#I don't hate them but I also don't care either

[thebibliosphere]

Wait, is Jason in Gotham Knights body horror? Because it doesn't feel like his body even tho he's controlling it? (He died, he came back, it's not the same and never will be)

Or is it more analogous to puberty and feeling like you don't know anything about your body anymore?

Just having thoughts about that boy again

I think Jason in Gotham Knights is very much connected with his physical body. It's his biggest weapon, possibly more so than his guns, given his lasting connection to the Lazarus Pit and the power it gives him.

His backstory talks about building himself up to peak physical condition into the absolute unit he is now, and you can either see that as someone trying to reconnect with their physical self or someone vowing never to be small or weak again.

I tend to think of it as both. It's a reclamation of his physical form but also a transformation into something bigger and stronger that ensures he's the scariest, meanest-looking mother fucker in the room. Basically someone you can't underestimate as a threat.

(Try not to think too hard about the fact that he now largely resembles Bruce in stature, that he is now the group's heavy hitter, the most menacing and the most likely to strike fear into the heart of his opponents, and that Jason molded himself into the person he needed to be rescued by as a child. Don't do it. Do not. I am normal about this.)

But he obviously struggles with feeling present mentally sometimes.

You'll see him zoning out occasionally, touching the J-shaped scar on his face before violently shaking himself back into the present.

He has panic attacks while playing a dance video game with a coffin in it—a coffin his character becomes trapped in because he's not moving fast enough. (hello, trauma)

He's angry all the time and so relieved when Barbra expresses her own rage at something because, yes, finally, someone else is letting their emotions out instead of bottling it up (Dick).

His emails are littered with orders for self-help books, emails from his therapist moving his sessions around, and concerned messages from his friends (Roy comes to mind) saying if he needs to get out of Gotham, they'll make it happen.

Alfred holding him while he sobs over losing Bruce still breaks me every time. I have to pause the game and walk around my house until I feel normal again.

And then there's the cut scene where Dick asks, "Hey, remember that time we all [insert funny thing here]," and Jason admits, somewhat angrily, that no, he doesn't because Lazarus took entire swaths of memories from him and he hates how he can't connect with people the way he used to and he hates the way they all look at him (the way Dick is looking at him now) when he admits he doesn't remember something they clearly loved about the old him: the version of him who didn't have volatile mood swings or made people flinch when he did something as mundane as handle a kitchen knife -- the undead monster he came back as*.

The fact that Dick then contrives to recreate this memory so Jason can be included in a newer version of it -- while also giving him what is arguably a weapon -- fucks me up every time. Dick just yeets a kitchen knife at him, trusting that Jason will catch it, and then just steamrolls over Jason's rightful 'what the fuck' expression with "Hey, we're making food. Get dicing."

And Jason knows what they're all doing. He's aware of it, and he gets the teeniest, tiniest smile before smothering it out. Except he can't quite. He's still smiling as he chops the vegetables. And yes, they're all hopeless at cooking compared to him, and he knows he's going to end up taking over, but that's okay. Because this is for him. He gets to control it.

And that's how Jason gets to make a new memory, one where he is handed a weapon and gets to turn it into a genuine expression of nurturing and care.

Because he does care about them. He wouldn't conspire with Dick to bake Barbara's favorite childhood cookies if he didn't. He wouldn't try so hard to be gentle with Tim triggering the shit out of him while he's struggling with his grief. He just doesn't always know how to express it because he doesn't always know what he's feeling.

Is his anger valid? Or is this Lazarus Pit Rage? Is he being overly sensitive because of his trauma, or is everyone else underreacting because of their trauma? (Should he sign them all up for therapy, quite probably, yes.)

So, you could perhaps argue that Jason experiences body horror in the sense that he doesn't remember all the pieces of who he used to be. (Speaking as someone with severe memory loss from medical trauma, it's certainly a type of horror.) But I don't think it's because he's detached from it physically or doesn't feel in control of his body. I think it's his mind that worries him.

His body he can control. It's his mind that still sparks green sometimes.

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*Re the scene with Tim when Tim calls the Talons monsters. "What about me? Do you think I'm a monster?"

No, they don't.

But Jason does. And it scares him shitless.

[thisusedtobeafanpage]

Im only halfway through spn but i could never understand how anyone could hate either of the winchester brothers. Like.

How.

Yeah they have a lot of problems (no shit) but????they're so loveable?????I am head over heels for both????

I understand having a favorite (I could never tho, I'd die for both of them) but just blatantly hating either of them is insane to me.

Also from where I stand I don't even think it makes sense to like one of them but not the other, the biggest part of their characters is how deeply they care for each other, no matter what

I can't explain myself but I hope y'all know what I'm trying to get to

[chaifootsteps]

I'm sorry if I sound like the classic "ugh, why can't they be just Friends????!1" but after some episodes I just can't keep wondering....

Are friends even a thing in the hellaverse?!

I really, REALLY can't think of any interaction between characters that isn't either oversexual or fells like a natural friendship...

I've seen people say the V's feel like a natural group of friends but....nope, both males of the trio have that oversexual tone and velvette is just there.

No one in IMP feels close to anyone that isn't family or romantic, Blitz is awful to mox, Loona is awful to mox, Millie and Loona are always hating each other and Vías "moment" of calm with Loona feels OC for her.

Same with the hazbin cast, despite there is a possible bound between niffty and Husk being under Alastors control they rarely interact, the supposed love Charlie express to the cast feels plastic since she never got close to anyone really and barely interacted (just that disgusting episode where she sees a friend in pain and wont help cause 'itz meeeeaaaan!!'), and they got rid of the cool friend that cherri was supposed to be in favor of....you guessed it !! Shipping!!! Yay!!!!.

The only "frienship" that could have been great where emily and Charlie, and Veggie with angel in the past when she was supposed to be a sinner...

but I don't feel like Charlies feelings about others are sincere anymore by how unnatural she acts, like she says she cares but doesn't really and Emily, despite being really innocent deserves better...

And veggie isn't a troubled sinner that died in the 90's anymore so that "enemies to friends" regarding a growth of a soft spot between her and angel, and the possibility of them bounding over their shared pain (veg was supposed to be a S*xworker in life) is gone like any hope I could had over this mess...

Sorry for the long rant but I haven't seen anyone pointing it out.

You're right, and I think it's one of those things that hints at something fairly sad about Viv as a person. She can't write sincere romantic relationships to save her life, but she's also just really, really bad at writing friends. Characters might work together towards a common goal, might even hang out together, but there's a lack of empathy, of connection, of real love. Pentious's "friends" let him be dragged off by a crowd of rapists, Husk says he accepts Angel's flaws and then expresses disgust with them two episodes later, and everyone in HB constantly abuses and belittles and threatens everyone else.

The most believable friendship we have is Pilot and Addict Angel and Cherri, and we saw what happened to that.

And yeah, there's no getting around it, I think that's all Viv and how she interacts with people. Viv's closest, most enduring friend is Sam, who she shit talks behind her back and who talks shit about her in turn. And that kind of says it all.

