#I HAVE NO WORDS JUST WORSHIP
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lover, don't touch me // leave, i am a danger to you // but ooh, i hunger for you
#this is leona's vampire lover audra#i guess you could say the first time they met was when audra nearly killed her in a blood lust because she hadnt fed in so long#idk how to describe it well but audra suddenly stopped devouring her when leona looked at her with no fear in her eyes#but looked at audra like she was something to worship#she whispered that audra was so beautiful even as her own blood was splattered between them and staining her lips#leona had never seen someone or something so perfect and powerful#power that she wanted and knew exactly how to get when audra whimpered over the slightest bit of praise#i never talk about them but i am CONSTANTLY thinking about them <3#some fun little facts is leona killed her husband in cold blood because he was pitiful and boring#she married the first person to show any interest in her just to get away from her family#he would have been a perfectly good husband for anyone else#but the best part of their marriage was when she stabbed him in the stomach 47 times and felt his blood splatter against her skin#for audra OBVIOUSLY had to make another oc who would do anything to be loved even if it means destroying herself#audra was turned very suddenly and without any guidance#she murdered her lover without even realizing it she opened her eyes to find them splattered across every surface of the room#because of that shes done everything she can to protect herself from others even if it means starving herself of blood#until she goes into a frenzy#leona is the first person she has ever willingly fed off of#idk if willingly is the right word since leona practically begs her to do it#i really want to remake leona now.........#i like how leona looks but i want her to match audra better#mysims#the sims 4#simblr#sims 4 screenshots#sims 4 cas#ts4 cas#sims 4 edit#ts4
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mother of mine
#my art#homestuck#jade harley#wq#also really proud of this one#everything just came together really nicely :D#it makes me illlll#more people should think about jade and the carapacians#actually everything surrounding prospit and jade makes me ill oh my god#her corpse in the attic constantly aware that her second life (persay) is going to die and just having to Deal with it. she just has to let#go of prospit where she had people comma friends#who love you comma or more so worship you#and being utterly aware of the fact of how alien you are#i’m wording this poorly but you get it#ONE DAY i’ll make a post about it that explains my thoughts waaaay better#also somethingsomething prospits first mother <i cannot remember for the life of me if#there were carapacian children (in like the game session time line)
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ok and if i wrote harmless in a different font. so what
#the first part is 1.6k words long#and i am looking for supernatural slash paranormal ideas to use in here for future parts. so if u guys wanna. yk.#make it a community project like harmless was <3333 that'd be lovely and fun <3333#but im waiting to write a couple of parts b4 publishing this one#bc of health reasons#anyway in unrelated news#i have another drabble series coming out on saturday#a letters series where bucky is Shit At Talking so he just writes letters to his bestie who he's in love with bc his therapist told him to#it's a drabble series#and also if u wanna send in word prompts for that. that would be very helpful and i will worship you#anyway im done talking#ari talks#bucky x reader
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always funny to me when people interpret liushen in a way where lqg idolizes sqq. i just don't think it's true. shen jiu has probably kicked lqg in the dick before and i don't think you can come back from that in any way that matters
#lqg and sqq are best friends but i do not think lqg holds sqq Above anyone. i dont think he sees him as some untouchable beautiful immortal#<- of course my thoughts are influenced by the fact that i dont really ship liushen and think lqg is aroace#although lqg idolizing sqq does lead to the idea that hes fully aware sqq is no longer sj. which is funny in its own ways#anyway what im trying to say is have a guy try to beat you up enough times as a teenager and there is no worshipping him from there#u already know hes capable of biting unprovoked . sorry sqq's aloof immortal image but lqg must have seen a number of sj's ragefits before#anyway please no one take this too seriously i am just putting words on a post#svsss#misc
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In my head, there are three different categorizations of Link from LoZ:
The General Link. This is the vaguest concept of Link. He’s a guy, usually dressed in green, who wields a sword and a bunch of funky tools and gadgets to beat up the bad guys and save Hyrule. Generally goofy in some flavor or another. Yells, otherwise doesn’t talk much, and typically has some beef with pottery. Each one of the Specific Links carries the General Link within them. Cool.
The Specific Links. These are the ones from the different games. Each Link, while a reincarnation of the same General Link, is still an individual person. Twilight Princess’ Link is not Wind Waker’s Link is not Zelda II: The Adventure of’s Link. They all have different personalities and people they know and goals they pursue and things they do. These guys are awesome.
