#None of the Kids Were Happy
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Apologies for the Semi-Late Response, I'm Currently Sick as a Dog and Very Sluggish :')
To answer the questions:
1a. Tate wasn't very happy to find out about the shift in dominance. Not because he feels Ford isn't worthy of it, but because of the process needed to cause that shift. One look at the bite marks on Stan's neck and arm was enough to rile Tate up and make him go off on Ford like a angry bull (and Ford let him because he agreed with everything Tate was saying).
1b. Before the shift, Tate and Ford were fairly amicable. They didn't talk much, and when they did talk it was mainly about weather or some other awkward topic.
2. Wendy felt the same as Tate in regards to her disdain against Ford's use of violence. She ranted about how he should and/or could have done anything else considering Ford KNOWS about Stan's weakened state. Soos started keeping distance from Ford, but didn't really say anything despite it being obvious how upset he was about the fight. Dipper and Mabel, as mentioned, are now afraid of Ford and try to stay out of his way for fear of angering him (weak werewolf pups may or may not be murdered or exiled should the pack leader find them unfit to be suitable heirs).
#Gravity Falls#Monster AU#Werewolf Gene AU#I Can't Stop Sniffling Someone Save Me#But Yeah#None of the Kids Were Happy#Fidds Managed to Hold Tate and Wendy Back From Going Too Far#Even HE Couldn't Win in a Fight Against Ford
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I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess
This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.
I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕
Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.
The video is still on YT.
#Anywayyyyy#The fandom added a whole lot more C to my C-PTSD#So a nice random message every few months instead of a freshly posted death wish is LOVELY.#Don’t fret. On meds and therapied but fresh tf out of money from it so @ L and H… lornasaurusrexx at g*ail is the PayPal if ur bored 🙃#I hate to be like this but protect your hearts. They’ll never be able to look out for you guys and they feed these trolls ammo for snacks#and it seems to have only gotten worse. Gotta keep them hets hetbaited for their money whilst actively encouraging them to bully yall? Why?#STILL!? At this point it feels like they’ve both chosen that path deliberately now and I find it quite gross. but I’m also very far removed#So don’t worry about my opinions. Keep trusting your own intuition!!! You all see it. I love you guys and your beautiful hearts and empathy#But I hope they can sleep at night knowing the absolute fucking genuine WRECKAGE they left across the Big Gay War generation/era of Larries#Don’t worry guys I’m just as dramatic as ever. None of this has anything to do with them coming out or anything. Just how we were treated.#But trust I fuckin mean that shit from the deepest darkest pit of my Demon Larrie™️ heart. They encouraged this. 🤷🏼♀️#Anyone who cares about my actual life updates: I’m a school nurse now and will be working at a bougie summer camp over break#Had a surgery I needed. Got new tattoos and piercings. In a happy and healthy relationship with the best dude for almost a year now.#OH and I went to New Zealand last year with Prettytruthsandlies!!!! We made a pact back in our Big Gay War/college days to go. And we DID!!#I got overstimulated and overfed and puked in Hobbiton. 🤣 (It was the best time of my LIFE GENUINELY🥰🥰🥰🥰🥹🥹🥹)#Okay BYE LOVE YOU GUYS#There are better and more humane ways to maintain a closet ..like literally STFU entirely. Ignoring it and not exploiting a kid is FREE#🇵🇸
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I shit you not, guys...
My 7th graders, after putting things away and working really hard today, asked why we haven't watched The Monkees in a long time. I said that I thought they didn't like them anymore (cause middle schoolers always change their opinions all the time lol) and a out the entire class were appalled that I thought that and kept saying "We wanna watch the Monkees!! Can we have Monkees Friday? Can you bring in more episodes? I wanna see Davy and Micky again" (this class' favorite). Like, it almost turned into a riot!
