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Gene Behind Orange Fur in Cats Found at Last
Shared from Science.org.
It would be pretty easy to guess that Garfield was a tomcat even if you didn’t know his name—or didn’t want to peek under his tail. Most orange cats are boys, a quirk of feline genetics that also explains why almost all calicos and tortoiseshells are girls.
Scientists curious about those sex differences—or perhaps just cat lovers—have spent more than 60 years unsuccessfully seeking the gene that causes orange fur and the striking patchwork of colors in calicos and tortoiseshells. Now, two teams have independently found the long-awaited mutation and discovered a protein that influences hair color in a way never seen before in any animal.
“I am fully convinced this is the gene and am happy,” says Carolyn Brown, a University of British Columbia geneticist who was not involved in either study. “It’s a question I’ve always wanted the answer to.”
Scientists have long been fascinated by tortoiseshell and calico cats: the offspring of a black cat and an orange cat. Multicolored cats from such a cross are almost always female, suggesting the gene variant that makes fur orange or black is located on the X chromosome. The male offspring of such a cross are typically unicolor because they inherit just one parent’s X chromosome: We can guess, for instance, that Garfield’s mother is orange because he inherited his only X chromosome from her.**
But female cats inherit an X chromosome from each parent. Cells don’t generally need both, so during embryonic development each cell randomly chooses one X to express genes from. The other chromosome rolls up into a mostly inert ball—a phenomenon called X inactivation. As a result, tortoiseshell cats end up with separate patches of black and orange fur depending on which chromosome was inactivated in that part of their skin. Calico cats add white fur into the mix because they have a second, unrelated genetic mechanism that shuts down pigment production in some cells.
In most mammals, including humans, red hair is caused by mutations in one cell surface protein, Mc1r, that determines whether skin cells called melanocytes produce a dark pigment or a lighter red-yellow pigment in skin or hair. Mutations that make Mc1r less active cause melanocytes to get “stuck” producing the light pigment.
But the gene encoding Mc1r didn’t seem explain where cats’ orange fur came from. It isn’t located on the X chromosome in cats or any other species—and most orange cats don’t have Mc1r mutations. “It’s been a genetic mystery, a conundrum,” says Greg Barsh, a geneticist at Stanford University.
To solve it, Barsh’s team collected skin samples from four orange and four nonorange fetuses from cats at spay-neuter clinics. As a proxy to determine how individual skin cells express genes, the researchers measured the amount of RNA that each melanocyte was producing and determined the gene it encoded. Melanocytes from orange cats, they found, made 13 times as much RNA from a gene called Arhgap36. The gene is located on the X chromosome, which led the team to think they had the key to orange color.
But when the researchers looked at Arhgap36’s genetic sequence in orange cats, they didn’t find any mutations in the DNA that encodes the Arhgap36 protein. Instead, they found the orange cats were missing a nearby stretch of DNA that didn’t affect the protein’s amino acid components but might be involved in regulating how much of it the cell produced. Scanning a database of 188 cat genomes, Barsh’s team found every single orange, calico, and tortoiseshell cat had the exact same mutation. The group reports the discovery this month on the preprint server bioRxiv.
A separate study, also posted to bioRxiv this month, confirms these findings. Similar experiments run by developmental biologist Hiroyuki Sasaki at Kyushu University and his colleagues revealed the same genetic deletion in 24 feral and pet cats from Japan, as well as among 258 cat genomes collected from around the world. They also found that skin from calico cats had more Arghap36 RNA in orange regions than in brown or black regions. Moreover Arhgap36 genes in mice, cats, and humans acquire chemical modifications that silence them on one of the two X chromosomes in females, Sasaki’s team documented, suggesting the gene is subject to X inactivation.
When Barsh and Sasaki learned their respective teams had discovered the same mutation, they decided to post their preprints at the same time. (Because they are preprints, neither study has been peer reviewed.) Both groups further found that increasing the amount of Arhgap36 in melanocytes activates a molecular pathway that switches the cells to producing light red pigment regardless of whether MC1r is active.
No one previously knew Arhgap36 could affect skin or hair coloration—it is involved in many aspects of embryonic development, and major mutations that affect its function throughout the body would probably kill the animal, Barsh says. But because the deletion mutation appears to only affect Arhgap36 function in melanocytes, cats with the mutation are not only healthy, but also cute.
