. Its own verified influencers have their bodies regularly stolen by “AI influencers” in the service of promoting OnlyFans pages also full of stolen content. …

Experts I spoke to who once had great insight into how Facebook makes its decisions say that they no longer know what is happening at the platform … “I believe we're in a time of experimentation where platforms are willing to gamble and roll the dice and say, ‘How little content moderation can we get away with?,'” Sarah T. Roberts, a UCLA professor and author of Behind the Screen: Content Moderation in the Shadows of Social Media, told me.

Very good and troubling article. If Meta - one of the richest companies in the world - is giving up on moderation, what does it mean for the dying, cash-strapped website we’re all on?

[bagaluten-sys]

A: "Omg, this dog meows, do you know what that means?"

B: "TRANS CAT"

C: "Mimicking and environmental influences"

B: "Yeah...that...what you said, yeah"

[loveguts]

i’m not a transandrophobia truther in the slightest don’t get me wrong, but i think some people on here really need to realize and comprehend the fact that cis women, way WAY more often than not, hold extremely significant social and political power over trans men the vast majority of the time in our day to day lives

[clockytboy420]

Okay picture this were frotting and I’m wearing my oversized [favourite nfl team] sweater while he’s wearing my [same team] long sleeve shirt and we’re frotting, u know just guy stuff, just bros being dudes

[ftm-radio]

Hello! Here are some fun facts about me!

I am...

quite pale

permanently tired-looking with shadowy circles under my eyes

naturally very protective of and reluctant to part with my blood (nurses HATE him)

sensitive to bright light

unfortunately rather hairless

liable to use unnecessarily formal/stilted language at the drop of a hat

fairly nocturnal

a hermit

currently obsessed with victorian aesthetics (for writing purposes, but still)

literally allergic to sunlight, I think???

and I have to say, it is horribly cruel of the universe to make me so vampire-coded when it is my god-given, transgender right to be a goddamn werewolf.

[transhitman]

Forced to go to a relative's birthday party but at least my outfit went hard. Wtf am I saying I'm giving hypebeast someone come kill me.