I showed them the show last year as a reward for having a great concert and I guess they've been hooked ever since without me even knowing lol
So I put on an episode and all of them gathered around our TV and I was going to skip the theme song to get to the episode (it was the last 5 minutes of class) and they all got so upset and said "No don't, I wanna see the theme song!" So we only saw like, maybe 3 minutes of the actual episode and when the bell ring they wanted to stay and watch more 😆
Band to Monkees pipeline lol
#Idk why this touched me so much#it was such a wholesome moment and even the kids that aren't into it were happy to watch the show for a#we are now the Monkees class#theres literally a war over whether or not Davy is the best or of Micky is the best#they also think its really funny that Mike is my favorite 😍 none of them like Mike 😆#they caught a lot more jokes this go around too!#just the 32 yells of children that wanted to finish the episode 😭#the monkees
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#hi. this is going to be an ugly one#feel free to skip this because its gonna be rough#personal#in the winter of 2015 my girlfriend took her own life. she said she was sick and stayed home from school#she texted me “I love you.” and i knew she was gone before anyone would tell me#her parents murdered her. not directly. they didn't lay a hand on her. but they made her life so miserable that she felt she had#no other choice than to die. because they were homophobic. because they didn't believe in mental illness.#because they believed she could be 'cured' thru jesus. and they didn't love her for who she really was#and i hate them. i hate them more than any people on earth. because they will never admit it#they will never admit their role in her death. they blamed it on her eating disorder and brushed everything else under the rug#i didn't get to know her that well before she died. we only knew each other a few months.#and i.... god damnit#it still makes me so angry#this was nearly 10 years ago i cant fucking believe it.#her parents got all the fucking sympathy in the world when they deserved none.#they fucking killed her. anyone who actually knew her knows it. but no one is brave enough to say it#her dad worked at the school i had to go to for 3 more years and i just wanted to#either crawl in a hole or punch him in his stupid fucking face#everytime i saw him. she's dead because they couldn't conceive of a world where she could be gay and happy#or athiest and a good person. she told me she didn't believe any of the stuff her family did and i nearly threw up at her funeral#because it was all about god and jesus. and honestly it was barely about her. it was all about jumping on the pity train#for their poor parents.#i ran away from the casket. i didnt think she wouldve wanted any of this shit. i couldnt bear it#and i think. they sent her to one of those bullshit religious camps that abuse kids instead of actually treating their conditions#i honestly dont know what all they put her through. it makes me sick to imagine it.#i get all worked up about this everytime its terrible. i just cant understand how you can do that to your own child#and they fucking got away with it.#it makes me so furious beyond fucking reason like its un fucking real#sometimes living is . much harder than dying. i cant really elaborate much more than that#i miss you.
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I was watching the pre teens today (normally I'm with the teens) and they were being fucking crazy so I asked one of them if they're like that for the normal pre teen staff or if they're just acting like that because I'm there and they said "oh yeah we are not normally this bad" so I asked the room "hey why do y'all act so much more insane for me than the other staff? what's up with that??" and one of them said "it's because we know you can handle it. the other staff give up way faster" LMFAO???
#one of the other kids said to me 'youre so sigma' which i guess is an insult but was really just funny#BUT i took them outside because i was like i need yall to run around and get some of this energy out and they actually PLAYED#normally its like pulling teeth getting them off their phones and engaging with each other (i dont mean this in a boomer way-#I don't even blame them but they do need to have some time where theyre not glued to a screen and they dont often get it)#it made me so happy seeing them like run around and play playground games (normally theyre too cool for that) and like laugh w/ each other!#theres a couple of them that i NEVER see off their phone unless theyre not allowed to have it and none of them even checked their phones#we were outside for an hour i was so shocked none of them picked up a phone at any point#sucks its getting cold now because id like to do that with them more often! they clearly enjoyed it and it got some of the energy out#just warms my heart seeing them all have fun together<3 until one of them got upset and that was a whole thing but mostly was great
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Anyway, because I'm considered a bigger creator within the mogai community and I have a responsibility to address things given my bigger audience-
Please remember that Tumblr, especially LGBT Tumblr concerning discourse and intracommunity issues, is a hyper niche, reactive, violent, sensitive community with next to zero basis in reality at large and you should not take any of its opinions as absolute fact. Especially the mogai community's opinions.
A lot of people on mogai Tumblr talk big game with very clearly fake the-whole-bus-clapped stories about the real world concerning acceptance towards mspec monos, Neopronouns and Xenogenders and it's my job as an adult and guiding voice to remind people these experiences may happen but rarely do and you absolutely should not just tell random people you use purr/purrs pronouns or your a bi gaybian or you identify as Chronosian or other things like that because it's really fucking dangerous even in hyper progressive places like new york, cali and Detroit. It can be deadly in many many small towns, including ones in progressive states. Especially dangerous in non accepting states.