Arhgap36’s inactivation pattern in calicos and tortoiseshells is typical of a gene on the X chromosome, Brown says, but it’s unusual that a deletion mutation would make a gene more active, not less. “There is probably something special about cats.”
Experts are thrilled by the two studies. “It’s a long-awaited gene,” says Leslie Lyons, a feline geneticist at the University of Missouri. The discovery of a new molecular pathway for hair color was unexpected, she says, but she’s not surprised how complex the interactions seem to be. “No gene ever stands by itself.”
Lyons would like to know where and when the mutation first appeared: There is some evidence, she says, that certain mummified Egyptian cats were orange. Research into cat color has revealed all kinds of phenomena, she says, including how the environment influences gene expression. “Everything you need to know about genetics you can learn from your cat.”
A Deletion at the X-linked Arhgap36 Gene Locus is Associated With the Orange Coloration of Tortoiseshell and Calico Cats
Molecular and Genetic Characterization of Sex-linked Orange Coat Color in the Domestic Cat
**Minor correction: Garfield’s mother could also have been a tortoiseshell.
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what would rosquez in tavullia radio universe be like taking care of (?) each other when they're sick... I think it's such a beautiful nuanced reconciliation universe and they're both so messy I am so intrigued by it
Wow that’s actually the perfect question for tavullia radio universe???? Definitely CW for vomiting, though not too viscerally described? Edit: Part II here
“Marc,” Vale says. He doesn’t try the bathroom door, in case he’ll find out it’s locked. Pale white light streams in through his own bedroom window. This morning there was frost on the grass, but it’s bled off by now.
There are no locks on the bathroom doors elsewhere in the ranch. People joke about it, of course, but it’s just a safety measure. Vale’s ensuite, does, of course, have a working one.
“Marc, can I get you anything,” he says, tapping a knuckle on the door. These are his mothers words falling out of his mouth, unbidden and strange, like finding something of hers in his closet. He changes tack. Says, “Can I….” in Spanish, posso sliding badly into puedo. ‘Help you’ sounds about the same as the Italian, but he doesn’t know the actual differences, couldn’t spell it. It doesn’t come out of his mouth.
Inside the bathroom, Marc snorts, and spits into the toilet bowl. “Poesdo?” he mimics. Can I, can I.
“Ah, shut up,” Vale says, sliding with relief back to Italian, smiling by accident against the stupid door.
“Why are you talking at me through the door?” Marc asks.
The relief of trying the handle and stumbling through to the ensuite is overwhelming, swamping. It makes Valentino stupid, so he says, “Do you want some lemon?”
Marc squints at him. “No?” he says. Valentino can see his own reflection in the big mirror, pale, his earring glinting. Marc is on the floor, in a black t-shirt and black boxer briefs. The whole building is quiet. It’s not an open practice day; it’s a Sunday. No staff are here. They were supposed to leave last night, but Marc had been tired.
“I have effervescente in here,” Vale says. “It is lemon flavored.”
“Maybe when I am done vomiting,” Marc says. He’s switched to careful, tense Italian, like Vale is too stupid to be bilingual.
“Okay,” says Vale, closing the cabinet door. The bathroom is all sort of white and bright. When the ranch house was remodelled it was added in wholesale, so only the ceiling’s wooden beams are original, and the rest is smooth and modern. Marc in black on the floor looks cold.
“Give me a moment,” Marc says. Valentino retreats to the bedroom, but does not close the door all the way. It’s not like he cannot hear Marc puking perfectly from the bedroom. It makes his heart beat too fast, like watching a fall over and over. He sighs and pulls the duvet off the bed, nearly knocking over a lamp, a helmet stand, and the bike.
He comes back in. Marc is resting his chin on the toilet seat, looking at Valentino with his dark eyes, barely open. Valentino is dragging the whole giant duvet through the door under Marc’s assessing gaze.
“Here,” he says, and tugs most of it over Marc.
“Thanks,” Marc murmurs, eyes softly shut now. Vale can’t tell if it’s Italian or Spanish; if there’s a Spanish S on the end of it, it gets lost in Marc’s teeth, tired.
Vale just stands there.
“Ah,” says Marc, “Maybe get out again.” He sounds so tired, still. No more Italian.