[crowleycorvid]

Getting controversial but if you call yourself a Misako fan but you hate wusako and cling to Garmadon and Misako's relationship. I don't think you are a Misako fan actually

And I'm not saying this to say you have to like or ship Wusako at all. I will be the first to admit they wrote it really awkwardly in the show and it's not everyone's cup of tea! But if you cared abt Misako's agency as a character you would not be keeping her ass with Garmadon through everything. Nothing wrong with enjoying their early relationship or when he's good ofc and she WANTS to be with him, but she's not irrational for not wanting to be his wife when he's been gone for years and comes back trying to kill everyone!! You are not writing her better by tying her exclusively to her relationship with Garmadon! You are not a Misako fan then, you are still just a Garmadon fan

Misako doesn't have a lot of established character development in the show. Hey. I get that. But going against what she DOES have there isn't any better. Ik that when I draw her it's typically with Wu because I love them very much but I love her separately too!She should not have to rely on either of them to have any substance to her character which is literally also a problem the show has and once again. That's a poor choice if you actually care about her

TLDR let Misako be her own character and stop tying her entirely to her relationship with a man

[anglercrit]

I don't care if everyone called me lesbophobic,I refuse to knowledge MarthaXmayberry as cannon,there are literally a lot of characters to be better partners to Ms.mayberry or simply just leave her alone cause some people who had fucked up relationship choose to stay single either out of trauma or because they want to find peace and heal themselves because they can't handle relationships anymore and there's nothing wrong with that,yet they chose the worst partners for her,the same woman who ruined her life is now her partner and I don't buy this "they're just hate fucking!" Cause deep down they support this toxic ship "but there's no wlw representation in HB!" What about loona? Viv just confirmed that she's bi, right? or she only made her bi in last minute for aesthetics? Why she didn't use loona or even verosika as wlw, huh? Viv and her stans just love toxic relationships cause they're toxic themselves. Also viv's shows are headcannon-based which means that she cannot write without using her fanbase ships as part of stories,HB would have been different if she ignored her fanbase fannons and by different I mean better,all we got is the wattpad show that pretends to be the next bojack horseman.

Yea I'll admit I wish we at least got some reasoning even if like a sentence or two of WHY Martha and Mayberry decided to hook up after the latter put a hit on the former and the former caused the latter's husband to cheat on her. I've seen a lot of people bring up the idea of them realizing that Reggie (the husband) was using them and bonding over that which I like but man if that's what they were going for they could've elaborated on it better. I also like your idea of Mayberry staying single after everything as she tries to sort herself out.

Onto Loona...yea I kinda agree. I have NOTHING against the amount of bi/pan characters in the show but considering essentially all of them have only been shown in m/f relationships or having m/f crushes like Moxxie (who eventually DID get an ex boyfriend but even still that was two seasons in), Loona and Barbie, it kinda does feel like Viv wrote them as straight and then slapped bi/pan onto them at the last minute so she could claim she was writing good rep.

And finally yea Viv just needs to stay back from her fanbase- I've heard people claim that she took the whole "V is a fallen angel" thing from fan theories and considering how poorly it was written into the show...yea I wouldn't be surprised ngl.

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

I've said it before, I'll say it again, and I'm sure it won't be the last time. I AM SICK AND BLOODY TIRED OF THESE MFS, HALF OF WHO DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT CURSED CHILD, BITCHING AND MOANING ABOUT AN ANGSTY TEEN DARING TO BE AN ANGSTY TEEN, I WILL FIGHT THE LOT OF YOU

(this is gonna be a bit long and probably incoherent so sit down and fucking listen to me 🔫 stick with me because I'm not just complaining about albus haters)

eVERYBODY wants cOoMmpllEeXx relatable HUMAN characters - and then SHIT themselves when the flaws a CHILD has isn't just 🥺 uwu im socially awkward and traumatised 🥺. that's why scorpius doesn't get this fuckass treatment, because his terrible human flaw is that he's a bit shit at conversation and gets sad about his dead mum (generalised understatement, but this post isnt about him. dont come for me i love him 🫶🏻)

god forbid albus, who feels unloved and unwanted (with valid evidence for a teenager), albus who feels completely out of place and outcast from his entire famously-close-knit family, ablus who is well known by the world by default via Harry and hates the attention and high expectations, albus who then gets targeted and bullied by his peers because he's not as perfect and brilliant as his father, albus who is then isolated from his one friend because Harry is making irrational ptsd fueled decisions, albus who tells Harry completely sincerely that he knows he's unlikeable but he'll try and change himself and be more like his siblings because he genuinely believes that's what Harry and everyone else whos had the misfortune of meeting him wants, albus who spends the entire play trying to prove himself and fix things via idiotic childish decisions BECAUSE HES A WHOLE UNSTABLE CHILD

god forbid that CHILD doesn't react like a patient, supported, well adjusted, level headed adult. god forbid he reacts outwardly. god forbid he reacts at all, my bad. clearly he should just sniffle a bit as if he doesn't feel suffocated and helpless by everything in his life, because obviously hes just a spoiled brat who doesn't know what real suffering is. god forbid he complains or feels anything negatively, or doesn't quite grasp that other people are struggling too because he is too busy trying so hard to deal with himself and his declining mental health the best he can with basically no support or understanding. god forbid he isn't completely perfect.

you all sound like some fucking boomer telling teenagers they don't know what real struggling is, they aren't mentally ill, they dont have any problems because they have a roof over their head, they should all go to war kids are too soft these days 😫😖😱 fUCKING‼️SHUT UP‼️

he does things wrong but he knows he does and he does everything he can to fix it! and he is fourteen!!! do none of you remember what being fourteen is like 😭😭 I swear half of you have got to be basically fourteen yourselves cmon man

cause I'm seeing this fucking pattern a lot recently. not just for albus, not just in this fandom, everywhere. ‼️ no one can fucking handle flawed characters anymore ‼️ the only thing any character is allowed to have wrong with them is trauma apparently, otherwise they have to be perfect, and I'm getting sick of it. characters and stories are meant to reflect real life, they're meant to help shape our world view, why are you expecting everyone to be fucking perfect??? what happened to nuance? what happened to understanding character development? you are all acting like characters and people are so black and white. either they're perfect or they're insufferable and evil. I won't lie, the most common victims i've noticed of this are women. but the flawed women are typically demonised, whereas the men are typically turned into uwu baby boys who actually aren't capable of doing anything wrong and then fanon goes nuts making them into ittle wittle victims. and I'm so fucking sick of all of it, I hate this. (obviously this is not a strict rule. Albus Potter, and also Albus Dumbledore now I mention it, are demonised beyond belief)

BRING BACK FLAWS AND BRING BACK NOT COMPLETELY WRITING OFF A CHARACTER BECAUSE THEY DARE TO BE HUMAN

I AM FED UP, ALBUS POTTER GET BEHIND ME

[lover-of-mine]

I'm not your Lady Whistledown, but the Oliver stuff started very subtly following the joint interview. I think reality hit a few of them following that. They built it up as this big springboard for the ship and when it didn't go that way the, there were no more interviews, or promo for the pair from the show, anger at Oliver started to creep in. It was subtle until Lou closed his cameo, but once they lost their direct contact with him, lots of them blamed Oliver. They believe the show forced him to shut it down. And many believe Oliver had something to do with that. It didn't help that immediately after he closed his cameo he also stopped interacting with or answering their questions on Twitter. And of course Oliver started blocking people as well. There are lots of them who are also freaking out over the SWAT stuff because he's clearly going back to that show, in some capacity, and they don't know what that will mean for his availability as far as 911 goes.