The Powerscaling Link. This is a horrible Frankenstein’s Monster of Links whose strongest things have all been stitched together in order to prove he can beat Bungo Shlumpo or whoever the hell in a fight. He has every ability from every game regardless of how long there was between them or the unique circumstances that made it possible for him to get them in said games. Every Link’s greatest feats taken from their original context and stitched together to form a Link that never truly existed and never will, and who is well beyond the scale that the humble Link was ever meant to tread. Carries the spirit of neither the Specific Links nor even the General Link. All has been lost for the sake of power. I don’t like this one.
#I try so hard to abide by the “leave people alone and let them have their fun” rule of internet etiquette#But my fucking word is hating on powerscaling a most tempting vice#I don’t care what your fucking equations say. Link is not a multi-universal power level. He’s a guy. He always starts out as just a guy#Sure the Powerscaling Link can beat Goku of whoever#but drop them into any individual game and they’re kicking that Link’s ass because he doesn’t have all the bullshit you gave him#Link from A Link Between Worlds isn’t beating Doomguy and Link from Twilight Princess isn’t soloing any universes. Because that’s ridiculou#And if you’re doing this because you love this man and his series so much#why then do you choose to worship the one who never existed for you? The games you love do not know that man. He is alien to them#legend of zelda#rambling about nothing#I hate powerscaling so goddamn much. I hate it so much.
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Giving me wholesome lee brainrot this early? At my morning shift? How dare-
You're too much, Casper! You're making my heart melt and yearn for positive touch, and I can't-
Reading your ramblings makes me happy in ways I can't describe :3
Ksksjshchfjwh 😭💙 Dude, I just love to ramble about loving somebody up with tickles and kisses... /////// I'm so glad you appreciate my yapping about it!!
#WAAAAJDHDHHGHSG#💙💙💙#Sometimes I just have to get those thoughts into the worlddd#I'll probably finish the long ramble I started last night at some point#It was gonna be one of those spot by spot type things and then I hella just focused on one spot for like 500 words god help me#I just love writing worship ////////#ask#rubes
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Is there a reason why sauce refuses to follow more than 99 accounts on instagram ? He’s such a control freak lmfao
LOL yea ive always noticed that like wtf 😭 okay 😭
he only follows 99 people on Twitter too, and i think i remember seeing him post on his twit like during the beginning of his first season in the NFL abt who he should follow to reach 99 bcs I think he had 98 at that time? And he wanted 99?
And on his insta i think (less sure on this) he posted a story that said like 'ok... who to make my 100th following 😻' but i think he only wanted it to be a stupid idk a 'fellow famous internet influencer' like he is , so famous, so self-loving, so empath .
so like. he either didn't follow anyone or he quickly unfollowed to remain at 99
he is... so strange. Such an odd critter. but my guess is he's keeping 99 as his ideal number rn and will unfollow whatever normie/less famous person he needs to in order to keep his precious 99 when he has to follow a more famous person,
or he's just holding out for a special someone to make his 100th follower ( and then later unfollow someone else he doesn't care abt rn to keep his number 99) bcs he WANTS to make ppl feel special, but also. He is weird. And he likes the number 99. And he's weird. And im going to give him a wedgie
#yesss sauce u are so uniqueeee u wear stupid beanies and tshirts instead of short skirts yesss#ure on the bleachers while everyone else is a cheerleader omgggg we worship uuuuu#queen !#but yea i swear i remember in the early days seeing him climbing to 99 and then just staying there#on insta i saw him have 98 following for a lil while b4 making it 99#but also i am ass shit at memorizing numbers especially so do not take my word for it 😭😭#but i swear hes had a history of wanting 99 and changing it to 99 frequently for some reason#he doesnt want only 100 following bcs too many ppl have only 100 following and he wants to be different 🩵#my special sauce..#im so glad someone else noticed this and thought it was weird LOL we are the Observers#bcs like... why 99...#it's kind of a tactical number which i so believe is done on purpose bcs hes a logical overthinking maniac#i like my bitches bad and neurotic#and im bery happy u guys agree#i imagine us as those deep sea diving videos where they discover a strange new squid and the scientists laugh#and pointing at it#we're having a great time! i love it!#look at this silly squidsauce! why do u like the number 99!! u are so funny !
