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[mou5emoment]

Nightmares about food and eating too much <<<<<

[twreggie]

Discipline is remembering what you want

- David Campbell

[leavemyb0dy]

i’m not sure when it started.

i just didn’t feel like eating when i was upset.

it wasn’t anything i payed attention to.

it started becoming more frequent.

and now i’m just upset and depressed all the time.

i cant do anything right. i have no control.

but eating.

that’s something i can control.

watching the numbers fall.

it’s something i can rely on.

i’m not sure when it started.

but i’m glad it did.

[an0rexikl0wn]

little tip that helps me stay focused:

i pretend to be a vampire prince. i have to be classy, and being fat isn't classy. my calorie limit is 500, because too much human food would make me explode. i really act like i am that bony, elegant vampire prince, and it works.

[sk1nnyangel-vs]

fav meals

so delicious

[xomadixo]

thinspø currently getting me through this fast🙏

[anadisciple2000]

No, stomach, you don't "need" chocolate. If you're having trouble finding the fat reserves I'll be happy to point them out. 🤨🙄

[itsybitsyrose]

set a goal time to lose some weight by! don't make it too far in the future, though, baby steps! my friend is visiting in about a month and i want to lose about 8lb$ by then:) you've got this!!

[mou5emoment]

My weight finally beeing under the “normal” bmi>>>>>

[twreggie]

whats on your mind? THIS:

[leavemyb0dy]

i will never understand anyone who doesn’t support recovery.

nothing against anyone but at least be kind about it. i’ve seen a couple post of people being genuinely mean to people in recovery. personally i don’t want to recover anytime soon but i will forever be proud of everyone who is. there’s people who need to recover to live, or just because they found peace. and for no reason should we put them down for that or cause a relapse.

i am a safe space for anyone at any level of their 3d. from you’re deepest point to recovery.

either way i’m proud of you all for everything you gone through and did while you are/were sick.

will forever be proud and just so happy for you.

[depression-permanent]

I’m on the waiting list for an Ed clinic called Walden n it’s fueling my Ed. Everyone is going to be thinner and judging how fat I am so I need to drop this lard before I go. Idk when I’m going. It could be as long as 5 weeks

Bodycheck below + self harm tw

I can hardly eat, abusing stims, suicidal, my nails are brittle, I can’t take care of myself. Standing up for longer than 10 minutes puts me out of breath. Yet I still look like this.

I’m ashamed. I’m disgusting. I shouldn’t even go to the clinic. There’s worse off people than me. I want to take a long walk to work on my fat thighs but (excuse) I’m too weak to do that. I have nobody. Everyone wants to fuck me. I’m beyond garbage. I don’t have a libido, why am I here if men can’t take advantage of the only use I have.

[an0rexikl0wn]

"nothing feels as good as water on an empty stomach

chewing sugar free gum to try to curb my hunger

all my friends tell me im more than just some stupid number

but nothing will taste as good as being small for summer"

-diet coke by leanna firestone

[sk1nnyangel-vs]

ana rage

no matter how skinny i get i just don’t have the genetics to have those stick skinny legs. even when i was hospitalized my legs and butt we’re still fat can someone help?

[floweredstars]

Used to wonder if being skinny would be worth it if i could die from it

Nothing feels as good as water on an empty stomach

All my friends tell me i’m more than just some stupid number

But nothing will taste as good as being small for summer

Starving myself for confidence feels like a fair trade

If i could do it all again

I would still drink Diet Coke

[itsybitsyrose]

now to self : do not give in to the munchies. you WILL regret it.