Instead Vale seems to be kneeling on the duvet where it’s pooled around Marc — smart to put that down, he thinks. Vale reaches out and gently cups the nape of Marc’s neck in one hand. Marc, as promised, vomits again. This does not dislodge Valentino's hand at all. He doesn’t know what he’ll do if Marc tells him again to leave. Go back to the bedroom, he guesses, and be cold without the duvet.
He strokes the place where Marc’s barber trims his hair to a sharp line, and the soft skin beneath it. His thumb follows the little aching bones of Marc’s spine.
"I hate throwing up," he tells Marc.
Marc breathes hard and says, "Good thing it's not you," in his tired voice.
Valentino says, "No, no," nonsensically, and puts one hand on the middle of Marc's back, hoping that his palm is warm.
#my fic#ask replies#rosquez#marc/vale#marc#vale#cw emetophobia#tavullia radio universe i love u#why is it so fun...#this is almost too sweet lmao
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Next time
“She killed me!”
“She does that.”
“But—the ballad. The road!”
“All a lie, I’m afraid. A little trick she uses to lure people to their deaths. Like a beautiful siren on the rocks, singing to passing sailors.”
“Um.”
“Yes?”
“You’re staring at her.”
“Am I? I guess I am.”
“Can she see us?”
“No. She knows we’re here, though. She always knows.”
“I’d like to give her a piece of my mind.”
“I can pass on a message, if you want?”
“Tell her she’s a despicable, wicked creature who deserves to rot in Hell.”
“Ooh, very harsh. I like it. So. Are you ready?”
“…No. But I don’t get a choice, do I?”
“Nope. Sorry.”
“There was more I wanted to do.”
“There always is.”
“…What happens next?”
“Come and see.”
*****
“Hi, Ags. One of them says you’re a despicable, wicked creature who should rot in Hell.”
”How incredibly unoriginal. Which one?”
“….uh.”
“Wow. You can’t even remember, can you?”
“...Maybe that one?”
“That’s a little insulting to the souls of the dead, not being able to tell them apart.”
“I see a lot of them. And they generally all have something nasty to say about you.”
“And that does hurt my feelings so. I cry about it every night. But you know, at the end of the day, I’m alive and they’re dead, and knowing that gives me the strength to carry on.”
“…you’re funny.”
”Looks like I can still make Death laugh.”
“Agatha…”
“Hmm?”
“…you know.”
“You miss me, you love me, you’re obsessed with me, that sort of thing?”
“Yes, Agatha. That sort of thing.”
“Hey, Rio, want to know something?”
“Probably not?”
“I wish I had never met you. I wish I had walked away the first time I saw you and never looked back. If I could take back every time I told you I loved you, I would.”
“What, all six times?”
“And only half of them real.”
“…stop.”
”Oh, that one hit, didn’t it? You were always so easy to manipulate. Please, my love, please. I love you so. Anything like that, and you’d do whatever I asked.”
“Yes. Because I love you, Ags, beyond all reason, even when I wish I didn’t. You can make me regret it, though.”
“Not half so much as I regret ever having loved you.”
“You do still love me, you know. You’re angry and hurt and taking it out on me, but you—“
“I don't. You can stalk me and obsess over me and follow me to the ends of the earth, but that part of me died the moment I buried my boy in the ground. I don’t think I can love anything anymore.”
“Beloved…”
“But if I could, I can promise it will never be you.”
“…All right, Agatha.”
“…That’s it? All right? I mean, that one was really vicious. I've been working on it all morning. I was hoping for a better reaction."
"Like what?"
"I don't know. Crying or sulking or disappearing or something. …Not stabbing."
"I don't really know how to cry…Were you really working on it all morning? What incredibly cruel thing to say to me this time?"
"On and off. Around other things."
"…That's nice."
"What?! No, it isn't. It's the opposite of nice, that's the point."
"It's nice that you were thinking of me."
"...I honestly wonder what it's like to be you sometimes.”
"At the moment? Lonely."
"That wasn't meant as a question. But how can you be lonely? I'm right here."
"...you are very mean, beloved."
"Ah, there, that's better. More along the lines I was hoping for. Now shoo, I have other things to do, I'm a busy woman."
"Other things like what?"
"I'm sorry, are you under the impression that I'm going to share information with you, the being I hate most in the entire universe?"
"...Fine, Agatha. Have it your way."
"Wait!"
"Yes??"
"At least try to remember which one insulted me next time."