Ryan's interviews aren't helping them either. He's kind of been systematically disproving each of their arguments with every interview he does. The Men's Health interview with Oliver, I think was just what finally broke some of them. He's not going to get on board with Tommy, whether the show gives him canon Buddie or not, he clearly isn't vested in or going to vest in B/T and I think that's getting harder and harder for them to pretend away. I think it's also becoming clear that Lou's enthusiasm for it has certainly dimmed as well, for whenever reason. They're not being fed anything to sustain them anymore because all of it was coming from Lou himself and once he stopped they didn't have anything else to cling too. So being mad at Oliver is all they have left because they're never going to blame or be angry at Lou. So now Oliver, Tim and even Ryan, because lots of them think Oliver would be fine with B/T if Ryan wasn't around, are to blame for everything. Their ship was never about Oliver or Buck. Once Lou made himself available to their fawning and played along with it, all while taking their money, it became a fandom about Lou. Buck was just the character paired with the actor they were fetishizing. Hopefully they follow him out the door.

wait, they are blaming Oliver for the cameos stopping? I mean, I keep joking if it came down to it the production is gonna do what keeps Oliver happy, but to say Oliver has that kind of pull is just a lazy excuse to hate him. Lou was creating a type of publicity that didn't line up with the route they were going. That's even if Lou was told to stop, we don't know that for sure, do we? Dude can just get tired of playing it up not that he got the exposure he could get and now it has run it's course. I have a little prayer circle for him to book something else and not come back, so if he's back in swat, you will hear me cheering, but seriously, the more I learn the more wtf i am. But it does make sense that they built the thing around the shiny new actor and now can't keep up because the part of the ship that actually matters doesn't care, that adds up. I kinda wanna scream tho, Ryan's interviews are because he's promoting a movie. The dude is not getting interviews because of 911, the fact that he can't shut up about buddie doesn't change the fact that he is not there to talk about them. And since the beginning, Oliver keeps talking about Buck being bisexual outside of Buck dating Tommy, and it's crazy to watch the fantasy crumble when there was never to back it up to begin with. Honestly, I do hope that when Tommy goes he takes that part of the fandom with him, because my god....

[tfemluna]

i was rewatching stuff and it got me thinking of the saturn's moons episode ;_; i need to yap so long post incoming. apologies in advanced o7

i feel like this fandom has a tendency to switch up/see things in black and white a lot (very noticeable in the moon club episodes -- which i'll talk about eventually) because the amount of backlash the saturnian moons got whilst Saturn got cradled like a baby. Hm. It's just puzzling to me.

I like both the moons AND Saturn so it was hard to like... dislike either of them? Both of them are doing hurtful things to each other. I don't like when people use the excuse of "he has 146 moons! how could he possibly remember that many!" which, to a degree is fair, but you also have to think about the fact that Saturn has had billions of years to at least memorize his main 7 moons. It's the least he could've done if he cares for them as much as he claims. It's obvious he has clear favoritism and people tend to gloss over that when bashing the other saturnian moons when they get reasonably upset? Saturn is not innocent (in more ways than one), and that's okay. You can still feel bad for him without failing to acknowledge he isn't perfect either.

Not saying the moons are innocent either. They were desperate and rushing the whole ordeal. It's obvious they already have resentment towards Saturn and they honestly could've done that out of desperation and frustration just to get him to listen. The saturnian moons are mean, yeah. (With the exception of Rhea, Tethys and debatably Titan) And I definitely think they should've given Saturn some breathing room but I also don't like... blame them for being as upset as they were? They've been basically neglected/overshadowed for billions of years. I'd be pretty pissed too!

Their relationship with their parent planet is complicated, messy and dysfunctional -- and both sides are flawed, but neither are more bad than the other methinks. When the episode initially released the amount of hate the moons got and babying for Saturn just irked me. While I felt bad for Saturn I could see why the moons were upset but to me I just don't think people got that >_>

Don't get me wrong I love Saturn but he's not perfect and I LOVE that for him. He's a sweetheart but ultimately flawed and his clear favoritism and overall denseness is so good... I cannot wait to see him more of him in the upcoming arcs bcuz you KNOW what's being built up and ugh. so excited I hope he's fucked up even more

[skayafair]

Monty's Study

I haven't been to the fandom tag in a while, so maybe this was already discussed, but I want to talk about Monty.

First off, I've been reading what others say regarding his cage and connecting it to what he said himself.

the cage is too small for a crow (literally for any bird, actually)

the door is open, nothing that we could see was holding him in place

Monty still didn't try to get out and fly away

he said "being in the dark like that - it was... hard, not being able to make my own choices" about his previous life as a crow

Which makes me think Esther never cared much for her familiar and even left him alive after he failed her plan only because he could still come in handy in future but either cast a will-binding spell on him or simply trained to be tamed. In any way, he couldn't leave - neither before his human time, nor after.

Which still doesn't mean he should like being human.

Every time I see the takes about "Monty come back in s2", I can't help this thought scratching me even as I smile at the jokes and headcanons. Not to yuck anyone's yum, I'm all for shifter Monty, it's a very interesting idea that can unravel in soooo many ways, just give me all of them, - but at the same time I can't get rid of this uneasy feeling.

Here's the thing: I take a particular liking to the characters who aren't human but were forced to become one without their consent, and the way they feel about it and cope with it. Call that a projection, they're very relatable as an allegory, whatever. Says Skaya as an ND.

Some of them like the change, find new meaning in it. Some are 50/50 and uncertain. And some hate it. They never asked to be human, what the hell!

Malevolent podcast and some RK900 fics are partcularly good at exploring this

Since the first moments Monty was turned human, I've been looking forward to whether this question was going to be addressed and how. The show was going exactly in all the directions I liked the most, so I had hopes it will consider this, and suspected it would happen exactly the way I wanted the most.

And yay, that actually happened. The way I wanted the most. Added sad circumstances of Monty basically sacrificing his newfound life and self were really not that necessary okay q_q

Throughout the episodes I could see how initially all smiley and loyal familiar Monty felt more and more uneasy about the whole Esther's plan. He didn't like it. He liked his new friends. He actually fell for a guy. It was so fucking complicated and confusing but there was also joy in it! Until certain point, that is... Anyway! Being human is difficult. Monty didn't ask for it.

And he actually says that!

We don't know if he liked being a crow better, if he wanted to stay human longer - he doesn't talk about any of it. He liked the ability to make his own choices he couldn't make as a crow though - so maybe he would like to try this human experience to some extent again.