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Most funniest thing ever btw is a person who likes alhaitham and kaveh and has alhaitham as his pfp and kaveh in his banner yet is a raging Zionist
#do you see what I mean now when I call hoyo fans dumbasses ? just the way they beg for rep but when u tell them sumeru is heavily influence#influenced by Islam btw and the characters would be Muslim just as mondstadt characters are Christian#they pull up the erm achually!!! but when it’s natlan it’s oh ! if you want to rep a culture you gotta do it right 🥺#disrespectfully Stfu and die ✋😞#dora daily#no and the way they say oh it’s fantasy they’re literally worshipping nahida oh wow ! I didn’t know that ! like a church is something not#alluding to Christianity but oh they worship venti#then it’s the natlan mauvika pyro archon is represented by a Māori person#awesome ! but you do realise it’s fiction and that the game has never and will never be a history book never has been since mondstadt and#never will be#yet you guys are so outwardly racist outwardly Islamophobic#the real issue is that you pick and choose the minority you worship#hoyo has issues but I’ve never seen a group of more horrible people than it is the hoyo fandom with their picking and choosing#and it’s always the yaoi fetishisers dumbass disrespectful haikaveh shippers appropriating everything cause cute ! two men kissing or#whatever the fuck. men period are disgusting I thought we established this#but go on you dumbass colonisers and colonise and appropriate everything too lmao imagine having an alhaitham pfp and being a Zionist go ky#- kys cause tumblr sucks and made me stop mid word 🤨#😇😇😇😇
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I'm fucking free babey
#rat rambles#I have escaped lob corp hell lets GOOOOI#now time to play it again <3#and by that I mean probably beat library of ruina first but I also do wanna do a run with modded abnormalities#anyways lob corp very fucking good 👍#would recommend if you want to sink at 100+ hours into a game that will make you want to walk into the ocean#theres a shitty woman in it. multiple actually. even if you couldn't pay me to read the stuff involving one of them#not because its bad per say but because its binah and she sure does say words and things#I do like binah tho shes funny#carmen is the other one shes like if olivia broussard was actually a bad person and instead of becoming a robot she became seeped into the#collective human consciousness and started telling people to distort#olivia is still better due to being a divorced middle aged lesbian but hey carmen and kali can be yuri if you believe#once I get around to fully reading the story in one sitting Im sure Ill be more insane abt carmen but for now shes mostly just funny to me#I will say that Im not sure if I like carmen haunting the narrative in a more literal sense but ig Ill have to finish lor and see#there is smth kind of fun abt her metaphorical reanimated corpse being forced to remain long after those who reanimated her but idk#it rly just depends on if she can prove herself interesting enough for me to feel keeping her around in the world is more interesting than#the joy I get from having a person that everyone worshipped just being some dead guy#we'll see I suppose
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Hey does anyone still think about the thematic differences between Supernatural and the Wayward Sisters and how self-isolating male hunters are compared to community-building female hunters and how this was shown from the Harvelles to even arguably Missouri Mosely and even Samuel Campbell who is his daughter's father almost more than a man himself (especially in Season 6) is not immune to this?
And how the Wayward Sisters could have been built not on sacrificing yourself to this singular all-consuming relationship with your brother and sacrificing yourself for the world second or in name only, but instead on what it takes to cut yourself into useful and digestible pieces for the sake of keeping your place in that community because you're almost certain that it's This Community or Solitude Forever (Alex you can never escape the life no matter how much you don't want it you've gotta pitch in do you want your family to die on this hunt Claire you know you'll never find anyone to love you unless you make yourself softer and then are they really loving you are you even worthy of love anymore Jody your husband and son would still be alive if you listened and learned you can't lose another child in every sense you can't quite let your children be defenseless children either and you know so well how sick this fear makes you and how you're dealing with it the wrong way your son got to be a child but your daughters can't be that vulnerable Even Donna you have Your Role to play here you're not good enough as a hunter but you're funny and happy and you don't take up that much space so that's exactly how much space you're given to exist in).
And yes, a lot of these things are echoes of Kripke Supernatural but instead of too-intimate and dark and quiet confessions that the Winchesters share and know that no one else could ever have the context to fully understand it's Community it's All Our Problems the humiliation and shame is all-encompassing because there is no privacy Everyone Sees You Everyone Knows You Everyone Wants To Fix Help You.