I don't say this to burst your bubble or ruin your hopeful world view but many stories of acceptance are fake, even if some are true, most of the community is underage and just cause your teacher may approve of your Soniccharic identity, doesn't mean they won't tell your transphobic parents. It's scary and dangerous out here for trans and gay people rn and I won't be one of the idiots who tell you to run and frolic with your Xenogender pins Infront of increasingly hostile transphobes. I want the younger gen z trans people to survive and I won't lie to you about the reality of the battle we all are staring down concerning project 2025.
Most of the people telling these stories live in progressive states and do not tell you about the failed times or exaggerate the acceptance they supposedly received. I'm telling you from the mouth of someone who grew up in a tiny town in South Ohio with less than 1,000 people, it's still just as dangerous as it was 10 years ago. I still get followed in my home town. I still get stares in my home town. My actual home town, a place I grew up in where people knew me as the gnc dyke for a good while in my last 2 years of school. Do not spread this shit around to everyone. Nex didn't think they would become a victim, Brianna didn't think she would be one of the unlucky ones, plenty of those we've lost did not think they would die in hate crimes. I almost died in two of the hate crimes I've experienced.
You need to be really fucking careful and although I love than Neopronouns and Xenogenders are becoming more accepted by the larger LGBT community, you need to be very very VERY careful about what you do, what you wear and who you tell what because word spreads fast in suburbia and hate spreads faster. You do not want to be wearing a pin the day some white cishet magat decides he's tired of the "pedophiles" and chooses you as the first victim because you were the first he saw. Don't hide who you are but Be. Fucking. Careful.
#clover speaks#im not being a doomist and i wont stand those allegations but some of yall telling these kids and teens the world is totes cool#with no-c paras and therians and bi lesbians have lost the plot and are gonna get these kids killed#especially considering i grew up very rural and none of the advice about presenting trans could possibly apply to me#thats why i say urban and even semi urban lgbt people should not be giving advice to rural lgbt people#nothing you say can apply to us because it is that dangerous#i still get followed as a fucking 23 yr old adult around my town#the one time an lgbt club tried to get established at my highschool the posters were ripped to shreds and there were both#bomb and shooting threats#people talking about setting the school on fire so they could quote pop the faggots one by one as they came running out#im so happy you live in a privileged Massachusetts school district with loving teachers who accept your system identity#please dont encourage the children in alabama and ohio to follow suit because you will get their naive asses killed#urban queer advice dosent apply to rural lgbt people#thats another thing ive seen be said by urban lgbt people that queer is no longer a slur used that way and has been totally reclaimed#great guess half my family and all my achool bullies were really just showing solidarity and i took it the wrong way#say youve never truely felt mortal danger in your small Christian home town cause your ex told pple your trans without saying it#like really#the privilege just jumps right out#that was the stupidest so and so is terf rhetoric to date and yall tme people just scarfed that shit down#ill never drop that veiw because i and many others can attest to it#surprise queer can be a slur an identity and a community all at the same time shocking ik#and if your offended because people are calling your identity a slur i ask whats dyke and faggor now#cause thoss were reclaimed waaaayyyyy before queer was and you still acknowledge their status as slurs#infact i remember seeing maps of slur usage on twitter from 2020 when that discourse was popular and queer#was the bigots favorite slur for us not dyke or faggot#i cant believe the brain rot on this site sometimes#itd be so funny as entertainment if yall werent using it to question and harass lgbt people with ptsd over it for litteral years#ik because i was one of the people harassed :)#i dont forget this shit so easily#sorry for the rant lol
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To me, it felt like 431 was a result of Horikoshi (or Jump) going into panic mode as a response to criticism they received from the ending of the manga. Regarding the het ship not happening and also how Deku settled into being a teacher. Whether or not Horikoshi was forced into it, we’ll never know, I guess. But if they are this reactive to criticism, then maybe the new short manga that he’ll draw will address some of the backlash 431 got.
I’m not sure why you felt the need to say all this in my ask box instead of messaging me, but noted.
Just makes me think the new short manga will probably just focus more on Ochako and Izuku’s relationship since the main manga itself did not tell that story, but apparently it is a story that must be told.
