#I’m undiagnosed
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is it possible if you can write another bendystraw oneshot? I really love them and your ideas about them
“At least I don’t kiss you when I’m drunk!”
Everyone was having a good time at the living, some were playing games, while others talked among themselves and Cup and Bendy began to bicker like they usually do which is why no one was paying much attention to them, Until now.
Everyone turned to look at Bendy whose smile fell as he noticed the mood in the room shift and Cuphead who was red in the face with the most bewildered look they’d ever seen.
“….what?” Boris finally spoke up destroying the silence the room had, “ok I know cheap shot given I don’t drink anymore-“ Whatever Bendy tried to say was cut off by Fanny laughing “That’s not what he meant! You kissed him?” She turned to Cuphead a sly smirk on her face as she questioned him. He couldn’t answer opening and closing his mouth in shock luckily or unluckily Bendy spoke again “Why are you so smug? Do you know how many times I had to pull you and Red off of each other while drunk?” The ladies in question immediately looked at each other in complete shock and embarrassment.
But Bendy wasn’t done just yet.
“And you!” He pointed at Holly who was already blushing a bit, “Do you have any idea how many times I had to hide your compact so you wouldn’t call Alice in the middle of the night to tell how ‘she’s so pretty and she should ditch all those pesty boys trying to court her and kiss you instead’?” Now she was full-on blushing, her face completely red.
“And you.” Bendy turned to Oddswell, his voice gentle now “I wanna know what happened that night at the bar with Winston” Oddswell looked embarrassed for a brief moment before nodding slowly choosing to ignore everyone’s gaze.
Cup still wasn’t saying a word, his eyes completely focused on Bendy and Bendy alone.
The rest of the day was spent with everyone ignoring the topic as best as possible. Expect for Bendy, Who still had no idea why everyone had that kind of reaction in the first place.
Bendy left saying he needed fresh air and Cup followed saying he was going out to smoke.
“You know I got out for ‘fresh’ air right?” Bendy waved the smoke out his face giving Cup an annoyed look, Cuphead responded to that by blowing smoke directly at him making him cough, “Seriously man?” He whined earning a chuckle from Cup.
“Sooooo” Cup started awkwardly “I kiss you when I’m drunk?” He avoided Bendy’s eyes as he asked, Which in turn made Bendy roll his eyes “Yeah but we pretty much established that it’s a normal thing to want to kiss your best friend” he turned to look up.“Besides you were drunk so not like it means anything”
“So if I were to kiss you right now it’ll mean something?”
The question took him off guard and made him snap his head back to look at Cup who was peacefully continuing to smoke, The air around him suddenly felt suffocating.
It seemed as tho the smoke had completely inhaled him making him unable to see anything but Cup, the smell made him want to cough again but he stayed silent for as long as he could ignoring the seemingly innocent glances Cuphead gave him.
“No.”
He finally said his voice sounded too dead even to himself, Cup only gave a long hum in response as he turned towards him blowing smoke into his face as he spoke.
“So it will mean nothing to you?” “Nothing at all.” And with that, his lips met Bendy’s
Is it still lying if they’re both aware of the truth?
#inky mystery#babqftim#the inky mystery#babitim#inky fiction#bendystraw#this took me so looooooong#I couldn’t get myself to draw cause I didn’t finish this but my brain was not braining enough to let me finish#I’m undiagnosed#not sure for what but I’m undiagnosed for something
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If I were Dan and Phil I would never hard launch because it’s so embarrassing that we were right. Like what do you mean you were so in love a bunch of thirteen year old’s clocked it? I would never give that satisfaction.
#no but really I’m always shocked when people are like I can’t believe the fan girls were right#hello?????#dailybooth? early tweets? he smells like warm??? uma thurman watched me have sex with a uma thurman poster next to Phil’s bed? vday video?#he smells like warm#that’s the plan#interrupted by fireworks - phil#the week I spent with Phil >>>>>>>#the lube in their suitcase in Australia (?) (please tell me y’all remember that)#they spent fucking Christmas together like every year#I don’t bring my bestie to Christmas and family vacations😭#that’s just off the top of my head#like yeah us 13 year olds were batshit insane with tons of undiagnosed mental illness but it wasn’t rocket science to figure it out#will this get me cancelled?#rae’s rambles#dan and phil#phan
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Jon - God, I was such an irritating child — always talking back, thinking I was smarter than everyone else, wandering off, having the police drag me back home — no wonder my grandmother was so bitter.
Martin - I mean sure, but isn’t that just undiagnosed autism?
Jon - ……what?