#Not to disappoint anyone but This Is Still About Lucifer#QuietWings' Amnesiac!Lucifer turning up at the Wayward Sisters' house has been growing like mold inside my skull#I could rewrite several episodes and two full seasons at this point#But apart from how Gender Lucifer is and how there is a lot of female-coding in S5 the Community is a little more apt than Brother focus#Because yes Lucifer losing Michael and Gabriel and Raphael and God is tragic but Lucifer Went To Prison and lost Community and the World.#Lucifer has no place that wants him aside from Hell and the demons are a constant reminder of his fall they were the sin that triggered it#(There's no depth to his relationship to the demons - Lilith could've been different - but Lucifer asks for worship and wants Love)#But Lucifer would not be immune to the Community Needs. It only works because they think he's just a moody angel with the amnesia at first#But after the revelation he has to atone for his sins by Community Work it's only if he tries real hard that they can Forgive a little#But never Forget. (They've come to rely on an archangel and they've pissed off archangel-sized monsters. They're fucked if he's free)#But Where Else Would You Go Lucifer? You want to make this work because this is your spider's thread your Only Chance#Sam Winchester is the boy you waited for millions of years to be understood by and he can't look at you without wanting to throw up#Sam saw the ugliest parts of you and that's all he understands but fate tricked three unremarkable humans into seeing you as an angel#As a devoted servant as a guardian as a cherub ruled by love singing to yourself in the morning as you take care of your humans#They saw some ugliness of course you are prideful and you are Too Much your anger turns to hail when it's supposed to be silent or words#But you have a place. It's washing the dishes. It's braiding Claire's hair. It's peeling your vessel's skin off to show Alex the veins.#You're happy you're so happy it betrays a little bit of righteous rage bc you have a place and it's Good and you just have to be careful#(Why haven't you learned to shut up after Everything it cost you the first time? Why can't you understand love means bending a bit?)#You're happy but living in a vessel means folding yourself small and you can Never be comfortable. But where else can you go?
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I Shall Master this Family! is a rare princess story where the art is like, outrageously skilled, unique in its consistent level of detail, unreal historical fashion dedication, so much so that it successfully carries what's an overall mid story. You might notice that it's a mid story (I certainly have) but they throw you another sumptuous princess Guinevere sleeves and you're goaded into another chapter.
Normally this isn't enough. If anything I've found too good art highlights bad writing, thoughts wandering to how the artist(s) deserves better than the slog they're supporting.
But I'm stuck with this annoying isekai girl ignoring all the more emotionally intriguing subplots in favor of chapter upon chapter of isekai-based ego-stroking (can you believe this little kid came up with this brilliant business plan? Can you believe a 9yo identified the genius of a commoner? It's like she knows everything before it happens! Lay it on thicker!) because a) artist team that can conceptualize adults over 30??? b) artist team that draws old women??? Real ones???
b2) men too though it's more impressive that they drew a beard like they've actually seen a beard before. Old guys are common but distinguished and healthy looking ones less so
c) you can tell this is based on a historical fashion because nobody invents cultural male-garb unless they're meant to be eroticized. I can't think of another story where any real attention was put into what the guys are wearing unless cleavage was involved
I don't know if I even care for the fashion itself - that there's conspicuous effort into its portrayal puts it in a class of its own. Everyone else is satisfied with the certified male love interest paizuri shirts, cravats with medievallish suits, and generic npc peasantwear.
d) I don't know how many times I've given up on a comic because the artist had a fetish for blondes, making it nigh impossible to tell anyone apart. This story takes place in a Scots-inspired land, so a sizable chunk of the cast are redheads and the endless shades of red and curl textures never gets old. I like that blondes are still sort of gingery and shout out to the colorist for not being weak, blue-eyed apologist.
It came far too late but I finally understood why Shananet fell for this loser's act when he whipped out the brown/blonde puppy combo. Wish the writers were capable of juggling plots so we could have seen more of it.