#pretty pretty please fuck the boy Ochako#nothing in your life or story matters unless we know you fuck the boy Ochako#we don’t care about whether you are a hero Ochako we just care whether or not you could have babies Ochako#you won’t be happy unless you support the birth rate Ochako#I hope you feel the venom in all of that#Ochako you were miserable and empty working with the youth of tomorrow#because none of those kids were yours Ochako#pining after that lame dude is your first step Ochako#the world will fall a fuckin’ part if we don’t have some strong indication that you probably marry him#please Ochako if we see you happy doing your own thing the world will fucking end#you haaaaaaaaave to fuck the lame main character boy Ochako#fucking Ew.
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ALIEN UPDATE MY GM SAID I LOOK LIKE JERMA >:(
#also we found the crew and they were fine and then we split up again and also reese came back in the ophelia#and we met the wife of one of the women mulligan fucked and they have 2 kids and she is Not happy with him#but none of that is important right now!!#bc my friends are being mean to me!!!!!
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so like. at the psych treatment center, those in the ed program did exposure therapy off campus.
we went to the movies once (the idea being eating a snack at the movies. i ordered and ate movie popcorn for the first time in forever tbh). and the film the ed program collective (le patients) decided to watch was deadpool and wolverine.
the behavioral health techs were suprised that that was the one. atm, it was all young women, at the time, so maybe that was the suprise. also the violence that would potentially be a trigger for some there. the techs were thinking inside out 2. that would have been "therapeutic" ig, but deadpool 3 probably did us the most good.
but that's how i ended up watching that movie. watching a movie in a theatre was charged to my insurance. wild.
#deadpool and wolverine#personal#i immediate voiced my dislike of inside out but acknowledged my reasons were why they'd want us to watch it#i was posting on here that afternoon bc they gave us our phones on the trip so i used tumblr on the way back#now i am on an x men kick and yes i own all the movies#i loved the x men as a kid#and i am back on my bs#apparently there are some comics i need to read#bc scott/jean/logan polycule? with the connecting rooms in the summers home in krakoa#like scott and jean and logan all have their individual rooms#but they are connected rooms where they can enter each others room without using the hallway#none of the other bedrooms do that. just scott and jean and logan#don't get me started on the offical art of them at pride. they are in the background having a good time together#i love it when the x men (and mutantkind generally) get to be happy#the set up - i think - was scott's room and jean's room both connect to logans room on opposing sides#which is a subtle move bc its not that logan and scott are connecting with jeans room#they are connected by logans room#do they just choose one for the night? option of having their own space? how do they say good morning?#very convenient for kissing the homies goodnight
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discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment
#purrs#i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are#falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school#so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w#was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and#overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the#store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol#and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and#OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the#same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life#anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY.#acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo!#also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻#the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving#practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i#learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills#(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪#delete later
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one day, im gonna sit down and write a poem about how after adopting a dog who spends 80% of his time sat in my lap, ive come to appreciate how difficult it is to do things without jostling him and how id never appreciated the gentleness of the stranger who had picked me up, held me and carried me home when i tore a chunk of flesh out of my leg at age 9 when i ran into barbed wire playing hide and seek tag, and how a man i didnt know had done everything he could not to jostle me as i clung to him, and just how difficult it must have been for him not to jostle me, and how he didnt need to be that gentle or to help me at all but when he was the first adult a different child could find and ask help from, he didnt hesitate to do everything he could, and how every time im trying to do anything without jostling archie, i think of him, and how anytime some piece of media tries to tell me that computers have figured out humans can only destroy, i cant take it seriously because with nothing to gain from it, he did everything he could to help a child who was hurting.
i just dont know how the fuck to put all of those feelings into coherent words because theres just so much feeling and emotion that goes into it, and because im always more critical of my work when its more optimistic or positive and how that definitely says something all by itself, but i still dont know how to word any of it.