But we know he wasn't very fond of all those complicated human feelings. Crows are very smart, but it's a different kind of intellegence. Being a bird isn't necessarily simpler or easier than being a human, especially now that he's lost his owner and is probably out in the streets? I'm suddenly very much concerned, crows are very social and territorial creatures, what if they don't accept this boy?! But it's different. And it's natural for him. It's familiar, hence it's easier just by this fact. And no confusing emotions.

Maybe the fact that Monty liked making independent decisions so much and developed his rebellious side to some extent was what made him retain some memories and attachments when he was back to his crow form, helping Charles with his backpack.

I don't think he'd enjoy being fully human again, though. I think he likes being a bird, as he initially is. Hence why all the "Monty should come back in s2 and have a happy love story!" make me feel uneasy.

Still... since he liked some of it, maybe being given an ability to shapeshift at will and somehow merge a bird mind and a human one which should really be ONE HELL of a process into some comfortable chimera, he'd use it?

[melfinawins]

My partner started watching the new season so I joined in. Oops?

The spoiler tag is at the top. I recommend not reading this until you've watched the entire season.

Well. That season was all over the place. Big lack of cohesion.

I wound up watching it because my partner did. And I just marathoned it.

I like all the long conversations, but it got taxing and too meandering by around episode 6. I kinda hit my limit with Mikey and Tina. I loved their interaction completely, but instead of it being a unique/special moment, they applied it to every fucking character on the show.

I liked that Claire told the Faks to fuck off. That was nice!

I loved Ted Fak and Sweeps/Gary's conversation. Got teary-eyed.

Loved everything to do with Marcus. I've said it before and I'm going to say it again: he's getting a star before all these other jokers. He's the only one who has balance. He has climbed the mountain of self-actualization and reached its peak.

Loved in the finale where the camera just recorded real life world famous chefs talking and being happy about food. I was so starved for a sense of joy, I rewatched that part over again because I just wanted to see happy smiling faces. But they kept showing Carmy's dumb ass.

Things I hated: nothing was resolved, only secondary storylines (Marcus, Nat). Literally EVERYTHING ELSE IS OPEN. We didn't even get Syd telling Carmy she wanted out (didn't have to resolve that shit, just fucking START THE PROCESS OF RESOLVING IT WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE), or Cicero being straight with Carmy. We didn't get Nat showing off the baby to her brother, we didn't even get Carmy meeting the baby. WE DIDN'T GET RICHIE FINDING HIS JOY AFTER LOSING IT-- HE DIDN'T EVEN GO TO THE WEDDING OR NOT GO--NOTHING. Like, the fuck? This show goes on and on about the heart, but we barely got any moments with the characters reminding us what we watched for.

I hate that Carmy passed down his abusive behavior and trauma he got from the EMP chef to Syd, so now her ass is panicking in a hallway when THE FORMER EC OF EVER IS DOING JAEGER BOMBS IN HER LIVING ROOM. Carmy ruined that for her. They didn't get trapped by a star, Carmy ruined that opportunity the moment he got out of that freezer. They were never going to get the star. It was always a shot in hell in the first place, but with Carmy at the helm, it was fucked from jump. HE SHOULDN'T BE EXEC CHEF OF JACK SHIT.

I'm mad that Carmy doesn't even realize how hard he's fucked literally everything. I know that's a part of the point, as EMP chef didn't give two fucks either, but I'm mad that Carmy let the trauma get the best of him and then fucking PASSES IT ON.

WHY DIDN'T CARMY APOLOGIZE TO CLAIRE. I feel like even with his traumas, it was overblown. Like, a lot. As a person who was raised by two Donna's, who fucked off and left the state like this fictional character did with like, 24 hrs notice, a person who would have also skipped their parents funerals had not they had to pay for it, ect, where are his motherfucking balls? CLAIRE FUCKING DESERVES BETTER. THIS MAN IS IN HIS THIRTIES.

This review isn't even about SydCarmy, because I'm just mad about the season in general lmao

Like, I hate Carmy right now. There are sooo many people depending on him to support their families and their way of life. He was so self absorbed this season that he imploded his restaurant over fucking menu choices. The damage may be too great. And he may have fucked it beyond repair. I kinda don't care about his head space, because Donna is/was shit, but she didn't fucking implode a restaurant full of people depending on her.

He's turning into his parents.

I said previously that his ass was on thin ice. I meant that shit. Like, I'm not rooting for him as of right now. He's done too much damage. It's like Syd said in the 2nd episode or whatever: this is a him problem, not a them problem.

And Donna can fuck right off lmao And no, being women who can experience and bond over childbirth doesn't heal fucking wounds, actually. As a person who has been in that exact situation, I skipped half the episode once Donna showed up. Because I also thought my mother with severe mental health issues could relate to her daughter giving birth. But then that shit didn't happen and once the baby has arrived, the story gets rewritten. Donna, in her current state, is incapable of change. Sorry not sorry.

And when has Nat ever been that fucking dense? Anyone with eyes could see Syd and the rest of the staff are miserable. And she saw the numbers-- that place won't last a year if they don't fucking bring in the budget. What good is a star if the place is closed a week later? CICERO HAS PUT DOWN ALMOST A MILLION DOLLARS. If the storyline is to be believed, they would be making a nice dent in the loan if not for the daily changing menu. And for what? Recycled, uninspired food that Carmy is just regurgitating from his former bosses who actually put in the creative energy to accomplish it? Very 2014 of him indeed.

I usually really love dark seasons of shows, or the mid point of a movie franchise (think Two Towers of LotR). I was going in expecting it to be fucking really dark. But something that's really important when you're doing the midpoint of a story is giving the audience something to hold onto. You have to show the audience that though it's dark, the dawn will come. There needs to be hope, even if it's just a flicker.

Not the case here.

In this 3rd season, every time the story would show some positive moments in a tiny storyline, they'd reiterate how shit is fucked and possibly permanently. And the characters are unlikeable, but not in a Succession kind of way!

My hopes for the characters of The Bear is that they get the fuck out and find other spots at other places where they can self-actualize and be happy.

I hope Syd gets every one of her dreams and spending time with Carmey will seem like a drug induced psychosis from the stale waffles she ate in her freezer. I hope she and Luca fuck. I hope she, Luca and Marcus fuck. I hope she opens her dream spot with those two and they get everything that Carmy inadvertently sabotaged at The Bear.

I hope Tina goes if she wants to go around the world, even if it's just at Syd's new place. I hope the staff walks and goes with her. Honestly, I hope they all just go to a spot Syd creates. Syd has the potential to be Terry when she "grows up". All she did this season was babysit Carmy and put out fires that Carmy himself lit. Even if Carmy promises to fix himself, like, HE CAN'T BE TRUSTED. Because his "relapses" are fucked and terrible and severe. Even though we see him kind of get a catharsis from telling EMP chef off, Syd and the crew didn't see that shit and there's not much left of his word to them.

That's it for now. I got progressively more angry as I started writing.