I'll have to get into it in another post but the writing flaws are grating in a skill issue way, maybe too much ambition that should have been scaled back. For example writing men as being generally less substantial, more hysterical, while making women intelligent, well-rounded, characters with depth of various alliances only works if your story focuses on the latter. If you give me cold, calculating ice queen, I won't be satisfied with the plot spending more time on the dumbass loser 30-something eldest son throwing tantrums when his stupid plans fail. Likewise, how do you think it feels learning that the cool-headed, clever woman who gave up on potentially taking over the clan for a worldwind romance was played for a simp by her (quite obviously) less intelligent husband who doesn't even hide his seething hate for her family well? It makes everyone look like a clown. Writing structure crit imminent
It's a shame but unfortunately I like the way it looks too much to drop it😔
#i shall master this family#otome isekai#realized I lust for historical sleeves bc of this one ngl. that should be me wearing that. not her.#i should really write my thoughts down before i forget further because they did Shananet dirty#'she was always emotional weak minded and cared more about harmony than herself' WHEN. WHEN WAS THAT EVER ESTABLISHED.#they should have replaced like 20 chapters of mc worship with giving that shananet the setup she deserved#instead it's just 'yeah he was really manipulative. just take my word for it. gaslighting even. boy you should have seen it'#yeah i would have liked to
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yeah it's important to create a character who's flawed but likeable, realistic, interesting, dynamic, etc. but the most important part of creating a character is asking yourself: will the people of www.tumblr.com go insane about them?
#one day i'm gonna self-publish my insane sci-fi novel series and y'all are going to go crazy over my main characters. we have:#1. telekinetic middle aged woman who is a menace. she is just so pathetic. her self-loathing is off the charts. i would die for her#2. evil lesbian scientist. she's consumed by ambition and it's so sexy. she & her gf have a bit of a macbeth/lady macbeth thing going on#3. wife guy with no wife. half his personality is just worshipping all the cool interesting female characters he interacts with#there are some really cool side characters too including:#mc 1's unofficially adopted autistic daughter who has one of my favorite arcs in the whole series#3 separate female antagonists who are just. so awful. i love them.#mc 3's work bestie/romantic interest who's seems like a stereotypical pinterest mom but is also a badass fbi agent#a group of underground agents called the crayola gang. all their pseudonyms are colors. crimson maize azure emerald etc.#ugh i just love this story so much. i'm so excited to be writing it again 🥺❤️#i wrote 2500 words yesterday & i'm on track to write about the same today 😤#m.txt
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SooooOOO Hi im about to go on a rant about ancients, guardians and then the uh before ancients
Copy pasting a lot of this from a discor A
Was on tumblr and then @soaricarus said what if the depths weren't made by the ancients? (Get tagged- you have no idea how much thinking I've done since you made that post)
And got me thinking, is there evidence to support such a theory?
And,,, perhaps yes
The base theory is that the depths and all that is there come from a civilization before our ancients, they simply stumbled across it.
The subterranean echo - two sprouts, twelve brackets - says "so down into the depths you go as so many others before you, drawn to the void again and again, an endless drip drip drip. Much like these tunnels and caves that amuse me so. The bones of forgotten civilisations, heaped like so many sticks."
And I'm thinking why be so amazed by caves and tunnels and such if you made them yourself, right? Bones of civilizations,,,like the buildings that are down there?
We also see statues there and I ran off to my favourite interactive rain world map aaaaand the depths were actually pitch black and uh I went and got screenshots myself-
So these statues, clearly some person right, but they don't look like our ancients. There's no fancy masks you see on their stuff, the whole of depths is weird and odd and different from the rest of the game.
And then we have the guardians with their think rings which are completely unlike anything else
Now the thing that bothers me in all this is our good ol' karma ten symbol
We see that one everywhere, from the guardians, all over the depths statues and ancients. I could say that the karma ten symbol originates from the depths and the ancients just sorta adopted it,,,if you'd like
Back to the guardians um, why have guardians if they're gonna stop you ascending if your karma's bad - I mean yeah safety feature
But clearly the ancients didn't care if they ran through and some got echoed
And the architecture in the depths is different too, you don't really see designs like that anywhere else
And since we find the karma ten symbol there then the symbol is like old old.
The more I think about it the more this makes sense
The ancients dig around make train tunnels, weird dreams, yo let's dig deeper, holy shit caves with weird buildings omg whats that thing with the weird halo.
They go in check it out find the void take a dip in the kfc deepfryer, there's ghosts now. So if 2+2=4 then a correlation must have been made between all the x's everywhere and the void. And we got ourselves the spread of the ascension symbol.
And the iterators- they got a halo.
Not a fancy think ring but it too spins around and changes shape much like if you piss off the box with the rebranded twitter for a face
There's something goin on here
And I know I sound crazy and perhaps I should have rewritten this to make it sound less insane but we this is just what we got so I'm goin with it
I managed to climb onto one hehe look
Ok ok, but guardians??? Why do they have four arms?? What's the point??