#kai rambles#delete later#probably#im just feeling some feelings on this fine saturday afternoon#and i dont know how to word any of them#its so much easier to write painful things or sad things than happy things#at least for me#i also dont know how to separate it from the fact that none of it should have happened in the first place#because we shouldnt have been able to play there#residents had written to the council over and over again asking them to put a fence up because they knew it was dangerous#and that there was barbed fucking wire sticking out of the ground#and that kids were playing there#and the council never did because it was seen as a priority#and they didnt have the money#because they rarely ever have any money because we are one of the most impoverished boroughs in britain#and thats consistent#so it wasnt even that the council knew it was an accident waiting to happen and didnt do anything#it was that they couldnt rationalise spending the money on it without there being an accident because you know#some of our schools were not safe for kids to be in like on a hygeine level#and our water pipes broke seemingly every year so they were always fixing that and our roads needed doing#and a lot of our bridges are barely over the threshold of safe#so the council just couldnt afford to put a fence there until i ran into barbed wire and needed stitches#its so hard to separate all of that from the actual event because the wider context is just a damnation of capitalism and our government
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Essentially what it is all boiling down to is I have fully realized I am bad at being a person, that will always be true, and I don’t know how to handle that
#I’m going to be depressing and self depreciating in the tags so. fair warning to anyone who reads them#I’ve known for a while now that I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve thought of a few ideas but none of them seem to be working. and I#think a good chunk of what it’s boiling down to is that I am quite literally just stupid when it comes to an actual useful real life skills.#and it’s frustrating because I can’t even talk to ppl I know and confide in them that I feel dumb and stupid without them being like ‘nooooo#don’t say that! you’re not stupid! you were top of your class in hs!’ (that is their favorite thing to fall back on) but like. the thing is#I wasn’t even smart in hs. sure I did good but that’s because I cheated my way through and got lucky a lot. I never actually learned anythin#I never understood what I was being taught or how to apply it. I was good at English and art classes and that was it those were the only one#I truly felt I knew what I was doing in and grasped the subject matter well. I know I’m good at those two things and smart when it comes to#those subjects. but the thing is. in real life. both of those are useless skills. I can’t make money with them and it is highly unlikely#that will ever change. and yes I know not being able to make money with it doesn’t mean it’s useless but like it kinda does. capitalism#sucks. I know that. we all do. but that doesn’t change that we live in a capitalist society and it’s unlikely to actual change in my lifetim#so I’m stuck to try and figure out how to live in it. but I have no skills I can make money with so I will live my entire life poor and#miserable and working dead end jobs that make me want to kill myself. I’m not good at socialization I’m so fucking bad at it so I can’t work#any kind of job that hinges on networking or sales or human interaction which is MOST JOBS but I’m also too stupid for anything related to#STEM. I tried two different stem degrees and flunked out of both of them because I am a FUCKING IDIOT and I know there’s no point in trying#to go back to school for another one. but no degree in anything I naturally have a knack for will help me find a decent well paying job. ill#just be wasting my money to go to school for something like that. and then like. I don’t even think I’ll ever get married and I def won’t#ever have kids. so I can’t even put any hopeful stock in just being happy with a family one day. I know a lot of ppl who don’t like their#careers but they’re fine with that because they’re happy with their family but like I don’t even have that and I won’t ever have that. I#have NOTHING to strive for and NOTHING I am good at that’s meaningful I’m going to fail at having a career and a family and I know that#doesn’t mean I won’t be happy in theory but by societal standards I am and always will be a fucking failure of a person and since I do live#in this society yeah. it’s kinda fucking true. and I don’t know what to do about that. I’m just tired. I’m tired of being afraid and#struggling and going through patches of wanting to kill myself because of this because like what’s the point. I’ll never have anything#better so what in the actual hell is the point of me existing. and I know I’m being ridiculous and my brain is eating itself and none of#this is probably even true but that doesn’t change that it FEELS like it is a lot of times and esp right now and I don’t know what to do#to anyone who reads this I’ll be fine tbh prob as soon as tomorrow like dw about it I just need to get it out so I stop stewing in it.#I’m just. yeah. not having a great time rn but I left work so I’m gonna cry and then maybe sleep for a bit and hope that helps#kaz rambles
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thinking about how as a baby charlie was probably in constant pain for a long time as their body tried to adjust to the mix of divine and demonic blood,,,,,, and how their blood manifests as lava..... and chronic pain.......
#do i project................#i'm kidding but really charlie was probably so sheltered for a reason.......#and that reason being they literally almost died just bc they were born is a really good one with hell in mind......#none of my characters have happy childhoods it's just not realistic UIERGHTIJKRH#* ooc: i like lesbians and i cannot lie.
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Reblogging because Errorink happy family content makes me weak in the k n e e s, you don't understand-
Uh??? Babsies???????
Scarf.f harnesses ..