I think that episode 1 of this season was one of, if not the best, hour of television I've watched in a long time.

I'm surprised that the season as a whole left me so disappointed.

Also, it's really funny that they got Thomas Keller to do a cameo, since Joel McHale is based off him lmao

[flippinpancakes64]

The cullens with reader who is taller than them by a lot and loves to pick them up because of it?

The Cullens with a reader who is taller than them

Thank you so much for requesting and I hope you like this!

Edward:

In the books he is about 6'2 or 188 cm

In the movies he is about 6'0 or 185 cm

He's one of the taller Cullens in both iterations and he is definitely not used to someone being taller than him

Of course, we know he is a traditional man

So his partner being taller than him would freak him out a bit

But he would get over himself don't worry

You can't sneak up on him to pick him up tho

The whole mind reading thing tends to not let that happen

He wouldn't let you do it for a while

Just a touch insecure

But I feel like if you ask enough and really beg him for it he'll let you

And if he sees into your mind to know that your intentions are pure you just want to have some fun

Will swear up and down that he hates it

Secretly he doesn't tho

The only other one who has ever tried to pick him up was Emmett

And that was when they were wrestling and Emmett tried to throw him into next week

He'd never admit that he likes it

But he won't try so hard to stop you in the future

Alice:

In the books she is about 4'8 or 147 cm

In the movies she is about 5'2 or 160 cm

Either way it's not hard to be taller than her

She's not intimidated

She is the shortest Cullen hands down

She's used to it

I honestly feel like she might beat you to it

She sees you after a long day and just runs up into your arms

Her feet are fully off the ground while you're holding her

She wouldn't mind if you pick her up more either

It's her new favorite way to be greeted

Whether she's the one jumping up or you picking her up

She's not beating the tiny allegations and that's okay

Jasper:

He is about 6'3 or 190 cm in the books

And about 5'9 or 175 cm in the movies

He is another one who is a bit traditional

He was a confederate soldier after all sadly

That was back when there were pioneers and women only made cheese and raised kids

He's not used to his partner being taller than him

I mean his other partner is Alice

But he loves you so he stays

It's not a dealbreaker for him anyways

What might be a dealbreaker though? Sneaking up on him and picking him up

He doesn't like feeling vulnerable

It would be a miracle if you managed a sneak attack anyway

So probably don't do that

Ask him nicely and he might consider it

I feel like the best time to get him to say yes though would be if you had a really rough day and he can feel that you are really upset

He would try other things to cheer you up first, but if that doesn't work...

He suggests that maybe holding him would make you feel better?

And of course it does

Again he won't admit that he likes it

Will let you keep doing it tho

But only occasionally

Rosalie:

In the books she is about 5'9 or 175 cm

And in the movies she is about 5'4 or 162 cm

Another one in the middle/average height range

She is used to being shorter

I mean look at her next to Emmett

She wouldn't find it shocking

However I don't think she'd be into being picked up

She is a vengeful, independent woman

Her hobby is taking care of fancy cars

She is not delicate and does not want to be picked up

It reminds her too much of her old fiance

I feel like she might let you do it once in a while though

She isn't cruel after all

She'd treat it like an obligation though

Like going to your partner's favorite restaurant that you hate because you want to see them happy

She might enforce a system around it

"If you do three favors for me of my choice I'll let you pick me up"

Or something along those lines

Overall it's not her favorite but she'll let you

Emmett:

He is about 6'5 or 195 cm in the books

And about 6'1 or 185 cm in the movies

So finding anyone taller than him?

He is in awe

He loves it tbh

Immediately you two are THE power couple

Literally emphasis on power

You may be his partner but you are also his competition now sorry

Contests on who can jump higher (he wins obv unless you're a vampire too)

Who is faster

And who is stronger

That last one is where you pick him up for the first time

He bet you that you couldn't do it

And obviously you can

He just standing there like that stupid old pikachu meme

"Can you do that again"

New favorite thing unlocked

Even though he hates being bested, he finds that he loves being picked up

It's been a long time since someone's done that to him

He finds it refreshing <3

Esme:

She is about 5'6 or 167 cm in the books

In the movies she's about 5'4 or 163 cm

So another one who's used to being shorter than people

I have a feeling that she would really like being picked up tho

She has a bad history with lovers

That of course being that the only one we know she had before Carlisle was pretty abusive

She loves feeling secure in her relationships (as anyone should) but I feel like she really likes the reminders of it

For example, being the little spoon or walking on the inside on the sidewalk

Or being picked up

She had never even thought of it before you just... did it

Pick her up to give her a kiss and she will melt

Carlisle:

In the books he is about 6'2 or 188 cm

In the movies he is about 5'11 or 180 cm

I know I said Edward was old fashioned...

But this guy is literally the definition of old

He's pretty progressive all things considered

But he does have a hard time wrapping his head around this one

He's not used to being in love with someone who is taller than him

(Don't even get me started if you're a guy or basically anything that's not an AFAB woman... this man is confused and starts questioning his whole existence)

But if he loves you he loves you

And once he's made up his mind to make you his partner then he is content with any differences he may see in his mind

He actually kind of likes it

He doesn't need to do like a crazy vampire jump to reach something that Emmett put super high up anymore

But as far as being picked up?

That's a bit of a reach

After all he's the rock of this whole family

He feels like he can't let his guard down for even a second or they'll be found out by humans or attacked by another coven

So it's a big ask for him

But maybe if you eased into it by being the big spoon a couple times, lifting him off the ground just a little bit when you give him a hug maybe you could get there eventually

Vampire! Bella:

She is about 5'4 or 162 cm in the books

And about 5'5 or 165 cm in the movies

The most progressive (yay!)

She couldn't give less of a damn if you were 8 feet or 4 feet tall

If she loves you she loves you

She would notice your height but honestly wouldn't care

Now if you snuck up on her?

Get ready to get punched sorry

Charlie's a cop he definitely taught her something

Even if while she was human she couldn't use that knowledge effectively

Give her a warning next time

She doesn't mind tbh

As long as she's not doing something you can hold her like a ragdoll for hours

[yandere-fics]

♡ Their Alpha Darling Has Omega Tendencies ♡

Meeting Skye had really been a miracle for you, you absolutely adored your girlfriend from the very first moment you met her, she really understood you in a way no one else in the past had, perhaps because you were both alphas who often were mistaken as omegas however you hated her sister and you could tell they didn't like you very much either, they always wanted Skye to get with a more intense dominant alpha, the complete opposite of you, someone who would really take care of her, who had a strong enough scent to scent her every night, someone who would give her items for her nests instead of just sharing the same nest with her, someone who would fight other alphas who got to close to her which really was not you. Sure you had wanted to do those things for her, what alpha wouldn't want to do those things for the love of their life but you were just too weak and scared, more than you wanted to do those things, you really just wanted to curl into a ball with Skye so you wouldn't have to deal with all those scary things alphas were expected to do, you just didn't have enough confidence in yourself, so you guess you completely understood why her sisters didn't like you, you didn't really like yourself either but like it or not, you were going to stay in Skye's life, she loved you and they were going to have to deal with it.