#Jon is undiagnosed and oblivious in my heart#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#jonmartin#TMA#I’m writing an angsty scene where Jon and Martin talk about his childhood#and like… this exact scene keeps turning over in my head#but it doesn’t match the vibes!!!!
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“She’s so sweet she’s always going out of her way to help others” quick someone give that girl all the love and safe space she deserves before being “sweet” (pathological people pleasing as a trauma response) destroys her and leaves behind a bitter empty shell of a person
#it will! learned that one the hard way! can’t believe I didn’t see that’s what I was doing for so long :)#always just thought “I’m so nice haha wish I wasn’t” turns out I wasn’t hahah just brain chemicals outta wack :)#not that I’m not actually nice but the people pleasing isn’t what makes me so :) (me @ myself)#post traumatic growth#pathological people pleaser#rants & reflections#csa survivor#cptsd healing#childhood emotional neglect#autistic trauma#autism in girls#late diagnosed autistic#cptsd recovery#bpd mood#undiagnosed neurodivergent#abuse survivor#people pleaser#inferiority complex#trauma response#trauma recovery#traumagenic#trauma disorders
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Robin 1993 Issue 1: I’m getting choked out in the Batcave
Superboy 1994 Issue 1: I’m getting choked out on a beach in Hawaii
Impulse 1994 Issue 1: I’m being forced to move to Alabama and go to high school there
#it’s so funny actually#Tim is having a terrible time and trying to ignore it#Kon is having a terrible time and is in deep denial about#Bart is in a chill situation except it’s hell on earth for him#give it up for our golden trio: parentified-exploited-undiagnosed neurodivergency#I’m in love with them I would die for them they are my favorite boys#I want them all in therapy with a therapist who could actually handle them#dc#yj#young just us#young justice#dc robin#superboy#dc impulse#tim drake#bart allen#kon el#conner kent#yj98
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#sanders sides#logic sanders#logan sanders#my art#art#virgil sanders#ts virgil#analogical#this is the fastest I’ve ever drawn smth ngl#anyways sorry I haven’t been posting I just haven’t been making anything I’m particularly proud of#but uhhhh here’s some lollipop chainsaw au stuff#I was gonna finish the sketch tonight but chronic pain is a bitch so it’s not happening#I started using a new posing method and let’s just say I’m back babyyy#plus I’m getting a tour box lite soon as a first day of school present#ik school started like two weeks ago but it’s complicated for me#anyways#don’t you just love being undiagnosed and disabled??
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it’s the fucking tism i swear i’m not a meanie on purpose :/
#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#bpd shitposting#actually borderline#bpd#bpd fp#bpd favorite person#bpd vent#bpd mood#bpd problems#undiagnosed autism?#i’m literally such an aggressive person for no reason#i don’t mean to be#i wanna be a bundle of joy but that’s too much masking
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i’m so proud of ayano’s portrait
#yansim#yandere simulator#ayano aishi#taro yamada#taeko yamada#little ayano is based on her original design#i think that ryoba was like. she thinks of ayano as like the symbol and product of her and jokichi’s love right?#i think that she would want ayano to look perfect. like be happy as well because if ayano’s happy then so is her marriage i think is her#logic. but the point i’m trying to make is she would not let ayano wear that outfit. i think ryoba’s got a decent interest in fashion#partially to look her best for jokichi but also just as a hobby#also when ayano first started dating taro/taeko i think she had like a major backdraft of numbness and the obsession intensified before she#calmed down and Became A Person#the reason taro’s design changes so much when his gender is bent is cuz his appearance really depends on his mom/dad. like if he was born#a girl his dad would’ve left so taeko would’ve been without that influence and lived in an entirely women house. lore drop. and then if he’#a guy he would’ve had to fill his dad’s role too early. with undiagnosed narcolepsy that only ayano has noticed. doomed to be responsible#Ayano Guard Dog Instinct. In This Essay I Will
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I feel like a character in a show that the writers gave so many autism symptoms, like, as many as they could fit, but just never confirmed anything, and so most of the fandom has basically just said “oh yea she’s on the spectrum” but then there’s that one bit that keeps saying “ok but none of the creators confirmed it… so like… are we sure???”
Literally everyone I know says “yea you’re probably autistic” but then there’s that little voice in my head that says “ok but like what if ur not? What then? Hmm???” And I HATE IT but I know I can’t stop it until there’s an actual diagnosis so I’m just here like :’) until that happens
#autism#undiagnosed autistic#diagnosed but something still ain’t quite right#audhd#I think#undiagnosed autism#I’m dying!!! so fun!!!