#I admire people who can make the Errorink happy family content so much man#Not only because I am a chronic Errorink shipper and they have completely taken control of my life#But also because it is something that I am completely incapable of doing#IT'S A CURSE MAN#E v e r y t i m e#E v e r y t i m e I tell you#I try to make happy fluff Errorink content; which extends to Errorink happy family#I r u i n i t#People going “Pastellll; what do you mean. You have no Errorink family content on your stuff-”#B e t h a n k f u l#Because I 100% will ruin it#Errorink happy family?? Oooh they were BEFORE I KILL OFF ONE OF THE PARENTS#OR WORSE THE KIDS. NOW YOU GOT A GRIEVING PARENT FIC#None of them exist yet because literally every time I try to imagine Errorink happy family one shots#They end in tragedy#The only one that may be immune to this is my main fic; but that won't happen for another 25 years
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Telling myself not to google "how to find love" again
#rant#it just results in anxiety#in the dating apps still seeing zero people im even marginally compatible with#i saw one a month ago and... they didnt converse and i am only letting myself carry a convo for a few days#if the other person doesnt put in any effort#i am joining in person groups! not super outgoing groups but writing meetups and library stuff and going to my dads band shows#which is a lot for me! im chronically ill and my body hates me and makes it so i cant just sit or stand out somewhere most days#i am doing everything those how to find love articles advise#i worked on myself 10 years (and continue to cause its an endless journey) i focus on hobbies and my happiness and goals#i try to meet people. i mention im single. i compliment people i find interesting#is there an invisible bubble around me keeping people away?? (kidding but)#like during the pandemic when literally none of us were leaving house i clicked immensely w a cute person who became a good friend#and it was online and in person and so LUCKY (and it didnt work out cause im demi and dont know if ill like someone romantically till i meet#and they were ace and not looking for relationship) but like. that was the closest to a crush ive had in over 5 years#and that kind of clicking instantly and luckily with a random person???? why could it happen during lockdown in a pandemic#but not now when im trying actively to meet people? ;-;#i feel hopeless man. just wanna love someone and be loved in return. have a romantic partner u feel me#i want that in my life.#and the more years go by the more i feel like OK ive focused on myself alone for several years#and im starting to feel personally responsible for being single. blaming myself for meeting no one romantically. then i feel i need to put#in more effort. but man i am... putting in ALL the effort i know how!!!
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the way i see it there's basically no nostalgia for the internet of the 1980s-90s; at most you'd get nostalgia for the internet's portrayal in kids' media and the state of personal computer ownership in general back then. (even for the young adults on the internet at that time i don't think you'll currently find much nostalgia from their grown selves for back then.) going into the 2000s there's still no centralized source of nostalgia due to the lack of major social media sites or a pc gaming scene insofar as either of those could appeal to children- kids were using the internet by then but you'd find much less consensus on what's from that time worth being nostalgic over. that's why any media you'll see today trying to nostalgiabait for that time has either got to be a. niche as all hell or b. broad-strokes to the point of incoherency. see: analog horror is the 70s-90s and then digital horror leaps right into the end of the 00s through 2010s. (also, you can't very well make a creepy subversion of household/kids media from that time when that's what 90% of the content was anyway. look at that, someone's killing barney the dinosaur on the front page of newgrounds.) this post takes its caveats from the 20 year media/generation/throwback/whatever cycle and my age which i assure you isn't giving me much expertise on this subject
#my earliest years on the internet were not on social media (good god you'd hope so with how early they were)#but they still felt heavily colored by millenials'/90s kids' childhoods getting relived/talked about a whole bunch#because i mean what were you going to do on a dedicated public web site talk about normal everyday modern adult stuff?#also sprach#i guess this post is also about how the internet went from having No space for kids to having#a good damn amount of kid-specific places to having no places for kids again but none properly excluding them either#there's a pervasive feeling on social media (& other websites) that if you're on there you Might be a kid. you might#but... you're still probably an adult... right? a feeling likely left over from those early decades#of ''what the fuck would any child be doing (unsupervised) where other people are on the internet''#i didn't put all that^ in this post though because again i don't have memories of all that#& even if i did i don't think my childhood is all that objective + i feel too uninformed on the#online social sphere of the aughts. god i would be so happy to find some good already-done research#slash other educational resource on this topic#c u thru the q#one final note: isn't ''digital horror'' kind of a. really unintuitive name for a genre. like it lacks what ''found footage'' does yeah?#or am i writing this post too late at night
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