"...Really? That's what you—oh! Next time. Next...yes."
"Mmhmm. And I promise, eventually I will make you cry."
"I honestly don't think I can."
"Watch me."
"Always."
"...No, but really go away now."
"Yes, Agatha. Until next time."
"...See you then."
Want to read more witch fics? Here's a masterpost or go check out Death on Drums because I heard the 70s version of the ballad again and thought of it
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#1 dad(dy)
based on those tweets/tumblr posts: ⓪ ① ② ③ ④ ⑤ ⑥ ⑦ CW: mentions of smoking, actor au wc: 571 . * ✦ . ⁺ .⁺ ˚ . * ✦ . ⁺ .⁺ ˚. * ✦ . ⁺ .⁺ ˚. * ✦ . ⁺ .⁺ ˚. * ✦ . ⁺ .⁺ ˚
The sound of clapperboard was heard as the day of filming began. “Today, due to immense demand, Gabriel Fouché, will be reading your thirst tweets!” Said the director with a bright smile. A part of the contract with the studio recording “Arcane” was to take part in a few interviews, this one was a bit- unusual for him.
“RIP to Silco, you would’ve loved vaping ‘bandaged heart’, you would’ve been doing crazy smoke tricks on tiktok ‘R. N’.” He chuckled. “What does R, N mean?” Laughs could be heard behind the cameras. Someone answered. “Right now.” Gabriel nodded.
“Well I did have to learn how to smoke cigars and do tricks with the smoke for the role. I do have to admit I am a habitual cigarette smoker so it was infinitely easier to master the art.” He paused for a moment. “As for the tiktok tricks - I’m a jughead when it comes to technology so unless there would be someone doing all the recording… you aren’t seeing those videos any time soon.”
“The children yearn for the mines, and my photo underneath it.” He burst out laughing, putting his hand on his mouth. “Ahahah- okay, okay. Yeah they do.”
“I think about this Silco moment every day, my god he’s so hot here.” Gabriel tilted his head. “Hmm… it seems most fans of Silco find him most attractive when he’s kicking the camera. I wonder why.” He put his hand on his chin in faux thought and then laughed.
“Sorry but older Silco ‘greater-than’ young Silco. I actually have to disagree on that.” He said. “Younger Silco was in one scene and he captured so many hearts, both on set and amongst the viewers, that Older Silco didn’t manage to do with all his screen time. Younger Silco is something special…”
“Hashtag Zaundads, actually!” Gabriel got closer to the camera and put his hand to his mouth almost as to whisper a secret. “Me and Gerard actually kissed to prepare for the alternate universe episode, to really get into character, you know.” Gasps were heard in the studio. “I’m joking.” He said winking towards the camera.
“Silco’s left eye is missing eyelids so I guess he was sleeping like this every night. Exactly what happened I can attest to that.” He nodded solemnly. “Actually, SIlco just doesn’t sleep ever, that’s how he runs Zaun, he does not let his guard down even for a moment. Poor guy, he needs to relax more.”
“P, L, S - please, I assume? - Stop posting Silco thirst he looks like my dad, and a comment left under that, is your dad single? I’d love to meet my doppelganger! Send me a message and we shall schedule it.” He said half-joking as an email popped up on the screen.
“And the final one- okay who the hell was all over my dash two years ago thirsting over Silco, I understand you now. I want his whole wardrobe and he can read the dictionary to me until I fall asleep. I actually have a deal to voice a certain someone in a new project we’ve been working on with the cast so keep your eyes open!” He said. “And as for my wardrobe, I’ve seen some pretty talented people replicating my outfits! So it’s clearly easy to steal Silco’s wardrobe.”
“Thank you all for watching!!” He exclaimed with his million dollar smile as the cameras stopped rolling.
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#writing#silco#arcane silco#silco arcane#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane s1#actor au arcane#arcane backstage au#actor au#crackfic#crack fic#silico#silico arcane#silico x reader#arcane actor au#silco actor au#silico actor au
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Bet i can pick up mun up by the scruff easily/j
(Nuh-uh! You can't do that! Your hands are for in-universe shenanigans only-!
Oh... Huh!!!)
#ooc post#what wall is this breaking???#I guess I am part of this universe now!!!#well I was gonna be bc I cannot resist a self insert Imao#okay now I am really working on posts!!!#this ask just really made me laugh!!!