"If I were you I'd make sure to scent Skye every day so another alpha doesn't snatch her up, that's just what I'd do though, if you want to lose her do what you want." Her half sister Darla was the first one to start to antagonize you out of the sisters, she'd seemed nice when you first met her but you'd later gone on to discover she was the rudest by far out of all the sisters, still you kept a straight face and thanked her for the advice, it wasn't like you didn't want to scent Skye, you loved that idea but your scent had always been so weak, even when you did try, your scent faded from her within two hours and you didn't have the time to scent her every two hours.

"Why haven't you marked her yet, you should mark her every day, that's how you show her that she's yours." Her sister Ellie was the next to start making comments about how you clearly weren't right for Skye, you really did want to mark Skye, she'd look so cut with one on her neck but your teeth weren't sharp enough to bite through her skin without it hurting alot, it wasn't like it didn't also bother you she was walking around markless, every time an alpha approached her you felt bad because you knew this wouldn't be happening so often if you had been capable of marking her, even so it wasn't like you could change the way you were, you were just always going to be a weak pathetic alpha.

"You don't deserve Skye, if you actually loved her you'd go over and beat up that alpha shit hitting on her." You were so sick of every one of her sisters questioning if you even loved her, of trying to coax you into breaking up with her, she was yours, you knew you were a weak alpha but she was still yours, you were keeping her, even if it meant you had to get a little more aggressive in order to prove to them that you were staying with her.

That was actually their plan the entire time though, bully you until you became a scary alpha capable of bitching Skye and it seemed like it worked.

You knew about your stalker, they hadn't exactly been the most subtle, their scent lingered everywhere they went and practically engulfed your apartment at this point, likely an attempt for this alpha to mark you as their own before they even approached you but you had assumed this alpha would eventually discover you were also an alpha and move on with their life so you hadn't felt the need to do anything about your stalker, it wasn't like there was anything you could do about it anyways, you weren't very strong and you definitely were not brave enough to confront your stalker, she was so silent so you were sure if you confronted her she might blow up into a rage, the silent types were usually the angriest after all and so you just left it alone, it would pass, she'd realize you were not an omega or even a beta and she would move on, an alpha with such a thick heavy scent was not someone you wanted to get involved with, she was obviously very aggressive. Eventually she'd understand you weren't what she was looking for and move on, you hoped.

She didn't leave though, instead she continued to lurk closer and closer to you, perhaps becoming emboldened because you hadn't done anything to stop her yet so surely this must mean you're accepting of her courtship or at the very least not bothered by her enough to stop her right? Neither were true of course but you knew other alphas could be delusional when it came to thinking omegas, or in your case a person who they assumed was an omega, were interested in them. You really should have moved the first time you smelled than an alpha had been in your home, honestly though you were still shocked she was still following you, surely by now she had to know you were an alpha and yet she kept following you, must be crazy. An alpha staking their claim on another alpha was never a good sign for anyone involved, sure there were some alphas who lied very happy lives with their partner who was also an alpha, but this was a very dominant and aggressive alpha, the kind who would force you to submit to them, to be bitched into an omega, the kind that might get enraged if you would not acquiesce to her desires, like right now where she had taken you into her apartment and pounding on the bathroom door for you to stop hiding from her.

"Doll, open the door, you really really don't want to see me get angry. Come on out, your alpha knows what you need, you just need a good bitching, it's what you want otherwise you wouldn't have made all those nests around your apartment, come on out doll, it's only going to hurt a bit at first, you'll like it though. Doll I'm starting to get really pissed off you're no being my good girl and just coming out, don't make me break down this door, you won't like what happens if I have to do that." You let out small whimpers are you continued to listen to her speak, there was no way you were coming out, sure you weren't the most intense alpha and you could act like a scared omega at times but that didn't mean you wanted to be an omega, you were perfectly fine being an alpha and beyond that, bitching just sounded really scary and you really didn't want to go through that.

"Doll, your alpha is going to give you 5 fucking seconds to open this door and then I'm breaking it down. Five, Four, Three, Two... Doll I am fucking warning you right now get out of there, One." The door smashed open and she glared at you when she saw you huddled against the bathtub trying to be as far from her as possible. "Aww you poor scared alpha, you just don't know what you want, don't worry you'll like being an omega, once you are one, you'll see that that was what you were always meant to be."

"Darla, can't you please correct them next time? It's embarassinggggg..." You whined as you and your girlfriend finally got back to her dorm room, you were starting to hate being around all her friends, they always assumed you were an omega just like her, always making comments about how if they didn't know any better they would think she was your alpha and you were her little omega, laughing a little bit when you persisted saying you were an alpha, saying there was nothing wrong with being an omega, you didn't need to try to make yourself an alpha, you smelled exactly like an omega how could you not be one, everything about you screamed omega in their minds and Darla did nothing to correct this assumption which was beginning to get on your nerves, it was almost like she enjoyed everything thinking she was your big strong alpha and you were just a weak little omega who was embarrassed to be an omega and felt the need to lie.

"Why does it bother you so much, once we leave college we won't have to see them as often so what's the harm in just making it easy on ourselves by letting them think what they want for now." Well you specifically wouldn't see them very much after college since she intended to keep you her well kept wife after you both graduated, you were much too soft of an alpha to be out in the world on your own without your strong omega wife to be there to defend you against all the mean scary people and honestly she intended to keep the lie going for the rest of your lives together so keeping you inside was the best way to make sure you never found out she was the one who started the rumor you were an omega who was just trying to be an alpha cause you were embarrassed, hopefully you never found out or she may have to kidnap you and you really wouldn't want that cause then she'd make sure you got turned into an omega by the time she let you have some freedom. Somehow, some way she would make it happen so it was best for you to never find out what she'd been telling people behind your back.

"I just want to be acknowledged as an alpha sometimes! It's not that hard to just correct them! I'm done talking to you, don't come find me until you're willing to correct people when they call me an omega." You stormed out of her dorm, it was fine, you'd be back because you were too much of a scaredy cat to ever deal with life without her, she knew you wouldn't make it long without having her to scent you, one of your favorite activities or her to provide items for your nest and your rut was coming up, you'd need her to be aggressive and take charge doing it, she knew how much you loved submitting to her in your rut, this whole fight would be over soon.

Your softness was one of the best parts of you after all, it meant you would always come running back to her after any fight and she would get to keep you forever because who else would be able to put up with an alpha who was in denial about being an omega, as an additional touch though she should make sure her friends all knew you were a bit sensitive and that they should tease you less since your heat is coming up.

Ellie had fallen for you the moment you moved in across the hall from her but she still wasn't really sure what you were, at first she had thought you were an alpha which was fine, she could just bitch you, that part would be easy for her with how much she yearned to bit you anyways but after weeks of observing your behavior, she'd only been left more confused. Every time she was sure you were something, more evidence would pop up about you being the other thing, she walked away from every meeting with you deeply puzzled, being no closer to figuring you out and sure she could just ask but well she wouldn't be a very good alpha if she couldn't figure this out on her own without any help.