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Geek Girl just hits different when you grew up undiagnosed autistic and got bullied for it
Like oooh I see parts of myself in such a kind and caring light and it feels cathartic it feels healing
#like here is an undiagnosed autistic teenager who is bullied for it and just oh the way it is shown#she’s not punished for the bullying#and never once is she forced into masking#she doesn’t understand why she’s different the way she is bc she doesn’t know she’s autistic#but she still identifies someone else who is ‘like her’ in that way#and gets to have a supportive connection and a healing conversation with him#jaxy babbles#geek girl#geek girl show#Harriet Manners#she gets to infodump all the time!#and the show doesn’t show it in like a negative way!#yes it shows that’s she’s awkward but it’s not like an ‘ew’ thing it’s not rejecting#it’s going ‘actually what she’s saying is interesting’ and ‘taking the time to understand her and care for her is worthwhile’#anyways I’m a lil obsessed
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Having undiagnosed autistic parents is a double edged sword, because on one hand they understand your experience intimately even if they can’t explain it, set up your life in a structured way with lots of margins, and assure you that you are not broken or defective for who you are because they’re the same way, but at the same time they also expect you to just ‘suck it up’ and push forward in a hostile neurotypical world because they had to do it too, and dismiss your concerns with ‘that’s just how our family is.’
#since my diagnosis they’ve become a lot more educated though!#I’m really quite lucky to have such supportive parents#but they do have certain ‘blindspots’ in a way#actually autistic#autistic experiences#autistic#neurodivergent#autism#autistic things#asd#late diagnosed autism#late diagnosed autistic#late diagnosis#undiagnosed autistic
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Gives Haytham Kenway undiagnosed ADHD and OCD that Connor unknowingly inherited from him because I can and am I really wrong
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>get carpal tunnel
>stop drawing/writing/gaming etc (all of my hobbies)
>get very depressed (lame)
>symptoms lighten up eventually
>start doing things again, just a bit
>stop being so depressed (yay)
>hands get bad again (uh oh)
>stop
>depressed and angry again
>start drawing after a while
>more pain
rinse and repeat for the rest of my life i guess
#i’m ngl kinda kicking my feet and giggling at the concept of dropping out of college. like i won’t i can’t. but god if only#“why don’t you find other hobbies” im trying. i literally cannot. i have a dozen books and movies and stuff ive been trying to get into#and my brain will not let me. if i could just open a book or start the video i could stick but i literally can’t get there#so like. idk what to do.#sorry for the vent i need to get out of the habit of complaining on this blog. but i got hit with Symptoms out of nowhere#and im slogging through packing today and just dreading upcoming semester in general#gonna be trying to balance (art) school (not difficult but physically taxing) part time job and comic (nonnegotiable). + like. sleep.#wahoooooo#sparks speaks#vent#delete later probably#more and more convinced i have like undiagnosed adhd or something w how bad my executive dysfunction is
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anyways that’s how my day’s been so far :)
yes i realize this (forgetting to eat cause ur distracted) is a sign of adhd (at least that’s what i remember)
no im not investigating further
:)
#undiagnosed adhd#i think#idk#i’m mentally ill#marauders#jegulus#marauders era#james potter#the marauders#regulus black#remus lupin#dead gay wizards#i love them#i’m so normal about them
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The fact that Symmetra’s seemingly only childhood friend was a boy she fundamentally disagreed with everything about and disliked pretty much everything that he stood for - and that it was exactly the same for him - is so so so funny to me. Unlikeable neurodivergent bitches gotta stick together
#overwatch#lifeweaver#Symmetra#symweaver#Niran with his undiagnosed ADHD: there is NOTHING I hate more than rigid structure and order and rules#kid Symmetra: ohhh I can’t not befriend him#and in reverse ofc Satya like i wish I could live in a beautiful dream world where everything is made from-#-the same generic futuristic architecture and that one corporation owned it all 🙏#and Niran who’s still treating the poison ivy in his nethers bc he slept in the woods again is like omg .. did we just become besties#I’m serious when I say this this is the best lore related thing Overwatch has done in years. maybe ever#I just love that they gave Sym a friend like LW. absolute MESS of a man who absolutely adores her#this was supposed to go on my side blog but I drafted it to main by accident and I’m not rewriting all these tags#so Overwatch text post be upon ye
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I just want to know what’s wrong with my body. Why is it so hard to get that? I just want to have answers. I just Want to live life with appropriate treatment.
#disability#disabled#actually disabled#chronic illness#chronic pain#physical disability#hypermobility#pots#pots syndrome#mostly undiagnosed#undiagnosed chronic pain#generalized hypermobility#hypermobile#hypermobile joints#joint issues#pain#stomach issues#autistic#i’m in pain#I just want answers#medical#tired#fatigue
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