Now the statues, yeah they got two legs and a head but what is up with the torso. I actually don't know. BUt if you reaaaally wanna stretch it a bit then I guess maybe some four arm structure silhouette is there perhaps maybe?
#i wanna sound all professional with how i present my headcanons like the rest of the fandom#but this is just how my thoughts look as words#its a mess#this is really just another excuse to worship the guardians as gods#i reallt like guardians can you tell? im probably gonna make more headcanons that hopefully make more sense#they totally would have been worshipped#clock box my beloved#all my precious guardian headcanons? scrapping half of them#rain world#rw guardians#rw talk#rw ancients
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How can you call yourself holy when you as perfection hold someone above you? Worship someone for his beauty, his perfect form, when you should be peak man, closest to god one could be, He's right there but you ignore his words for the sake of a mortal. A mortal who may very well embody all of your disgusting sin.
⠀⠀⠀" oh ! i think there are some misconceptions here !
⠀⠀⠀i don't ‘ hold him above me ’ because of worship. i'm not sure where that impression comes from ! as my supervisor, he simply is above me. it's not a sin to acknowledge his authority — after all, all authority comes from god !
⠀⠀⠀i don't worship him. the only one i worship is the lord ; to do otherwise would be blasphemous ! i only acknowledge his beauty, perfection, and position because they are all characteristics he possesses. sin is not one of them ! he hasn't sinned in the way that i have.
⠀⠀⠀he can't. "
#﹙ clocking in. ﹚ in character.#﹙ performance evaluation. ﹚ asks.#﹙ perfect nothing. ﹚ puppet arc.#||: HEY SO THIS ASK WAS ABSOLUTELY INSANE /POS#||: i have another insane ask i need to get to i just need to think about how i wanna word puppetags response#||: “i dont worship him” ok#||: technically it doesnt see what its doing as worship but um#||: yk i think it passed the line of idolatry a while ago
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oh no
oh no this is so bloody adorable
#baldur's gate 3#bg3 patch 6#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#TINY husband#BIGASS hand#if you think i'm playing dressup and recording kisses in different lightings#you're right#oc: arvid trygg#i already thought that gale gracefully dropping to one knee to kiss his little boyfriend was adorable#but NOW!!!!!!!#the PARALLEL!!!!!!!#he always gets on his knees and now he's doing it AGAIN only it's DIFFERENT do you SEE WHERE I'M COMING FROM#i watched the regular kissies blanked out and wrote roughly 1.7k words of a body worship fic#just. hunkered down in a coffee shop and scribbled filth furiously into my lil notebook for a good hour and a half#i think i may even type this one up eventually because WELL!!#there needs to be more queer dwarf love for starters#and also because however much gale love there is it's not enough#(do NOT like the new inventory system though)#(i'll have to get used to that for sure)
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there's a point to me saying that i am not a good person. that i am damaged and unlikeable and insane and toxic. that i did absolutely terrible shit to a lot of people.
and every time people deny it, i wonder why, because it's true.
but also every time people deny it, it hurts like hell.
i want someone to finally see me. i want someone to stop trying to make me feel better about it by denying it. because that's the absolute truth. and you denying it makes me feel like shit.
i want someone to finally see me for me and love me even if i am broken or evil or whatever.
because i am so done with people in denial. because the person who keeps telling me all these things, that i am smart, that i am sane, that i am kind, that i am beautiful, that i am strong, that i am good, no, more than good, actually "perfect"... that person fucking makes me vomit in my mouth. how can he claim to know me and love me "despite everything" if he won't even accept who i actually am? if he doesn't know a thing about me?
#i tried telling him that i am a schizophrenic. you know what he said? ''you can't be! you're so reliable and so smart and so sane!''#''someone must have fooled you because the doctors are so evil and you're so pure and innocent so you believe them''#and maybe i am that to you because you still intend to use me#but anyone with eyes would see clearly. that i am NONE of these things#i am so tired of people seeing what they want to see and trying to push that on me#i'd kill for a person to tell me ''i get it. and you are broken. and you are a monster. but i still love you''#because denial... insistence on me being Good just sounds like his words just like that terrible poison in my veins#and that only counts him... but being worshipped as a goddess of everything Right and Good just because he wants to fuck me...#just makes me want to vomit. just makes me want to fucking kill him and myself
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