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Reposting a connverse I made in 2021. Well, specifically posting this again after editing a few stuff.
I had been so bothered with how I kept editing Steven until I made his silhouette floppy-looking. So I fixed it a bit.
And that this was suppose to be flipped in the first place (which was why Connie's nose piercing was on the right side on the original.)
#I think I chose to keep it flipped then because I recognized Connie's silhouette was much stronger and sometimes I wanted my stronger parts#on the left side of the image.#connverse#Steven Quartz Universe#Connie Maheswaran#SU#my shiz#repostober#I'll be deleting my uploads for repostober by the end of the year except this one.#Editing it despite me saying I am not going to do anything two years ago.#I saved a speed paint of this on Youtube and you can clearly see I kept editing Steven worse and worse. 😵#I got his legs fixxed into a better stance at least.#What I specifically had a problem now is Steven's arm and jacket.#Like I think I can make his torso look more sturdy.#But I don't wanna dwell on it too much.#Steven Universe#Eugh this was suppose to be a scheduled post. and it just disappeared while editing it. I'm guessing I accidentally pressed the 'post now'#button?#teal
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Me reading the description of episode 30: oh, that's fine! that's not so bad! i can deal with that!
Me after listening to episode 30:
#reaction pic by @kalo-pop#so how are we dealing folks.#there is. so much. so many bad decisions.#colin for one is fucked. alice girl you're about to have soooo much guilt added on to you#teddy might not be doing too hot either so with sam that's 3 people that are going to weigh on your conscience!#most importantly though. gwen and lana. *that* was the scariest part of the episode.#gwen has just doomed them all i fear (even more than they already were)#i knew celia was up to something but i was still SHOCKED like oh my god girl you really were not going to hesitate#im *sure* we're going to hear from sam again. i'm sure. i'm just... not sure if it will actually be sam.#or if it will be all him if you get my drift#all in all a great finale! we got to the hole in the universe faster than i expected#but i guess it just feels like that bc im a tma veteran#it was much more manageable than tma's s1 finale at least lmao. i *could not* handle the worm sounds#... oh man what am i going to do on thursdays now???#we do still have the epilogue and bonus content coming but then???#it will be a barren few months#the magnus protocol#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#tmagp 30
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okay angel neil might be bumpy for a bit but i am tired of giving a fuck so you're getting a bumpy angel
#lol idk i'm struggling to get this part right.#well that's a lie#i know the exact reason.#it's that i wrote what i thought was a great transition scene but now i'm like 'eh' about it#like it's a fine scene but it would honestly be better suited to the vampdrew universe... so#i guess i'll cut it out and put it in there somewhere#but my problem was i was being a stubborn idiot and trying to fit it in anyway lol#but i think.#it's gonna be alright#killing my darlings or whatever#well i'm not killin it just giving it to vampdrew :) but you get me#anyway how are you? i love you#if you read all this then i am kissing the back of your hand<3#diaerie
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ough. toriel my beloved
#comics may or may not be coming#(they are i am drawing them)#why is it so difficult. not the process of drawing but something about choosing a canvas size and marking the panels makes my brain lag#okay kingdings is something that exists i guess but can we have a little old lady interaction.#need more content of wingdings actually being a part of that world and an important individual for the people around him#rather than just existing as a satellite to a handful of characters and straight up being barely acknowledged by others#specially considering he was the goddamn Royal Scientist the man genius himself#anyway toriel. their relationship would be funny#she may be perpetually confused by his mannerisms but shes immune to creepy (re: her own creepy ass children across universes)#woman always sees right through him and thinks hes the silliest thing#she knows how badly you want a family mr weirdo come now you can sit at the thanksgiving table#feels kind of bad her efforts cannot undo the debilitating loneliness he radiates however 😔#but my favourite thing: will never Not kiss her hand#there are no romantic undertones it is just a gesture of reverence#will do it to your mom your grandma your sister. really any lady he feels he owes formal acknowledgement#and queen toriel is always owed formal acknowledgement#gugunghhuhguh. ily toriel cant wait to finally figure out how to draw you
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I am insanely in Love with this drawing. Tumblr likes to botch the resolution tho, so if you want to see it in its full glory please click it (or open it in another tab, that also works)