You smelled like an alpha and she was certain she could smell a rut coming out of your apartment instead of heats but really besides your sightly sharper teeth that an alpha would usually have, there was nothing alpha about you, you nested often times in her apartment with items she'd given you, you loved her scent a lot and frequently told her just how comforting it was to have items that smelled like her nearby which was a point for omega, you were very timid and would obey her orders without her even needing to say it twice which was odd because she was far from a dominant alpha meaning you'd have to be really submissive for you to just go along without her needing to say it again, and even though you had an alpha scent, the moment she began to scent you, your scent almost completely disappeared beneath her scent, becoming impossible to tell that you had even had a scent of your own to begin with.

Her foray into your apartment had not helped either, there were lots of books about helping alpha manage ruts but then you had plenty of other books on nesting ideas, on how to get an alpha's attention and then a book in the corner all about the mechanics of bitching which it seemed like you had read furiously. This all seemed to point towards you being a softer alpha in her head but it just didn't feel right to call you that either since she'd been referring to you as her omega in her head, never out loud since she still wasn't sure yet if that was true or not and so the only solution she could think of was to hold you down and bite you a bunch and if it really hurt you were an alpha and if it barely stung you were an omega. Omegas accepted bite marks more easily, alphas skin hurt when another alpha tried to mark them and well if it hurt then she'd have to do it again and again until you stopped hurting and you were finally her omega.

"Ow! Ellie what the fuck?!" You squealed as she pinned you down on the couch and sunk her teeth into your neck, almost like she was trying to mark you, she had to know it wouldn't stick though right, you weren't an omega, at least not yet even tough you had always wanted to be, it wasn't going to work. She gave you a sad look.

"Huh I guess you were an alpha." She bit you again, this time harder, her hands starting to try to remove your clothes. "Don't worry I watched a lot of hentai about bitching before this, I know what I'm doing."

[rileyh20]

Sodapop x male reader for @massivecreationdinosaur!!!

They don't have any specific order, I'm just putting down what I think!

Some of these are part of the fic request I'm making on Soda x male reader

I usually don't do x reader or inserts or stuff like that, but since we are friends and I wanted to go out of my comfort zone, here it is!

This will not be normal, but either way I hope this is good for a first time x reader thing!

Sodapop x Male Reader:

You met Ponyboy before Soda, having Ponyboy tutor you in school

You and Soda got together after a few months of you two being friends + you taking care of him while he was sick

Ponyboy would be the first one to know about your relationship (He would act disgusted, but he’s happy for you two)

You sometimes get jealous when girls hit on Soda, and you two make-out heavily after (In private when you can)

You’re one of the only people Soda actually tells his problems to

You were one of the people to comfort Soda the most when Johnny and Ponyboy ran away 

You also were one of the people who yelled at Darry for hitting Ponyboy before Soda told you to lay off a bit

Ponyboy gave you the talk about not hurting Soda or else, then gave you the most terrifying glare you’ve ever seen from him

Steve was the next person to give you the talk, but he was more joking than Ponyboy was-

Darry didn’t give you the talk, but he gave you a stern look as a warning

You guys don’t get to sleep in the same bed at night usually (Cuz of Ponyboy), so you make up for it by clinging onto each other for most of the day

Sodapop is really protective of you, so people don’t mess you as much when they realize you two are close (They don’t know you are dating tho cuz it’s the 60s)

One time you got jumped and Soda had a meltdown, it wasn’t as bad as if it was Ponyboy getting jumped, but he was terrifying

Sometimes if either of you two have bad days, you guys just cuddle up with each other in silence

Soda sometimes teaches you about the cars he’s working on at the DX

Soda and you have a time at the end of the day or week where you both talk about the drama at work or school, etc

You and Soda will sometimes slow dance together when you two are alone

After you and Soda got together, you slept at the Curtis house more often

You love when Soda dyes food different colors, and defend him when his brothers say they need to change the lock on the cabinet that has the food coloring

Soda sometimes comes to you crying about how worried his is for his brothers, especially after canon book events, and especially Ponyboy

You and Soda sometimes like to prank people (Two-Bit also joins at times)

Both you and Soda hate Ponyboy hanging out around Curly, and Angela

That's all I have for now, and I hope you enjoyed them!

[koolades-world]

Hi hi! Just wanted to start off by saying I love your work ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

Anyways I was wondering if you could do some comfort hcs for an mc that has IBD? You’re fine if you don’t want to write for this since it’s pretty uncommon from my understanding.

Note: I felt it important to say since there’s lots of misconceptions floating around (cough cough TikTok-)that IBD has lots to do with diet. Either it playing a role in the cause or for treating it. Which all the specialists I’ve seen have said diet is neither the leading cause nor is it the solution. All it is that some foods irritate for no particular reason and should generally be avoided.

Sorry if I overshared lol I’ve just had people tell on multiple occasions that it’s a diet thing when it’s not- it’s an autoimmune disease.

Thanks so much for reading my little impromptu rant. Again you don’t have to write for it if don’t wish to due to it being a very niche topic. Anyways hope you’re well stay safe.

-🪴🧺

hi!!! of course I can! no worries about oversharing or anything, i actually didn't know that was a misconception and help me out :)

i'm almost certain i have ibs (long story short i couldn't get diagnosed but it runs a very clear path in my family and all of my symptoms match up exactly the same it's like it was copy and pasted) and of course so i could properly write this i did a little research, and based on what you said and what i read, it sounds like people are getting the two mixed up which is something that could be fixed by a simple google search :( i'm so sorry you have to deal with people like that

i hope i did you justice and this could be a little respite in your day. enjoy <3

Mc with IBD

Lucifer

he tries his best to make your days better in little ways!

gift baskets will randomly appear in your room filled with things you'd only mentioned in passing that you wanted or needed to him

if you're feeling up for it, he'll take you out for a meal at least once a week to make you feel special. it might not be fancy every time, but you can still feel the love

if you're not though, no worries! he'll do something equally as nice at home for you with food he made himself

Mammon

if you need surgery, he's becoming your personal nurse while you heal!

every moment he can be, he's by your side

lots of cute little forehead kisses and magically producing your favorite candies from behind his back for you

you won't even have to lift a finger to change what you're watching on tv, let mammon take care of it <3

Levi

he's the king of staying in, so if you don't feel like going out, his room is always open to you!

you don't even need a password to get in, because it's you

if you're ever feeling down or unwell because of your ibd, he always lets you have full control over what you do

if you play a game like minecraft together, he'll always have surprises ready for you so next time you play, you'll find it <3

Satan

he's curious about your medication and does extensive research into it

he always makes sure any painkillers or other meds you might take won't interfere with your ibd meds!

he will recommend the over the counter painkillers if you want them that have the least amount of bad side effects, such as tylenol because he hates to see you in pain

he's got lots of connections and will use them in any way possible if it could possible help you

Asmo

he's the best at making sure you take good care of yourself!

if you're bad about taking your meds, he'll get you a cute little pill divider

will also get a matching equally cute water bottle that you can use to help take the pills

he ensure everything can be done while being fashionable, because he finds that it makes things more bearable for him, so why not his favorite person too?