#Sure it looks less like it is made of copper and more like it was made of brass but hey#For that sweet lighting effects? I can move past that#Also I am so so insanely proud of the lighting like look at it#Sure the dual light sources were on accident when playing around with some shading ideas but hey#And the lack of background is a little annoying to me but my art software would have crashed if I added any more layers with effects#This is part of a bigger project (an animation/story that I am entirely writing and animating in my pirated Powerpoint programm)#Do not ask me how it works for it took me 2 weeks to finish the current 8 slides (because of University etc)#And also do not ask me why I am using Powerpoint#Frame by Frame animations drive me insane (and I have no software to actually do that in) and I don't know how to work blender yet#Ahem anyway#My actual tags now#Uhhhh#Robots#robot oc#ocs#... Skull?#Man I don't know how am I supposed to tag this#tender and loving affection for your dead and long gone creator but you are a robot/program that only gained sentience after their death#How about that huh#(first one to correctly guess the two things the design for the robot was inspired by gets. A cookie. Two cookies... My lemoncake recipe)#digital art
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TFW you are questioning your future because how much you fucking hate school and the workload associated with it
#just university things 🤪#the only reason why I’m sticking to full time schedule is becuase of scholarships#that way I don’t have I pay for school#but god I want to drop to part time student so fucking bad#vent#rant#I’m doing good at least 8 hrs of hw every day#oh yes also work on top of that#just fuck me I guess#this is such a poor me issue I’m sorry#like wow I’m forced to attend university full time so I get to do classes for free poor me#I am just having such a hard time balancing my work load#I don’t even like business why tf am I getting a bachelors in it#I know why it’s becuase im already now 3 years invested into it and I get to do it with no cost to me#do I really want to be stuck in some soul sucking corporate job rest of my life?#is this my career?#what the fuck am I doing with my life#I don’t know anymore#I’m jdut trying to make it day by day#try not be crushed by overwhelming sadness of our current reality I guess#AGHHHH
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Just learned that
Apparently most people...don't...have near constant tinnitus that contributes to sensory overload and makes it difficult to process things like speech
#life in the shark lane#can i just#can we just stop giving my body shit to handle?#can we?#i am so tired#all i want in the universe right now is (redacted) and I'm questioning my ability to handle it and my ability to get my shit together enoug#and i guess this means I probably should have a real counseling session or whatever#i don't know how much more I can handle 'thing I thought was a pretty normal part of my day is actually a disability'#and amongst everything I have to interact with capitalism? but capitalism seems to not want me either#life in the shark lane in the tags
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#twitter repost#i guess its probably not THAT controversial i think i just really wanted to get that off my chest#xxxholic#i guess#no but like even tho mostly the quality was incredible the fact they basically were like HAHA ASSPULL and then dipped soon after is so..#i think im even a couple chapters behind and im not even rushing to catch up on them cause it burned me so bad#also cause its clamp im like. they can and will get worse sometimes with their weird shit and i cant trust that they wont#in fact holic is a funny one cause altho im less familiar with other series i know full well holic is one of their least Messy™ ones#iykwim#obviously thats not an inherent metric but like holic is usually nonsense free but i will never stop giving clamp bombastic side eye after#parts of the og ending and MOSTLY the fakeout alt universe mystery arc turning into an irrelevant fetch quest like#how do u produce media so perfect and then do that#and its also so long past tsubaholis main writing period so its like who cares??? why now???#especially cause it was like boom hiatus#anyway thats the main reason u never catch me rereading rei much at all#like i dont have an encyclopaedic knowledge of it solely cause the twist outcome pissed me off and made me so fckin nervous for the future#also im just worried now the movies done theyll be like oh we wrote 2 chapters ajd back to hiatus good riddance!! like#I've seen the digital fear struck into the eyes of x fans i wouldnt put it past them#anyway im still excited but god damn am i nervous and fucking suspicious as hell#sigh#why cant we live in a no fakeout more interesting arc ender world where also they decided to not pull a teacher student age gap 'ship'#ship in quotes cause they obviously dont fcking love each other#but clamp is SOOOOO addicted to that trope they wanted to mess with it a little like a cat with yarn even if its non romantic#like they were like we r a thirsty flower if we dont do something problematic even as a plot contrivance with no romance we will dieeeeeeee#one day i when holic is public domain (yeah im gonna live until like 500 im so cool like that) i will release hit doumeki movie#not trying to be a hater btw they do great work but damn if those ladies dont make me nervous as hell for where this whole thing could go#or if they even wanna finish it