Beel

he knows quite a lot about supplements and vitamins, so if you take them, he's asking you questions about them because he just wants to get to know you better

he is always there for you if you need someone to talk to, or just want to rant/vent

provides the best comfort and warm hugs :)

Belphie

like his twin, he also gives great hugs

he's your number one fan of course! he's always with you even if you're not in your bed

it may take all of his energy, but if you want to go out, he's going with you no matter what

he'll even share his signature cow pillow with you 🥺

[bimbombimbo]

hello. going feral. if you saw me post this unfinished, no you didn't.

I watched, uh, a couple of SFMs I'll be dropping in the end of this heeheehee but... Evil Medic TF2... Oh boy... This is a translation of me rambling to my friend about Medic and Heavy's insane relationship. Maybe trigger warning for toxic or unhealthy relationships? Idk

HeavyMedic/Red Oktoberfest will always, always be a comfort ship of mine: I enjoy watching them engage in silly, cute romantic situations and also like a old married couple. I like thinking about them to make my day 100% better, the trust and love they have for eachother is simply beautiful!

However.

However.

I've been thinking on a much more realistic, maybe not so pink-and-rainbows version of this (specially, of Medic, so focusing on him).

We can surely know that Heavy canonically cares a lot about the doctor (referencing TF2 comic #6, where he fights the classic guy not because he killed a teammate, but because he killed doctor; assuming this reaction would have been different with other mercs), and trusts him wholeheartedly (referencing Meet the Medic, where he does not only allow him to perform surgery on him without knowing the reason, but also lets him guide them into the battlefield with a non-tested invention)

But does this trust, this love go both ways? I feel, definitely not. Or at least not in the same way.

Medic is a troubled man, that's for sure. I believe he has difficulty understanding empathy. Not sure if I have a canon base for it, but it's something I consider true.

Often I feel he's severely mischaracterized. And, of course, for the sake of my comfort, I really like doing that too, thinking he'd actually care about his teammates. Probably, any other of my posts about him will depict the caring, babygirl version of him. But right now I'm being an edgy 13-year-old kid so 🤷

I think feeling no empathy is a key trait on his personality: experimenting on living beings, and taking in mind that not all of them will be as compliant as his mate, it would take either a man carrying a shit ton of guilt and hating his work; OR, a man with no perception of others' suffering, a clean consciousness, not a ounce of regret, and an inmense love for his job. Medic definitely fits the second criteria, not counting that he does these kind of things willingly.

So! Going into the HeavyMedic part. Imagine you find a man that trusts you without thinking twice. You understand he's not a dumb man who can be fooled around, but you bring some sort of... safety to him. He chooses to trust you, despite the fact that the others question your methods (they're all wrong anyways). The confiance he gives you, it does funny things to your ego. Wouldn't you want to know how far he'd go for you? Would he do anything for you? What would he let you do to him? Don't you want to know?

I feel their relationship would go something like that. Not necessarily romantic actually, but I like to see it that way. Maybe one-sided, any side works. But I rather the "manipulative, egocentric Medic who desires to be worshiped and uncomfortable, but acceptant Heavy who just lets it pass".

Clearly, if there's some love at Medic's side, it probably wouldn't be healthy. But still, I don't think he doesn't care at least a bit: I do think he'd try to be sweet, at least with Heavy and for his eyes only.

I have been also thinking about Heavy's role in this dynamic, since the abused lover trope doesn't really fit (and I kinda hate it too, mostly because eh, romantization). However I haven't, uh, rotated the idea in my head properly heehee, forgive me for the rambling. Yeah he definitely knows what's going on, at some point. Fear of abandonment, maybe? (Related to the execution of his father + how he is very protective of guns and family)

But maybe it's related to, finally being taken care of instead of looking after others all the time. Makes sense to me, something like an escape, someone to go to instead of carrying so much responsability on his shoulders... So he finds this in Medic.

They look out for each other, need each other (maybe, one of them more than the other). Definitely care for one another in some way. But uh, i don't think they're ok 😇

SO YEAH! tl;dr I love heavymedic as a cute pairing but i think realistically they would NOT be like that

And here are the sfms AWGHHH

Medic's Melding Madness was fucking amazing and i'm looking.. waiting.. for the second part.

AND Dangerously Yours !! I really like this style of SFM to be honest. Medic here creeps me tf out and yeah he'd be like that.

Idk why i take so mucj time writingthis if i don't even enjoy serious heavymedic. to me they're just silly husbands LMAOO ok bye

[zvtara-was-never-canon]

One thing I've noticed, and this is something that going through this blog reinforced, is that the one big difference between Zutara shippers and kataang shippers and both of their antis is that most people who are kataang shippers that dislike zutara don't hate Zuko or his role in the story. Most zutara antis and Kataang shippers seem to have a problem mostly with zutara shippers themselves and their toxic behavior. While most Kataang antis and zutara shippers, I don't wanna say all of them or even most, but an alarmingly large number of them seem to have an irrational hatred for Aang specifically and nothing would make them happier if Aang were written out of the story.

I'm not saying all zutara shippers hate aang or that no kataang shippers hate Zuko, obviously you can find examples of both if you look, but to me that's mostly what defines each side of this shipping war. Zutara shippers hate Aang for ruing their crack ship, Kataang shippers hate zutara shippers for being assholes. Obviously this a super simple explanation and ignores a lot of nuance and other factors, like that other segments of the fandom who don't even like Kataang or shipping general also disliking zutara because of toxic behavior or zutarans equally irrational hatred for Mai, but that's how I usually explain this ship war to people who try to dismiss both sides as equally bad.

Yup. Like I've repeatedly said, I used to not be into either ship - but not once in five years did a Kataang shipper EVER try to force me to like it, or say that I thought it was well written despite not being to my taste, or that I thought it was still better than Zutara. They also never sent me death/rape threats over saying I prefered her with Jet or Haru.

Zutarians meanwhile would not shut the fuck up, cosntantly trying to get me to "admit" there was something there or that I at least thought it was better than Kataang. They REPEATEDLY kept trying to pretend it was "the fandom's ship" - as in everyone, every single Avatar fan, was into it, me included. And as soon as I posted anything about Maiko, or about me starting to warm up to Kataang, or even just loving Aang as a character? Tons of passive aggressive asks about how these characters suck actually.

The more I ignored them or responded to point out their bad behavior, the more unhinged said behavior got. And once I noticed lots of my friends, friends of my friends, and even people that I had never talked to before being like "Oh yeah, threatening to dox/rape/kill you is just what they do" I just couldn't think of the Zutara fanbase as being anything but rotten.

They care so much about having bigger numbers and lots of engagement, that they turn a blind eye, and sometimes full on encourage, the people in the fandom that are entitled downright disturbed. As a result, the people that like the ship but this behavior is appaling stop interacting, and those that just want an excuse to be dicks to strangers online flock to it, and the fandom grows more and more toxic.