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work anxiety starting before work itself hahahahaahahahahahahhhaha
#IM BAKCIJ THE FUCKIGN BUIDLIGN .AGAIN. AUSUSUXHEHWHGLHKF#im grateful i have an internship for this summer with the way the job market is like currently.#im grateful that i have the opportunity to lessen the burden on my parents shoulders. im grateful that this job can pay rent and groceries#and tuition for a few terms im grateful i get to gain experience while still in school that will hekp me in the future#IM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THIS!!!!! BUT STILL I FUCLING HATE EVERYTHJGN#i hate being unable to eat anything ir sleep at night bc all i can think about is shit i have work tomorrow i have to email this guy and#finish these tasks and impress my manager and be approachable and enthusiastic and eager to learn and not make any mistakes#and not fail anything bc im getting graded on this its alwags grades its always the fucking grades#isnt it. it was the grades that had me crying on walks home from school when i was 9 and it was grades that made me waste away 9th grade#it was grades that made me unable to stomach anything during weeks with tests and it was and is still grades that#dictate every single fucking part of my life#and even tho the ppl who used to yell at me for getting a B in math in 5th grade are no longer yelling at me for getting 60s in linear algeb#ra and stats and calculus and cs#haha.ha when ur university is famous for its.. horribly high suicdie rates#i find that the yelling comes from me now. ive replaced the adults who would sit beside me at the dinner table#yelling bc yea guess what 8 year old me didnt understand division at first#god i hate this school so much. i hate what im studying im gratefula nd am so privileged to be ahle to further my educarion and receive#all these experiences mot everyone can have but god everytime i return to the city where the school is#i feel like throwing up and sobbing and just never ipening my eyes again#haha yea. i hope i csn get a job to support myself in the future#i hope i can still have time for hobbies#why si everyone at school so good at everything#ive met more people who have passed their rcm 10 and arct exams for piano than those who havent#i have classes with people who have already published research papers with professors in the states#my classmates can breeze through a cs assignment while still playing fir varisty teams. working out everyday. goijg ti parties.#eating and cooking balsnced meals each week. having a social life..the whole combo#meanwhile i get overwhelmed because i have to respond to an email and finish an assignment in one day#how do i become like them#why was this about work anxiety at first and why is it about the eternal imposter syndrome and lack of self confidence#i just want money man... i dont give a shit about snything anymore
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help 🫣
#yes it's still the same project#not that anyone asked but i just wanna talk about it#i wanna do several routes for several members#at least hyunggu and shinwon#but yanan changgu and jinho are also on the list of possible candidates#actually at this point i could even imagine doing all 9 routes oops#sometimes i believe as many as 9 impossible things before breakfast#but i know myself and i will probably lose interest in the universe before that happens#but right now i am positively obsessed#now the worst part is#i am 12k in and i still haven't branched into a member route#any guesses what kinda au it is? hint has been given 🤭#kaffeeklatsch#ptg ttlg
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Ok, quick question: do content creators have jobs? It seems to me like the more popular, but not *crazy* popular ones don't have a back up job. I'm a content creator too, but just for fun and I'd honestly be a bit afraid of catching extreme burnout from creating and not having a safety net in a guaranteed monthly income. I assume their burnout could come from a required job and then there's also factors like being from a country that pays your retirement age or not, making it better to just make content. But whenever I watch other small creators it seems they have a full time working fiance and only do YouTube+TikTok and live comfortably even if they're living in the land of capitalism™. Is there TikTok pay? Is it just so much bigger than YouTube and such? I'm just so confused •-•
#this isn't an attack on any creators tho#just curiousity#seriously#personally I make like 600 bucks a month by being a small-ish content creator#and I'm looking to expand#for me this is comfortable because the job I aim for pays well enough for my lifestyle#so these extra money would go to house bills#but I'm just lucky enough to be living in a country with cheap prices once you've got your own place#before the war I could also afford my groceries from that pay#now I think I'd need to make a bit more#but I'll see about that when I am finally done with my exams#I have a policy of posting more content once I reach a certain target and I know I reached my last one recently while I was busy#because exams got in the way#but I'll then honor my part with the posting once I am in the clear with the university stuff for this semester#tiktok#youtube#content creation#i guess#also I'm not expanding to TikTok#not comfortable with that
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